Story: „Just Alec, now."

Chapter: 14 - New Year, new emotions

Rating Story: NC-17

Rating Chapter: R/NC-17

Warning(s): AU/AH, mature content, swearing, language

Pairings: Malec, Will/Jem (TID)

Disclaimer: Cassandra Clare thought of the wonderful world of the mortal instruments and infernal devices. I just play with the characters and change a bit of their life.

[January 2009]

James looked out of the window of his office sighing into his tea. The silver band on his left hand was glistening in the morning light, a weight on his hand he still had to get used to. He drank the last of his beverage and put the cup back on the table. July in England was long gone and with their return came a new school year - Magnus' senior year in high school -, two birthdays (Alec's sweet 16 with a hell of a party and Magnus turning 18 and a not so big party (thank any deity out there the teen wanted to spent the evening in a restaurant all grown up)) and a hyphened surname since the beginning of the year.

He sighed again wishing for another cuppa cuppa, knowing fully well that Chris would yet again reprimand him for his high blood pressure should he get one. A knock on his door startled him out of his thoughts. After calling out for the visitor to enter - as he hadn't any appointments scheduled this morning – his younger ward walked into the room a slight blush forming on his cheeks.

"Alec? What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be in school?", the young doctor asked standing up from his chair to hug the raven haired teen despite having seen him not 3 hours ago at the breakfast table.

"Yeah. But, well, there was something I wanted to ask you, if you don't mind." His ears turned red and he fiddled with the hem of his jumper.

Jem looked suspiciously and arched one grey eyebrow. "Ask me as a guardian or as a doctor?"

Alec licked his lips not looking at the older man and answered with a soft voice "Both. I suppose."

The older man just nodded. "Okay. Then I think you should leave your things here and come with me to one of the examination rooms." The raven haired teen did as he was told and left his jacket and backpack in Jem's office following the doctor. The older man closed the door behind both of them and motioned for him to take a place on the exam table. He himslef took a seat on the desk chair facing the younger male waiting for him to start. After some minutes had passed and Alec still hadn't said a word, James sighed – he did that a lot this morning. "Alec, I can't help you if you don't tell me what is wrong."

The teen still fiddled with his jumper biting the inside of his cheek and then took a deep breath, letting it out slowly He couldn't look at his guardian. "I.. Magnus and I, we…" Another deep breath. "Gods, that's so embarrassing to talk about." He wiped a hand over his face. "We had sex and it still burns. My behind I mean."

James blinked at the younger teen. "Did you use lube?" A nod from the teen. "Was it your first time?" Another nod. The older man leaned back and let out a breath. He looked at his hands that were resting on the armrests of his chair. "Did Magnus – and I'm asking this from a doctor's point of view just to eliminate some of the many answers I have for your problem – did Magnus prepare you enough? Did it hurt when he penetrated you?" A shake from the teen's head who still hadn't had the courage to look up. The doctor nodded, eyeing his ward closely. The shoulders were slumbed forward but his hands were gripping the exam table so hard his knuckles had turned white. The teen swallowed several times and James moved forward to place a hand on the shoulder. "Alec. It's okay. You don't need to be embarrassed." The grey haired doctor squeezed his shoulder and tucked a hair strand behind the Alec's ear.

"It had never hurt before. I mean we didn't go all the way but we did more than kissing. And it never hurt before. Maybe it felt a bit uncomfortable for some hours after but it never lasted so long."

"I think I know what we are looking for, but to be sure I have to take a look."

Alec nodded mutely, his ears still red from his embarrassment. He got up and walked behind the small screen standing at the end of the exam table getting out of his clothes, changing into the hospital gown Jem handed him. He let out a breath as he walked back to the table and sat down on its edge. The grey-haired doctor had started the computer and opened a file from the database – Alec's probably – and entered some information into the empty data sheet.

"Lay down on your side facing the wall," instructed James and got a blue fleece blanket out of the cupboard at the opposite wall. He placedit over Alec after the teen had turned on his side, hoping to keep the cold air at bay.

"Relax, Alec. I'm not going to hurt you, okay?" The teen nodded and tried to do as he was told so that Jem could examine him. He heard Jem putting on gloves and moments later the doctor's warm hand was prodding him, making the teen shiver. The grey-haired man was careful not to startle his ward when he exposed his anus to examine it properly. He nodded his head when his suspicions were confirmed and stood up, walking over to the medicine cabinet next to the cupboard where he got the blanket from. Alec was craning his head to see what his guardian was searching for and soon found him returning with a tube of cream in his hand, smearing some on his index finger. Jem carefully spread a bit around the teen's anus before ultimately inserting a finger up to the first knuckle, making Alec flinch and jump from the intrusion.

"What was that?"

"An antiphlogistic. For your allergic reaction."

The raven haired teen sat up making a face when he felt the cream spreading in- and outside. "So I had an allergic reaction. To what? We have used different lubes and that never happened before as I have told you." He swung his legs over the side of the exam table looking at his guardian, his face still flushed.

"Then think back what else you have changed from before," the doctor told him while he entered the examination results into the computer without even glancing at the teen. He checked the package of the cream entering its name as well before turning back to the still clueless teenager. "You have a latex allergy. We haven't known it from your last examination because most doctors and hospitals use latex-free gloves. We do as well. It's rather common these days as one can develop an allergy from increased exposure." Jem closed the data file after saving his results and got the package from the table. "Get dressed and come to my office. We need to speak about something before I let you go home."

Alec nodded and James left the room to let him get dressed in peace. Minutes later he walked back into the older man's office. The grey haired doctor was talking on the phone tapping the receiver with his finger. "No, I will collect them myself. – Yes this afternoon after my shift ends. – Yes. Goodbye." He turned towards the raven haired teen who was still standing next to the door and waiting for his guardian to address him. The grey-haired doctor took his seat and told Alec to sit down in the visitor's chair, starting a lengthy monologue about Alec's allergy and what he and Magnus had to bear in mind before their next intercourse. To say that the lue-eyed was blushing was the understatement of the day, as the red had already spread to the roots of his hair.

Alec was sitting on his and Magnus' bed with his back to the headrest reading a book for his English class. Jem had given him a sick leave for the rest of the day informing his school. Magnus was expected back soon with the rest of his homework. The 16-year-old sighed and put the book down as he felt completely unable to concentrate on even a single paragraph. He eyed the paper bag on their nightstand knowing exactly what was inside and finally shut his eyes before he shuffled down from his position, laying flat on his back. The door opened minutes later and Magnus walked inside with his bag slung over his shoulder. He eyed the younger teen on their bed before walking over and giving him a kiss on the forehead. Alec opened his eyes slowly looking up at his boyfriend a small smile playing at his lips. The green eyed teen leaned down until their foreheads were touching.

"Want to tell me why I was called to the secretary to collect your homework but not you?" Magnus asked kissing the younger teen on his lips.

"I didn't feel well. So I went to James and, well, I have to tell you something." He swallowed and sat back up. "I can't have.. sex with you for a while. Not until, well, until I'm healed."

"Healed? But I thought I didn't hurt you. We used way more lube than when we…" Alec shushed him with a finger to his lips.

"You didn't. Apparently I have a latex allergy."

"Allergy? And how do you know? You said you went to Jem, but how… Oh." Magnus looked at the blue eyed teen with eyes as huge as saucers. "You told him."

"I had to. The burning wouldn't stop and he was the rational choice before we get another lecture on how we are too young to be intimate." Alec blushed deeply. "And he made it stop. For now any way."

The younger teen got the paper bag from their nightstand and handed it to Magnus, urging him to take a look. The green eyed youth found the cream with Jem's neat hand writing on how often and how much to apply of it and a package of latex-free condoms. The older teen blushed giving the bag back to his boyfriend.

"I don't think I can look at him without blushing tonight - if ever." Magnus let himself fall onto the bed groaning.

"Try me. He already applied the cream twice today."

[February 2009]

"Having anything planned for you and your sweetheart for Valentine's Day?", Jocelyn asked when she brought Will a fresh cup of coffee. It was already late on February 13th and they were still working on their case, having found a new lead for the backers of the institute.

"Not specifically." He took a sip of the hot liquid grimacing at the taste. "The coffee is getting worse the longer we're staying here."

"Be grateful that you get something hot to drink without having to pay for it," the redhead answered before getting back to her side of the desk looking through the files they had obtained from one of the "Gentleman" in early January. They worked in silence each of them looking for anything that could help find the new location of the Institute or maybe one of the boys – preferably alive. She sighed as she sifted through the several photographs of boys of all ages and all stages of undress.

"I have a boy this age. Haven't seen him in some time."

Will looked up at her. "You never told me you had two kids."

"He wanted to live with his dad after the divorce. Sometimes he calls, sometimes I call. Not the best relationship if you ask me."

"Do you miss him?"

"I do. His sister wishes to visit him next summer. Wants to meet the brother she has nearly no recollection of. My ex isn't thrilled to see me, of course, but I won't let her go alone."

"Where does he live? Some other town?"

"Other state. Somewhere in New England. He moved there after the divorce. Don't know the name of the place."

"But you still miss him despite the shitty relationship and your ex's behaviour?"

"Yes, of course. He's my son. Carried him for 9 months before having to press him out of me. Wasn't a text book birth but, yes, I love him and I miss him. If I didn't know where he was or if he was well, I would be devastated."

Will nodded and looked at the files again. "Makes me wonder why Alec's mother doesn't look for him or his sibling for the matter."

She looked at him with saddened green eyes. "Yeah me, too."

He could hear the shower running when he opened the door to the loft. Garroway had kicked him out and told him after more than 3 days in the office without a change of clothes and running on coffee and junk food alone. Jocelyn had been home in between to get her daughter to school and to shower as she disliked the showers in the office building, but Will couldn't just walk out there, his thoughts coming back to Alec and his family. He sighed and kicked his shoes off, hanging his jacket over the back of a chair in their dinning area.

"You're home.", he was greeted by the blue eyed teen as he walked out of the bathroom in a pair of loose pyjamas drying his hair with a towel. The water has started again and he could hear the off-key singing of his other charge.

"You don't shower together?" He chanced a glance at the younger teen who blushed pink.

"Not when we wish to get cleaned up," he cringed at an incredible high screech of Magnus' singing. "And if I want to keep my hearing."

"A year ago, you would have blushed so red and stuttered. Where have these times gone? Now you're having sex and enjoy it and don't mind if any of us talk about it. I think we have corrupted you." Will took a glass from their kitchen counter and filled it with fresh water from the tap before drinking it down in one gulp.

"Yeah. Maybe. Sure. Whatever.", Alec answered blushing a deep red and busying himself with his towel. The older man laughed and shrugged, walking over to the raven haired teen. He hugged him to his chest . "And I miss the smaller Alec. You're nearly as tall as Magnus now. I feel old."

The teen poked the older man in the chest. "What is wrong with you? You sound drunk."

"Not drunk. Just exhausted. Where's Jem?"

"Getting something to eat that is no junk food. Because of his late shifts we got something from the Chinese next block or had pizza delivered." He poked Will again. "Could you let me go, now? I really need to put the towel away."

The dark haired man let him go and watched as he went back into his bathroom to hang up his towel. He heard Magnus asking the blue eyed teen if he had heard right and if the older man was back. Before he could hear Alec's confirmation he turned around and walked into his own bathroom stripping out of his clothing. After three days without so much as a handful of cold water to his face he enjoyed the hot water cascading down his back was waking him up slowly. He washed his hair and the rest of himself before turning off the shower and getting a towel. The raven haired man walked into his bedroom to find his husband sitting on their bed watching his every move. He let his towel fall and let Jem watch his fill before getting a fresh pair of pyjamas from their dresser.

"Do you want to eat something or do you want to sleep?" The grey eyed doctor asked him.

"I'll eat a bite and go to bed. I'm exhausted."

"Alec thought you were drunk."

"Alec hasn't seen me sleep deprived and running on coffee alone until today. I'm not angry that he thinks I'm drunk despite having never seen me drunk before."

He sat on their bed getting some socks on his feet. Jem moved closer and started massaging his shoulders. The violet eyed man yawned blinking his eyes. James planted a few kisses on his shoulder and whispered against his skin, telling him to lie down and get some rest. Within moments the older man was fast asleep.

Alec was getting out of his pyjama bottoms leaving him in just the top as he crawled into bed with his boyfriend, pillowing his head on Mangus' naked chest. The older teen was reading the last pages of his book, absentmindedly stroking the younger teen's back under the loose top. Jem had gone to bed early to tend to Will after they hadn't seen each other for more than three days and nights and locked the door to their bedroom.

Alec sighed when Magnus' hand found his way between his cheeks stroking along the crack. The older teen came awfully close to his hole before going back up again and Alec couldn't help a small shiver. The blue eyed teen could see his boyfriend smirk as he scooted closer. He licked his lips before taking Magnus' nipple that was closest to him into his mouth, sucking and licking softly on sensitive flesh. The older teen placed his book on their nightstand and finally granted the younger teen his full attention. Magnus got the lube from the small drawer and a condom to use later. When Alec moved between his legs, their erections pressed against each other and Magnus sighed.

"What do you want, Alec?" He asked panting. The blue eyed teen looked up from sucking his nipple, his dick still pushing against Magnus'.

"Sitting up."

"Both of us? Just you riding me?"

"Riding you."

After their first night and Jem's help in the allergy-department they had enjoyed several nights of pleasure finding their preferred positions. The younger teen enjoyed being the bottom looking at Magnus while they slept together, while Magnus liked to switch.

Magnus got the lube and prepared Alec carefully not wanting to hurt his boyfriend in any way. The younger teen sat up after Magnus motioned for him to do so and as soon as Magnus had put on the condom he sank down slowly on the older teen's hard dick hissing softly. When he felt adjusted enough he started to move slowly setting a pace they both enjoyed. He got closer voicing it to the older teen who started pushing his hips upwards until he felt the tell-tale signs of Alec's orgasm approaching. He rolled them over tipping the younger over the edge while he moved his hips until he felt himself coming. They lay down, trying to catch their breath. Magnus was the first to move, getting a wet towel from their bathroom cleaning them both up. Alec was already on the brink of sleep when he returned. The older teen moved the younger until they were both in a comfortable position and closed his eyes to let sleep take him.

AN: Thanks for reading.