Naruto rolled over in his bed and bumped up against a body...who could this be Naruto thought, but sucked in his breath quickly as yesterday's events played in his head. Oh no what did I do? He couldn't believe that he slept with Sasuke and multiple times at that. Naruto looked around spotted the clock on his nightstand, it was 6:35...Yuki should be up.
Slithering out of bed as to not disturb the sleeping man. God I could really smack myself for this, Naruto what were you thinking? This guy walked out your life for the name Uchiha...he didn't even love you enough not to go. Ugh and it's only been a whole day since he came back! How low can you go? He guessed pretty low as he ran his hand down his face and shut his bedroom door quietly. Tiptoeing down the hall he made his way to the main bathroom and shut the door behind him, he couldn't go to his son's like this. He couldn't let them see him in such agony.
Naruto looked at himself in the mirror, not even recognizing himself. He thought that his impulsive days were over but he guessed not. He pulled off the robe that he put on before he left his room and noticed all the hickey and bite marks...god he thought feeling more stupid as he remembered all the pleasure that went with causing those marks. Shaking his head with tears in his eyes he turned to the walk-in shower and turned the water on hot, he felt filthy and easy...
Standing under the shower head he let himself cry his worries, guilt, pain, and frustration out. He just really couldn't believe that he let this happen, he always let Sasuke get his way. He let him get his way five years ago when he let him walk out of his life.
"Oh my god..." Naruto whispered as he realized that they didn't use any protection. Fuck, fuck, fuck...if he could just jump in the sack with Sasuke after a day, he damn sure knew that he wasn't mature enough to have another child. "Please...oh please god don't let me be pregnant again."
It figured that Sasuke would come back into his life, after he had it the way that he wanted it. Just strolled back into his life and fuck it all up again.
God you're so fucking stupid Naruto he scolded himself with words and his body as he let the hot water scold him. He grabbed his washcloth and poured a generous amount of his vanilla body wash on it. The scent soothed his aching heart as he began to scrub away the proof of the night before.
Ugh he fucked up big time, what would his family say...especially his dad? He let him down when he found out he was pregnant with Yuki and Natsu. His dad was angry with that too but more ticked off at Sasuke leaving the way he did, everything worked out when the twins were born. Minato loved them, Naruto could tell from the moment his dad laid eyes on them. He really should have taken his father's advice and stayed the hell away from Sasuke Uchiha but he was gullible, quick to forgive and let his mother persuade him into inviting Sasuke back in. He should have thought everything through before taking such a huge plunge.
Sighing he turned the water off and stepped out into the steamy air. Wiping the mirror off from the fog he stared at himself one more time, he had puffy red eyes and looked in shock. Yesterday was what he dreamed of, and he got it but at what cost...his heart again? Could Sasuke even be trusted? He dried off thinking about all the questions he had. Shaking his head the only thing that he could really do was take it one day at a time.
In a towel Naruto dashed down the steps...quietly and went into the laundry room. He washed clothes the other day but didn't get the chance to take them up stairs. Rummaging through them he pulled out a pair of black boxer briefs, faded light blue jeans, socks, and a white t-shirt. He avoided all the clothes that would need ironing and put on the easy stuff. Once finished he looked at the time it was now 7:05, making his way up to the twins room. He opened their bedroom door and onyx eyes stared at him, feeling a genuine smile spread across his face Naruto walked over to Yuki who was sitting in front of the window reading a book...Naruto looked at the cover, it was a Judy Blooms book from the Fudge series. Naruto chuckled even to him the books were funny, Yuki would always say that Natsu was just like Fudge.
Sitting down next to Yuki who looked up at him smiling but it wilted a little once he looked at Naruto's eyes. Naruto hated himself at that moment he should be able to hide his worries from an almost five-year old. He was the parent.
"What's the matter..." Yuki asked scooting closer to Naruto putting his book down.
"Nothing much baby, how was yesterday with both your grandma's?" Naruto chuckled when he saw the look on his face.
"It was fine...I guess but Natsu and Shina gave me a headache. They're so loud." Yuki told Naruto who rubbed his head.
"Does it still hurt?" Naruto asked concerned, running his fingers through Yuki's black hair.
"No..." The little one said but Naruto could tell that he wanted to ask him something that had nothing to do with the topic they were discussing.
"How about we have some alone time before Natsu wake's up, would you like that?" Naruto said getting up and headed for Yuki's dresser.
"I'd like that." Yuki said shyly, standing next to his mom.
Looking through his clothes Naruto pulled out a white undershirt, cartoon boxer briefs, socks, and dark blue jeans. Turning towards the closest Naruto opened it and pulled out a white button up shirt and a burgundy sweater vest. It was going to be rainy and cool today so Naruto looked at the bottom of the closest for their rain stuff but remembered that he moved all their shoes and coats to the closest down stairs. Looking at the little guy who was sticking to him like glue.
"What do you want to do first? Eat or wash up, or do you want to take a bath with Natsu?" Naruto asked ruffling his hair. Yuki looked at him as if he were crazy.
"I'll take my bath now!" Yuki said dashing out the room, Naruto couldn't help but laugh, he wondered if it was time for them to get their own rooms? He was saving the extra room down the hall for when they thought that they were too old to be sharing a room. Sighing Naruto headed towards the running water sound.
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Naruto sat on the floor with his back to the tub as he and Yuki talked. It amazed him how well he talked and knew things.
"Mom...were you crying because of dad?" Yuki asked tentatively, Naruto leaned his head back on the tub's edge and looked at Yuki with his intelligent eyes and mind. God he couldn't get anything passed this boy. Naruto didn't like lying so he nodded his head. "Is it because he's in our lives now...if so we don't need him, we have you." Yuki said touching Naruto's still damp hair. "We love you...I don't want to see you cry."
Naruto started to tear up, damn him for making Yuki worry. He didn't think it was possible to feel even shittier but oh, he felt it now.
"Baby...it's not that. I know that you and Natsu wanted to know who your father was and now you have him. I can't possibly take that away from you," Naruto said cupping his cheek. "Don't look like that...okay, I love you and plus your dads family has the right to know how wonderful the two of you are. So don't worry about me...ha-ha...I'll be as good as new once you guy's come home from school." Naruto stated smiling, Yuki smiled back.
"I love you, my little snow prince." Naruto said kissing his son on the forehead.
"I love you too," He said, hugging Naruto thinking that he would protect his mom even from his father if he had too.
"Hey! No fair why didn't you wake me up?!" Natsu shouted from the door taking off his pajama shirt. Yuki started to get out of the tub but Natsu started to whine. "Yuki don't get out, play dinosaurs with me~"
Yuki sighed and looked at him getting back in the still bubbly water, dunking his head under the water. Natsu hopped in the warm water splashing water out the sides and wetting Naruto. Naruto guessed that he couldn't sit on the floor anymore, getting up he grabbed Natsu's puppet washcloth and handed it to him. Looking at his watch for the hundredth time that morning he noted that it was 7:40, hmm he guessed that they could stay in the tube for another 15 or 20 minutes. They had to be at school at 8:30 and they still had to get dressed and eat.
...
"Natsu at least put your robe on, nobody wants to see you run around naked!" Naruto shouted getting Natsu's outfit together. He basically pulled out the same things as he did with Yuki but instead of dark blue jeans Natsu's were a faded blue and he had a white pullover bunny hoodie. With the hood having bunny ears on it. It was cute and so was Natsu, Naruto had let him pick it out himself.
Handing Natsu his clothes, who pouted missing his freedom already. Shaking his head Naruto picked up the comb off the dresser and headed towards a fully clothed Yuki. Sitting at the window again Yuki climbed onto his lap. This was their special time, Yuki loved his hair getting brushed and combed just like him, but Natsu...if he could he'd probably have dreadlocks right now because he hated getting his hair combed. His hair was thicker than Yuki's but it was still soft as cotton but it tangled easily. Natsu usually
had his hair shorter but he wanted to grow it like Yuki. Naruto could tell that the length got on his nerves as he watched him keep pushing it back.
Naruto looked down and smiled at the relaxed look Yuki was giving. "Do you want it in a ponytail today or just leave it down?" Naruto asked
"Hmmm how about a ponytail it the middle, in the front." He said demonstrating where he wanted it to Naruto.
"Okay, I get it." Naruto said laughing, he pulled a burgundy scrunchy out of the hair accessory box and went to work. Minutes later he had a cutie standing in front of him, all decked out in his button up and vest. He looked like a million bucks.
"Natsu it's your turn." Naruto yelled causing the little blonde to groan and sulk as he made his way to him. "It doesn't hurt that much...Natsu."
"Ow...it does!" He shouted as Naruto ran the comb through his hair. Sighing Naruto did the best he could with the grumpy kid and just brushed his hair back and put a plastic headband around his head and called it a day. At least the hair wouldn't be in his face.
"All done!" Naruto said on a laugh as he watched Natsu jump up. "Okay, how about a muffin and fruit for breakfast since we're running low on time." Naruto asked the boys who nodded making their way out the room.
"Hey mom where's dad?" Natsu asked and got a glare from Yuki. "What?" He asked looking at Yuki who just shook his head and walked down the steps.
"I think he's still sleeping so lets keep it down...okay?" Natsu nodded and walked down the stairs mumbling what was Yuki's problem, pouting. Sighing Naruto looked at his closed room door and followed after his boys. Today was his day off what was he going to do after the boys went to school? He knew he didn't want to come back here. Ugh he was such a fool.
...
"See you guy's at three!" Naruto waved as he watched Natsu and Yuki make their way into the school building.
"Hey Naruto!" Ino shouted making her way to him. Naruto sunk lower into his thick raincoat, it was drizzling lightly. He was glad that he brought the boys new rain coats last month because they grew out of their old ones, thank goodness that their feet was the same size and he didn't have to get new rain boots as well.
Sighing he forced a smile and waved at Ino. "Hey, dropping off your daughter...well of course." Naruto said laughing a little.
"Yeah, oh yeah I talked to Kiba, Hinata, Shino, and Neji. They are all for the meet up, we just have to pick a date and time." She droned on, Naruto was barely paying attention as he watched Shikamaru walk up to the school doors with little Shina.
"Hey Shikamaru!" Naruto yelled startling Ino and a few other parents near him. Muttering apologies he watched as Shika made his way over to them.
"What's up Naruto...oh long time no see Ino, how's everything?" He asked hugging her.
"Nothing much, dropping my daughter off. I see that you were too." She said on a laugh. "But I'll see you guys later, I have a couple of errands to run." Waving she walked back to her car and left.
Naruto turned back to Shikamaru who was analyzing him. Blushing a little under the scrutiny Naruto turned away muttering. "What?"
"What happened?" Was all that he said turning Naruto to face him. "Tell me."
"I don't want to talk here...can we go back to your place?" Naruto asked uncertainly, fidgeting with the zipper in his coat. Shikamaru nodding, patted his head.
"Of course you can...baka."
...
Naruto followed Shikamaru up the stairs to his room, boxes still littered here and there. Shikamaru laid on his bed facing the ceiling and sighed looking at Naruto standing in the doorway.
"Make yourself at home."
Naruto took the invitation and went flying onto Shikamaru who grunted at the sudden impact. "What the hell?" He growled looking down at Naruto who buried his face in his shoulder trembling, was he crying?
"Naruto, what happened and I mean tell me everything." Shika said rubbing Naruto's head trying to comfort him.
"W-We...had s-sex!" He shouted shocking Shikamaru who froze in mid stroke. He was shocked that their relationship moved so fast...
"Naruto don't cry, it's okay." He cooed, Naruto lifted his head.
"It's not okay...he left me and I just took him back as if nothing happened. I raised Yuki and Natsu by myself while he was off being some damn über Uchiha!" He looked at Shikamaru who wiped his tears away. "Shika...I fucked up big time."
Rolling on his side so he could look at Shikamaru without straining his neck. He started to tear up again and he hated himself for it, he said that winter day in February that he wasn't going to cry over Sasuke and look at him now...crying.
"Shhh Naruto it's fine. Just think of it as getting him out of your system, you guys haven't seen each other in almost five years. It was necessary to move on, just don't do it again if it bothers you this much. If you still love Sasuke then take it slower. That is...if you want to still be with him...you shouldn't be feeling like this."
"I know but...ugh Shika, I...I made a huge mistake, I feel easy!" Naruto whined burying his face in a pillow, smelling Shikamaru's scent he calmed down a bit. What was he going to do? "That's not even the worst thing that happened..." Naruto trailed off and Shikamaru got a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach...it couldn't be.
"It better not be what I think it is." Shikamaru said, Naruto looked at the frown that was on his best friends face and cringed. Feeling like shit and ashamed he moved closer to Shika who raised an eyebrow, he needed comfort right now...so he was going to take all that he could get.
With trembling lips he spoke the words that Shikamaru was dreading. "We didn't use protection..." He spat out flinching, waiting for Shikamaru to scold him but nothing came. He chanced a glance and watched Shika rub his forehead with his eyes closed. "I know...I'm stupid."
"You're not stupid, you just make stupid decisions sometimes." He said looking at him out of the corner of his eye. Sighing Naruto nodded in agreement.
"What am I going to do, Shika? Sasuke's staying at my place...I don't think that I can face him." Naruto said clinging to his friend ,who was in deep thought.
"Why is he there?"
"My mom and his basically threw him at me. They brought his stuff to my place, saying how they want more grandchildren and stuff." Naruto told him and more about yesterday. Shikamaru took everything in and rubbed his head. Those women were a piece of work, they really was pushing them together and look what happened. Yeah, they had kids together already but that didn't mean that they could just pick up where they were five years ago.
"Why don't you tell him that you need time and that he has to go. It's your house and your kids...I know he's the father but you raised them, okay." Naruto nodded his understanding.
"Should I text him that?...wait I don't even know his phone number...that makes it all the more horrible..." Crying some more about how fast he jumped into bed with the bastard.
"Still, you should at least tell him this face to face. Don't hide, you have nothing to be ashamed of. You're grown and can have sex with anyone you want to, fuck what everybody else says. You raised your children right, they're bright outgoing little people and you do right by them...so lift your head and stop letting others dictate your life, that goes for your parents as well." Naruto looked at Shikamaru with big blue eyes and jumped on him.
"I love you so much Shikamaru!"
"Yeah, yeah I know this...man." He laughed hugging back.
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Naruto fell asleep, happy that he had a friend like Shikamaru. He woke up around eleven and had Shikamaru order them some take out, he was starving. As they ate Naruto looked at his phone to see if there were any missed calls and practically choked on the Chinese food he was eating. Shikamaru looked at Naruto who eyes looked like they were about to pop out.
"What's wrong?"
"I have...thirty missed calls and ten voice mails, and more than fifty texts..." He said staring at his phone, did something happen to his boys? He started pushing in keys to listen to the voice mails and sighed a sigh of relief when he heard the first couple but then he started to panic again. Nooo this can't be happening to me, god dammit why did that bastard have to go off running his mouth. Fuck I should have left a note!
"Fuck, I have to go Shika!" Naruto yelled at a bemused Shika who had noodles hanging out his mouth.
"Where are you going? Is something wrong with the boys?" He said getting up as well.
"No, no it's about me. I left this morning and left no note or anything for the Uchiha and he called his mom who called my mom, lets just say they are all worried and are at my house. Fuck they think that I ran away because we got intimate. Why would they think that and I wouldn't leave my damn kids behind just because of that jerk. Fuck, they could give me credit. "Oh Naruto don't do anything drastic", "Naruto come home sweetie" fuck they make me sick!" Naruto shouted making his way to the door. Did they not have any faith in him? Apparently not he thought as he walked out the door.
"Do you want me to come for moral support?" Shika ask and Naruto nodded, yeah he did, it would be nice to have someone on his side.
"Definitely...if it's not too much trouble."
"Of course not." He said grabbing his keys and locked the door.
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Naruto unlocked his front door, he called his father on his way, so they would know that he was alright. Shikamaru was at his back like a comfortable shadow that he really needed at the moment.
"There you are Naruto!" Kushina said, the first one to spot him. She rushed over and latched herself onto him. "I was so worried don't ever do that again."
"I did nothing wrong mom. I dropped the kids off at school and hung out with Shikamaru, the last time I checked I was an adult that didn't have to clock in every hour on the hour." He told her gritting his teeth, they were finally starting to see him as an adult and look what happened, shit he thought as he looked at the cause for all of this.
Kushina pulled away not liking the tone of voice her son was using. "I know you don't but you left Sasuke here not knowing what happened to you. We called the school to see if the boys were there, which they were but we wondered where you were. If you'd answer your phone we wouldn't be going through all of this!"
"Oh so now it's my fault...really." Naruto said getting pissed, his mother always liked Sasuke but really? She was going to blame him for not answering his phone, which was on vibrate! Fuck this and fuck them, turning around he was about to walk back out the door but stopped when his father's voice boomed in the silence.
"Don't walk away from your mother Naruto, we raised you better than that!" Ugh here we go again Naruto thought. Fuck it's his mothers and Mikoto's fault for bringing Sasuke's shit here in the first place, yeah he was going to blame them. Sasuke was only supposed to stay the one night, for the boys but now...now, fuck he didn't even know what to think.
"Why can't I leave when I want too? I know I seriously don't want to hear you all say "Oh Naruto why didn't you do this? Why didn't you do that? Why would you leave home without at least writing a note? Why don't you give me grandkids? Why can't you be more like an adult? Why, why, why, and more fucking whys?" I try my best everyday...every fucking day and I go and hang out with a friend after I drop my kids off responsibly at school. But no, I do one thing that you deem wrong and I get a ton of messages saying that I'm acting immature and being selfish and oh my personal favorite...what about Sasuke? What about him, I like how you mom," Naruto said pointing at Kushina.
"Just welcomed him back in and have a nerve to tell me how can I just leave without telling him first. What the fuck, didn't he leave...suddenly might I add. He couldn't even wait until we graduated high school! He couldn't even tell me about it beforehand, fuck I feel so stupid and gullible...for so many reasons but you know what? I feel mostly stupid for listening to you. Oh Naruto Sasuke's back, isn't that great, you guys can be together again... You and Mikoto."
Kushina who had tears in her eyes took a step towards Naruto, he shook his head and stepped back.
"You knew that it broke my heart when he left but you kept pushing. I sucked it up back then and moved on with my life...because I had to get ready to take care of two little people, so I couldn't wallow in grief because some dick decided that being a Uchiha was more important than me. But I gave in yesterday and bit into that forbidden fruit and now look what happened...getting lectured by the parents, getting looked down on, ugh my so-called life." Naruto shouted running his fingers through his hair.
Grabbing the doorknob he turned around to look at the four stunned people. "I want all of you gone by the time I get back! "And with that he left with a stunned looking Shikamaru.
~To be continued~
Authors Notes: Guys I know what I was doing, relax lol take a chill pill and enjoy the ride...I sound like a total smoker (I'm not one though, honest ;) But I apologize if the last chapter was not up to your liking but I hope you enjoyed this! But I did write this right after that last chapter and didn't read your reviews until later. I hope that this chapter is good, I wanted to create some tension in their relationship. I hope that it's not too far-fetched for you to believe...let me know if it's unbelievable which I think it's not because a lot of us out there in the world regret sleeping with that ex you all had and ended up regretting it the next day lol Plus Naruto was living in the fantasy he always dreamed of, so he let it happen not realizing the consequences until later.