Naruto watched as Deidara looked out the window the next day. It seemed to Naruto that the blonde didn't get a wink of sleep last night and that worried him. Could it have been about what he said yesterday? It had to be, Naruto thought scolding himself. He and his big mouth was making trouble for the ones he loved and that made him sad. Maybe he should go out for a walk with Dai...but glancing outside made him second guess that idea. When they woke up the snow was almost half way up the front door, the kids had a field day knocking it down. Ahh all that youth, where did his go?
Sighing, he had to do something...but he just didn't know what. What could be bothering him so much? And where the hell was Itachi? That raven haired bastard was nowhere to be found or Sasuke for that matter. As he looked around he realized that it was just Deidara and him in the living room.
Naruto grinned, this was his chance.
"Dei what's the matter?" Naruto asked as he sat on the bench under the window next to Deidara and watched the snowflakes fall. He could tell by the set of his shoulders and mouth that he was stressed and unhappy.
"..."
"Let me help you." He pleaded, "You helped me a lot back in the day when Sasuke and I had fights. Remember the time when I was upset that Sasuke missed our valentines date? I wouldn't talk to him for weeks until you explained to me why he was extremely late. I can't believe that I had missed him by a couple of minutes."
"Ha, you were so pissed off. He couldn't help it, his train broke down...underground at that where he couldn't get a reception." Dei said with a fond look on his face. "Sasuke was in such a foul mood for those two and a half weeks. Made our lives a living hell!"
"Ahhh but you finally got me to see reason but I had a reason to doubt Sasuke, like I waited at the restaurant for almost six hours! It was almost the next damn day when I left...I hoped, that he hadn't stood me up. You know what, Dei? That would have been our second official date. So of course I was pissed when he was a no-show." Naruto huff and crossed his arms. He was mad as hell that day, thinking that Sasuke the love of his life played him for...some bimbo.
"I can understand, Itachi and I had fights like that all the time and who stuck their little noses in it?" Dei asked as he flicked Naruto's nose.
"Hey!" Naruto shouted indignantly as Dei laughed as he watched Naruto rub his sore nose. He was feeling better, he was more angry with himself than anyone else.
Sighing he let his mind wander to things that he wanted to forget. "I told Itachi why I started to use drugs and drink." Dei finally said into the silence. Naruto just looked at him with wide, uncertain eyes.
"I thought that he knew everything..." He was sure that Itachi knew even if the rest of them didn't.
"He told me that I didn't have to...not until I was ready." Dei stated as he ran his fingers through his long hair. "I guess I can tell you, but its a long story."
"Take your time, it's not like we have somewhere to be." With a smile Naruto jerked his thumb towards the window showing the still falling snow. "But let's get comfortable, are you hungry? What something to drink? Tea or coffee?"
"Ummm I am hungry but let me get some snacks for us. Where are we going anyway?" Dei asked as he stood up with Naruto.
Naruto looked around as he rubbed his expanding tummy, "My office is still intact since I never cleared it out for Yuki, and I have a comfortable couch in there...yeah we'll go there but before that I'm going to go find the boys and tell them that we need privacy and not to disturb us if they want to live to see another day.." Laughing Naruto walked away quickly, he wanted to hear everything Deidara had to say fast. It brought back the memories of him and his friends gossiping and telling each other secrets...damn, they acted like pussy's spilling secrets and shit but hey he loved a good story.
Naruto walked to the basement stairs, he could hear all the ruckus that was going on down there. They were loud as hell, but at least they were enjoying themselves. Opening the door Naruto peeked down but couldn't see anything, "Hey, you guys! Don't you dare come up here. Dei and I are having some much-needed alone time and we don't want to be interrupted. Do you understand?!"
Naruto didn't hear anything for a while and grew impatient until he heard little feet running to the foot of the steps. He watched as Natsu looked up at him.
"Okay moooom but can we go outside later? Dad and Uncle Ita said to ask you." The mini blonde asked giving him big kitten eyes.
"Why do you want to go outside?" Naruto asked just to see what he'd say.
"I want to play in the snow, so do Yuki." Natsu said whining and looked away as Yuki came into view.
"Dad just talked to uncle Shika and he said that Shiina can come out and play with us. Can we go please~" Yuki said and Natsu joined in.
Naruto wasn't ready for them to go out on their own without him yet. He was worried constantly that something might happen to them like before. Fuck, he didn't want to smother them so that they couldn't enjoy themselves on snow days...but.
"Sasuke come here." Naruto called down the stairs and the kids eyes lite up. They must know that he was considering letting them out of his sight, which he was very reluctant to do.
Watching Sasuke ascend those steps brought a blush to his cheeks, they haven't discussed the proposition that he offered the night before either. He was a little uncertain about what Sasuke's going to say. It's either a "Yeah baby I'll move in" or a "No thanks, I'm happy where I'm at now" type of thing and he didn't know how he would react if it was the latter version. He would be crushed, all this waiting and wondering was doing a number on his nerves. Damn Yuki and Natsu for interrupting them right afterwards. He wanted to know...like right Sasuke got closer he could see that Sasuke seemed to be worried about something because his lips were tight and he had little wrinkles between his eyes. Fuck was he thinking of a way of letting him down easy? Ugh why did he open his big mouth and ask such a question?
Well duh it's because I love the man Naruto thought. Right, so I'll wait for a response instead of forcing one. Patience is a virtue and I need to find mine.
Naruto looked into intense eye's, fuck how was he going to deny him when he looked like that? So serious and with shadows in his eyes. If he didn't let him take the kids out it was basically saying that he didn't trust him and never would but if he couldn't trust him then he would never had asked him to move in. Taking a deep breath Naruto opened his mouth, "Look you can take them out but I want you to promise that you and the guys will keep an eye on them. I will be crazily worried about them if you don't promise me that you'll keep them safe. I want your word because you always keep them..."
Naruto watched as Sasuke took his words in. He knew they were corny but shit what else could he have said? He will always be worried about his children since what happened to them but if he knew that they would be looked after seriously and like a hawk, he would feel better. They just better not fuck up this time because he couldn't take anymore of that. He would really have a breakdown.
"I promise to you that they will be coming back home to you tonight. I won't fuck up like I did last time Naruto. I don't want to see you cry or them, I just want to go out with them without you worrying that something might happen. I want you to know that they are in safe hands." Sasuke said as he leaned forward and grasped the back of Naruto's neck holding him in place. "I want you to trust me with what you hold dear and that's our children. I won't let anything bad happen...If I do just kill me."
Naruto looked at Sasuke and gulped, he was serious about that last part. Naruto thought that he probably would try to kill the raven if something did happen to his babies and he grinned.
"It's a deal because if something does happen, don't think because I'm pregnant that I won't come after you."
Placing his hand on Naruto's extended stomach, Sasuke cocked his infamous smirk, "I know you will baby and I won't stop you."
Naruto laughed and leaned into Sasuke for a kiss, "Now get out of here, I need to talk to Dei." Puling back he looked down the basement steps and yelled, "Have a good time with Shiina and Uncle Shika, give them a hug for me."
"Alriiiiight~" Natsu shouted giving Naruto a demonstration of the hug he was going to give them with Yuki, who looked less than thrilled but hugged back anyway.
"Alright be safe." Naruto stated over his shoulder as he left the room. They will be alright, who would actually come attack them in this snow storm? No one because they had more common sense then these people to volunteer to do out in this freezing cold. Idiots.
...
When Naruto got to his office Deidara was already there...with food! He was hungry but it was only snacks, little cakes and cookies but it'll have to do with his decaffeinated tea(yuck). He couldn't believe that he couldn't have caffeine, he wasn't a coffee drinker when he was pregnant with the twins so it didn't matter to him but now...it was taking its toll. He couldn't have anything?! But he was about to have a major sugar high in a minute, his grandma didn't say he couldn't have sweets. Ahhh what a godsend.
"How are you doing Dei?" He asked as he took a seat next to the blonde. Dei was just sitting there munching on some chips...like tea and chips doesn't go together, even he knew that. Nasty stuff right there, but he couldn't talk when just last night he ate a pickle than right afterwards some ice cream. It had a distinctive taste, he must admit but none the less still good. Grabbing one of the mini cakes he made himself comfortable pulling his legs up on the couch and waited for Dei to finish chewing.
"I'm fine, tired...but yeah, what I'm about to tell you is something that only my parents know, the doctor that did the procedure, Itachi now and surprisingly your grandmother." Deidara explained as he looked at Naruto's shocked face.
Naruto was amazed so few knew about whatever was so heavy on Dei's mind and what shocked him the most was that HIS grandma knew about it...it was all the more big and juicy. Ho ho ho but he couldn't figure out what it could be. His grandmother worked in almost all the fields, so he couldn't really pinpoint what Dei could have went to her for.
"Why does she know?" Naruto asked with a grin, he was going to be the sixth person to know about this!
"Because I asked her a couple of years back to do an examination on me..." He trailed off not finishing.
"...What was the exam for?" Naruto pushed. Fuck he didn't want to be so nosey but he was curious as hell. He was going to hell for prying but shit he'll go with no complaints...he will but it's a nice dream.
"Ummm how do I say this? Naruto...I'm just like you." Dei said in a quiet voice but Naruto didn't get it and he could tell. Taking a deep break Dei placed his hand on Naruto's rounded belly. "Just like you."
"Oh...oooooh." Naruto said with huge eyes like saucers. He thought that he was the only one out there in the world with an abnormality like this but Deidara had it? He could have children? But if he could have kids then why doesn't he and Itachi have any, they both want them?
"I don't understand, if you can have children then why aren't you? You want children, I know that for a fact. So why aren't there a bunch of little Uchiha's or Isshun's running around?" Naruto asked and regretted instantly that he even said anything by the look on Deidara's face. It must be a reason why...obviously since he went to see Tsunade.
They stayed in silence for more than ten minutes, lost in their own thoughts. Naruto wanted to ask more but decided to keep him mouth shut and let Dei talk when he was good and ready. Taking his cup off the table he sat back and thought about Dei. If he was like him and could have children but couldn't now and went to Tsunade to figure out the reason why...right? Dei couldn't have children anymore because if he could he would be just as knocked up as he was. But why is he unable to have children in the first place? That's why they were here, for Dei to tell him why he can't have them or why it's hard for him to conceive.
Naruto looked up when he heard a noise, Dei was clearing his throat. Was he going to continue? "Dei if you don't want to, you don't have to tell me anything...we can just sit here." He offered and Deidara shook his head no.
"I want to tell you, I wanted to tell Itachi too so many times but I kept on chickening out each and every time and he let me. Ugh I'm such a coward!" He said angrily tugging his fingers through his hair, huffing in frustration.
"You're not, you just needed time and that was exactly what you needed. See, Dei you told him in your own and he didn't push you. That's what you needed." Naruto tried to reason.
"No! I've been with Itachi since I was sixteen, we knew each other growing up but we were never that close until I was sixteen. When everything was hell for me when I had no one..." He said sobbing now. He looked so sad as he tried to wipe his eyes. "I had no one...then Itachi came out of nowhere and was there for me when my own parents thought about their status and appearance more than their only child! And look how I repaid him, by not telling him something this important. The one thing that my parents made sure to do was to erase anything dealing with that situation in case someone wanted to dig up dirt or something."
Naruto just watch in silence as Dei raved on. Inching closer he wrapped his arm around Dei's shoulder drawing him in closer. "It's alright you told him and he still loves you. He loved you then and he loves you now."
"You don't know that. He could be feeling some type of way and doesn't want to say anything. We've been together for thirteen years, give or take. We did break up and whatnot...I was the one mainly causing problems but Itachi always stood by my side and I love him for that but I can't give him the one thing he wants and that hurts...it really hurts to know that I could have given him children but I can't because of something I've done in my past. Something that wasn't my choice, something that was forced upon me. To keep up appearances...I can't have children. I hate them!" Dei yelled.
"Hate who?" Naruto asked trying to follow along.
"My parents because of them I can't have what you and Sasuke have. Because they couldn't have their male child looking like a freak of nature. I knew I was gay since I hit puberty, when I saw Itachi after a long time when I was twelve and he was fourteen I knew for sure then. But he didn't want to hang around younger people so we left it at that but when I was fifteen, I had my first sexual experience with another high class family and after a couple of months I started having morning sickness, I didn't know that then and told my mother I was sick. She took me to the doctor and they told her what I was and what was going on.
She had a breakdown and told my father who slapped me around a bit, he couldn't believe that his only child was a faggot as he so lightly put it. He told me that I was going to have an abortion if I knew what was good for me and the family. I couldn't ruin their good name by being a boy and having a child ! Oh no the horror of that. I refused to get one, I really liked the baby's father and I was happy when they said I was pregnant but the looks...oh the looks of the people who were supposed to love me were the worst they looked at me as if I was garbage, an alien, someone who wasn't their son anymore. Just someone to be dealt with. They dealt with me alright, I held out for as long as I could for when abortions would be illegal but they figured out what I was doing and slipped me something. The next thing I knew I was waking up in a hospital bed with them happy again as if nothing happened. As if they didn't kill my child to save face among their rich bastardly friends!" Dei yelled as he wiped away angry tears.
"I couldn't look at them the same. I couldn't look at myself the same, if I had tried harder I would have had my child. I wouldn't have been depressed, I wouldn't have turned to drugs and alcohol. I would have been happy, I know I would have been. If the father of the child didn't want any part of our lives then so be it but why go through such drastic measures to stay in such a group of people who could care less about you. They ruined my life, Naruto. They took a life away, who knows what that child could have been or done for the future. I hated everything and everyone...that one year my life was dark. I ran away but they found me and brought me back. So to numb myself I drank and did drugs. I ran with the wrong crowd, they supplied me with what I needed. My parents never said a word because from appearances we looked like a normal family but deep down and in that house we were strangers. They ignored my habits and let it happen as long as I didn't look shit faced when people came over because if that happen it was another beating...haha I got so sick of him, my father that is. I couldn't take it anymore and hit him back. I'll tell you, it felt so good that I couldn't stop. That was the night they "kicked" me out, well not technically because they made me live in the dorms at school. It was hard trying to get drugs in there. I got caught twice trying to and I had one more strike before I was kicked out of there." Taking a breath Dei reached for his tea and drank slowly. Naruto watched and couldn't believe his ears, Dei was pregnant and forced to have an abortion?! He knew about his substance abuse but still he had a horrible life, how could parents do this to their own child?
"I remember it as if it was yesterday, the day Itachi came back into my life. He went to the same high school as me but I only saw him around a couple of times but that night I was looking for the dealer that I went to. It was raining that day and I really needed a fix badly; didn't care that I was soaked to the bones and shaking like crazy. When I finally found the guy...I should have known something was different. He was too touchy feely when he never was before. I tried to hand him the money and he took it but never gave me what I needed. I tried to take my money back and said I'd go somewhere else, something changed in his face and he got violent. He hit me and we fought but he was stronger than me. Then he...he pushed me up against the w-wall and was grabbing for my belt. He got that off and was working on my pants when Itachi showed up. He wasn't happy either, I was so out of it the I took off as soon as the guy was off me and didn't look back. Itachi found me in the park near the school shaking so bad that he had me bite down on my leather belt so that I wouldn't bite my tongue off." Dei stopped and smiled thinking of back then, he wasn't scared to be around Itachi even after what had happened to him. He was almost raped and he wasn't the slightest bit worried that Itachi would pull something. It was something about the raven that calmed him, he knew for sure that he wasn't like the others and stayed where he was sitting on the swing, with itachi attending to him.
"My face was bruised and bleeding, my nose was swollen as was my lip. My wrists were amazingly red from where the guy grabbed and twisted them. We just stayed in the rain looking at each other. Then he said my name...I was honestly shocked that he remembered me, the failure son of the Isshun's...well only in their eyes. I tried to keep my grades up so that I wouldn't have to hear their voices. Itachi had stood up and reached out his hand and said "Common Deidara, let's get out of this rain" I looked at him for a long time before taking that much larger hand in mine. I couldn't believe that a stranger was willing to help me when not even my own parents were. That night Itachi made me promise to get my shit straight, that if I go to rehab and stay away from drugs and alcohol that I could stay with him. You see, he was in the process of moving out of his parents home. He was about to graduate, he already got accepted into his ivy league college and he was offering a junkie shelter. Just how nice was this guy, I couldn't believe it but I wanted to so I said I would. It was hard because his family didn't approve of me. A junkie whose family didn't even want him...but Itachi stood against them and he lost his inheritance of taking over the company. That night I wanted a drink so bad that I went out and brought a bottle and stared at it all night until Itachi got home. He said nothing and just sat with me, didn't say a word. How could he be so calm when I was a wreck, he's the one that lost so much with just being with me. We weren't even a couple yet and I was ruining his life. But I didn't take that drink, I didn't do it and that night was the first time we made love. He was there for me in more ways than one and I couldn't hold back anymore...he couldn't either.
The next day I went to a rehab center that my grandmother paid for. That was the last time I saw her before she died, she was the only one who always saw me for me in my family. Never wanted anything from me, always supportive, she thanked Itachi for being there for me...she left everything she had to me. I was shocked because I have aunts and uncles so why me? She said in her will that I wasn't like the others who was waiting for her to kick the bucket and get their hands on her fortune. That I truly loved her because she told me bedtime stories, let me sit on her lap and eat all the cookies I wanted. I loved her so much that...I had another breakdown, I never told her about the baby because I didn't want to see the same look in her eyes as I saw in my parents. I realized once she was gone that she would have loved me no matter what." He started to laugh and Naruto raised an eyebrow, "God I'm talking so much it's pathetic . I guess all of this has been bottled up for sometime...sorry."
"No need to apologize but I don't understand why you can't have children?" Naruto asked.
"Oh I haven't gotten to that yet but you were around after all of that so there's no need to tell you that stuff. Sooo the baby situation is affected by all the alcohol, drugs and the abortion really did a number. It messed up my internal networking. It's weaker and hard to maintain a full term pregnancy. It's not that I've had miscarriages, it's just harder to conceive anything. My eggs aren't the same, not as healthy and it takes a lot for my ovaries to produce anything. If I can hold on to an egg, I will most likely be on bed rest for the duration of my pregnancy...no running around no nothing."
"But that's fine! You can do it, I'll be over all the time to keep you company." Naruto said as he looked Deidara in the eyes. Dei would be a wonderful...whatever he wanted to go by and he deserved what was so wrongfully taken away from him. "I'm sure Tsunade has come up with something?!"
"...Well she has. I have to take pills to strengthen things down there. She just finished a batch of herbal remedies that I have to drink, It helps with the conceiving process, nothings happened so far...I don't think but who knows. But we did talk about the surrogate thing and adoption. I always wanted to adopt but I don't know, Itachi said either is fine as long as I'm there with him."
"Well that's good but we have to keep trying with you. I know that it'll happen, since it's my grandmother...you could be pregnant right now for all we know." Naruto said sizing Deidara up, staring at his stomach with slanted eyes. Did Dei get bigger or was he just hoping extra hard...
"Ha that would be the day. But that would be a gift from god...well Tsunade too because the medicine is what pushed it." Dei stated with a wistful look on his face as he ran his hand over his stomach. What he wouldn't give, what they wouldn't give. "We'll just have to wait and see."
"That we will, but I'm sure that the twins will be expecting a little cousin sooner or later. All we need to do is lock you and Itachi in a room together and BOOM you'll be el preggers in no time." Naruto laughed with his hands in the air.
"If that's what it only took to make it happen..."
"It is, shit...those Uchiha's sperm is made of steel or something indestructible, they'll penetrate and barrel through anything that's in its way. Trust me Dei it's only a matter of time." Smiling Naruto hugged the blonde closer to him. "I'm happy that you told me Dei, I'm here for you no matter what time of day. You are family, have been since Itachi introduced you to me. I love you, you're one of my older brothers...you are irreplaceable, so hold that blonde head up and when Itachi comes back take him to the dungeon and have your wicked way with him. He won't protest." Naruto said laughing at the face Deidara was making, he was just too cute for his own good.
~To Be Continued~
A/N: Thank you guuuuuys so much for liking last chapter and for reviewing...it lets me know that you care lol
I know Naruto just took a huge step in their relationship KitsuneLuvr88 lol I also hope that this chapter gave you some insight into what Dei and Itachi will be going through Hannahneko. And yes I did throw in the Sakura stuff for you guys who wanted to know about her, I'm glad you liked it wasn't one hundred percent sure about it but hey... OHHHHHHHH will Sasuke say yes darkhuntressxir?
AiMila I know right, I'm such a slacker lol but I'm nearing graduation and I have tons of things to do...tear drop to my nonexistent life.
I'm not sure lol Mee-Hala I do want it to be a boy, I'm pulling for that lol like I say if I ever have children I want BOYS~
crzyanimemom Glad that you liked it, the snow ball fight was my favorite too~
Now Usami-Sensei stop being so selfish lol but I did kind of spin it around in this chapter lol Hope everyone liked it!
Thank's so much for reading my fellow mpreg readers!
Also THANK YOU for REVIEWING!
darkhuntressxir, clio1111, Usami-Sensei, Mee-Hala, PrincessAnime08, JuliaT-chan, KitsuneLuvr88, crzyanimemom, Haruka Uzumaki21, Hannahneko, AiMila, 2.0, Melyway
Thanks again for enjoying the story, if you want something added to the story or suggestions let me know and if I like it...it might just end up in it!
HOPE YOU FANFICTERS LIKED THIS CHAPTER! ALLLLLLLLL ABOUT DEI LOL