Hi Fanfiction world! I finally finished this chapter, which took me a really long time because it's the size of two of my normal chapter rolled into 1. I saw a lot of the reviews were frustrated I ended last chapter before Finchel got freaky. So I hope you like what I included in this chapter as I don't normal write smut. I just hope I haven't embarrassed myself as I said I'm an amateur in the smut-writing bracket. I also included a tiny bit of Spanish that I got from Google, so if it's wrong sorry in advance any Spanish speaking readers. Also I tried…emphasis on the word try. I tried to write descriptions about the dresses the girls wore to the party but since the only thing I know about fashion is that it somehow involves clothes, I'm not sure if I got the dress descriptions right as I got them from some dress website. Once again all the legal stuff belongs to Ryan Murphy & FOX except my characters. So please read, review, rewind, then read and review again…enjoy!
The brisk morning New York wind swept through Rachel's hair as she exited the subway near the loft. She desperately wished she had on something more substantial and suited to the cold then the thin clothes she had been wearing the night before. Thinking of the night before made Rachel feel so many different emotions and mixed feelings, but not for the reason you may think. No matter what she was feeling she would never regret being intimate with Finn, but what she did regret were the circumstances. But thoughts about that would have to wait as she ascended the stairs towards the front door of the loft. As she neared the front door she seriously hoped Santana and Kurt were out or at the very least still asleep. Because on top of everything else she really didn't need to be caught doing the so-called walk of shame still dressed in her outfit from the previous night.
But as soon as she opened the door her hopes of luck being on her side were quickly dashed. As she turned on the lights and found Santana sitting on the couch facing the door sipping on her morning coffee, with a large smirk on her face.
"God! You scared the crap out of me!" Rachel told her friend while holding her hand to her beating heart in shock.
"Close but Santana's fine as well." Laughed Santana at her friend's fright.
"Funny. Now are you going to tell me why you were sitting in the dark waiting to scare me half to death?" asked the brunette diva clearly still not fully awake enough for her friends antics.
"Well I was just sitting here contemplating whether I was dreaming or whether I really was experiencing a deja vu moment. Because and correct me if I'm wrong but I believe I've seen this moment before after a certain non-wedding between Mr Schue and Emma."
Rachel walked over into the kitchen and started making herself a coffee. "This is nothing like that situation, Santana."
Santana just looked at her friend forlornly before replying, "Please tell me he was at least awake this time, Rachel!"
"I don't want to talk about!" snapped Rachel while still waiting for the kettle to boil so she could make a coffee.
Santana sensing something wrong with her friend got up from the couch and moved over to sit at one of the stools surrounding the kitchen bench. "Okay, you might not believe this Rachel but for some unknown reason you've grown on me and I actually consider you a friend. I know I insult you and well basically everyone all the time but that's just the way we Lopez's show love. I thought after I was there for you during the whole pregnancy scare thing, that I showed you I could be trusted. So I care about you I do, but Rachel I also consider Finn a friend as well and I don't want either of you getting hurt by jumping into something neither of you are ready for."
Rachel just looked her friend in the eye trying to gauge her level of sincerity and was convinced by the honesty of Santana; also by Santana using her real name, which she never does.
"Fine! You want to know what happened? Let me start at the beginning….
Rachel was willing the cab to go faster while cursing the heavy New York City traffic at the same time. Because with the things Finn was doing to her in the backseat, Rachel was literally going to have her way with him right there in the backseat of a taxi, weird pervert driver and road users of New York be damned. After trying to suppress another moan while Finn was running his hands up and down the bare expanse of her thigh as he continually kissed her senseless. When she took a second to actually breathe in some oxygen she realized they weren't actually moving.
"Um Finn! Why aren't we moving?" Rachel asked a distracted Finn by tapping his arm to try and pry him away from his ministrations of her body. Finn finally was pried away and realized that Rachel was in fact right they weren't moving but were actually parked on the side of the road.
"Um! Where are we?" a confused Finn asked to no one in particular.
"1800 Belvedere Place, Central Park West NY" came a voice from the front seat.
Finn and Rachel shot apart like they had been struck by lightning at the sound of the voice. They then looked forwards and saw the Middle Eastern driver who was turned fully around in his seat and was watching the amorous couple while he ate a turkey sandwich. After a couple of extremely awkward moments of staring between the couple and the driver, Finn finally spoke up. "What did you say?"
"I said where at 1800 Belvedere Place, Central Park West. That's the address you gave me wasn't it?" the driver said between mouthfuls of his sandwich and a couple of inappropriate stares at Rachel.
"How long have we been here?" asked Finn while trying to use his body to shield Rachel from the stares of the driver.
"About fifteen minutes" the driver answered back casually as he continued to munch away on his sandwich.
"And when where you going to inform us we had arrived at our destination?" a pissed Rachel snapped at the driver.
"I didn't want to interrupt! And it looked like you two were having fun!"
"Whatever man! How much do we owe you?" a pissed Finn asked the man so he could get out of this perverts cab with Rachel as fast as possible. So that their original plans could start sooner rather than later.
"$27.50 or you two can continue and the fares on the house" the driver told them as he leered at the pair.
Rachel just threw thirty dollars at the man as she dragged Finn from the taxi before he could punch the grin off the perverts face.
Finn now took the initiative and dragged Rachel inside to the elevator. Once inside the elevator Finn pressed Rachel up against the wall and proceeded to start kissing and sucking on her neck while he trailed his hands down her toned body to rest on her exquisite butt. The feel of Finn's hands on her body and his delightful assault of her neck was causing her to let out a series of moans. Hearing Rachel moaning was not helping lessen the tightness of his pants but it wasn't helped further by Rachel wrapping her legs around his waist. Now it was Finn's turn to let out a moan as this new position caused Rachel's heated panty clad center to rub against the large bulge in his pants.
The ding of the elevator interrupted their explorations of each other's bodies. They exited the elevator hand in hand as Finn led her down the hall to his apartment. No sooner had the door been opened than Finn reattached himself to Rachel and the pair started passionately kissing.
The touch of her lips was like adding gasoline to a fire that set ablaze a fire that had long been dormant inside both of them. Finn gasped at the feel of her tongue in a constant duel with his own. All the while her hands ripped at his hair, raking over his body, roughly tearing his zipper down. Somehow making their way to the couch before he burst free from the confides of his pants as her hand wrapped around his swollen shaft. Finn couldn't be sure because of the sexual haze this little brunette vixen had imposed on him with the simple act of her touch. But he thought he heard the sound of a button popping.
Rachel swiveled her hips, one hand tearing at the waistband of her pants then ripping at her panties, the thin material bunching around her knees. The time for foreplay and teasing was over. To be frank the minute they saw each other the time for all that nonsense was done.
So not to be delayed any further Rachel grabbed Finn's member and guided him in. "AHHHH!" They both screamed and moaned together as she roughly sank downwards impaling herself on Finn's penis.
Rachel remained motionless totally impaled to the hilt by Finn. It took her awhile to become accustomed to his size and also she wanted to savor the feeling of being one with Finn. Slowly at first, Rachel rode him, pulling all the way up to the top then pushing herself down to the hilt again. Up…down…up…down again and again, and then repeating the cycle all over again. The sounds of their lovemaking reverberated around the spacious apartment. Intermitted every now and then by cries of "Harder…faster…too tight and Oh My God!".
Rachel collapsed on top of Finn with her sweaty brunette locks brushing his face, staring directly into his eyes as she crested the wave with a euphoric, "Oh My God! As well as praises to every deity in existence". With Finn joining soon after with his very own enthusiastic release, Rachel was still letting out little whimpers and sighs as she lovingly stroked Finn's hair. Time was inconsequential to the both of them in that moment as they were still wrapped together in a big sweaty tangled mess where you wouldn't know where one of them started and the other began.
Once both of their breathing returned to normal Rachel rolled off the top of Finn and disengaged herself with an audible pop. Rachel was the first to break the post-coital silence with her booming laughter. Finn stared at the brunette beauty with a look of utter confusion because the last thing a man wants to hear after having sex is laughter.
"What the hell Rachel! I know I'm a bit rusty because I haven't had sex since we were last together, but you don't have to laugh at me!" Finn said sitting up and moving to the other side of the couch.
Rachel realizing that Finn had misinterpreted her laughter as an insult to his prowess in the bedroom quickly moved to rectify his assumptions. "Finn…Finn come here! Baby no, I'm not laughing at you. I'm laughing because of the mess we made. I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to buy you a new couch and by the looks of it a new shirt and pants as well."
Finn looked down at his clothing and realized in their haste that he was still fully dressed but with his penis hanging out of his fly. But in the haste of their lovemaking his shirt was ripped and stained and missing a few buttons and his pants were pretty much in the same shape as his shirt. Finn agreed with Rachel that he did look quite comical with his hair everywhere and his shirt in tatters, so he joined in with his own boisterous laugh alongside Rachel. "Hell! I'm fine with buying new shirts all the time, if it means we can do that again."
"Easy big boy! Let's get cleaned up first and move into the bedroom before we think about rounds 2 and onwards." Rachel said getting up and grabbing her discarded pants and panties from the floor. Before being playfully tackled and picked up bridal style by Finn who had quickly ripped the rest of his shirt off and did the same to his pants. Finn carried a laughing Rachel into the shower to get cleaned up.
So that's what they did before adjourning to the bedroom to continue their amorous activities well into the night. As the sun shone through the windows into the bedroom waking Rachel from the best night sleep she ever had she found herself tangled up with Finn Hudson. Which brought back all the delicious memories of the night before. Hoping to make Finn some breakfast to add fuel to see if he was up for more rounds of their sexual marathon. Rachel disentangled herself carefully from Finn so she wouldn't wake him and grabbed one of his shirts from the bedroom floor and crept outside.
Once Rachel had carefully closed the bedroom door she finally had a chance to look at Finn's luxurious apartment. The apartment was huge and it had three bedrooms, two baths and a chef's kitchen, not to mention the views from nearly every window as it looked directly over Central Park. She finally found her way to the kitchen and started the process of reenergizing Finn with breakfast.
Just as she was about to flip one of the pancakes she had cooking she was startled by a pair of large arms wrapping around her from behind. Rachel breathed in the unmistakable earthy fragrance that could only be Finn Hudson. So she relaxed into his embrace while Finn got busy giving her a series of butterfly kisses along her exposed neck.
"Mmm! Morning hummingbird!" Finn cooed while continuing his delightful assault of her neck.
Rachel turned around and gave Finn a long, firm kiss on the mouth, "Good Morning yourself!" she said as some light tears began to fall.
Finn hugged Rachel as close as possible before lovingly wiping away Rachel's tears. "Hey! What's with the waterworks? Your too beautiful to be crying."
"It's nothing…it's just been so long since I've heard you call me your hummingbird and it's just nice to hear is all."
"Yeah! Well you better get used to it, because I plan on calling you that a lot…" and then Finn started softly singing to Rachel as he held her in his arms…
Sometimes, I get impatient but she cools me without words
And she comes so sweet and softly, my hummingbird
And have you heard that I thought my life had ended
But I find that it's just begun 'cause she gets me where I live
I'll give all I have to give, I'm talking about that hummingbird
Oh, she's little and she loves me too much for words to say
When I see her in the morning sleeping
She's little and she loves me to my lucky day
Hummingbird, don't fly away
When I'm feeling wild and lonesome, she knows the words to say
And she gives me a little understanding in her special way
And I just have to say, in my life I loved a woman
Because she's more than I deserve and she gets me where I live
I'll give all I have to give, I'm talking about that hummingbird
Oh, she's little and she loves me too much for words to say
When I see her in the morning sleeping
She's little and she loves me to my lucky day
Hummingbird, don't fly away
Don't fly away, away, don't fly away, away
Don't fly away, away, don't fly away, away
Don't fly away, away, don't fly away, away
Don't fly away, away
Rachel just gave Finn the biggest most passionate kiss probably ever recorded in history before going back to check on breakfast.
"Now what are you doing up so early I was hoping to snuggle with my favorite leading lady?" Finn questioned the brunette after he finished singing.
"I thought I'd make you some breakfast!" Rachel replied while flipping another pancake.
"Thanks Rach! You know that's what I love about you, your always taking care of me…."
All of a sudden Rachel dropped the spatula, which landed, in the pan causing some of the pancake batter to splash onto the bench. "What did you say?"
"I know we only reconnected last night but I don't want to pussy foot around this time Rachel. I want to be with you, I want to hold you, I want to love you, and I want to wake up to your beautiful face everyday. So I guess I'm saying…I love you, Rachel Berry" Finn said with all the sincerity in the wall while now having moved closer to Rachel.
Rachel didn't say anything at first, because on one hand this is everything she wanted; and on the other she was still scared the history would repeat itself and they would once again end in heartbreak. Her heart was telling her to leap into his arms and never let go while yelling at the top of her lungs, "I LOVE YOU FINN HUDSON!". But her mind or her insecurities were telling her a totally different story. So she said the first thing that came to her mind. "Thank you!" and then she went back to flipping pancakes.
"Now do you want a whole heap or only a few pancakes?"
"Rachel!" Finn interrupted completely confused because this is not how he imagined this conversation going.
"What am I saying? Of course you want a whole heap, your Finn Hudson and your always hungry." Rachel continued totally ignoring Finn.
Finn reached over and grabbed the spatula from Rachel's hand and threw it into the sink, before turning Rachel to face him. "Rachel! I don't give a damn about pancakes right now! I said that I love you and you…you just thanked me…what's going on?"
Rachel could see the hurt on Finn's face and knowing that she was the cause of this gorgeous man's pain cut her right to the bone. She didn't know what to do, but she realized she needed to be anyplace apart from in front of Finn where every emotion would be laid bare before him.
"Umm! I just remembered I have an early morning rehearsal for Funny Girl so I should really be going!" Rachel said while maneuvering around Finn and into the bedroom to quickly grab her stuff and get dressed. Before reappearing back in the lounge room where a shocked and saddened Finn was still standing motionless.
"Rachel don't leave! Are we going to talk about this?" Finn pleaded.
"Sorry I really need to go! Thanks for your hospitality Finn" Rachel said as she reached up and kissed his cheek before hurrying for the door.
Just as she had turned the handle and opened the door, Rachel was stopped by Finn's pleading statement. "I don't know what's going on Rachel but just know I love you, and when your ready come and find me. Just don't take too long because as I promised you in High School, now that I've found my dream I'm going to live it to the fullest, just like I expect you to do. I just hope that living the dream involves you because it does for me, now you just have to figure out if I'm still represented in yours. So don't ever forget that I love you…my little hummingbird" Finn said as he walked over and kissed Rachel one last time on the forehead.
Rachel with her eyes full of tears just looked deep into Finn's eyes while holding his outstretched hand said, "I know you love me Finn and thank you, but I just need time to figure some stuff out…okay!" and with that she walked out the door leaving Finn standing there staring at an empty doorway with one lone hand still outstretched into the void left by Rachel….
Rachel just watched as Santana walked circles around the loft as she listened to Rachel recount the events of the previous night.
"Well are you going to say anything?" enquired Rachel who was standing in the kitchen sipping her morning coffee.
"He seriously said I love you and laid it all out on the table and you just said, thank you?" Santana said as she walked over and sat once again on one of the stools in front of Rachel.
"I'm not proud of it okay! But what else was I suppose to say?"
Santana jumped up and nonviolently slapped Rachel across the face. "Ow! What the hell was that for Santana?"
"I'll tell you what that was for because su actuación chica loca! Your acting crazy! I wouldn't be surprised if we see Finn on the NBC Nightly News about to jump off the Brooklyn Bridge. Or did you at least give him the courtesy of stabbing him in the heart with the heel of your stiletto to save him the hassle." Snapped Santana towards her shocked friend.
"Santana don't!" Rachel warned her friend.
"Don't what? This is about him isn't?"
"Partly yes it its about Brody he doesn't deserve this Santana" Rachel replied sitting down on the living room couch.
"Your right he doesn't deserve this! Just like he doesn't deserve you or your love. Do you know I had to help Hummel put ointment on the sunburn he got from the sun reflecting off of Plastic mans waxed chest." Snipped Santana
"I just don't know what to do!" bemoaned Rachel
"Well you have to ask yourself the question, who's more important to you Finn or Brody" and with that Santana left the room leaving Rachel to dwell on her thoughts.
Eleanor got out of her town car and made her way up to the upstairs apartment her arms laden with garment bags. She knocked on the door and waited patiently for the door to open. After a moment or two the door swung open to reveal Noah Puckerman. The pair greeted before Puck invited Ellie inside the apartment, to the loud sounds of B.B. King's Hummingbird playing over and over.
Ellie turned to Puck and shouted over the music, "What's with the B.B. King music?"
Puck motioned for Ellie to follow him out to the patio where the sound from the music was lower and they could talk easier. Ellie set down the garment bags and followed Puckerman outside.
"Do you remember us, ever mention a girl called Rachel?" Puck asked the slightly older blonde.
"Yeah! Wasn't she like Finn's High School sweetheart or something?"
"Or Something! They were a bit more then just boyfriend and girlfriend; they were actually engaged to be married. But on their wedding day Finn took her to the train station instead and sent her off to be a star by herself in New York, while he joined the army." Puck laid it all out for Ellie.
"Ellie sat down on one of the deck chairs on the patio, "Wow! That's heavy! But wasn't that ages ago? Did Finn find out she's got a new man or something?" a confused Ellie asked Puck.
"Oh dear naïve Ellie do I have a story to tell you…" Puck then proceeded to explain to Ellie the history of Finchel. Including how Finn came to New York and found Brody pursuing Rachel before finding out they kissed so he went back to Lima. Then all the way up to meeting again at the concert and the couples dalliances the other night before Rachel leaving Finn after an I love you with a simple thank you…
Just then they heard the music shut off and an extremely somber Finn stager out of the bedroom. Ellie scrunched up her face at the sight of her creative partner who was sporting a pretty decent beard considering he hadn't shaved in a couple of days. He was also wearing a pair of Yogi Bear boxer shorts with an extremely stained singlet. "Puck do we have anymore Dorito's? Oh! Hi Ellie."
"Hey Finn! Nice boxers."
"Rachel got them for me, their Yogi Bear, because she said I was her Finny bear and like Yogi Bear I was funny and extremely cuddly." Finn said as he lazily slumped onto the couch.
Puck just leaned over and whispered to Ellie, "I seriously thought he was going to say she got them for him because he likes them picnic baskets."
Ellie just shook her head at Puck and decided her friend need her help, "So Finn I didn't know you were a fan of the blues or B.B. King?" enquired Ellie.
"Yeah! My mum used to play his music all the time and this song especially stuck with me because I call Rachel my little hummingbird…." Finn went silent all of a sudden before suddenly bursting into tears and shouting. "THE SONG LIED! THE DAMN SONG LIED! She wasn't supposed to fly away…but she did guys she did…she flew away from me!" Finn said while making the hand gestures of a bird flying away.
"Okay enough of this shit Hudson! Wipe those tears and get yourself cleaned up, because where going to the most epic party of the year. Were where going to show our ex-girlfriends that we aren't any Lima Losers and if they don't want a piece of our epicness then there's plenty of woman who do." Puck had enough of watching his friend moaning and bitching around the house.
"SCREW THE PARTY I'M NOT GOING!" yelled Finn like a petulant five year old trying to get his way.
"Puck's right Finn! I came over to tell you that I just brokered a deal to get you guys some extra exposure as well as some free swag. I got you guys a deal to be the models for Tom Ford's new line of suits and he's given you some free ones to wear tonight. So Finn this is what's going to happen, your going to take an extremely long shower and shave that stupid beard off your face and then your going to get dressed in one of these expensive suits and man up. Because you know the saying that the clothes maketh the man, Finn. Well here's your chance to prove that adage correct. Not to mention that women, especially Rachel love a sharp dressed man. So what do you think?" Ellie tried to encourage her friend out of his slump.
Finn just sat there mumbling over and over again, "Sharp dressed man…sharp dressed man…sharp dressed man." Before he suddenly turned towards Puck and Ellie, "Do you really think Rachel will like me wearing a suit?"
"Hell yeah bro! If you managed to get Berry all wet from all the plaid and letterman jackets you wore in High School; I'm pretty sure your going to get some extra helpings of Berry pie wearing fucking Tom Ford! What happened to my wingman that said he had enough of letting other people control his life and started wearing his big boy panties to rise up from one slump to be a kickass singer/songwriter. Not to mention you're at the helm of one of the fastest growing record labels in America if not the world. So reattach your balls and let's show this town that Maverick and Goose mean business…ready say it with me now…" Puck encouraged Finn to realize he didn't need a relationship to dictate his life.
Finn let out a sly smile at his friend's weird but encouraging words. Before saying the catchphrase a younger Puck and Finn learnt by heart from their favorite movie, "I FEEL THE NEED…THE NEED FOR SPEED!" while giving Puck a loud high five and letting out a laugh.
Ellie just looked at the two guys who had the biggest grins on their face and said, "You two are the weirdest idiots I think I've ever met."
"Don't worry you could always be the character of Charlie played by Kelly McGillis!" Puck answered back while patting Ellie on the back.
Ellie just smiled at the two grinning idiots before saying, "So we good, or do we have to send Finn to DA? Because I need to hit the old' frog and toad as the Aussies say, I need to meet up with Nikki to go over some last minute stuff about the party."
"DA? What's DA?" a confused Puck asked.
"DA is Dorito's Anonymous. Judging from Finn's singlet he's murdered quite a few bags of the suckers. Come on Puckerman keep up buddy!" it was Ellie's turn to now pat Puck on the back while laughing.
"Anyway! You guys are right! I need to learn to live for me because if I'm not right with myself how can I be right for someone else. So I'm going to go write a quick song because I'm inspired all of a sudden. Then I'm going to shower and shave this beard off, who knew having a beard was so goddamn itchy! Then I'm getting dressed in one these fine ass suit and then I'm going to make New York City my bitch!" Finn exclaimed as he jumped off the couch with a new zeal for life inspired by his two friends. Then he startled his friends who were still sitting on the couch. When after checking out the suits he yelled out, "Hey! Checkout the thread counts on these bad boys!"
"What the hell do you know about thread counts?" Puck questioned his best friend.
"Well after living with Lima, Ohio's self-titled fashionista as your step-brother you can't help but learn a few things. But don't tell him that because I like watching him squirm at my apparent lack of fashion knowledge." Finn called to Ellie and Puck before he ran off into the music room to start writing a song before getting ready.
Ellie grabbed her belongings before making her way towards the front door. "Just make sure your both there by seven" Ellie called out to a nodding Puck before walking out of the apartment, so she could keep up with her tight schedule.
Santana checked her watch for the fiftieth time and then resumed her pacing. For some reason everything seemed to be annoying her lately. Maybe it was because Rachel hadn't talked to her since their heated discussion after Finn's declaration, but then again she hasn't really talked to anyone else either. So Santana didn't really think you could count that as Berry giving her the cold shoulder. Meanwhile for the past couple of days Hummel's been floating around the place like a damn butterfly, oblivious to any of the residual tension. Like Berry, Twinkle toes Hummel had a night of reconnecting as well except Kurt managed to keep his in his pants. Blaine and Kurt had spent the night according to the Intel gathered by Santana talking about everything and decided not to get back together just yet but to hangout as friends and see where the wind blows so to speak. Santana laughed to herself because she knew those two would barely be able to see out the week before they were bumping uglies again.
The loft door slammed open and a loud voice rang out, "HOLA! My lovelies! Your Fairy Godfather Kurt Hummel is here…ready to turn you from dour maids into stunning princesses!" Kurt stormed into the loft laden down with multiple garment bags and multiple bags of makeup.
Santana came over and grabbed some of the garment bags from Kurt before punching him in the arm. "Bout time Hummel, and who you calling a dour maid? I'm hot all year round!" quipped Santana as she went over and handed some bags to Dani before sitting down again.
"Thanks for that Santana! I thought once I stopped living with Finn that I would be able to avoid random outburst of violence but I guess not…" Santana just looked at Kurt and shrugged her shoulders before resuming filing her nails. "Anyway it took forever to get here especially carrying multiple couture gowns very kindly lent to us peasants for the evening by the awesome Isabelle and Vogue. Now I see two of my models, where's the third?" Kurt continued looking around.
Both Santana and Dani both stared at Kurt disbelievingly, "Are you deaf Porcelain! Berry's been pumping that My Man, Barbra crap for the past two and a half hours!"
Dani added, "That's not all, we went to meet up with Rachel to have lunch and we watched her performance she did for class at NYADA…"
Rachel trudged up to the stage; usually you would need nothing short of a cattle prod or stun gun to keep her from the stage. But this time it felt like she was walking to the gallows. She looked around the auditorium where everyone who was anyone at NYADA was located including Madame Tibideaux. Rachel gathered up all her courage and walked to the microphone.
"Hi I'm Rachel Berry and I'll be singing, 'Have You Ever', thank you"
[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Before the end of the first verse, Rachel had full-blown tears streaming down her face as she belted each and every word of the song.
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
Just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
Everybody in attendance was watching Rachel with a mixture of shock and awe at her performance. Wondering why this particular song was resonating with the tiny brunette diva so much.
[Chorus]
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cause baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]
As the song ended, Rachel just looked out into the crowd through her tears and was met by a collective of stunned stares greeting her. After a couple more silent and tense moments Madame Tibideaux stood up gracefully from her seat, and with the eyes of the entire auditorium on her, she started clapping. Which started a chain reaction to the rest of the student body who all then broke out into a raucous applause and a standing ovation.
"Well done! Ms. Berry that was a perfect example of feeling and selling the emotion of the song to the audience, if your half as good on you Broadway debut there's no doubt your musical will be a hit!" Madame Tibideaux boomed from across the auditorium…
"Crap! I guess I'll go talk to her then." Kurt called over to the two girls before marching over to Rachel's bedroom.
In between the belting notes of Barbra Streisand he could hear Rachel crying. He managed to peak into the room before knocking and saw Rachel curled up in a small ball on her bed wearing some sweat pants and one of Finn's old McKinley Titans sweatshirts; managing to messily eat a bowl of cereal while crying at the same time. She was also staring at a picture of her and Finn taken just after Prom. Where Finn had his arms wrapped around Rachel from behind and was staring at her with the utmost adoration and happiness. Rachel looked so content and happy while laughing at something that happened out of the frame of the camera.
Kurt tentatively knocked on Rachel's door before walking in, "Hi Diva! How about we turn that frown upside down so we can get you all nice and pretty for the party, okay!" Kurt told his friend while trying to stealthily take away Rachel's cereal, until Rachel whacked him with her spoon.
"Touch my cereal again, Hummel! And I wont be held accountable for where this spoon ends up!" snapped Rachel.
"Okay fine! Keep your damn cereal! But you are getting your butt out of bed and going to this party!" a frustrated Kurt snapped back at his longtime friend.
"No! Finn's going to be there and it's black tie…so he's going to be in a suit looking sexy as hell Kurt!" Rachel then grabbed Kurt by the lapels of his designer outfit and pulled him so their faces were millimeters apart, before she yelled. "WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SO GODDAMN SEXY KURT, HUH? WHY? CAN'T HE BE AT LEAST AVERAGE OR WEIRD LOOKING, LIKE JEWFRO! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO MAKE IT SO HARD FOR ME!" Rachel yelled into Kurt's face before she shoved him away and once again went back to lying on the bed while staring at the picture.
Kurt scrunched up his face and turned to once again look at his friend. "Okay Diva! First of all we're going to get you some breath mints okay! Then as for the genetically gifted elephant in the room aka my brother…"
"HA HA! YOU CALLED FINN AN ELEPHANT!" Santana yelled loudly through the closed doorway.
"NICE USE OF THOSE SUBTLE EVESDROPPING SKILLS, SANTANA!" Kurt called out before refocusing his attention back on his emotional friend. "Now where was I? Oh yes! My brother. Rachel I know that you and my brother have some weird special connection…"
"Our tether" Rachel whispered through her tears.
"Yes your tether. Anyway I think this time is good for you two because it allows you guys to grow as people and Rachel one thing I know about my brother is he's always been your biggest supporter. It didn't matter if you were together or broken up, even when you were with Jesse, Finn believed in you even more then you believed in yourself at times. How are you going to repay that faith huh? This is a big night for Finn, just as it is for the rest of the guys and Mercedes. So at the first instance that Finn requires someone to support him regardless of emotional attachment…are you going to be there for him, or are you going to leave him high and dry?
Rachel slowly sat up and wiped her tears and just stared at her best friend for a moment before giving him a big hug. "Your right as usual! Finn's always been my number one supporter, and I already flaked on supporting him in his pursuit of being a teacher. So I need to be there to fully support him now that he's going to be a famous drummer in a super famous band…" Rachel said letting Kurt out of the hug and then starting to look around.
"What are you looking for?" asked a confused Kurt.
"I'm just wondering if I still have my Team Finn shirt…I know I still have it somewhere." Rachel said still looking around her room before Kurt grabbed her to stop her search.
"Hell No! Rachel this is a fancy event you can't wear a blue Team Finn t-shirt…" noticing the pout forming on his friends face he continued. "Don't give me that face young lady! I have here, an extremely beautiful dress, kindly donated from Vogue that you will put on. So go shower and get that body of yours into this amazing creation, while I go and help Dani and Santana." Kurt retreated out of the room as Rachel grabbed her stuff and headed for the shower.
3 Hours Later….
"Viola! Your done and might I say you look absolutely stunning Miss Danielle!" Kurt exclaimed as he did the finishing touches to Dani's hair and makeup.
Dani did a twirl around the living room in her nude/silver coloured sequined evening gown with a mid thigh split to accentuate her legs. All the while being clapped by her girlfriend who was of course wearing a red Trumpet/Mermaid sweetheart beading sleeveless sweep/brush train chiffon dress that also featured a split that went to mid thigh.
The sound of Rachel entering the living room gained the trio's attention, as they admired Rachel's white one-shouldered sequined pleats A-line floor length chiffon dress also with a mid thigh split to accentuate her toned legs. Rachel just looked at her friends who were all just staring at her, which was making her slightly self-conscious.
"I knew I looked stupid! Screw the party Kurt! I'm not going!" Rachel cried before turning to charge back into her room. Before a yell from Santana stopped her in her tracks.
"Pump those brakes Divalicous! Beluga Hudson is going to cream his pants when he sees you…I guess that would make him a sperm whale then…." Everyone groaned at Santana's joke before she continued. "Anyway! You're hot, short stuff! And if I didn't already have the hottest piece of arm candy escorting me tonight, I would totally try and steal you away from Moby-Dick."
Rachel just blushed at Santana's backhanded compliment before replying. "Thank you Santana! But you could never steal me, I'm not into that sort of thing."
Santana just took another sip of her drink while smirking, "Yeah that's what someone else said too, but she quickly changed her tune, and you never know until you try Berry! And believe me I can be a very good teacher."
"Okay then! After that awkward proposition I think our ride should be here soon." Kurt cut in trying to steer the conversation elsewhere.
Santana went back for a quick refill before throwing over her shoulder, "Don't worry Berry! Your not really my type, it was just something to keep in mind. You know if you ever get tired of helping Hudson summon the mailman."
"Oh my god! I'm not hearing this…" Kurt said while putting his fingers in his ears. But stopped when the loft door flew open and a booming voice yelled out.
"HONEY I'M HOME!" and in walked a very smug looking Brody who as he walked over to Rachel was staring at everyone dressed up. He kissed a shocked Rachel on the cheek, "What's with the fancy threads, Sexy? And why are you so covered up, I thought we discussed that you need to show more skin. Also I'm glad to see it looks like you've been doing those exercises I recommended…" he then moved closer to Rachel in an attempt to whisper to her the next part. "Hey maybe when your finished with that exercise book you could lend it to Dani…" Brody said while trying to slyly point over his shoulder to Santana's girlfriend. "I've told her multiple times if she lost those love handles she'd be smoking, but she just doesn't listen."
"OH NO THAT FUCKER DIDN'T!" Santana screamed before throwing her glass and attempting to charge at Brody, but being held back by Dani and Kurt. "You just earned yourself a dance with the devil, boy!" Santana said eerily with both calm, composed and deadly undertones.
"Easy Santana! What's with all the aggression?" Brody said as he was digging through the fridge looking for something to eat.
"Brody we don't have time for this! What are you doing here? You weren't supposed to be back from your camping trip until Monday." A nervous Rachel asked her acquaintance.
"So! I decided to come home two days early and see my sexy girlfriend. I was hoping there'd be no one else here so we could have some fun getting reacquainted…" Brody said while leering at Rachel and slapping her on the ass. "But here I find the whole gang having fun without me! Where's everyone going and why wasn't I invited?"
Rachel reluctantly handed over the invitation to the record label party to her supposed boyfriend. "Sorry Brody! Unfortunately you can't come as its invite only," Rachel said pretending to be upset.
"Dry those tears, my pretty! It says right here that you can bring a plus one and there's five tickets here and unless I'm mistaken there's only four of you. So don't worry darling, I'll just go as your plus one. I've got the perfect suit hanging in my cupboard and everything. Be right back, sexy…" Brody said running off to get dressed before talking to himself, even though everyone could hear him. "Maybe I should bring my CD of my singing, those idiots at the label party wont know what hit them! They'll be idiots not to sign me on the spot! And a Grammy is going to make me more famous than a stupid Tony Award."
Santana leaned over to Rachel and said, "This is the guy you're contemplating dumping Hudson for…" Santana said with a disbelieving look on her face while pointing towards where Brody went. "I know you act naïve and stupid sometimes, Berry, but I didn't actually think you were."
"Look I know Brody can sometimes be a bit…" it seemed Rachel was pausing for dramatic effect yet it was really because she was having a hard time coming up with excuses for her boyfriend. "A bit rough around the edges, but he has a good heart guys"
"Rough around the edges? That's the understatement of the century!" quipped Kurt.
But before anyone else could retort or respond Brody came marching out of the room he shared with Rachel in an elegant designer suit. "Where the hell did that come from?" asked a surprised Kurt.
Brody just beamed with pride while checking himself out in a nearby mirror. "A star should always have a suit on standby, because you never know when you might be interviewed or hell even asked to host the Academy Awards."
"Star? You're a fucking busboy at Olive Garden!" sneered Santana.
Brody just turned and said with the most deadpan look, "Even if a star hasn't been discovered yet it's still a star!"
Just then the doorbell rang interrupting Santana and Brody from prolonging their argument any further. Especially when Brody announced that he would get the door. Brody opened the door and was met by a tall blonde individual with weirdly large lips dressed in an expensive looking suit. The two men just stared at each other before Brody rudely said. "Who the hell are you?"
Sam seemed shocked at first that some random guy was abusing him, when all he wanted to do was pick up his friends and go party with his girl. "Um! I hope I got the right place. I'm looking for Kurt, Rachel, Santana and her girlfriend Dani…do they live here?"
Before Brody could respond Kurt shoved past Brody in the doorway and started apologizing to Sam. "Sorry Sam! Yes this our place…" Kurt said while turning around and giving Brody a death stare, which he just shrugged off. "Oh! Where's my manners please…please come in make yourself at home we shouldn't be too long." Kurt said while ushering the blonde inside.
Sam entered the loft and looked around and then was immediately greeted by his friends. First by Santana and Dani and then lastly by Rachel who gave him a big hug which Santana noticed Brody didn't like one bit. Brody cleared his throat before addressing Sam. "Cam is it?"
Sam turned around and noticed the rude individual from before was talking to him. "No! It's Sam."
"Whatever! How do you know my roommates?" Brody dismissively replied back.
Sam sat down on one of the couches before answering Brody. "Um! I went to school with Santana, Rachel and Kurt and we were also all in Glee Club together."
Brody sat down in the couch directly opposite Sam and stared directly at him. "So you and Rachel didn't date?"
"Excuse me…" Sam spluttered.
"Brody stop interrogating Samuel! He and I never dated we were just good friends. He was one of Finn's best friends." Rachel came out and tried to put an end to Brody's interrogation.
"Argh! So your friends with Finnegan?" Brody said rather strangely.
"Yeah! Finn and I go way back. He was nice enough to let me crash at his parents place in Lima when my family lost their home." Sam said trying to make conversation.
"So what do you do for a living Sam? Tell me you at least contribute to society and have a job and aren't a minimum wage drone; unlike a certain someone's ex-boyfriend?" Brody said rudely while making it clear his not so subtle dig was meant to be an insult to Finn.
Sam jumped to his feet ready to standup for his friend who wasn't there to standup for himself. "Now wait just a minute! Finn…"
"BRODY! How dare you insult my friends! Especially in my very own home!" Rachel interrupted with her scolding of Brody. Before she turned to apologize to Sam, "Sorry about that Sam"
"Don't worry about it Rachel! I'm going to wait for you guys in the limo…so…um…Mercedes isn't waiting down there alone." Sam replied to Rachel while making his way out of the apartment and back down to the limo.
Rachel and Brody sat in the living room in complete silence now that Sam had been driven from the loft due to Brody's rudeness. The tense silence was finally broken when the trio of Dani, Santana and Kurt reemerged in the living room. Noticing the tense atmosphere of the room, Kurt hesitantly spoke, "Um! We're ready! What happened to Sam?"
Rachel just stood up in a huff and grabbed her purse before walking out the door, "Don't ask, Kurt!"
Santana just sneered at Brody, "I'm sure this is somehow your fault, you demonic Ken-Doll! I promise you, that if you ruin this night for Rachel…or any of my friends. You'll be wishing you were as anatomically incorrect as the real Ken-Doll. So trust me when I say, when I'm through with you, there won't be any Barbie's asking crotch less Brody back to their dream house!" Santana sized Brody up and stared at his crotch before getting her purse and keys and walking out the door with Dani and Kurt letting out an evil chuckle.
The trio exited the loft to meet up with Rachel, Mercedes and Sam down in the limo. Leaving a stunned and frightened Brody standing by himself in the loft subconsciously covering his privates with a couch pillow. Before hurrying down to the limo himself, not putting it past Santana to somehow convince the driver to leave him behind.
The limo pulled up to the front of the hotel where the party was taking place and was met but hundreds of blinding camera flashes from the throng of paparazzi and journalists.
As the group exited the limo, flashes and questions being thrown at them from all angles as they started walking the red carpet bombarded them.
The group was met by one of the PR consultants for the label who was there to guide Mercedes through her interviews. First up Mercedes was led over to a section where a reporter for Entertainment Tonight was located.
"Mercedes you look ravishing! Who are you wearing tonight?" asked the reporter.
"I'm wearing a gown by a relative new designer called Igigi! So look out for them."
"Will you be previewing anything off of your highly anticipated debut album, tonight?"
"I don't know! You'll just have to wait and see!" Mercedes replied coyly.
Meanwhile the person beside Mercedes interview was interviewing Sam. "Sam are you back together with Mercedes?"
"Yes! We're official a couple! So sorry fellas…she's taken!" laughed Sam as he confirmed he was dating Mercedes.
A few journalists also recognized Rachel as being the new young thing on Broadway who was taking on the revival of Funny Girl. So she was called over, with Brody trailing close behind to do an interview.
"Rachel does your presence here tonight mean your considering releasing an album?" asked one of the reporters.
"At the moment I'm just trying to concentrate on my upcoming Broadway debut and making sure that's a success. But further down the road…I don't know…I'll tell you this, I'm definitely not ruling anything out, because I want to do it all." Answered Rachel.
"I have an album, but it was never released…here take a copy and tell all your friends and colleagues." Brody interrupted the interview to give the reporter a copy of his unreleased album. Which he currently had over five thousand copies of said album taking up space in his parents garage in upper New York State.
"Um! Thanks…anyway! We were talking to Rupert Campion the other day and he was telling us about your audition. He said that you auditioned with a journey song, is that correct? That's a strange choice to audition for a Broadway musical with a classic rock song. What made you come up with that idea?" the disinterested reporter tried to steer the interview back towards Rachel and away from the irrelevant Brody.
"Yes it's true I auditioned with, 'Don't Stop Believing' by Journey which was a last minute decision, which in hindsight I'm glad I made. In rehearsals for the audition I tried out every Streisand song in her extensive catalogue. But after much deliberation with my mother and a very good friend I decided I needed something different…something they weren't expecting so I could stand out. Then since journey was often a go to artist for my Glee Club in High School I was very familiar with most of their songs and Don't Stop Believing fit not only what I was going for but also about the pursuit of my dreams."
"So is this very good friend, just a friend…or is he or she something more and who is it?" pried the reporter, and before Rachel could say anything purely because she was to busy reminiscing about Finn; giving her the idea for the song and encouraging her, Brody butted in once again.
"I can reveal exclusively tonight, that the person who is responsible for Rachel Berry being Broadway's newest star is me…Brody Weston…" Brody leaned over and pointed to the reporter's notepad, making sure he was writing this down. "That's right me, Brody Weston. That's spelled, B.R.O.D.Y and my last name is W.E.S.T.O.N. I got the idea for Rachel to do this classic song because being a veteran performer as I am; I knew the casting director would eat up all that sentimental rubbish so I told her. I said Rachel listen to me, Barbra is good, but you need to appeal to their sentimentality so since you were so good in that…little choir of yours, you should do a song from one of your competitions. Lo and behold I was proven right like always and look where she is now, about to star in a major Broadway revival, which some are predicting could maybe pick up a few Tony's. All thanks to me…Brody Weston…her boyfriend and star NYADA performer as well!" bragged Brody to the reporter.
"What? No? Um! Huh?" Rachel sputtered out trying to stop Brody from his spiel of lies he was telling the reporter.
"So Rachel how do you feel about the video of you and Finn Hudson, the drummer from McKinley kissing on stage at your Nationals performance; now going viral worldwide since your both rising fast in the entertainment world?" pried the reporter.
Rachel didn't know what to say to that really both her and Finn had already dealt with that during High School. But much to Rachel's satisfaction as well as the reporter's was Brody's reaction to their being a video of Rachel passionately kissing her ex-boyfriend. Who now also is apparently a famous drummer…how the fuck did that happen thought Brody. I've been attending auditions and studying at NYADA the premiere artistic institution in the United States and here comes Cotton Eyed Joe whose been in New York less the two minutes and already he's become a famous drummer. Brody Weston is not going to lose to some country hick who thinks he can run with the big boys!
Thankfully Rachel didn't have to answer as they were told they were out of time for questions as the party was getting underway. So Brody and Rachel were ushered back over to their friends, so that they could be led inside the venue.
The group was led upstairs to the Boom Boom Room, which was set up with an extremely large dance floor. That was currently occupied by hundreds of people networking and conversing. There were also two extremely large orb chandeliers consisting of hundreds of tiny golden lights suspended over the dance floor. Sit down table seating was also setup as well as a humongous bar completely taking up one side of the large room. Which was where the group decided to go first to get a drink, until Brody pulled Rachel back at the last minute.
"What the hell was that Rachel? How dare you embarrass me like that in front of the media!" Brody fumed at his girlfriend while still maintaining a tight grip on her arm.
"I don't have a clue what you're talking about Brody!" Rachel snapped back.
Brody anger level rose even higher, "Yes! You do…when were you going to tell me there's a video of you making out with your deadbeat ex-boyfriend on the Internet?"
"To tell you the truth Brody! I was never going to tell you because it has absolutely nothing to do with you. So get over yourself! And let go of my arm because I don't know about you but I plan on having a good time. So excuse me!" Rachel reefed her arm from Brody's grip and made her way over to her friends at the bar.
"Here! Looks like you could use this!" Santana said sliding Rachel a large strongly alcoholic drink.
"Mmm thanks!" Rachel murmured her appreciation as she took large sips of the drink.
"Where's the ball and chain?" Santana asked her friend in her own unique way.
"Don't know and don't care!" snipped Rachel while continually sipping away at her large drink.
"That's my girl!" Santana said happily patting Rachel on the back before joining her in consuming her own large drink.
The lights in the venue flickered indicating an event was about to occur. So everyone crowded the already overcrowded dance floor and stared at the stage. Rachel, Kurt, Santana and Dani joined everyone else and made their way to a spot where they could see the stage and still have room to breathe. A statuesque blonde walked out onto the stage illuminated like an angel from heaven by the bright spotlight.
"How's everyone doing tonight? I hope your all taking advantage of the free food and booze…I know I would be!" the blonde said as the crowd let out a round of laughter. "Anyway! For those who don't know me I'm Eleanor Knight and this is my party! Your all here to help me celebrate the official launch of America's and soon the world's hottest new record label…HUD-KNIGHT RECORDS!" the crowd erupted into thunderous applause.
"Okay…okay! Settle down! Now I know there have been rumors swirling around town and on the Internet about the identity of my partner in crime, the creative side to my business side. Now I could be mean and make you wait until the end of the party but I won't…but I will make you wait just a tad bit longer. Some of you have been asking why keep this person's identity a secret…well the reason is because this person's life is about to change in a really big way and doing it this way allowed this person to slowly find his feet without the pressures of being hounded by the press.
So without further ado I will finally unveil the identity of the co-creator of the label." Eleanor pointed towards a large screen which had the label logo beamed onto it as a drumroll started from some unknown location. As the drumroll continued the screen started to slowly rise up from the ground.
Revealing a pair of large feet encased in expensive Italian leather shoes. Then as the screen rose further revealing a set of legs belonging to a tall gentleman, upwards and upwards the screen rose revealing more and more of this mystery person. Till the screen slowly rose high enough to reveal the face of the individual, making Kurt, Santana and Dani gasp in surprise and Rachel to drop her drink in utter shock. Because standing there revealed to the world and basking in the applause of the gathered crowd was none other than Finn Hudson, dressed to the nines in an elegant Tom Ford original suit.
"I'd just like to thank Eleanor for this amazing opportunity!" Finn said giving Ellie a clap then going over and giving her a big hug. Which made Rachel want to rip that stupid blonde a new one, which didn't go unnoticed by Santana.
"Are you alright over there, Berry? Your not jealous are you?"
"Shut up Santana!" snapped Rachel as she went back to staring longingly at Finn.
"I'd also like to thank everybody who kept my secret all this time including my band mates. Because it allowed me to gradually ease my way into this new and exciting endeavor."
Santana just turned to her gathered friends and said, "Alright! Where's the real Finn Hudson, because this joker isn't him"
"I don't know Santana that sure looks like Finn and he looks mighty fine!" drooled Rachel.
"Down girl!" quipped Santana.
"If that is my brother, he must have a brilliant stylist because there's no way in hell that he picked that suit out himself. Which means I'm going to kill him because he didn't employ me as his stylist even though I have years of styling him free of charge!" pouted Kurt.
"…Anyway! I know I've got a lot of learning to do but also I hope we can have a whole heap of fun as well as make some music history…" Finn said rubbing the back of his neck.
"Okay! Yeah, that's Finn" Kurt said the others who all readily agreed due to the witness off a stereotypical Finn gesture.
"…So now for a special treat for you all! Right from the studio at the conclusion of her debut album, we have Mercedes! Who will be singing one of the upcoming tracks from her debut album, the song is called colour blind…give it up for Mercedes Jones!" Finn yelled out to get the crowd all hyped and excited.
Mercedes came out onto the stage to a huge applause from the crowd, with one extremely loud cheer coming from one big lipped blonde individual back stage.
"I'd just like to thank my boy, Finn Hudson for helping me produce what I think is an amazing album and for either co-writing or writing original material for me to sing…so thank you Finn!"
The entire venue went so silent you could hear a pin drop as Mercedes prepared to sing. Then she pointed to the pianist who started playing…
When the world is seeing yellow
I only see grey
When everybody sees the rainbow
I'm stuck in the rain
You take a little piece of me
Every time you leave
I don't think that I'll ever find that silver lining
Or a reason to smile
You know I used to paint such vibrant dreams
Now I'm colorblind colorblind
When did my heart
Get so full of the never mind never mind
Did you know
That you stole the only thing I needed
Always black and white in my eyes
I'm colorblind
Rachel felt someone tap her shoulder and turned around and all the breath left her body because standing before her was Finn Hudson looking hot as hell. "Hey! I didn't think you would be here. I thought you might be avoiding me after the other day."
Rachel just looked at the turmoil on Finn's face and her heart literally hurt because of it. "Finn, I could never avoid you even if I tried, and believe me I tried early on in my time in New York. But Finn there's something in the universe that keeps telling us no matter what where feeling, we belong in each others lives in some capacity."
The duo just stared at each for what felt like an eternity until Finn broke the silence. "I've already expressed how I want my capacity in your life to be. So I'm going to leave it at that because I promised you I wouldn't pressure you Rach, and I meant that. So just know that I do truly love you with all my heart and you'll always be my little hummingbird."
Ain't it funny that you managed
To just wash away
Even pictures that you're not in
Have started to fade
I tried to play my favorite songs
But I can't sing along
The words don't feel the same
You've taken all the best things from me
And thrown them away
You know I used to paint such vibrant dreams
Now I'm colorblind colorblind
When did my heart
get so full of the never mind never mind
Did you know
That you stole the only thing I needed
Always black and white in my eyes
I'm colorblind
"CAN I HELP YOU HUDSON!" yelled Brody
"Not really! How are you doing Brody?" Finn said trying to be polite when he wanted to be anything but.
"Don't try and play nice with me!" sneered a tipsy Brody
"Are you drunk, Brody?" questioned a disbelieving Rachel.
"So what if I am! Rachel's mine, Hudson! So back the fuck off!"
"Is that what Rachel wants?" Finn asked purely to piss off his drunken rival.
"I don't fucking care what she wants she's mine, until I say otherwise!" Brody slurred.
Finn stood to his full height and puffs out his chest and stood straight in front of Brody and leaned down into his face. "Rachel's not yours, Brody! Just like she's not mine. You can't cage or own someone like Rachel Berry. Rachel is such a big star already that she has her own gravitational pull, and we are just all orbiting her awesomeness."
"Wow, Finn! That was a really good astronomical analogy! Plus it was really beautiful…thank you!" beamed Rachel happily.
"Yeah! Sam and I have been addicted to watching the Discovery Science channel lately." Finn beamed back at the brunette diva.
"I told you to back off, Hudson!" yelled a frustrated Brody. To which Finn just started looking him all over. "What the hell are you doing?"
Finn just smirked in Brody's face before answering, "I'm just trying to figure out where you keep your club. Did you have to check it in when you arrived alongside your loincloth? Seriously dude it's 2015 not 500BC you caveman!" this caused Rachel to start laughing despite herself which sent Brody into a rage.
Just as Finn turned his head, Brody pulled his arm back and went to take a swing at Finn when he wasn't looking. When all of a sudden his arm was pinned behind his back and he was slammed violently face first onto a nearby table.
"What the fuck!" roared Brody
"You okay, Mr. Hudson?" boomed Jamal, while still pinning a struggling Brody to the table.
"Yeah! I'm fine" Finn replied to Jamal.
"Want me to throw this trash out?"
"It's up to you Rach! He's your boyfriend?"
Rachel hated hearing Finn refer to Brody as her boyfriend even though it was the case. "Can you please escort him out! Brody I'll talk to you tomorrow when you're sober"
The duo watched as Jamal picked up Brody as if he weighed nothing and dragged him out the back where he opened the back door and shoved him onto the street. Before slamming the door in his face and giving Finn a fist bump and Rachel a small nod in acknowledgement as he walked past.
I'll wait
For roses to be red again
And I hate
That you took my blue from the ocean
Give me back green greens and golden's
My purples my blues you stole them
How long will I be broken
You know I used to paint such vibrant dreams
Now I'm colorblind colorblind
When did my heart
get so full of the never mind never mind
"So what happens now?" Finn asked as he gently held Rachel's hand and stared into her eyes as her stomach filled with butterfly's.
"I should probably head home, but would it be possible to sing a song before I go? I promise I'll meet up with you in the next couple of days to tell you what's going on!" Rachel asked Finn trying to tell him she needed to express something.
"Of course you can sing something. I would be an idiot to turn down a singing opportunity from Broadway's next superstar. Once your done I'll get my driver to drive you home so I know you got home safe." To which Rachel just nodded as they settled back to watch and appreciate the rest of Mercedes performance.
Did you know
That you stole the only thing I needed
Only black and white in my eyes
I'm colorblind
It's only black and white in my eyes
I'm colorblind
"Thanks everyone!" Mercedes was just about to walk off stage when she saw Finn motioning for her to come to the side of the stage. After listening to what Finn told her Mercedes went back to the microphone.
"Well everyone it looks like you get an extra special treat tonight because next on stage is going to be Broadway's next big thing. The little diva with the big voice that's going to give Ms. Streisand a run for her money as best Fanny Brice. Ladies and Gentleman! I give you the lead in the upcoming revival of Funny Girl…My sister from another mister…Rachel Berry!"
Rachel nervously walked up onto the stage and waved to the applauding crowd. She briefly looked off to the side at Finn…her precious Finn who has a face splitting smile on his face. He could of lit up the entire eastern seaboard with that smile and he also looked so proud of her up on that stage.
"Hi…I'm Rachel Berry and someone once said to me that he wasn't good with words. So he puts what he wants to say into song because he told me he always talks better through song. So if you all don't mind I'd like to give that a try right now…and I just hope he hears what I'm trying to say." Rachel said while looking at Finn while saying it.
The band started playing with a soft guitar strumming away…
Summer comes, winter fades
Here we are just the same
Don't need pressure, don't need change
Let's not give the game away
There used to be an empty space
A photograph without a face
But with your presence, and your grace
Everything falls into place
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping when you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when you see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Heavy words are hard to take
Under pressure precious things can break
And how we feel is hard to fake
So let's not give the game away
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping when you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when you see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Rachel looked over at Finn and noticed his confused face and then looked over at the rest of her friends who were all wearing matching expressions of confusion. She just hoped Finn would understand what she really wanted to say.
And fools rush in
And I've been the fool before
This time I'm gonna slow it down
'Cause I think this could be more
The thing I'm looking for
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping when you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when you see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping when you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when you see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
After the song finished Rachel hopped off the stage and made her way towards Finn. She stood in front of him more nervous than she had ever been, "What did you think?"
"I seriously don't know Rachel. Does that mean you don't love me anymore?" Finn said on the verge of tears. Which Rachel quickly reached up and wiped away.
"No Finn! It means that I feel too much and like you said I think even though it's been painful. The time apart has been good for us because as Finchel we were beautiful but as Finn Hudson and Rachel Berry we were train wrecks, Finn. That's why I think you nailed it when you said we needed to be ourselves before we were us, if that makes sense. Ever since I started having boyfriends I haven't really taken time for myself. Which used to scare the crap out of me, that I would be forever alone…until you came along that is…" Rachel said smiling up at Finn.
"I went from longing after you, to having you, to losing you, to Puck, then back to longing for you again, then having you, then Jesse; Then back to you, breaking up and after I went to Brody. Instead of what you sent me here to do which was to become a star… yes…but to also find the real Rachel Berry and I feel I haven't done that yet. I see us as an unmovable building, but that building these to stand on a solid foundation for it to be strong. Yet at the moment I see it resting on only one foundation…you. I need to find me so I can become strong and be that other foundation so that the building that is Finchel can be unmovable.
I'm so proud of you Finn you have no idea! You became a teacher and actually taught kids to appreciate the arts! Now you have shown the world what I could always see that you Finn Hudson were destined for great things. Now it's my turn to show the world what I'm capable of. That's why I don't want you to say you love me, because I can't say it back…even though I want to with all my heart! I will say it one day Finn! And when I do I will shout it from the rooftops and I will mean it with every fiber of my being when I say that I love Finn Hudson! Because I gave you my heart all those years ago Finn and I never got it back"
With that Rachel reached up and cupped Finn's face with her hand and pulled his face down for a soul search passionate kiss. They pulled apart their faces flushed with a myriad of emotions before Rachel reluctantly pulled away and slowly walked towards the exits.
"Goodbye hummingbird!" Finn called out to a retreating Rachel.
Rachel turned around and smiled at Finn's secret nickname for her, " It's not goodbye it's a see you later…" Rachel went to keep on walking before turning around once again. "Oh! Finn! Take good care of my heart for me!"
Finn silently watched Rachel walk out the exit with a heavy heart and a tear in his eyes and just before Rachel disappeared from view Finn whispered to the universe and to the Finchel tether, "Always…you better do the same with mine…it's fragile." And then he wiped his eyes and went to find his friends.
Hope everyone enjoyed the latest chapter. The songs used in this chapter were 'Hummingbird' by B.B. King, 'Have You Ever' by Brandy, 'Colorblind' by Amber Riley and "Please Don't Say You Love Me' by Gabrielle Aplin. Brody returns to be a little bit of a spoil sport in this chapter but don't worry cause as the saying goes "Pride cometh before a fall" and the fall of Brody is coming very soon…maybe even next chapter…WHAT! Spoiler alert! Like always see you next time and have a good one and don't do anything I wouldn't do.