CHAPTER 11
08/14/2016
To Jasper,
I usually take only one leap a decade, and mine was used up this decade when I replied to your initial letter. That was the craziest thing I had ever done, and it was just a single, rude, 8 letter sentence. I suppose that sums me up though. I'm usually blunt and to the point, timid about new things, weary of everyone who isn't me and worst of all, quick to judge. I judged you, I judged Emmett, I even judged Rose. I'll get to their apologies later, but I'll give you yours now, and again when… if we meet. I'm sorry I judged you as a criminal and I'm sorry I judged your word sceptically.
So you're thinking of moving, can't say I blame you. I hated Rose living in Seattle, it worried me to the core, and just when I was finally done with my worrying, you are now there. You should move though, that place is toxic and the Volturi's are the cancer poisoning the city.
I left the house yesterday. I know that is a strange thing to mention, but I usually avoid going anywhere I don't need to. I went to the local café, had a coffee, got stuck speaking to the post lady whom I usually try to avoid, then walked back home relatively unscathed. Seven months ago, I hated going to the letterbox. I can't credit the change to Rose coming home, Emmett moving in or even to you, but I want to say thanks anyway, just as I will to them.
Happy with life,
Bella
08/19/2016
To Bella,
Congratulations on pushing yourself. This is a small step on the path to letting me read one of your stories. And speaking to the post lady? she must be the local gas-bag for you to avoid her, so again, congratulations.
I sold my house today, I have to vacate in a few weeks, so I'll have to make my mind up soon enough, I'm still indecisive, so keep sending your letters to the postal box, I won't leave its vicinity without informing you first. Peter and Charlotte have asked me to move over where they are, but that is quite far away, and I'm not sure if I want to be close to them yet. Peter is still giving me crap. Not to worry though, I have plenty of ammunition against him that shuts his mouth quick-fast.
There is also no need to worry about me now, I'm aware of the danger that lurks in the shadows, before I was just trying to keep myself too occupied with doing anything that I missed a lot. I promise, it won't happen again.
Emmett contacted me a few days ago, wanted to catch up. I agreed, but then he brought it to my attention that he couldn't leave the area. I really liked Emmett, but I don't want to visit the area if you are uncomfortable with my presence so close, so would you mind if I met up with Emmett?
Getting better,
Jasper
08/22/2016
To Jasper,
Far be it from me to tell you what to do or where you can and can't go. I understand how likeable Emmett is, the bastard even got to me. I will apologise if Emmett says anything horrific about me, and I'd like to say they are all lies, but well, I'd be lying; I'm no Mother Theresa.
As for my progressive steps, well… I'm not sure how far I will have to come to allow anyone to read one of my stories. I've never even let Rose or my Dad read anything, like I said, they expose me.
You sold your house before you even decided to move? That's… anyway. I don't know where your friends live, but if having them close and supporting you will help you get back on your feet, then you should consider if that's what is best for you, taunting aside. Or perhaps it is solitude you seek. As you said, you didn't have perspective until you had too much time to think, so maybe you need more time, to really think. I apologise if I have crossed a line, it really is none of my business, I just hope you land on your feet.
Emmett proposed to Rose, she said yes. He may've already mentioned it, but I just worry that his family is going to get themselves into trouble again and he tries to save the day again, leaving my sister out here all on her own, once again.
Feeling anxious,
Bella