CHAPTER 12

09/07/2016

To Jasper,

I know we usually have some sort of unspoken system of waiting for each others replies, but I find myself unable to stop myself from writing.

My mother showed up today.

You may have noted how I've only mentioned my father, well… he was the one that raised us, taught us right from wrong… mothered us. Rose slammed the door in her face after I stood there stunned for God knows how long. I just can't believe her audacity.

She actually demanded to speak with our father. We didn't tell her that he had passed, she has no right to know.

Sorry to vent my frustrations to you.

Sadly,

Bella

09/21/2016

To Bella,

I apologise for my belated reply, these last couple of weeks have been rather hectic. I vacated my house and moved into an apartment on the outskirts of the city. I almost moved out of state, but I just couldn't bring myself to purchase the ticket. Being close to those I care about will undoubtedly help my progress, but I have come to feel the same way about staying here in Washington. Where I am now is a quiet suburb, none of the raucous of the city.

I made it to Forks two weeks ago to meet with Emmett. I don't know if he mentioned it, but it seemed nice and quiet there… and green. He is looking well, I am pleased to see he has settled and landed on his feet, as you say. His presence still reminds me of the bitterness I have now come to associate with prison, I just hope to overcome this, because I do like Emmett.

And your mother showed up unexpectedly. I wish I had words to offer you, but I don't. I've never felt bitterness toward my parents, nor have I been traumatised by them, so I can't offer you anything. But you are upset, and from what I have learned of you, you don't usually verbalise your woes. Just know I am here to share the weight of your burdens if that is your wish, and please, don't apologise for writing to me in a time of need.

Hoping you're feeling better,

Jasper

10/04/2016

To Bella,

I met up with Emmett last weekend. He said you weren't doing too well. Your mothers incessant badgering has made you withdraw into yourself. Please don't be mad at him for running back and telling me things, it is just he and Rose are getting worried about you. I hope you know that I am here if you need to talk, or vent or if you just want to babble about anything but your problems.

So Emmett broke the news to me, you must be excited you are becoming an aunt. You get to spoil the baby and enjoy its happy moments, then return it to its parents when it starts crying, sounds like a win-win.

I stopped seeing my therapist. I feel good, really good in fact. I probably shouldn't have stopped seeing her, but I'm ready to move on with the next chapter of my life and stop living in the past.

Anxiously waiting,

Jasper

11/03/2016

To Bella,

So I am certain you are just ignoring my letters now, and unless I receive a reply from you in the next two weeks, then I am coming there myself. I understand life is hard and emotions often get the better of us, and I'm not exactly sure what it is that is upsetting you, but I am here for you. I will help in anyway I can, even if that is to bear the brunt of your anger, frustration, despair… whatever it is that has you isolating yourself.

Maybe seeing you in two weeks,

Jasper