A/N: Chapter 9! Enjoy reading this chapter and please write a review.

Summary: Izaya has been having headaches lately and when more symptoms appear he decides to go to the hospital. There he gets to hear that he has brain cancer.

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara!

Two weeks of treatment had gone by and today was the day he would be starting the third week. Where he had been feeling just tired on the first day, he was feeling a lot worse now. The tiredness was still there and seemed to only have increased, but now he felt nauseous too and he hadn't felt much like eating either.

And then of course there was the hair loss. He had woken up every morning with more of his hair laying on his pillow, which frustrated him to no end. He had hoped that he wouldn't lose the hair, but it seemed like it had been futile.

Now that he was losing his hair he was almost constantly wearing his hat, just not when he slept and when he was being treated. He didn't want others to see what was happening to him, so he had kept it hidden.

Groaning he pushed himself up from his bed and looked down at his pillow to once again see some of his hair laying there. He honestly didn't want to look at it, but he couldn't help it. Getting up he walked over to his closet and pulled some clothes out before going into the bathroom.

Turning on the shower to an acceptable warmth he undressed and walked into the shower without looking in the mirror. He had stopped looking into it since he had had his surgery. He honestly didn't feel comfortable with looking into one.

Once finished with his shower he put on his clothes and his hat before heading down the stairs. He knew he wouldn't have much time before Celty would be here to pick him up, so that meant that Namie was probably already downstairs.

What he hadn't expected was for Shiki to be sitting on his couch discussing things with Namie. "Good morning." Izaya said grabbing their attention and he could feel the other man's eyes staring at him.

"Good morning, make sure you eat something before you go out." Namie said. Namie had started taking care of him and he did feel grateful for that, but honestly at times like this he preferred if she wouldn't interfere with what he wanted.

"I'm not hungry." Izaya sighed and then remembered that Shiki was still here. "I should leave the two of you alone." Izaya said and just as he had said that there was a knock at the door. "Seems like my ride is here." He said and grabbed his jacket, but before he could open the door he heard Namie's voice.

"You should really eat something, Izaya." But he ignored her and opened the door before leaving with Celty towards the hospital leaving the two people behind.

"He looks worse than last time." Shiki commented to Namie and the woman just shook his head.

"He has a lot going on right now, but I can't believe he isn't eating." She sighed.

"That's his own responsibility. If you're fine with it, shall we get back to business?" Shiki said to which Namie nodded.

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After the treatment, Izaya felt bad and not just a bit, but really bad. He heard the door opening and saw the doctor walking inside, but he didn't trust himself in sitting up yet, because he felt quite nauseous.

"How are you feeling?" Why was that always the first thing the doctor asked?

"Not good." Izaya replied curtly and still didn't sit up.

"That's not good, are you tired? Nauseous? Or something else?" The doctor was asking for more details and Izaya honestly didn't feel like giving them.

"Both." Izaya answered and closed his eyes for a bit.

"Are you eating normally? Seems like you lost some weight." Oh, now he was commenting on his weight. So he lost weight? Well, the doctor should try to eat something when he felt nauseous and would just throw up if you tried.

The doctor noticed that he wasn't getting an answer. "It's because of the nausea isn't it?" Izaya decided to give him a short nod. "Alright, I will give you some medicine for it, it will give you back you appetite and it will help a bit with the nausea. I will prescribe you some megestrol acetate or megace for short. Just like I said, megace will help improve your appetite and will help you gain some weight, since your body is really in need of the nutrients." The doctor explained and Izaya kept himself from groaning when he heard about the fact that he would be getting more medicine. "I will also prescribe you some antidepressants." What? He was not depressed, so why would he need that?

"Why would I need that!" Izaya almost yelled, but this just made his nausea worse and noticing that he was about to throw up the doctor gave him something to throw up in.

The doctor waited till he was finished with throwing up before answering. "I'm not saying you're depressed, but I would advise you to take them." Izaya wanted to complain again, but it was probably needed if the doctor told him to take it.

"Fine, is Celty already informed to come pick me up?" Izaya asked. He had left it to the doctor if he was clearly not feeling well enough and this had been one of those times.

"I did, but she told me she wasn't able to get you and that she would sent Shizuo to come here." Izaya's eyes opened wide at that.

"No, not Shizu-chan, I can call my assistant to come and pick me up, Shizu-chan doesn't need to come." There was no way he could face the blonde after what had happened the last time. He still remembered clearly how he had broken down in front of him and had even cried.

"I can't send him back now, can I?" The doctor countered and Izaya opened his mouth to complain once more, but a knock at the door interrupted him.

"Heiwajima-san is here for Orihara-san." A nurse said.

"We will be right there." The doctor said and turned back to Izaya. "Seems like you have no choice."

Izaya wanted to complain a bit more, but decided that there was no way that was going to help. Sliding of the bed he stood up, but suddenly felt dizzy. This caused him to lose his balance, but the doctor caught him before he could fall.

"This happens when you don't eat enough." The doctor said, but Izaya knew that it wasn't just because he had eaten nothing.

"Let's get to Shizu-chan." He mumbled, not really wanting to go, but there was no way he was coming home alone like this and he knew that. The doctor walked in front of him and opened the door before letting Izaya through and then following himself.

Once Izaya was through the door he could already see the blonde waiting for him and he walked slowly towards him. "Ah, Shizu-chan, you came to pick me up?" Izaya tried to smirk at the blonde, but he knew he failed.

"Yeah, Celty wasn't able to come." Shizuo said before turning to the doctor. "Is he free to go?"

"He's fine to go, just be careful, since he hasn't been eating he is prone to feeling faint or dizzy and make sure to tell his assistant to make sure that he eats more." The doctor said and then walked over with a receipt. "This is his new prescription for the medicine, please pick it up from the pharmacy on your way out."

Izaya honestly wanted to just go, but the doctor just had to tell the blonde about how he hadn't been eating. "Shizu-chan, let's go." Izaya said and started tugging at the blonde's arm.

"Ah right, was that all?" He asked the doctor and when he received a nod, the two of them walked out of the room and towards the pharmacy.

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Once they were out of the hospital, they stopped a taxi to take them to Shinjuku. There was no way that they were going to walk or use public transportation, since Izaya would definitely not be able to handle that.

Now that they were in the car a silence had fallen between them and Izaya didn't want to be the first one to break it.

"Are you feeling alright?" The blonde suddenly asked and Izaya turned to face Shizuo.

"Not really, I'm tired and still feeling nauseous." Izaya answered honestly.

"Is that why you're not eating?" Of course, the blonde couldn't keep quiet about that.

"Is it that hard to believe?" Izaya asked a bit irritated.

"Izaya, I'm just asking, okay?" Shizuo was getting a bit irritated too.

"I didn't ask for you help!" Izaya raised his voice and could see the chauffeur looking nervously at them through the rear mirror, but he ignored it and the blonde clearly too.

"I'm doing this because you need it!" Izaya fell silent with that. Did he really need the blonde to help him? That just made him feel more weak than he knew he was.

"I'm fine." Izaya said in a small voice and looked away.

"You're not fine, don't bottle it all up. I told you, you can tell me." Shizuo said more softly now too.

"You don't understand. I hate being this weak." Izaya honestly wanted to cry, but there was no way he was going to do that here.

"You're strong, I don't know a person who's stronger than you mentally." Shizuo said.

"But not physically." He hated that his body couldn't keep up with his mind any longer and that his brain was at fault too.

"I have always been stronger than you physically, so that's nothing new." Izaya knew he was right, but that didn't take away that he felt weaker. He was tired, nauseous and honestly felt like he had no energy.

"Sorry to interrupt, but we have arrived." The chauffeur suddenly said and Izaya focussed on what was outside to see his apartment building.

Izaya wanted to take out the money, but Shizuo had already paid and went to his side of the car to help him out. Izaya wanted to slap his hands away, but instead accepted them, since he felt like he had no energy.

"Thanks." He mumbled once they were out of the car.

"No problem." Shizuo said and then started leading the raven inside the building and into the elevator. Once they were at the right floor, Izaya went over to his door and opened it, before walking inside. He was glad to see that Shiki was no longer there and that only Namie was here.

"Welcome back." The woman told him, but Izaya ignored her and went straight towards the couch before flopping down on it, landing with his face in a pillow. He could hear Shizuo walking inside his apartment, but he honestly didn't feel like paying attention.

"Heiwajima Shizuo? That's a surprise." Namie said.

"Yeah, Celty couldn't come, so I came instead." Shizuo said and then walked over to her. He still had to tell her what the doctor had told him. "Izaya got some new medication and the doctor told me to tell you to make sure he eats more." Shizuo gave the message.

"I expected as much, I told him this morning to eat, but he ignored me." Namie said and got the medicine from the blonde and opened it. "Megace? That's probably to help with the nausea and to improve his appetite. And antidepressants? Those are new, the other three he already had." Namie said and then went over to the kitchen and got some water before heading over to Izaya. "Izaya you need to take you medicine."

Izaya let out a groan, but got up anyway and sat on the couch. Accepting the pills his assistant gave him and swallowing them with the water, he went back to lie down.

"I will make you something to eat, alright?" Namie said and went back to the kitchen.

Shizuo was still standing in the room, not really sure what to do. "You can go home Shizu-chan, thanks for bringing me home." Izaya said tiredly and looked over at the blonde.

"Fine, if you need me, just give me a call." Shizuo said and then left the apartment.

Izaya closed his eyes as soon as he heard the door close and drifted of into a light sleep.