A/N: Here is chapter 13. I honestly tried to make it a cliffhanger, but couldn't do it in the end, so enjoy reading this chapter and please review.

Summary: Izaya has been having headaches lately and when more symptoms appear he decides to go to the hospital. There he gets to hear that he has brain cancer.

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara!

Two days had gone by a lot faster than Izaya had hoped. He didn't really want to do the surgery, but he knew he needed it. It had been hard to ask for help every single time, since normally he would have been able to get it himself, but now that his legs weren't working there was no way he could do everything by himself.

Shizuo had been staying with him as much as possible, had even asked a few days off from Tom and the older man had agreed, saying that he needed a break anyway. Now the two of them were sitting in his room waiting till it was time for him to go into surgery.

"Shizuo?" Izaya started.

"Hm?"

"What would you do if I-" But he got interrupted.

"Don't even think like that!" The blonde yelled. "Don't even think that you might die! You won't die!" Izaya knew the blonde sounded desperate, trying to convince himself.

"It's a possibility Shizuo." Izaya smiled sadly at him. "It's not up to you to decide it."

"I know, but I don't want you to die." The blonde was looking him straight in the eyes.

"That's rare coming from you Shizuo."

"Stop calling me that! Why are you not using my nickname?" Oh, so now the blonde got angry over that?

"Normally you would tell me to stop calling you Shizu-chan and now that I'm doing it you want me to use your nickname?" The blonde was really confusing, he had always been like that.

"This is different, this is not like you." The voice of the blonde was soft, but Izaya stayed silent. He couldn't deny it, he had noticed it himself, but admitting to it was something he wasn't going to do.

They stayed in silence till the door opened and the doctor walked in. "It's time to get you ready for the surgery, Orihara-san." He told them.

Izaya could feel his heart starting to beat faster. He was nervous. Izaya just let them do what they needed to do and answered when he was asked a question.

Now ready for the surgery he looked at Shizuo for the last time. "It will be fine." The blonde said, but he couldn't know that, Izaya knew that. He knew that the blonde didn't feel like he was speaking the truth either, but still tried to reassure him.

"Thanks Shizu-chan." Was all he said before they wheeled him out towards the operation room, leaving Shizuo to wait in the waiting room.

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Shizuo normally wouldn't have the patience to wait for hours on end, but only this time would he stay calm. That was if something didn't go wrong.

It had already been three hours since Izaya went into the operation room and he hadn't left his seat yet. He had gotten a bit stiff with waiting for this long, but he ignored it all. It would be worth it, he wouldn't believe that Izaya would die from this. There was no way he would allow himself to die. But what if his legs never started working again? Would Izaya really want to live with that?

Suddenly a lot of noise came from down the hall.

"There has been an accident!"

"What is the status?"

"Two people are dead and there are some injured." Shizuo stopped listening after this, this wasn't his concern. It was his concern that Izaya would survive this and would live through this without too much damage.

"Prepare for a heart transplant." This was what caught his attention. Izaya had told him yesterday, that if he died he would give his heart to Haru. This couldn't be right? It wasn't Izaya they were talking about right? There was no way that was true right? Izaya wouldn't lose his life because of this right?

This couldn't be true! Why was nobody coming to him to tell him it went wrong? He should know this right?

Shizuo would be left to sit there for another two hours.

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A knock sounded at his door, which caught Haru's attention. Soon the door was opened and doctors came in together with some nurses. "What wrong?" Was all he could say.

"There has been found a donor heart, so you're going to have a heart transplant today." One of the doctors said.

What? What did they mean? Izaya-san had gone to surgery today, right? Had he died during surgery? "Whose heart is it?" He asked, but he knew he wouldn't get an answer.

"That's something we can't tell you." He wanted to ask them is Izaya had died, but he couldn't get the words out. He didn't really know if he wanted to know the truth, because if the man had really died that would mean that he wouldn't be here once he woke up from the surgery. He wouldn't be able to help him with studying.

"You know the procedure of the surgery?" Another doctor asked and he could only nod. He had been asked not to eat anything for today, in case he would get Izaya's heart, but that he was really getting a transplantation right now was something he wasn't really realizing yet.

"Are you ready to go." He wasn't ready, he really wasn't, but he knew he had no choice and that this was the best, but he couldn't help but feel this uneasy feeling.

"I'm ready." He confirmed in a small voice and received a nod from the doctor before he got wheeled out by two nurses, followed by the doctors. He hoped that Izaya was fine and that this was just a coincidence.

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"Shizuo? Is there any news about Izaya?" Shizuo looked up to the person who had called out to him to see Shinra and Celty coming towards him.

"No news. He's still in there." Shizuo said and pointed to the operation room.

"For how long? Have you been sitting here all this time?" Shizuo didn't look at the doctor when he answered.

"Five hours and yes." He knew he must look bad, but Izaya was still in there, so he wasn't going to leave.

"I will get you something to drink." Shizuo heard before hurried footsteps left and a pda appeared in his face.

[What's wrong?] He really couldn't hide anything from Celty.

"I'm worried. They were talking about a heart transplant and Izaya has told me that he was planning on giving his heart to Haru if he died, so now I'm worried." Shizuo told the dullahan and he felt a comforting hand on his shoulder.

[He will be fine, he won't die this easily.] Shizuo wanted to believe her, he really did.

"I hope you are right." Was all he said before he focussed his gaze on the door once more.

Shinra came back a bit later with something to drink and Shizuo drank a bit, but he wasn't paying much attention to it.

It took another hour before a door opened and a doctor walked out. "How is he?" Was the first thing Shizuo asked while he walked over to the doctor ignoring the stiffness if his body.

"He made it through the surgery and we were able to remove the tumor. It's only a question of how much damage we did to his brain and if his legs will work again, but that's something we can only know once he wakes up." Shizuo felt relief wash over him and suddenly he felt tired, but he needed to see Izaya.

"Can I see him?"

"You can, he will be out for a while and when he wakes up he might be disoriented." Shizuo only gave a nod. "He's in his own room." That was all Shizuo needed to know before he left for the room. He really wanted to see the raven.

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Shizuo felt nervous when he opened the door. He honestly didn't know what to expect, but when he saw the raven lying there in the bed with his bandaged head he looked so vulnerable.

Shizuo slowly made his way over and sat down on the chair, extending his hand so that he could lightly grab the raven's.

Izaya had been hooked up to quite a bit of machines, but they told the blonde that the raven was still alive.

Shizuo felt tired and before he even noticed it he had fallen asleep in the chair.

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The first thing Izaya noticed when he woke up was that something was in his hand. He couldn't really place it, since his mind just didn't seem to catch on with what he felt. Slowly he opened his eyes, but squinted them shut when light infiltrated them and almost blinded him.

This time he blinked a few times before he opened his eyes completely. His sight was a bit hazy, but it was soon getting better. Everything started coming back and he remembered the surgery and what could have happened.

He turned his head to his hand and saw another hand grasping his own, following the hand he saw a mop of familiar blonde hair and he heard soft snoring coming from the person. Shizuo looked tired, he probably stayed awake through his whole surgery and he didn't even know how long it had taken.

He noticed the door opening and a doctor walked inside. The doctor seemed to be surprised to see him awake, but soon recovered himself. "I see you're awake." The doctor said and Izaya only gave a small nod, not really trusting his voice, since his throat felt dry.

The doctor seemed to notice this and grabbed a glass of water before helping the raven to drink it.

"You probably want to know how everything went right?" Izaya nodded once more. "The surgery has taken a bit more than six hours and we were able to remove the tumor successfully. You will still receive a bit of radiotherapy, to make sure that every tumor cell is gone, but that will be for only two weeks." Izaya knew this would be happening.

"What about my legs?" He decided to ask, he hadn't dared to try moving them, since he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to move them.

"We still need to see how much damage your brain has received, so we will be doing a few tests, are you up for it right now?" Izaya wanted to know if he would be able to walk and run again, so he gave a nod.

"I would like to do it right now." His voice was still weak, but it was already getting stronger.

"Alright, then first, let's see you moving your fingers." Izaya did as he was asked and slowly moved his fingers. With his left hand he clenched slightly on the blonde's and he could see the blonde stir when he did that.

"Izaya?" The blonde murmured sleepily.

"Yes, Shizu-chan?" Izaya answered and a small tired smile appeared on his face.

"You're awake." Shizuo said and then noticed the doctor in the room. "Do I need to leave?"

"No, you don't. I was only testing the movement of my fingers, which woke you up." Izaya said and then looked at the doctor. "What are we doing next?" Izaya could already guess what would come next, but he honestly dreaded it more than he thought he would.

"I want to see if there is feeling and possible movement in your legs." Izaya gulped when he heard the words spoken. He felt a squeeze in his hand and he turned to face the blonde, whom nodded.

"Alright, I just need to tell you if I feel anything and I need to try if I can move my toes right?" A nod from the doctor was all he got as a confirmation.

The doctor lifted the blanket off of his legs, revealing them. Then the doctor came down with his hand and gave a squeeze on his big toe. "Do you feel this?" Izaya felt a bit overwhelmed when he did indeed feel a bit, it wasn't much, but he definitely felt it. He gave a small nod and he could already feel tears appearing in his eyes.

"That's good, next try to move your toes." Izaya tried to do what he asked, but he couldn't get it done, somehow they wouldn't move however much he tried. He felt panic once again coming up and he squeezed Shizuo's hand in hope of support.

"You can't move them?" Izaya shook his head and now his tears were falling freely. "Don't worry, that can happen. It's good that you have some feeling in them, that means that with physiotherapy, it will be possible for you to move your legs once more. I just don't know how long it will take, it might even take a year or more." So he would be able to move his legs again? It could only take quite some time before he would be able to again?

"So you're saying I will be able to walk again, it just might take a long time?" He didn't like the idea of needing to wait before he could walk or run again, but it was at least something.

"That's right, I will make your appointments with the physiotherapist from tomorrow on, so that you can start as soon as possible. Now I want to do one last test for now, I want you to try and read this." The doctor handed him a paper and Izaya squinted his eyes when he found out that he couldn't read it. He tried holding it at an arm's length away and then he could finally start reading it.

"Seems you're farsighted." The doctor commented and Izaya looked at him. He knew this could happen, but he hadn't expected it to be this bad.

"So I will need glasses to be able to read stuff?" He questioned his eyes narrowing.

"That's right, I will also make an appointment for you with the optician then." Great another appointment. "That's all I wanted for now, please get some rest." With that the doctor left and left the two of them alone in the room.

"How are you feeling?" Shizuo suddenly asked and Izaya turned his head to look at him.

"Tired, I want to sleep some more." On one hand he wanted to stay awake for Shizuo, but on the other hand he felt tired.

"Then sleep, I will be here when you wake up." With those words, Izaya closed his eyes and soon fell asleep.