A/N: Chapter 14 is here. Enjoy reading it and please review.

Summary: Izaya has been having headaches lately and when more symptoms appear he decides to go to the hospital. There he gets to hear that he has brain cancer.

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara!

The next day Izaya was waiting in his room for the physiotherapist. He had sent Shizuo away, since he knew he couldn't keep asking the blonde to stay with him and that the blonde had to work too. That's why he had told the blonde to leave and that he would be fine on his own for the first time.

Izaya didn't know if that was the truth, but he had to at least try. He should be fine on his own, since he couldn't always rely on Shizuo.

Shizuo had told him about the fact that Haru had received a new heart yesterday when he was in surgery too and that the boy probably wouldn't be coming for a while. That explained why he wasn't here yet to look if he was fine.

Izaya himself wasn't able to go to the boy yet either, so he had sent Shizuo to tell the boy that the surgery had gone fine and that he hadn't received Izaya's heart, since he could see Haru getting the idea that it had been his heart, especially with the timing.

The door opened and Izaya looked up to see a woman walking in. He hadn't known if his physiotherapist would be a man or a woman, but here he had his answer. He just wondered if she would be able to support him physically through this, but that was something he probably shouldn't question. He wasn't that heavy really and he had lost a bit of weight, which he hadn't regained much of.

"Good morning, Orihara-san." The physiotherapist started and smiled at him. Izaya could almost immediately see that it wasn't a real smile, but just a business smile. "I will be your physiotherapist for the rest of your rehabilitation." Oh great, she already called it rehabilitation. He had known that this would come, but he just didn't like that word.

"Whatever you want to call it." Izaya really couldn't help but comment on it.

"I see that your boyfriend isn't here." Izaya got confused at that. He knew that she was only trying to make a conversation, but to talk about that was something he didn't expect, since he didn't have a boyfriend.

"What do you mean?" He asked her confused.

"The blonde guy, I heard from the nurses that he has been visiting you everyday since you were hospitalised again." Did she really think that he and Shizuo were a couple? Izaya couldn't help but laugh at that. He might have gotten closer to the blonde over the last few months, but that definitely didn't mean that they had a relationship.

"Not my boyfriend." Izaya denied it curtly.

"Ah sorry, I shouldn't have made assumptions." The woman was at least one to apologize.

"It's fine." Izaya said.

"Ah right, shall we start? I want to ask you some questions first and then we will see what we can do right now." The woman proposed and Izaya gave a curt nod.

"Sure, just start asking." The woman was probably going to ask routine questions. Izaya had had quite a bit of them already over the past few months and he knew he would be getting more of them in the months to come.

"These are just some questions I need to ask before we can start. I already know for how long your legs haven't been working, but I also need to know how it is with your balance. "Have you been having any balancing problems yet after the surgery. I know you had them before the surgery, but have you noticed anything different yet?" The woman was quite straightforward with her questions if he had to be honest.

"Nothing I have noticed yet, my body seems to be functioning normal, except for my legs." Izaya answered honestly.

"Alright, it's good that you haven't noticed anything wrong. I heard from your doctor that you have feeling in you feet and legs, which means that that is at least back. Now we need to try and get your legs working again with exercises. In the beginning it will be frustrating, because you won't be able to move your legs on your own yet, but once you start being able to move them, we will start with gaining the strength back in your legs. I can't say yet how long it will take, but in the next few weeks it should become clear how fast the rehabilitation goes." The woman explained quite a bit, but nothing was really new information for him, he had already done his research, so he had expected this.

"That's fine, what do you want me to do today?" He didn't even know if he had to do anything, since she might be the only one doing things.

"We will be trying to move your toes and feet for now. I know you aren't able to on your own, so I will be helping with that till you will finally be able to do it on your own and then we will move on to your knees and lastly to your whole leg. Afterwards we will be doing different exercises to let you regain the strength you lost. I can't promise yet that your legs will regain the full use, that's something that we need to find out while working together." The last bit of information was definitely not something he was happy with. He wanted to have the full use of his legs back, otherwise he probably wouldn't be able to run anymore and that was something that couldn't happen.

"So I might not get the full use of my legs back?" Izaya dreaded the answer, he really didn't want to hear it, but he wanted to know.

"Just like I said, I won't make any promises. We will have to see." He really wanted to be reassured that it would be fine, but the reality really was different.

"Are you ready to start? Or do you want to wait?" Izaya shook his head when those questions came.

"Let's start this." The woman nodded and then lifted blanket off of his legs and then put it aside completely. Izaya pushed the button to let the headend get higher, since he really wanted to see what the woman would be doing.

"I will start with moving your toes one by one and then we will go to your ankle." The woman did as she had said and grabbed his foot with one hand before she started moving his toes. It was really weird to see the woman doing it, but somehow it did feel great too. Since he had feeling, he could feel her moving them and it somehow felt a bit more natural than when they wouldn't listen to him when he tried to move them.

"Are you alright?" Izaya looked at the woman and gave a small nod.

"I'm fine, just continue." He wouldn't be telling her that it actually felt really good to have the feeling back after having it lost before the surgery.

"I will now be moving your whole foot, you need to tell me if anything feels weird." The woman told him and then grabbed his foot with one hand and his leg with the other and then started moving his foot around. He had to say that it did feel a bit weirder than his toes, but this was still fine.

After a while the woman was finished and then looked at him. "Now could you try to move them yourself?" Izaya tried it, but they still wouldn't move. He knew it was just the first day, but he had hoped to at least be able to do anything.

"Seems like I can't." Izaya said a bit sullen.

"That's fine, it might take a while." The woman told him with a small smile, but it didn't help at all at how he felt.

"We will leave it at this right now and I will be back tomorrow at the same time. You also have an appointment with the optician today right? You still have a few hours before you need to be there, so take your time to rest. You have been in surgery yesterday after all." Izaya just nodded and watched her walk away before closing his eyes. He had really wanted to be able to move them, but it seemed like it would take a bit longer. He honestly didn't want to sleep, but he felt tired, so before he could even try to stay awake he could feel himself falling asleep.

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Opening his eyes, Izaya looked to the side once he noticed a presence. He saw Shizuo sitting there. He wondered how long the blonde had been there already.

"How long have you been here?" Izaya saw Shizuo jump when he asked the question, but the blonde quickly looked towards him.

"Not long, Tom told me to take the afternoon off and to go see you." The blonde explained why he was there.

"He really shouldn't be giving you so many time off." Izaya said.

"He knows your situation and I said I would be here for you. How did it go with the physiotherapist?" That was the question he had hoped to avoid, but it didn't seem like he would be able to.

"No improvement, but she said it might take a while." Izaya answered and then turned his face away. He didn't want the blonde to see the sadness in his eyes.

"What's wrong Izaya?" Why was the blonde so good in catching his mood lately?

"She said she couldn't make any promises about me getting the full use of my legs back." Izaya mumbled and didn't dare to look at the blonde.

"She didn't say that it wasn't a possibility right? It means that it is also possible that you will get the full use back. It's just a matter of time." Shizuo was trying to cheer him up, he knew that, but he had honestly felt discouraged when the woman had told him that she couldn't make any promises.

"I don't know Shizu-chan. I had hoped that she could reassure me, but she clearly couldn't."

"Then you just need to try your hardest right? That way you can have it in your own hands." Shizuo tried.

"I know, it's just quite hard."

"I will be there to support you. I will be here in every session if you want me to." Izaya wanted him to stay, but he knew it wouldn't be something he could ask of the blonde.

"I honestly want to ask you to stay, but I can't. You have work to do."

"I can always ask Tom to start later, then there's no problem. I will just work the rest of the day. You shouldn't have a problem with that."

"Fine." Was all Izaya said and he could see a smile appearing on the blonde's face.

"You needed to go to the optician right? Is there someone coming to get you? I see that they already placed a wheelchair in your room." Shizuo commented.

"Yeah, they did this morning and a nurse would come to take me there, but you can come with me." Izaya told the blonde and just as he said that his door opened once more and a nurse walked inside.

"Are you ready to go Orihara-san?" The woman asked him and Izaya gave her a small nod.

"Shizu-chan will help me, so can you show us the way?" He knew the woman would probably try to help him in the wheelchair, but he knew that Shizu-chan would be a better choice.

"Ah sure, do you want a blanket for over your legs, it's pretty cold. You can also wear your jacket if you want to." That was indeed something he would like.

"Shizu-chan can you grab my jacket? And sure, I would like a blanket." Izaya answered and waited for Shizuo to hand him his jacket before he wore it and then turned his head to the blonde. "Can you help me?"

A small nod was all he received before the blonde put the blankets aside and then lifted him off the bed before placing him in the wheelchair carefully. The nurse came with the blanket and draped it over his legs, while Shizuo grabbed the handles of the wheelchair.

"Please lead us to the optician." Izaya said and the nurse nodded before showing them the way to where the optician would be.