A/N: Chapter 24! Enjoy reading it and please review!

Summary: Izaya has been having headaches lately and when more symptoms appear he decides to go to the hospital. There he gets to hear that he has brain cancer.

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara!

Around a week had gone by, but Izaya couldn't say that he was feeling better at all. The doctor had given him the clear yesterday that he was fine to start trying to walk again. Now he was waiting for the woman to come and for Shizuo to come too. The blonde wasn't here yet, which was odd. Normally he would have been here already, especially since today was the day he was starting again with full physiotherapy.

The door opened and Izaya hoped that it was Shizuo, but when he looked up he saw it was his physiotherapist. "Good morning, Orihara-san." The woman greeted him. "Today we will go back to the walking practise. I see that Heiwajima-san is not here?" Izaya watched her every move. His trust in people had dropped really low, so right now he was feeling really uncomfortable with her being the only one here.

"He's probably late." Was all he said while he narrowed his eyes when the woman got closer.

"Do you want to go without him or do you want to wait?" He definitely wanted to wait, but he knew the woman wasn't going to accept that for long, but he really needed Shizuo to be there.

"I want to wait." He heard the woman sigh at his answer, but she didn't say anything. She was clearly not satisfied with him. "If you have something against me you can just tell me, I know no one cares, so you telling me something won't hurt more, you know?" Izaya got angry, maybe more at himself than at the woman, but he was still angry.

"That's not what I meant." Izaya narrowed his eyes at her, not trusting a word she said. She was just like all the others, there was no way that she would care for him, since this was just her job.

"Then what did you mean?" The anger still hadn't subsided, but there was also some confusion. Why had he gotten this angry? Was it because Shizuo wasn't here or was it because of his physiotherapist?

"I didn't mean anything by it." The woman still tried to smile, but Izaya could see it was fake.

"Just stop with the pretense, you know you're not caring at all, so why are you even trying?" He wanted to know her true feelings. He needed to know them, even though they would hurt. He knew they would hurt, since he knew nobody cared. Shizuo might be the only one who really cared and Izaya tried to believe in that, but he was still very insecure about that and that the blonde was late right now was definitely not helping.

The woman opened her mouth to speak, but before she could say anything they heard the door get thrown open and hurried footsteps walking into the room. "Izaya!" Came the voice of Shizuo and Izaya turned around to see the blonde standing there panting and sweating as if he had just run all the way here. "I overslept, I'm so sorry for being late."

Izaya felt a bit relieved at those words. Shizuo had only overslept, it was not because he didn't care. Something like this could happen after all. "It's fine, we were waiting till you got here, right?" He said while he looked at the woman for a moment for confirmation. When she nodded, Izaya focussed his attention back to Shizuo.

"Sorry, I would have been here sooner if I hadn't overslept." Shizuo apologized once more, before walking over to the bed. "Are you ready to go then?"

Izaya knew he would be lying if he told Shizuo that he was ready, but he knew he couldn't complain about it. If he wanted to walk again, he would need to do this. But he was a bit conflicted, would he even need to walk again? Was it really worth all the trouble? It would take a long time and he might not even recover completely.

Suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder and when he looked at Shizuo he realized he hadn't even answered the question yet.

"I don't know, but I need to try." Izaya mumbled so soft, it was only heard by Shizuo.

"Yeah, let's try, alright?" The blonde said and gave the raven a gentle look. "Will you be fine getting in the wheelchair yourself or do you need help?" Izaya turned his look to the wheelchair and he felt really insecure suddenly. He hadn't done this for a bit of time, so he was afraid it would go wrong.

Taking a deep breath he nodded curtly and then pulled the blankets off himself. "I will try on my own." He lowered the bed and helped his legs over the edge, before slowly grabbing the wheelchair and standing up slowly. His legs were shaking while he did this, but soon he had turned the right way and he could let himself sink into the wheelchair.

He could move his legs a bit more now, so it had gotten easier, but there was still no strength in his legs and laying down for the past days hadn't done it any good. Izaya could tell when he stood on them for a bit just now.

"Shall we go?" The woman spoke again and with a nod from Izaya the three of them left the room.

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Izaya was exhausted after they were finished, but he didn't feel like going back to his room. "Shizu-chan, I want to go somewhere." Izaya said once they were alone.

"Do you want to go to the roof?" The blonde asked, to which Izaya shook his head.

"I want to go out of the hospital for a bit." Izaya could tell that Shizuo felt insecure about this. "I have normal clothes in my room and we can borrow a wheelchair." Izaya said, but Shizuo still didn't seem convinced. "I want to go to Russia Sushi, eat something and then back, alright?"

"We need to ask first if you can leave the hospital." Izaya scowled at that.

"There's no way they're letting me go." Izaya said and then started sulking. He really wanted to get out of the hospital for a bit.

"Let me try and ask first, alright?" Shizuo didn't receive an answer, but went to one of the nurses anyway.

"Izaya wants to go out of the hospital for a bit, is that alright?" Izaya looked up at the nurse and could almost immediately see the unsure look.

"I don't know, I think it's best that he stays inside the hospital." The woman said, to which Izaya growled.

"I will look after him and we will only get something to eat and then we will be back." Izaya knew Shizuo was trying, but the nurse was definitely not going to give in.

"I don't think it's a wise idea." She just said and this time Izaya couldn't help but comment on it.

"Shizu-chan, I think she thinks I will kill myself if they don't watch me." He saw the nurse flinch when he said that and knew he had hit the nail right on the head.

"Of-of course not." The nurse was stuttering, he had obviously been right.

"I will make sure he won't, so will you let us go?" Shizuo was now growling, clearly irritated by what the woman had been thinking.

"Fine, but I want him back before dinner." They were going out for lunch after all.

"That's fine." Shizuo said and then they went back to Izaya's room to get the raven dressed and into his jacket, before they headed out.

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"Are you really fine, showing your face again?" Shizuo asked once they were outside.

"Yeah, I needed to get out of the hospital for a bit." Izaya answered and looked around at the people who were clearly staring at them. "Seems like we're already getting attention." Izaya mumbled the last thing. Before he would have liked the attention, but he didn't like it right now. He felt as if they were all accusing him for still being alive. Questioning him why he hadn't died yet.

"Don't pay attention to them. Just think about the otoro you will be having in a bit." Shizuo tried to reassure him, but Izaya still didn't like the stares.

"Just hurry, I don't like them staring." Izaya kept his voice low while he told the blonde this.

"Sure, we're almost there, not much farther now." Shizuo said and meanwhile he was throwing angry glares to the people around them, making sure they knew he didn't want them to stare.

"Izaya! Shizuo! Have you come to eat sushi?" Simon's voice greeted them while they were approaching Russia Sushi.

"Yeah, that's right, Izaya wanted to get some sushi." Shizuo said.

"Hello, Simon." Izaya said with a smile plastered on his face, which was obviously fake. "I would like some otoro, I haven't had it for quite some time." It was true, he hadn't gotten any food from outside the hospital for months, which meant he had no way of eating otoro, unless Shizuo brought it, but the blonde hadn't done that lately.

"Of course, what would Shizuo like?" Simon asked while looking at the blonde.

"I would like the usual." Shizuo said and then let Simon lead the two of them inside.

"Could we have a private room, Simon?" Izaya asked to which the Russian looked with an understanding look.

"Of course, just follow me." Simon said and led them further into the restaurant towards the private rooms. "Here, this room is for you." Shizuo pushed Izaya inside and helped the raven sit down at the table. "I will be back soon." Simon told them and then left the room.

"Will you be fine sitting like that? Or do you want to lean against the wall? I can move the table." Shizuo said but Izaya shook his head.

"I might be a bit tired from the physiotherapy, but I will be fine for now, when I get tired I will tell you." Izaya said and he saw the doubt in Shizuo's look, but the blonde didn't say anything about it.

"Simon seemed to react pretty well." Shizuo commented and Izaya nodded at that.

"He probably knew I would rather not talk about it." Izaya said. He was grateful that the russian hadn't asked him any questions. He honestly didn't want to answer anymore of them.

Izaya looked at his wrists for a moment. There were still bandages, but they would be gone soon too and then there would be only scars left to remind him of what he had done. Shizuo clearly noticed what he was thinking, since he grabbed Izaya's hands in his own, so that the raven would look at him.

"It will be fine, I will be here always, so when you're having a hard time I will be able to help you." Shizuo said and Izaya noticed how serious the blonde was looking while he said this.

"Shizuo…" Izaya didn't know what to say, he had been at a loss for words a lot lately and this was once again such a time.

"Izaya, I love you." Izaya's eyes went wide. Had those words really just come from Shizuo? Had the blonde really just confessed to him?

Izaya opened his mouth to answer, to say anything, but he was once again at a loss for words.

"I understand if you don't feel the same or if this is too much for you right now, but I really do love you." Shizuo told him and when Izaya looked into his eyes, he saw the pure love the blonde had for him.

"Shizuo… I…" Before he could finish however, the door opened and Simon walked in with their orders.

"Here is the sushi. Enjoy and no fighting." The man said before leaving the two of them once again alone.

Izaya stared at his otoro for a moment, he knew he had to answer the blonde, give him an answer at least. "I… I don't know, Shizuo." Izaya answered and didn't dare to look up at the blonde, afraid to see a hurt look in those brown eyes.

"It's fine, I can wait." The reply sounded forced, but Izaya didn't comment on it.

They continued eating in silence and afterwards they went back to the hospital and not another word was spoken between them for the rest of the way back.