A/N: Chapter 27 is here. It is a bit smaller than the others, but I hope you will still enjoy reading it. I am taking a break for a few days, the next chapter will be in the weekend at the latest. Please review.

Summary: Izaya has been having headaches lately and when more symptoms appear he decides to go to the hospital. There he gets to hear that he has brain cancer.

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara!

A month had gone by and Izaya was physically getting better. He could already walk small distances with a bit of support, but that was nothing more than in his room, outside his room was something he couldn't handle yet.

He was trying to be able to walk without any support, but it still proved a bit too hard. Even though he was still trying with Shizuo helping him. He had something to support him while walking, but using Shizuo was a bit easier.

Mentally was a different matter and he knew it himself. He had a hard time trusting anyone and the only one he completely trusted was Shizuo. He was still having nightmares sometimes and panic attacks were still happening too.

Shizuo helped him get through them and calmed him down, but somehow he hated being so dependent on the blonde. It felt like Shizuo couldn't do anything for himself like this and he knew the blonde had been working less and less for Tom, which Izaya really didn't want to happen.

Not to mention that he himself hadn't taken any new jobs, since he had to hand the last one over to Namie after everything that happened. It was clear that he wasn't fit to work again if he couldn't keep himself together and that had been the reason why he hadn't gotten another job.

He was wondering when he would be able to leave the hospital, since he felt pretty fine physically and mentally was not something he needed to stay for in the hospital as long as he had someone to watch him at home probably. Which meant that he needed to rely on someone, which he really didn't want to do.

He was still talking with the psychiatrist, since it did help him a bit and Shizuo was happy with him talking to one. But talking to the psychiatrist didn't take away the nightmares or the panic attacks, it was probably something he would need to learn to live with, but it wasn't easy and he knew this wasn't going to disappear as long as he kept distrusting people. It might even get worse once he was out of the hospital again.

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Currently he was sitting on his bed, having his laptop in his lap. He had slowly started looking again on the internet, but he hadn't dared to go back to the Dollars' site yet. He was still afraid of the messages, even though Mikado had told him that the ones who had posted the messages were gone.

He had the feeling that there would still be others who thought the same and would just start saying it once he got back on that site. He had gone to chatroom once, but nobody had been there. He would have liked to talk to them again without them visiting here.

He honestly didn't want people to visit him, they would see him again once he was out, too many people had already seen him like this and now that his trust was almost non-existent he only trusted Shizuo to come here.

"Orihara-san?" Izaya got taken out of his thoughts by the voice of the doctor who had been attending to him since he had gotten into the hospital. "I wanted to discuss some things with you." Izaya didn't really like talking to the doctor alone, but he knew he should be able to trust the man even if he didn't feel like he could.

"What did you want to talk about?" Izaya asked and closed his laptop before putting it beside him.

"Your recovery has been going well lately and I wanted to talk to you about when you would be ready to leave." Izaya had known that this conversation was coming.

"What about it?" He decided to let the doctor come first with his idea.

"Ah, you see, once you're able to walk a bit of distance on your own, we're planning on discharging you, but this doesn't mean that you're completely done yet. You will need to come back for physiotherapy and of course also for psychiatrist." Did the doctor really need to mention the last bit? "There are however some advices we will give you, since we can't just let you go out of here without someone watching over you and helping you." There it came, just as he had expected.

"So you want someone to watch me so I won't do anything stupid?" Izaya asked while narrowing his eyes at the doctor. It was clear that the doctor was accusing him of still being suicidal.

"You need someone to be there if you have a panic attack or if something happens while you're walking and something goes wrong." The doctor tried to bring it nicely, but Izaya already knew what the doctor's real concern was.

"You're just afraid of me killing myself." Izaya growled, but before the doctor could answer Izaya saw Shizuo entering through the door. "Shizu-chan, great timing, we were just talking about what happens when I get discharged."

"Are you getting discharged soon then?" Shizuo asked with a frown on his face.

"Not until he is able to walk a bit on his own." The doctor answered while he looked at the blonde approaching them. "We were just talking about some advices I was giving Orihara-san for when he gets discharged."

"What advice?" It was clear that Shizuo wasn't in a good mood right now.

"He wants me to have a suicide watch." Izaya told the blonde and he could see that Shizuo's frown deepened even further.

"That was not the reason I told you." The doctor told the both of them. "I told you it was because you need someone to help you with the panic attacks and possibly for if something goes wrong while you're walking on your own."

"So a suicide watch is what you mean right?" Izaya really didn't like this doctor. The man was clearly talking about preventing suicide, but he just wouldn't admit it.

"So he just needs someone to watch him and be there for him?" Shizuo suddenly asked, surprising the other two in the room. Izaya hadn't expected the blonde to sound so calm.

"I already have Namie." Izaya said fast, since he knew what Shizuo was meaning with those words.

"But she will only be there during the day right? And probably not everyday either." Shizuo pointed out and Izaya knew he was right. "I could do the rest, I will work for Tom in the time Namie is with you." Izaya had known this proposal was coming and he didn't like it.

"But you have already missed a lot of work." Izaya said, but the blonde only shook his head.

"It's fine, Tom understands." Shizuo said.

"Seems like it won't be a problem them, just know that this means watching him every single hour, so that means you will probably need to live together." The doctor said before standing up. "I will make the arrangements and once you're able to walk properly you will be able to leave." With that the doctor left leaving the two of them alone in the room.

"Do you really want to do this Shizu-chan?" Izaya asked while looking at the blonde.

"Yeah, already expected we would need to live together." Shizuo mumbled.

"We're living at my apartment." Izaya said, there was just no way he was going to live at Shizuo's.

"That's fine, since that will be easier for your assistant too." Shizuo said.

"Never thought we would be living together." Izaya mumbled and he could see Shizuo smiling.

"Me neither, but let's make the best of it, alright? Just see it as living together and nothing else." Shizuo said and Izaya could only nod. Shizuo leaned down and slowly kissed Izaya on the lips. Izaya responded with kissing back and when he felt Shizuo's tongue trying to pry open his lips he opened them and let the blonde in.

Closing his eyes, Izaya felt himself melt while the blonde started kissing him more forceful. A small moan escaped Izaya's lips and he felt his hands coming up and around Shizuo's neck.

Suddenly they heard something fall to the ground and the both of them broke the kiss to look at what had happened.

A nurse had come in carrying what was probably Izaya's food and had dropped it to the floor when she had seen the two kissing.

"Ah… Sorry… Ehm, I will get you some other food." The nurse said and grabbed the stuff from the ground before leaving as fast as she could.

"Seems like we won't be able to get further here." Shizuo mumbled. Izaya couldn't help but start laughing.

"We will have all the time once we get to my apartment." Izaya suddenly realised what he said and his face turned a beetred.

"Oh? So you are willing to go further?" He could tell that Shizuo was teasing him.

"I didn't say that, just that there is no one to interrupt us at my apartment." Izaya mumbled.

"Still seems like you want to go further."

"Shut up." Izaya knew he didn't mean it, but he was just a bit scared to go further with the blonde. He felt like he would be giving himself fully once he had gone all the way with Shizuo and something in him wanted to keep that last barrier up.

"We will go at your pace, don't worry." Shizuo said and then stood up to his full length. "Seems like your dinner will come back soon, so do you want to do something while we wait?" Shizuo said, but Izaya shook his head.

"Nah, let's not scare them again." Izaya said while smirking. Shizuo couldn't help but feel a bit relieved seeing that familiar smirk back on the raven's face. It had been quite sometime since he had last seen it.