Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter cause if I did, Ginny would have died in the CoS, Dumbledore would have choked on a lemon drop, and Harry and Draco would have been friends and/or lovers.

"Dialogue"

Harry's Thoughts

Hey babes, sorry I haven't updated in like forever. I'm going through a lot right now and on top of that school is really kicking my ass, and on top of all that I just suck at writing. This update is extremely short because I will be asking for help at the end of the chapter so please read the note at the end.

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As time passed, life at Hogwarts seemed to be mainly uneventful. During their first flight lesson, Neville managed to fall a good distance and had to be taken to the infirmary. Other than that, nothing of importance seemed to happen.

Classes seemed to pass in a blur along with not eating, cutting nightly, and trying to keep all of this a secret. Long times spent in the library allowed Harry to learn silencing spells so he wouldn't wake his dorm mate's with his nightmares. He also learned some simple glamours to hide his cuts in case his sleeves ever got pulled up.

Before Harry knew it, it was the night of the Halloween feast and everybody was excited to see what treats there would be. As he walked with his friends to the Hall, he tried to come up with an excuse to get out of eating.

Once they reached the great doors, Harry stopped before saying, "I have to go to the bathroom, I'll be back soon," before darting away. He hid in the bathroom for as long as he could before resigning to the fate that he would have to eat some. Oh, you just want to eat candy, you fatass.

He settled down at the table, putting some random foods on his plate, not noticing the appraising gaze from the head table. It seemed luck was on his side that night because before he could take a bite, the doors were flung open, slamming against the wall.

"TROLL IN THE DUNGEON…Thought you ought to know."

"SILENCE. Can house prefects please lead the students back to their dormitories."

Not a sound was made after Dumbledore yelled, silencing all students so he could tell them what to do. After which, everyone started walking together back to their houses, keeping an eye out for the loose troll.

Finally the Slytherins reached their dorms and relaxed on the couches and chairs in the common room. Seeing this as the perfect escape opportunity, Harry excused himself saying that he was going to go lay down. He set up the silencing and warding spells around his bed to ensure that he wouldn't be bothered.

Once Harry was safe in isolation he pulled out his razor blade and prepared to cut, though he soon reached a problem. As he rolled up his sleeves, he saw that he had no untouched skin to cut, unless he wanted to reopen wounds. Harry soon decided that the best route would be to cut his thighs, since he would not have to cover them with glamours. Maybe if I'm covered in enough scars, I'll be too ugly for them to want to fuck.

Afterwards Harry went to go shower and clean up his wounds. He decided to go study and talk with his peers to lessen suspicion and not seem as withdrawn. All in all, Harry felt that it had been a great night; he didn't have to eat and he also got to cut, all without raising any suspicion. When it became time to go to bed, he made sure to cast a one sided silencing charm, so he wouldn't wake up his roommates with his nightmares, but he could still hear them in the morning.

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Okay babes, so like I said, I have no clue where I'm going with this. I need massive help so please review your opinions. So:

Would you like Hermione to live or die, and if she lives do you want the Slytherin group to be nice or rude to her.

Do you want Voldemort to be completely evil or also grey like Harry, and just appears evil based off Dumbledore's manipulations.

I have already decided that Harry's life with the muggles won't be completely discovered anytime soon. I plan on having him molested by Lockhart in the second book in this series, and have Harry's life discovered when they check him after Lockhart before going home for that summer. Does this sound like an okay idea or should I change it up?

Please respond with your opinions because if I can't figure out what to do, I will be deleting/abandoning this story!