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Chapter Six – Erchomai
Part One - Looking Better in Black ...
Alec was beginning to get the impression that Ragnor absolutely hated him. He had sat at the table long enough to know , he wasn't soon going to be included in his conversation .So Alec had decided to excuse himself .With a few words of "I really need to get to class , sorry .Bye ". Alec had darted from the table and into the open campus, as fast as he could .Turning back one to catch Magnus's eye, and for a moment there was a second of wordless communication .Goodbye Darling.
Alec dropped eye contact .
Finding himself with nowhere to go , the feeling of being unwelcome , Alec was worried .Unable to return to Jaces after his prompt exit , Isabelle wasn't returning any of his texts .This left him with the option to either return to his dorm , or wait around campus for "Journalism " class to start .
Alec contemplated all of this far more than he should have. Standing in the shade of the glass dining building, thinking it all over .Flashes of amber eyes clouded his thoughts , and he couldn't help but think about if Magnus would notice his absence .He had surely been so caught up in his inner debate , he completely didn't notice when he began to walk down the path and bumped into someone .
"Oh my God .Im so sorry " He said on impact , the built in response from years of cramped High-school halls .His hands flew up and he pressed his eyes shut in shock .Im so stupid .Im so stupid .Just as he was about to apologize more profusely and slip away from the scene of the incident .The person he knocked into spoke .
"So you don't bother to text me .And now you're falling all over me .Is this how you treat everyone?"
The voice was so thick with self interest and hinting at annoyed humor, Alec at first thought it might have been Jace .Until he opened his eyes to see Sebastian's black opals staring back at him .
Sebastian didn't look ruffled , his white hair was perfectly in place, a single strand falling over his eyebrow , the rest smoothed to his head .He looked like a model from a glossy magazine page , something Izzy might admire .Perfect limbs and sharp features .His smug grin questioned Alec .
Alec tried not to stare at his face , looking instead at his coat – a light brown thing made of soft material like Sherlock's jacket .He thought about anything other than Sebastian himself for a moment .The English assignment .Writing with a partner .I didn't text him .Oh god .
"Oh ,I ...em ..well .I was going to text you , I must have forgot and ..." Alec stuttered so terrible it was a wonder he hadn't bitten off his own tongue ,in his rush to get the words out .The both stood on the path , line of trees separating them from the dining hall .Students rushing past them , as they two stood face to face .
"I thought you might have been avoiding me Alec .Got yourself a new writing partner "Sebastian laughed , an eerie nose that lifted through the spring air , hairs rose on Alecs arms .His laugh wasn't contagious or humorous , it was sharp and cutting .It made Alec feel like a dear in the all to appealing headlights .
"Im not avoiding you "Alec said , looking down at his feet .He had left Magnus with his blue jumper , Alec wished for a moment he was still warring it .To fiddle with the sleeves , to hide , to not feel Sebastian's eyes pressing into his skin .
"So you still want to be my partner, right? "Sebastian's voice went from harsh to soft , husky slightly ,as if he realized he was speaking angrily .It was the type of voice that could be mistaken for pleading .Alec knew Sebastian would never plead , he wasn't even asking .
Alec nodded; a still damp curl fell into his line of sight."Are you seeing someone tonight? Or do you want to meet me at the library?"It might have been flirting , if there hadn't been an underling hint of ice in Sebastian's tone .Still , Alec blushed and deflected his gaze .He's not asking me out .He's not flirting .
"No...Im not seeing anyone tonight "Alec heard his voice crack , nerves washed over him."Well then " Sebastian smiled his signature ,Devil-may –care smile .The pale haired boy then reached out and brushed the curl out of Alecs eyes , his other hand lingering for a moment on the skin his phone number was still smudged on ."Meet me at the library at nine. It's a date " .
Alec didn't know what to say , his jaw felt slack and his blue eyes wide .He didn't mean like an actual date .Does he ? .He might have stood on the path all day , watching as Sebastian's fashionable foots trotted down the path , until he shouted after him " What library ?" .Sebastian didn't turn back as he shouted " Lovelace " .
The day passed in a blur of lecture halls and footsteps . Alec felt anxiety sweep over him for the rest of the day .Journalism had been fine, thought it wasn't one of his favorite classes offered at the University .
The blonde haired girl that he and Izzy had met (spoken to a few times as well ),happened to be in that class .Alec remembered her name was Helen .Her friend Aline ,also happened to be in that class .They had sat near the back , Alec somehow found himself joining in with their conversations .But Alec was struck once again, with the feeling of being the third wheel .
At Lunch he had met with Simon and Clary , who both seemed to welcome him .There was always a slight tension between him and Clary , from back in there High-school days .But without his random outbursts of rudeness , they mostly got along fine .Sitting eating there sandwiches , Simon did most of the talking anyway .
Alec had only briefly returned to the dorm , to get his backpack .The day had passed , and he was yet to see Magnus again (or Ragnor .Thank god ).
Reaching the Dorm-house, Alec stood in the hall and stopped at his door .He had narrowly avoided the communal kitchens and tiny common room , filled with people and anxiety ridden moments .And a microwave he wasn't sure how to work .
Alec could hear the sound of music , of voices flying back and forth .Magnus was in the room .He wasn't alone .Shit .He didn't know what he was going to say about leaving that morning .With Magnus not being alone , it could only be worse (aka Ragnor ) .
Alec pulled on the edge of Jace's Fall Out Boy shirt (he hadn't yet had the change to change ) . Before pushing open the door .
Inside the room the room , was both Magnus and Ragnor .Sitting on the scarlet armchair again , legs crossed and balancing a large note pad and book , Ragnor tapped a pen against his leg .The wispy haired boy was watching Magnus as he chuckled about something , throwing a large textbook on the floor and lounging across his bed to turn up the music .
"I love this song " Magnus shouted loudly , lying across the bed .His cat like eyes glinted at the stereo system sitting on his bedside table , Ragnor ran a hand throw his white hair and sighed " I don't .Whatever happened to studying " .Neither of them noticed Alec in the doorway , until he coughed awkwardly ."Sorry ".
"Alexander !" Magnus shot up from the bed ,pulling a hand threw his glittering hair to make sure it was still pointed and perfect .Collecting himself in a matter of seconds , Magnus didn't look fazed . Leather jeans with gold printed butterfly's covered him, his top was now a dark green jumper that fit his torso .Gold eyeliner flashed at him .Alecs adams apple bobbed, he couldn't help but stare .Gosh .
Ragnor snorted , uncrossing his legs only to cross them again .He rolled his lime eyes at the both off them , who seemed frozen at the sight of each other .Then grabbed the textbook of the floor .
Mouthing the word .Idiots .
"Hi " Alec wished he could just leave , that he could just turn around and not have to talk to them .But it was his room as well , and no matter the looks Ragnor threw him , he refused to get up and leave it .
"Are you back from class for the night ?"Magnus asked , he stood with one hand letting him lean against the bed .As if he didn't know that standing like that gave Alec the best view of his straight jaw line and flashy outfit .
"Um yeah ...sort off " Alec wasn't too sure what he was going to do , about the whole meeting up with Sebastian thing .But he didn't feel like explain that to Magnus .
"Great "Magnus broke into a smile that flashed all of his teeth .Ragnor picked up the book from his lap and started thumping it against his head , muttering under his breath .Alec moved slightly to his side of the room , quickly moving across the invisible line he had created between the two different sides of the room .The line that kept him safe from other people .
Sitting on his bed , pulling out his laptop to turn it on .Ragnor and Magnus both stayed where they were ,studying for whatever class they both shared .
The time flashed up in white block numbers in the corner ."Shit "Alec exclaimed a little to load for someone who wished to be ignored "Shit ".8: 35 .The screen proclaimed the time .Oh shit .Sebastian .Im going to be late for meeting him .Alec checked his phone , finding it gave the same answer .
"What's wrong ?"Ragnor said dryly , he leaned on his knees with his elbows propping up his head .His words where more like a sigh than a question .
"I must have ran really late " He wasn't answering Ragnor question , speaking only to himself .Alec had texted Izzy , they'd went to a tiny pizza place not that far away .Just the two of them , no Clary and Jace giving each other heart eyes over the table , no driveling Simon unable to think straight around Isabelle .It had been nice .
"Alec "Magnus said his name shortly , a call to attention .Alec looked up at him , slightly shocked at him not using the chance to call him Alexander ( like usual )."Im not staying .Il be back .I need to meet someone "He spoke in short sentences , making up the plan as he went along "You can both study better without me here anyway " .
Alec lurched towards the door once more, having barley had the chance to sit down .Lovelace Library? Where is that again? Moving closer to the door ,Magnus's voice made him stop "Where are you going ?Isn't this a bit late for you ? Campus isn't that safe at night ".
But it's safe enough for you and your late night party's ? "Im just going to the library .Its for class, partner writing .Il be fine, Im not a kid "Alec hoped he didn't sound annoyed , yet Magnus had sounded condescending .
"Is it a date ?"Ragnor spoke , a frown heavy on his face as he flicked through the textbook .Magnus's amber cat eyes grew wide , he turned to stare at Alec in shock .Alec wished Ragnor would just stop talking ,he shook his head ."What .God no .A date .Why would you think its a date .I said it was partner writing for class .Not a date ."For some reason he found himself speaking more to Magnus , as he continued to shake his head "Defiantly . Not .A date " .
"Oh .I just thought .You're not wearing your usual after all .Thought you might be having a study , homework date "Ragnor didn't look up from the textbook .Alec glanced his way , to see his frown had turned to a smirk .Alec also had a suspicion that the textbook was upside down .
"I haven't had a chance to change since I got back from Jace's "Alec looked down at his t-shirt ."A meeting for homework in the library .With a boy ?With this Sebastian you talked about ?The one that gave you his phone number ?"Magnus seemed to be currently studying his shoe , hand on hip .He looked up at Alec ,their eyes met .
Alec wasn't going to analysis how Magnus remembered all that , he flushed "Um , yeah .Him .From English Fiction Writing "."Are you really going to go see him wearing Jaces T-shirt .Not exactly date night clothing "Magnus admired his nails , sparkling cat claws ."Its not a date .And its not like I have anything else to wear ".
This seemed to prompt Magnus's inspiration , he looked at Alecs wardrobe crushed in the furthest corner of the room .Suddenly Magnus was grinning as he darted to it ."Il help .Makeover time "Magnus said happily , throwing open the plain wooden doors to Alecs wardrobe .Ragnor looked more than alarmed "Oh Jesus .Don't let him near the clothes .His makeover's are from hell !"
Magnus's grin fell slightly when he looked inside the wardrobe .Rows of monochrome t-shirts and jumper were hanging in a line , taking up little space .Folded jeans tucked on the side shelf , along with a few more shirts .Converse , Doc Martins , boots and Vans littered the bottom of the wardrobe .Everything in dark colours .Magnus's expression turned grim .
"Well then "He sighed , running a hand along the line of clothing "You weren't kidding about all your outfits being basically the same ".Alec shifted from foot to foot , he really didn't have that much time .He stood slightly behind Magnus and the wardrobe .Ragnor craning his neck to see what was happening from the armchair .
Then Magnus began taking things out .He didn't exactly throw them over his shoulder onto the bed , more like tossed them in dismay .His hands landed on Alecs small collection of band merch "My Chemical Romance .Panic !At the Disco .Some Fall Out Boy .Oh look , even more Panic !At the Disco " .He looked dismissively at each of the logos .
He went throw Alecs fandom merch as well "Doctor Who .Sherlock .Supernatural .Are these t-shirts the only thing you own in color ?" Alec let out a sigh , he liked his outfits are they were .Suddenly Magnus's eyes lit up as he spotted one of the plastic bags at the bottom of the wardrobe .He picked it up and opened it before Alec could protest .
"Alexander!"Magnus said , peering into the bag "What on earth ". He then emptied the contents onto his hot pink Arabian bedspread .
"Oh no ,Magnus .I don't wear any of that .They're just stupid presents from Izzy "Alec lurched forwards ,attempting to put the clothes back in the bag .
On the bed , a small collection of clothes Alec never wore sat .Shirts with stiff collars , all in bright colours .Fancy outfits only a male model might be able to pull off .Jeans that were far to revealing . " Oh my gosh " Magnus announced , picking up a grayish caramel colored jumper ,over-sized and hinting at an off green .
"Yeah .That was Izzy .She called it "Fashionably distressed " .It was a birthday present "Alec tried to reason as to why he had a strange , over-sized jumper that he didn't like very much stuffed at the bottom of his wardrobe .
"It's A Yeezy jumper .Didn't expect you to have one .Your sister must have great fashion taste " Magnus stroked the jumper .He then threw it into Alecs arms , as if to say "Wear this one " .
"Yeezy who ?Alec said , holding up the strange piece of clothing .It rather resembled a potato sack , looking oddly familiar .He could see why it might have its charms though .
"Kanye West's very expensive clothing line "Magnus was admiring the tag on the jumper , emphasizing the word "expensive " ."Oh Im not sure .Its a not really my style to wear anything expensive or designer .No one's going to know its a Yeezy ?"Alec stumbled over the word "Jumper anyway ".
"Any man worthy or your time should know who Kanye West is Alexander .And should be able to appreciate your effort "Magnus nodded , giving advice like a beauty guru .Alec didn't really know what to say , he was running late already .He didn't want to think about the "any man "part of the sentence either .
"Take this as well "Magnus grabbed one of the shirts still bearing its tag , a white oxford style thing .Alec looked down at his black converse and jeans , yet Magnus seemed to nod as if the whole outfit would have to do .
"I'll go get changed then I guess "Alec said ,darting of down the hall to the bathroom .Magnus seemed to sigh as Alec left .There was no way he was getting changed with Ragnor pretending not to be listening , and Magnus giving him strange looks .Quickly , Alec changed into the shirt and jumper. The buttons took longer than necessary, the jumper made his frame look distorted .
He returned to the room .To see Magnus smile approvingly at his work ."You look cute Alexander " Magnus winked a glittering eyelid at him .Alec sputtered a "Em , thanks ".He turned to grab his backpack , making sure he had all the books and journals he would usually take to English .His clothes from the wardrobe were still around the room .Il pick them up later .Im going to be late .
"Well you know what they say –Kanye West is the Kanye best , outfit choice "Magnus said as he turned away , waking over to Ragnor ."Are you quoting Dan Howell?"Alec was shocked, Magnus only shrugged.
"Aren't you going to be late ?"Ragnor snapped , looking up from his pretend studying to glare at Alec .Both Magnus and Alec had forgotten that they weren't alone , and turned to stare at the angry pale haired boy as it he had just appeared in a puff of smoke .
"Yeah .He's right .I need to go "Alec shifted on his feet ,holding his backpack .God , he didn't know how the meeting with Sebastian was going to go .He was going to be an awkward wreck .Anxiety clawed at his stomach , giving him butterfly's of an unfavorable nature .
"Alec .Its late ,and when you get out of this library non-date ,it's going to be even later .You shouldn't walk home alone "Magnus yawned , looking out the window to see the dark sky .Flecked with the outline of stars , the moon beginning to appear in the violet sky .
"I walk myself home all the time "Ragnor said grouchily .Magnus turned to him ,rolling his eyes "That's different .Your bitter expression alone would scare of any attackers, Peapod ".Ragnor began to swear under his breathe , saying something clearly insulting before adding "Bane "to the end .
"I don't think muggers really care about how that "Alec was looking at the door , he had a feeling Magnus wasn't going to let him leave alone .Ragnor had an expression of his face, that brought to mind the imagine of Draco Malfoy shouting "Nobody asked you Mudblood !"
"Oh you don't ?I think they go for the easiest prey .The young and the lame "Magnus was checking his hair in the mirror , pouting his lips .Not like he didn't already look perfect ."Im not lame "Alec said under his breathe , he knew fine well that he was .This caused Ragnor to snort .
"Il walk you to the library "Magnus said brightly , grabbing a jacket in an alarmingly bright hue of yellow gold .tight and cropped , and totally useless against any kind of strong weather .As well as a pashmina scarf .
"You really don't have to "Alec tried to reason , while he had already given up .
"Its fine .Im not that interested in another evening with Ragnor anyway "Magnus didn't give Ragnor a second look as he stood beside Alec at the door .They stood so close together , for a minute Alec had the oddesest feeling Magnus was about to walk his hand .And then you can both walk happily into the sunset .Of course not .
"Hey! We were studying "Ragnor shouted. "Not anymore "Magnus was fixing the scarf around his neck , trying to catch Alecs attention ."I think Il be fine .You really don't have to Magnus "Alec cut of , Magnus seemed all to happy to accompany him .
"Well .If you go now and get attacked .It will be your fault .I don't have time to deal with your pain anyway .But hey ,whatever "Ragnor said , kicking up his feet onto Magnus's bed .He had pulled a flask for his pocket , and lifted it to his lips .Alec raised an eyebrow , was Ragnor trying to be nice and telling him to take the safest option .Who am I kidding .Obviously he's not .
"Do you want to come with us Ragnor ?"Magnus said , turning to the door .He already had his hand on the handle ,looking out into the corridor .The Pink-Ugged Kaelie was no longer haunting the corridor it seemed .
Ragnor snorted "Do I look like I want to go outside .Its cold". "Okay then .Don't touch any of my things ,especially the alcohol ,Ragnor .Bye "And with that he swung the door in Ragnors face , and Magnus and Alec were alone .
Part Two - Lovelace
Ragnor had been right , the air was filled with a frosted chill .Ice pricked Alecs skin , the oversized jumper really didn't keep him that warm .Contrary to the blossom on the trees along the campus paths , even in the spring it was cold .
Alec walked quickly , his stride long and fast .Magnus was seemingly able to match it , overtaking him with sheer energy .They walked down the path , the lights hanging low in the windows of campus buildings .Passing buildings made of glass and stone , Alicante University looked beautifully haunted at night time .
Pennsylvania wasn't that far from Alecs home in New York , but at night the city always held more of a glowing buzz .The Campus grounds sat at the edge of the city , leaving a strip of restaurants and student preferred shops , before reaching a suburban area .One populated with everyone , including lots of Fraternities and Sororities .
Magnus filled the journey across campus , one he assured Alec he knew the way of , all about the past spring Equinox .Alec had a feeling this all had something to do with his scarily accurate for a Warlock degree in Magic , Alchemy and god knows what else .
He had just finished a long speech on phases of the moon and something to do with his class (Alec hated to say he couldn't really keep up) when they reached what had to be Lovelace library .The building was huge , old Victorian esc and , a greying white marble color .Steps lead up to a pillared entrance , Alec was surprised to say he had never really noticed it before .
He had read the name on the University pamphlet Izzy had shoved in his face weeks and weeks ago .He had noticed the name .Lovelace .Interesting and forlorn .And had given it to Jessamine .Jessamine Lovelace, ironically named after a library.
"Yes it all connects to The Beltane Fire Festival .Now there's a wild party "Magnus trailed of whimsically ,smiling at something Alec couldn't possibly imagine ."That's interesting Magnus "Alec wasn't too sure what to say .Magnus stood in the nightlight , one of the Campus's streetlamps lighting him .Gold and glittering , gorgeous and smiling .Looking up at Alec , who stood on the step to the library ,as if he didn't plan to let him go .
"Call me when you're done Alexander "Magnus grinned , his signature smile .He suspected it had made many woman (and men )fall for him .Charm just oozed from Magnus , like glitter .
"Magnus , you know I don't even have your number right .Its fine , I can walk home on my own .It might get late "Alec reasoned ,pulling at his jumper sleeve and curling the material in his fist .
Magnus began to walk away , his smile had turned sad the second he thought Alec wasn't looking ."I might have slipped it into your phone during breakfast .Ill be in your room .Call me ,Alexander ". Magnus walked off into the night , his lean frame disappearing .Alec didn't even get a chance to reply .
Something felt horribly wrong ,Alec stepped forwards .He was about to go after him , to run after him .But to saw what ?What was it he wanted to tell him ? Alec sighed ,fixed the collar to the shirt he had never worn before .Ran a hand throw is curled hair ,reminding himself that he needed to go in the library .That he couldn't spend his time trailing after Magnus .No matter what direction in the butterfly's in his stomach pointed him in .
Lovelace Library had five floors above ground , and one basement type level .The sign at the check in proclaimed it so .Alec passed through a strip of empty entrance space , seeing a sleepy looking woman sitting at the desk .Flashed his student card at one of the machine barricades ,until it let him through .The place had left rather like a subway station ,or an airport security isle .
Inside Alec was greeted with the first of the five floors .An open space with two rows of staircases , doors and corridors leading out into the maze of books .Desks lined the barricade he had just passed . With all the check in and out stations .Alec froze .Im already lost .Great.
Until he heard a voice "Oh ,you actually showed up ".He turned to see Sebastian lounging against one of the sets of stairs leading up , a smirk on his face .In the library's yellowing light , his eyes looked darker than normal .The rest of his skin pale , chalky white like his hair .Only accentuated by his fitting black jumper .
"Yeah .Hi "Alec said awkwardly , pulling his backpack up on his back self-consciously .Sebastian smiled ,flashing a row of canine teeth ."Let's go to the working station "Sebastian turned to strut up the stairs , Alec following helplessly after him "They've got tables and a view of campus .Let's get to work " .
The working Station , as Sebastian had put it , was on the second floor , furthest from the entrance .Passing through rows and stacks ,through pods like tiny rooms encapsulating students with their laptops and study buddies .
The station was a large area bordered by shelf's of books and textbooks .Strips of tables and chairs filled its center .Edges with round tables and chairs , with a few students filling the space .A wall panel of glass looked down onto the campus , a view of the blossoming streets and streetlights in the distant suburbs .The campus buildings could be seen , Alec wondered if he would be able to see his dorm .Or Magnus walking away .
Sebastian lead him past all the other students , to the corner where marble and shelf's met glass .Alec wondered how such an old building could look so modern on the inside , filled with artificial light and the glow of computer screens .They took an empty table , Sebastian right next to Alecs chair .
Pulling out their stationary , Sebastian began talking about ideas and how he wanted to write .He'd set a pen on his notebook ,to stop any of the filled to the brim loose pages from escaping him .He picked up the pen to tap in on the table as he spoke .Alec sat and listed quietly .
Sebastian it seemed , wrote in longhand .
Alec tried to convince him how much easier it would be to write on his laptop .He had stuffed it in his bag before he left the dorm , it was sitting in his back just waited .Sebastian was having none of it "But then we won't be able to see ourselves switching .We won't see the two different hands at work ".
"I can't think on paper "It was true ,the words didn't flow .Any mark on paper was permanent , like a statement or a report .He couldn't think and then take the words back .He couldn't click backspace and get a nice new fresh start .With paper Alec was trapped .
"Perfect "Sebastian pulled out a pen from his slim leather pencil case "This whole exercise is about steeping outside of yourself ,right ."
Alec sighed and found himself agreeing .Sebastian had given him a definite no to the computer , pushed Alecs bag away ."Right then "Sebastian spoke far to lowly , he seemed to want to fill the room with his words "I'll start" .Even though there were few students in the section ,Alec felt rude to talk above a polite level in a library .Sebastian , had no such qualms .
"Wait .Don't we need to talk about what were writing first .We can't just go in all cannons blazing " Alec watched with a frown as Sebastian had already uncapped his pen ."You'll see "He smirked at Alec , a slight pout to his lips .Alec didn't want to see .He wanted to plan and to plot .But Sebastian smiled and brushed that off .
"That's not fair .You might write about something odd "He leaned forwards ,looking at the piece of blank paper Sebastian had placed between them both "Like , dead bodies ...naked bodies ...something I don't want to write about ".
"Im not writing about dead bodies, Alec "Sebastian looked up at him .Alec had been write to describe his eyes as opals .Black and crystal like , they didn't reflect his innermost thoughts at all .Mirroring the world around him ,not letting anyone in . Dark and alone .
Sebastian reached up and touched Alecs collar "I like your outfit change " . "Thanks "Alec said ,looking down at the table .The words had made him shut up completely ,turning him into a flushing mess .But Sebastian hadn't done that on purpose right ?
Sebastian wrote in a half cursive scrawl .He wrote in a way that caused his hand to drag through the fresh ink , making the page to turn into a smear of navy blue .Getting messier and messier as he carried on .Alec found himself trying to read his upside down writing from across the table .
He handed Alec the pages , the ink hadn't even had a chance to dry .Alec could barley read it ,even right side up .And had the embarrassing problem of having to ask what a word said ."What's that word there ?"He pointed .
"Retinas " .
"She's standing in a parking lot .And she's standing under a streetlight .And her hairs so blond , its flashing at you .Its burning out your retinas one bloody cone at a time .She leans forward and grabs your T-Shirt .And she's standing on tiptoe now .She's reaching for you .She smells like black tea and American Spirits – and when her mouth hits your ear , you wonder if she remembers your name ".
"So "Alec squinted down at the page , blue eyes still deciphering the messy writing "We're doing this in present tense ?"
"Second person "Sebastian quickly corrected. Alec found himself frowning .That's a bit like a bad OC fanfic don't you think? He didn't say it .Sebastian seemed the type to sneer at fanfiction .To insist that its not real literature ."What's wrong "Sebastian spoke , brushing Alecs leg with his own under the table "You don't like love stories ?"
Alec could feel one of his brightest blushes forming on his cheeks .What he might have described in Accio Hearts as "Blushing Furiously " .He quickly looked away as he rummaged throw his bag for a pen .It was difficult to write on paper and not to type , even more so with Sebastian's hot gaze pricking the skin on the back of his neck .
" "Please don't tell mom "She giggles ."Which part should I leave out ?You ask her."The hair ?Or the stupid hipster cigarettes?She pulls meanly on your T-Shirt ,and you shove her back like she's twelve .And she practically is – she's so young .And you're so tired .And what is Sarah going to think if you walk on your first date to take care of your stupid , stupidly blonde , little sister ."You suck, Cassie "She says .And she's reeling .And she's swaying again under the streetlight. "
Alec turned the paper round to face Sebastian ,pushing it back to him .He studied the paper , his tongue pocking out in concentration .A practiced cute face ."So our narrator is gay ... a lesbian "He said calmly , studying the page as if it held the clues to lives greatest mystery .
"Um yeah .You don't mind that right ?"Alec suddenly was fearful that he would .That he would scream in his face his hatred , say all the words Alec dreaded to hear .The deepest , blackest , most hateful thoughts that hid at the back of a person's mind .The worst in humanity , the little evils that would be afflicted .A thousand paper-cuts everyday .
"No "Sebastian looked at him , really looked at him , eyes bright with a hidden flame ,a smile taunt on his lips "I don't mind gay ".Alec couldn't help it , he flinched .
Frozen ,that's how Alec left , frozen in place .Speaking without hearing himself "I love love stories "He said simply .Sebastian nodded , broke out into a grim like a Cheshire cat .And the both smiled and started to laugh .
It was almost like writing with Isabelle .Back when she hadn't been so concerned with boys and parties , had shared Alecs love for all things Harry Potter .They would sit with Alecs laptop , buried under covers on either of their beds .Sharing the keyboard , passing it between each other .Reading out loud to each other what the other person had just written .
Alec found himself writing most of the dialogue .The words unspoken between characters flew from his fingertips .There wasn't any anxiety , there wasn't a voice in his mind that told him to shut up and to be quiet .He could speak through those characters .He found a voice .
Sometimes he just wrote the conversations , an argument on the quittiach field , a discovery in the Great Hall .Izzy had the talent of knowing what was really happening , where everyone was going and what could tie it all together .Where Draco and Harry might find themselves that day .Once Alec had written what he thought was a love scene , and Izzy had turned it into a wand duel .
It had been a silly ,frivolous piece of fun to Isabelle .Not a hobby , just an activity she could pick up and put down again .A little secret they shared together .And when Izzy had decided that writing bored her , Alec would still find himself following her around the house .Begging for a way to end passages and passages of only words ,of speaking . Sometimes , Izzy would indulge him .
But Sebastian wasn't Isabelle .
He was bossy and liked to show off .Quoting a line he had just written , like a hunter flashing a prize catch .He wasn't as perfect looking up close .Alec could see the purple under his eyes , the stray piece of white hair falling around his head . He licked his lips when he wrote , flicking his tongue across his teeth .
Though ,he did adapt to the whole lesbian thing almost instantly , taking it in his stride .Alec had slipped into it , seeing his own perspective .He really hadn't meant to make the characters gay , it had sort of just happened .He was thankful Sebastian was accepting of it .
He had trouble sharing , grabbing the notebook before Alec could finish his sentence .Cutting him of before he would write the "punch line ".Stopping him short .His hand would slip , and his neat writing would end up smeared across his hand and paper .
Alec would say "Wait .Stop ".But Sebastian would demand that he had an idea. That Alec was about to ruin it .Soon Alec found himself mirroring Sebastian's writing , hating the contrast between their words .Yet , his usual writing style kept seeping through .Soon Alec realized Sebastian was actually beginning to copy Alecs style .He felt flattered .
They shared secretive smiles , quoting passages to each other like love sonnets .It wasn't a date .Alec kept telling himself that .As Sebastian brushed his hand with his as they swapped over the paper , or when their legs accidentally bumped .A wasn't a date , as he had told Ragnor so avidly .Alec wasn't sure that he would know what a date felt .Since he had never been on one .But this was sure close .
A few hours passed , Alec found himself yawning .He wanted to curl up in his big ,oversized jumper like a blanket ,eyes growing heavy . Their story was twice as long as it needed to be ."This is going to take absolutely forever to type up .God "Alec sighed sleepily .
"Well then , we don't type it up .Lets just turn it in like this "Sebastian spoke ,Alec looked down at the smudged pages of text .At the swirls of blue his hand had left on the once crisp white page ."But it's the only copy we have " .
"Just don't lose it then " Sebastian stood up , turning to face his reflection in the glass .He was fixing his hair in the mirror , smiling at himself "Its past midnight .I need to clock out " .Alec was to transfixed by the stars , the moon hanging low in the sky .And how terribly dark it had became !
There were books on a cart next to the table .Sebastian had mentioned something about working to stock and organize the shelf's a few days a week , an easy way to get extra credit ."But what about that " .Sebastian shrugged , he couldn't care less about the books fate "The morning guy can do it .Remind him he isn't dead yet ".
Alec tucked the pages neatly into his back bag , securing them .He walked with Sebastian down the stairs and to the base of the library , they passed only a single student on their trip .Talking to Sebastian had became slightly easier , anxiety had burned away slightly .He'd pulled back layers of fear ,leaving Alec slightly more free to be himself .
They passed the woman at the desk , she was too busy on her computer to see them leave .They got outside , walking down the steps into the open night .A gust of cold swept across Alec , he shivered .Sebastian was wearing a jacket , he didn't seem to notice how cold it had became .
Suddenly the anxiety was back , Alec looked down at his feet .This was the part of the date when the love interest gave the main character a goodbye kiss .There lips met , and there main characters eyes fell shut in the embrace .Alec almost lent forwards .Almost but not quiet .
"Well .See you in class "Sebastian said like it meant something else .Like he knew Alec was hanging off his every word , that he might have been expecting something else ."Yeah see you in class .Don't lose our book "Somewhere on the trip Sebastian had convinced him to let him take the story , for safe keeping . Alec had given him it.
"Our first book "Sebastian shouted , he headed off down the path that lead to the opposite side of Campus than Alec lived in .He turned to a smudge in the darkness ,as he shouted "Goodnight " .And suddenly Alec was alone in front of Lovelace library , cold and in the dark .Feeling like he had just missed a crucial step in every fictional love story .God .Im so stupid .
He turned to the path , the one that would lead him through campus .That's when his phone slipped him from pocket ,landing face up to the night air .And he remembered that Magnus wanted him to call ,to walk him home .That he had the option to not walk alone through the night .To get lost in the dark .
Alec bit hard on his lip .He wasn't a baby .He didn't need Magnus's help to do everything .It was bad enough with the pity trips to the lunch hall , he didn't need to be walked to and from places .But god , it had gotten dark .And Alec felt frozen to the spot ,looking into the abyss .But Magnus might have went out ?He might be asleep ?He might have been only joking and didn't want Alecs company at all ?
He lifted up the phone , the darkness was lit by the screens glow .In the cold , he found himself stumbling through his contact list .Right next to Maryse –Mother , was a new name with a little sparkling heart emoji on the end .MAGNUS .And against all of his better judgments and worried thoughts .Alec clicked it .
Part Three - Enchanted
"Hello Alexander "Magnus answered on the first ring .His voice was filled with warmth .Sultry and smooth .He would almost visualize Magnus standing before him , hand on hip , batting a glittery eyelash .
"Magnus "Alec said into the phone , his teeth chattering slightly "Its fine .I'll walk home on my own ". "Don't you dare .Im leaving right now .Ragnors already gone .It will just be more of a haste if I can't find you "His voice was stern, commanding."Okay .Thanks I guess " .
Alec stood outside the library .Trying hard not to think about that evenings events .Of Sebastian's dark eyes ,icy voice .Alec also had to try not to think of what might lurk in the darkness .The demons that might grab him off the dimly lit path .There was no Will and Jem to save him .No Knight with a shining seraph blade .
Time passed , Alecs fingers curled around his phone .His body turned numb .He stood next to the library paths lamppost , the light glowing from the small pulsing orb overhead .So that Magnus would see him , know that he hadn't ran off .
Before long ,Magnus appeared down the path .He was jogging down the path that lead across the quad , through the blossom covered path in the center of campus .His hair stayed perfectly in place , a quiff of sparkling black hair . Dressed in his gold ,yellow and black ensemble .He was impossible to miss .And he still looked stunning ,even whilst jogging .
Alec walked towards him , trying to save him the last few steps .When Magnus spoke , he sounded out of breathe "Alexander .Still in one piece I see "."Yeah "Alec said , Magnus was leaning slightly .Catching his breath "God I hate jogging "."You didn't have to run ".Magnus just stared at him , shaking his head slightly .
Magnus stood up straight , next to each other they were almost the same height .Alec was forced to look up slightly , to see Magnus's expressions ."So you didn't get lost in the library then ?"He raised a perfectly arched brow .Alec couldn't help but smile , it felt strange on his face "Sadly not ".
"Did everything go okay ?Your writing assignment I mean ?"He had a feeling Magnus wasn't asking just about the writing ."Yeah , it was fine .We wrote loads .Think Professor Imogen might actually like it "Alec glanced at Magnus's combat boots , at the glittering buckles .
"Wonderful Darling "Magnus said happily , they both began to walk down the path .Campus at night was dimly lit , the silhouettes of the buildings and trees stood out in the blanket of darkness .Alone it might have been eerie .Alec might have been fearful of every lurking shape .But Magnus got to talking , and he seemed to light a path .Alec wasn't scared when he was by his side .
"You don't think it's going to rain do you ?"Alec looked up at the sky , the stars were covered by wispy smoke clouds .They stood in the way of the moon , who's light still managed to glow through the cloud bank . They both looked up at the sky , then at each other ."Im not sure .Maybe "Magnus mused .
They were standing so close together .Alec hadn't realized he had been leaning in as Magnus spoke , that there legs were so close they were almost brushing .Hands at their sides , to lift a single finger would mean that they were holding hands .On reaction , Alec stretched his hand .Magnus's hand seemed to move closer .
Up close Magnus's eyes were even more beautiful .Amber flecked on a yellowing green , smooth lines of honey around the iris .The middle so dark they became slits .Alec really couldn't help but stare .He had never seen eyes so pretty .Lined with eyeliner , the bottom waterline flecked with pale golden glitter .Even Jace , who's eyes were often described as "liquid gold " ,couldn't quiet compare to Magnus's .God , he was gorgeous .
Magnus was staring at him two , his lips parted .He was looking into Alecs eyes , leaning closer and closer .As if he had only just realized something .Like the whole world could be captured in Alecs gaze .Magnus's eyes began to melt with an emotion ,clouded with thought .Alecs adams apple bobbed .There hands brushed , they were standing alone in the night .Not a soul was also on the path .I want him to kiss me .
Alec had thought it so suddenly , shocked himself so much .That he had jumped back .And the connection was broken .Magnus coughed politely , Alec had taken a few steps back .They continued to walk , slowly and not like before .Magnus's gaze trailed after all , he seemed worried .
Magnus took something out his pocket .The most current I-phone in a sparkling rainbow case , a pair of black and gold headphones trailing from the socket .He plugged one into his ear , turned to Alec and offered him it .Silently , Alec took the headphone .
The headphone line wasn't that long , they once again had to stand close together .Magnus was flicking through his phone ,landing on a playlist labelled "Favs and Queens " .He didn't select a song ,just clicked shuffle .
"There I was again tonight .Forcing laughter faking smiles ,same old tired lonely place .Walls of insincerity ,shifting eyes and vacancy .Vanished when I saw your face ".
The voice was soft , gentle and sweet .Alec furrowed his brows for a moment , he wasn't used to music like this .Sure , sometimes he found himself with "Pretty Odd "songs on repeat .Calming and not like his usual , but he wouldn't ever have picked music like that song .There was something familiar about the voice .Years of Izzy blasting her albums made it quite clear who's voice it was –Taylor Swift .
Magnus glanced at him , then at the phone .The screen was still lit , showing a picture of the Blonde haired Taylor , dressed in a gown of swirling purple .Under the album title "Speak Now ",the screen proclaimed the song to be titled "Enchanted " .
A guitar strummed in the background .Her voice was like a siren, drawing Alec into the story .Magnus was nodding his head , saying something quietly along the lines off "Oh .I used to love this song " .
"All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you "
The irony was not lost on Alec .The word enchanted he found , perfectly summed up Magnus .There was a smirk playing of the other boys lips .Alec looked into his eyes .He wanted to tell Magnus something , to say something .Magnus seemed on the verge of speaking as well .
" Your eyes whispered ,"Have we met ?" Across the room , your silhouette .Starts to make its way to me .The playful conversation starts .Counter all your quick remarks .Like passing notes in secrecy ."
Magnus was humming the tune ,looking at Alec with something bright in his cat eyes .Magnus reached out his hand , they pressed their palms together .Not quiet holding hands .Tethered and afraid to let go .What is happening !What is happening !
Alecs mind was screaming , he was strolling through the night with the most beautiful person he had ever seen .And they were almost holding hands .Taylor Swift , one of the world's biggest romantics ,blaring in their ears .
"And it was enchanting to meet you .All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you "
Alec left himself leaning in ,his head almost touching against Magnus's chest .The space between them was minimal .Alec had no clue what was happening , all he knew was that he didn't want it to stop .
"This night is sparkling ,don't you let it go .Im wonderstruck ,blushing all the way home .Ill spend forever wondering if you knew .I was enchanted to meet you "
Alecs vision was burning ,Taylor's voice grew louder .He could no longer hear himself think .His face turning a bright , burning , red .And God , every voice in his voice that told him not to .The ones that screamed he was wrong .He couldn't hear them above the music .Above his own heart beating so fast in his chest , he would surely end up with shattered ribs .He wouldn't look Magnus in the eyes .
"The lingering question kept me up .2 AM, who do you love till Im wide awake .And now Im pacing back and forth .Wishing you were at my door .Id open up and you would say "Hey ".
"It was enchanting to meet you .All I know is I was , enchanted to meet you "
The song was mocking him now ,Alec was sure of it .He was a flushing hot mess .Suspicions began to creep into his mind .Did Magnus like him ?Did he like Magnus ?Why is my heart beating so fast ?Oh god there's something wrong ?
It was the moment every character in a book, would realize their heart was fluttering .The rest of the world would melt away .The girl would look up at the boy , and that was the begging of their love story .And they would kiss , declare that they in fact liked each other .Alec felt stupid .This wasn't a story .This wasn't some Drarry drabble .This was his life .
"This night is sparkling , don't you let it go .Im wonderstruck ,blushing all the way home .Ill spend forever wondering if you knew .This night is flawless ,don't you let it go .Im wonderstruck ,dancing around all alone .Ill spend forever wondering if you knew .
I was enchanted to meet you "
Magnus's hand grew closer , Alec turned as they walked .Amber cat eyes , glittering and strong ,met scared and fragile blue .Alec lent closer , his lips parting .His eyelids fell such ,Magnus's mouth moved towards his .He would feel his hot breath on his cheek .
"I was enchanted to meet you " .Wrung out in his ear .Kiss me .Please , kiss me .It was impossible to tell which one of them was thinking it .
Something cold hit Alecs ear , like a teardrop .Another and another .They both looked up , as the heavens broke above them .The stars were smeared with rain , thundering down on them .Clothing became stuck to the skin , eyelash's caught with water .A single droplet ran down Magnus sharp cheek ,mixing with the glitter of his skin .
Magnus grabbed his hand , and whispered "Run " .The music was still blaring ,they ran side by side .Water falling down on them ,frozen and destructive .They ran down the quad path , blossoms covering them slightly from the sudden torrential rain .
Running , heart beating fast in his chest .Running .Not kissing .
"This is me praying that .This was the very first page .Not where the story line ends .My thoughts will echo your name .Until I see you again .These are the words I held back .As I was leaving too soon .I was enchanted to meet you ".
Magnus and Alec neared the end of the path , their dorm building .They'd passed the other library , the English Lit buildings , and many of the dining halls .Barley any other students in sight .In the rain , they were alone together .
Alec was slightly slower, still tethered by the headphones .Until Magnus attempted to cut across the grass , to take a short cut .One minute he was standing on the now slick quad grass , the next he was falling backwards .Into Alecs arms .
It was a reaction , Alec hadn't thought about it .He reached out his arms , and Magnus tumbled into him .He stopped running ,Magnus feel against his chest .The sharp smell of sandalwood and glitter .Magnus had his head pressed to Alecs jumper glad chest .He could hear Alecs pounding heartbeat .The rain fell down on them both .He can hear my heartbeat !
During the fall ,Magnus's headphones had pulled themselves free .Taylor's voice was blaring into the open night .
"Please don't be in love with someone else .Please don't have somebody waiting on you "
Taylor was repeating the line , Magnus was in his arms .He had fell against him ,melted into his chest .They had stayed like that for longer than necessary .Alecs eyes wide ,his chest pounding , his arms wrapped around Magnus .Cradling him .
Taylor repeated the chorus .
"This night is sparkling don't you let it go .Im wonderstruck ,blushing all the way home .Ill spend forever , wondering if you knew .This night is flawless ,don't you let it go .Im wonderstruck , dancing around all alone .Ill spend forever wondering if you knew .I was enchanted to meet you "
"Alexander, I "Magnus attempted to get up , Alec helped him to his feet ."Magnus ..."Alecs both parted , words had escaped him .They stood together , Alec still holding Magnus's arms .I can let go now .I need to let go now .Let go now !
They held each other , rain pummeling down around them .Magnus was looking at him , as if he expected Alec to lean in .Alec almost did , he felt himself moving into the kiss .Suddenly ,Magnus leaned into him .They were about to kiss .Oh god .
Alec turned his head at the last second .Magnus's soft ,warm lips brushed his cheeks .The other boy seemed equally surprised , disappointment in his eyes .Alec was still frozen to the spot .Unsure of what the hell he had just done .Phantom lips on his cheek ,color drained from his face .
"Thanks "Magnus said ,stepping out of the embrace .He collected his fallen headphones .Turning away from Alec .His heart was beating fast .Thumping .The sound of rain inside his rib-cage .Butterfly's .He had butterfly's .And they weren't going away .
Both Magnus and Alec continued walking .
"Please don't be in love with someone else .Please don't have somebody waiting on you "
Alec was doomed.