Authors note: Christmas Eve was great! My big sister came home with her boyfriend and we played many different games when they were here; it was fun. I hope you had a great time too, but if you didn't, then I'm sorry – I hope it gets better later for you then (if you of some reason didn't have such a good time you could just PM me, I'll gladly talk.)

This chapter however was challenging to write. I was struggling with writers-block, and it took some time before I finally began writing on the story, but I eventually did. I'm also jumping forward in time in this chapter because I didn't find anything necessary to write about. I didn't jump that much in time though, so it's nothing to worry about, it's not like you actually miss something. Anyway, hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own anything regarding to Fullmetal alchemist, except for the plot!

Shattered glass

Chapter 4

Ed POV-

Ed woke up feeling pretty warm and safe, but couldn't quite tell why. He shifted in the small hospital bed and understood; Roy had his arms wrapped around him. He couldn't help but feel embarrassed about what he did the night before, he wasn't even sure if Roy liked him back. Well, Roy did lay here with his arms wrapped around him and he kissed him on the head the night before, but maybe he was comforting him. Maybe he should ask Roy when he woke up, just to be sure about how Roy felt towards him.

What if Roy didn't like him that way, what should he do then? The atmosphere between them would become awkward, and Roy would probably stay away from him; something Ed didn't want at all.

He sighed and decided he should just wait, he could talk with Roy later, but right now, he wanted to absorb more of Roy's warmth. He scooped closer to Roy and curled himself up more than before. He was a little cold, and if Roy hadn't been there he would probably freeze like hell, turning into a ice cube or something.

He was grateful to Roy for giving him warmth; he didn't stand being cold, now much less than before. The coldness reminded him of the time with Jason; he was sure he almost froze to death there. It didn't get any better when Jason tortured him either, slicing the bloody knife through his flesh, sometimes so deep he could feel it hit his bones. Then there was the times when Jason did more, when he… He…

His body started shaking at the memories and he could feel the tears push their way out. He tried not to cry, not to remember the painful things that happened to him, but it seemed like he wasn't in charge of his own body at the moment – it still came.

The sobs broke through and he tried to be as quiet as possible, he didn't want to wake Roy, he didn't want to worry him more than he already had. He squeezed his eyes shut and put his hand over his mouth to make as little sound as possible. The biggest problem was the shaking. Since Roy had his arms wrapped around him, Roy could easily feel his shaking body, so he just hoped Roy was a heavy sleeper.

To his big luck, Roy wasn't. He could feel Roy shift in the small bed hugging Ed even closer. This was unfair to Roy, he knew that, he shouldn't shoulder his burden on him – but right now he wanted Roy to comfort him.

"What's wrong?" Roy asked worriedly while running his fingers through Ed's hair, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Ed shaked his head and sobbed once again "Just… just thought of what… what happened."

Roy nuzzled his head into Ed's, "Don't worry, you're safe now, no one's going to hurt you."

All he managed to do was giving a small nod. "I know, but… I'm still afraid." He felt so dumb, why couldn't he control his emotions more.

"It's okay; you have every right to feel afraid about what happened." Roy's words made him feel better; he could hear that Roy said the truth, but he didn't want to feel afraid – it wasn't a pleasant feeling.

They laid there in silence with Roy stroking Ed's head, and eventually the sobbing stopped and Ed became tired. He wanted something confirmed before he fell asleep though.

"Hey, Roy, do you… like… love me?" Roy's fingers stopped stroking his hair and Ed was afraid he pushed a little too much with the question.

"Yes, I… I love you." Ed could hear that Roy felt uncomfortable with saying it aloud, but that made it all so much cuter, it meant he actually cared. Ed felt his heart tingle at that, he was so happy!

"Good." He was too tired to say more, but he could almost feel Roy's satisfaction at his words.

His eyes became heavier and heavier with each second that went, and he could feel sleep pulling at him. He felt safe now and he wasn't afraid of any nightmares coming, as long as he stayed with Roy, everything would be fine. He closed his eyes and let the darkness wash him away from the sweet reality.

One week later

"Are you ready?" Winry Rockbell stood with the automail arm in her hands beside Ed with a concerned look.

"Yes, Winry, I'm ready," he said for the hundredth time – okay, maybe not the hundredth time, but that doesn't matter.

Al and Winry arrived in Central two days ago, currently staying with the Hughes family. They decided to wait with visiting him to get some rest, although they were worried for him. When they came to the hospital an hour ago, Winry started yelling and throwing wrenches at him for being irresponsible and stupid, like he expected, but this time he got a panic attack.

The memories from the time with Jason came rushing back, and he remembered how terrified Winry had looked. Of course it wasn't her fault, but he couldn't help but panic from the pain and the loud sound. Roy then began yelling at her for doing what she did when Ed was in his condition. She quickly apologized and waited for Roy to calm him down.

Al stood completely still with horrified eyes when it happened, but it didn't take long before he went over to Winry who started crying from her actions. Al knew Roy could take care of Ed.

"Okay then," Winry said while bringing the arm closer to his shoulder.

Al and Roy stood on the opposite side of the bed from Winry looking concerned as well, but he gave them a reassuring smile, something they didn't buy the least. He sighed, took Roy's hand and prepared himself for the agony that awaited him.

He nodded to Winry and she began counting. "One. Two. Three!" There was a small click heard, and in the same moment, the pain came. As always, the pain was excruciating, and as always, he screamed.

He squeezed Roy's hand so hard he was afraid he would break some bones, and a few tears escaped his eyes. Roy didn't take the hand away from him though – Roy would probably let Ed break his hand just to make Ed assured it was okay, and that made him feel slightly better. He tossed his head back and forth a little while he bit his lip to stop any whimpers from coming, but some always broke through.

Eventually he calmed down, but he was still breathing heavily and his head hurt so much he almost thought someone had banged it in a wall a hundred times or something. He was tired now and all he wanted to do was sleeping.

He looked at Roy with tired eyes and a slightly flushed face. "Can you lie with me?"

The words were just a whisper, but Roy caught the words anyway and signalled to the others to leave the room. Al and Winry nodded back at Roy and left the room with small smiles covering their lips.

Roy looked back at Ed with soft eyes. "Of course, honey." He sat down on the bed and started taking off his shoes.

He snorted shortly, momentarily forgetting he was tired, and looked back at Roy with an amused look. "Honey?"

Roy took his hair twirling it around his fingers. "The colour suits you, don't you think? Honey is sweet too, like you." Roy showed Ed the hair twirled around his fingers.

The colour did suit him, a lot. "Of course it does! Maybe I should start calling you coal then, black suits you well."

"Hey!" Roy wasn't amused about the statement; he took a pillow and threw it on Ed.

Ed caught it with both hands and began giggling like a little kid. "The colour suits you, don't you think?" he imitated Roy while sinking back in the bed.

After a while, he stopped giggling, suddenly tired again. He could see Roy smiling lovingly at him, and he smiled softly back. He knew he couldn't stay awake much longer; even if he wanted to.

He was looking forward to tomorrow though, when he finally could get out of the stupid hospital. He had answered yes to Roy when he asked if he wanted to stay with him while he recovered, and, as they both knew, probably after he had recovered too. He seriously looked forward to spending some alone time with Roy, cuddling together at the couch with streaming hot cocoa; okay, maybe not exactly like that, but anyway. He also wanted a better bed than the one at the dorms; something Roy probably had.

Suddenly the weight of Roy disappeared from the bed, and he tried to force himself to focus more at the situation without falling asleep. Apparently, Dr. Knox came in the room, and Roy got up to talk to him.

He sighed when he didn't make out their voices properly, everything was just a blur. Eventually he gave up and closed his eyes; it was probably best if he received some sleep.

Roy POV-

He looked over at Ed who had fallen asleep; it was for the best too, after the insertion of the automail he should be resting. He turned his gaze back at the man standing In front of him, "I'll make sure he gets it as comfortable as possible tomorrow when we leave, doctor." Dr. Knox smiled warmly at him, but he looked concerned about something; was something wrong?

"I'm sure you will, colonel. There is something making me anxious though," Knox said, his head turning to Ed's unmoving body.

There wasn't something wrong with Ed, was it? "What's on your mind, doctor?" When Know didn't answer as fast as Roy wanted, he started fidgeting with his hands, his unease taking the better of him.

Finally, Knox spoke, "I'm afraid how much the event may cause damage to Edward, colonel. After what happened, it wouldn't be weird if he came into a depression in the future – but that's not the only concern I have." Know shifted his weight and sighed lightly before continuing, "Edward's wounds can become a problem for him later, there is a high risk he will have issues with his image because of them."

Shit, he hadn't given this a thought at all. Wait a second, he just realised something; what exactly happened to Ed? Dr. Knox never told him what caused Ed's wounds. He understood that Ed had been tortured of some sort, that was obvious, but what did dirty-bastard Jason do to Ed? He never thought of asking once, which surprised him, but he wanted to know now.

"Doctor, what happened to Ed?" Knox looked confused about the question, but it didn't take long before realisation hit him.

"Oh, I never did tell you, did I," Knox said, pushing his glasses higher on his nose. "You're absolutely sure you want to hear this, colonel?" After Roy nodded hesitantly, Knox continued, "Most of his wounds are apparently from a big kitchen knife or some sort of cutting knife. It looks like Ed was stabbed several times, but it also looks like Jason drew the knife through Ed's skin, making longer wounds in his body."

Roy wanted to say something, but Knox held his hand up, showing he wasn't finished yet. Knox darkened deeply in just seconds, and Roy began thinking something was seriously wrong.

Knox sighed once again, saying, "There were signs of sexual performance on Ed, colonel. His thighs were highly bruised and he had bite marks all over his neck, sir."

His eyes filled with water as he went to sit down on the bed, carefully, so he didn't wake Ed. His face fell into his hands as he helplessly cried, not caring if he looked pathetic. He heard Knox approaching him, and the bed sank as Knox sat down beside him. Knox gently laid his hand on his shoulder, telling him he understood. There was an uncomfortable silence with Roy's sobbing and Ed's heavy breathing as the only sounds in the room.

At last, Knox stood up from the bed, saying, "I'll come by tomorrow morning before Ed's release. Try to receive some rest, colonel. Good night." Some seconds later, the door shut, leaving Roy alone with Ed once again.

He lifted his head from its position while turning towards Ed. Why did it happen to Ed, he didn't deserve it one bit? It was cruel, too cruel; Ed didn't deserve being tortured or raped! God, Jason raped Ed. He could feel his sadness and anger bowl inside him; he hoped Jason was literally rotting in jail for what he did to Ed, and worse.

He moved some hair out of Ed's face before laying down with him as he had planned before Knox came earlier. He wrapped his arms protectively around Ed's frail body while kissing his crown and whispering, "I'll never let anyone hurt you ever again. I love you, and I wouldn't stand loosing you, Ed. I can't live without you." The tears threatened to come again, but he stopped them when Ed whimpered quietly. "Shhh, honey, you're safe now," he whispered, running his hand over Ed's head.

The teen stopped whimpering and he tightened the grip around him, closing his eyes; he should try getting some rest while he had the chance. He found it hard though; His thoughts was set on the day after. He wondered if Ed would like his house, if he felt comfortable being in the large place alone with him.

In all honesty, he was scared. What if Ed hurt himself during a nightmare at night, what if something happened to him when he was home alone! Ed had to be home alone when he went to work; Ed had to rest after all.

Shit, he suddenly felt useless; he didn't know what to do anymore. He let out a long sigh before nuzzling his face into Ed's golden locks, feeling Ed's body moving when he breathed, hearing Ed's heavy breaths while he slept, showing he was alive.

His lips curled up into a small smile. Yes, nothing really mattered if Ed wasn't alive, so all he had to do was keeping him alive. He could do that, he would to that, even if it meant risking his own life, he would save Ed from anything. He was going to protect his Ed from anything that tried to hurt him, because he had never felt this way about someone before, he had never loved someone like this before.

Leaving that as his last thought, he finally fell asleep, feeling more at ease than he had in a while.

AN: Hope you enjoyed the chapter, and please review!