A/N: TW- Mention of self-harm.
Kenny had visited me yesterday, and honestly it was the worst thing he could have done. I didn't really wanna see the assholes face that ruined my friendship. Not to mention he walked in on me slicing my arm open. Whatever. He can be all pissy if he wants. Shitty thing though, my mom is making me go back to school today. I sigh as I enter the school and let my eyes wander. No sight of McWhoreDick yet, and I hope it stays that way. Although, I also don't see Tweek. That thought causes a twinge of pain in my heart, but I push it away and go to my first class. I hate this place, and quite frankly, I hate all the people except the few friends I have.
As soon as the teacher opens her fucking mouth, I let my mind wander and they fall back to Kenny. I sigh as I remember the amount of pain in his features after I spoke. It was... Actually horrible now that I think of it. God, I'm an asshole. Maybe I should go see him..? I mean... I told him it was a mistake to kiss him but I actually wanted it. Then he started on bout how he was used to it, or whatever he said? I clench my jaw before standing up and exiting the room with my things. I threw them in my locker before running from the school. I had to fix this. I like Kenny, and I can't just push him away due to my own errors. It was /my/ fault. I'm the one that kissed him. I'm the reason my best friend hates me.
I only ran faster and as soon as I made it to Kenny's home, I burst inside and went straight to his bedroom. As I entered the room, I saw Kenny curled up in a ball on the bed and my heart shattered as I heard the muffled sniffles emanate from him.
"Kenny... Listen... I... Uh... I'm sorry, okay...? I didn't mean what I said at all.. I was... I was just putting the blame on you when I should have been blaming myself... I meant the kiss, I wanted to kiss you. I mean, fuck, I still want to..." I spoke softly and moved myself to sit on the end of Kenny's bed. I turned my gaze to face the blond as he sat up and his eyes locked with mine. His pale hands moving up to wipe the stray tears from his cheeks.
"I'm still sorry, Craig... I mean... I should have pushed your ass away.. You had just told me about being confessed to then I eagerly kiss back.. We are equally at fault, Craig... I just, I'm fucking pissed off. Not at you, at the fact you're so hurt. Like, what the fuck did you do to deserve this? It's not your fault you don't like Tweek back... I mean, god dammit." I blink as I listen to Kenny speak and then I feel his bare arms wrap around my neck and my body being pulled closer to the blonds.
I hesitate before wrapping my arms around Kenny's waist and I held the blond close. He kept murmuring 'I'm sorry' in my ear as he lightly peppered my head with gentle kisses. A smile tugged at the corner of my lips before I buried my face into Kenny's warm neck, taking in his scent. I was fucked, because the amount I like this perverted, poor, asshole is too much. I pull him to where he was on my lap and the blond wrapped his slender legs around my waist.
"Kenny, I know we might be the most dysfunctional people in South Park, but would you be my boyfriend...?" I whispered into his neck and received only a nod in response. It was good enough for me.
"Good... You're right, though... I can't help who I gain feelings for.. I mean, maybe I should like Tweek because I know him inside and out, but, he's more like a little brother that I have to take care of." I only held him tighter, my hands lightly gripping the back of the white t-shirt he was wearing.
To me, this felt right. I felt at ease in Kenny's embrace. I felt, happy? Yeah, definitely. I mean, I can tell we are going to have a shit ton of problems due to our personalities clashing, but fuck. I deserve to be happy too. I might be a cynical asshole who doesn't take time to think before his actions, but I at least deserve this. I feel like shit for how much I hurt Tweek, but he'll get over it, right...? I shake my head and place a soft kiss on Kenny's neck. I just wanted to feel like this for awhile before I get pulled into a drama shit storm.
A/N: Sorry this is short. I didn't feel like adding too much into one chapter, so this is good enough, I suppose. :)