Chapter 19: Fall

My head felt dizzy. My body was heavy. I needed several attempts to open my eyes. It was dark. Cold air hit my skin. I tried to pull my legs closer to my body, but winced at the pain. My body arched from lying on hard material.

Fully opening my eyes, I looked around only to find myself in a dark room. The only light source was a small, barred window over my head. Shifting my weight I could see that I was lying on a bunker bed with a thin, scratchy blanket covering my form. Lifting the blanket up, I gasped at the sight of the bandages wrapped around my body. They were like a trigger to the memories of what happened. I remembered me escaping, Zetsu catching me, Hidan torturing me…

Biting my bottom lip to not cry out in pain, I sat upright and undid the bandages to look at the damage. The wounds were healed though not in such an expert way. I grimaced in disgust as I saw the symbol that Hidan had cut into my skin. It was his Jashin symbol; an upright triangle in a circle. On reflex I placed my palm over the symbol. I wanted it gone. I wasn't his property. I didn't want it to become a scar that would be forever carved in my skin. With grim satisfaction I watched as the chakra surrounded my hand and healed the wound completely until there was not even a scar left.

"You can use chakra!" I winced at the loud voice of Inner ringing in my ears.

"Shut up" I grumbled and moved my hand to heal the next wound.

"You can use chakra!" Inner repeated.

"So what?" I replied irritated. "I'm a shinobi after all. Ouch!" Inner hit me over the head.

"Did they fry your brain or what? They sealed your chakra, remember? You got rid of it before you escaped, but they must have forgotten to redo it! They are more stupid than I thought!" She laughed.

I stopped healing the wound and frowned, staring at the green chakra surrounding my hand. Inner was right. I could use my chakra. However, I didn't believe the Akatsuki just forgot to redo the seal. Not after I almost escaped. My gaze shifted to the wounds. What did they say over and over again? I wasn't supposed to be harmed physically, because Sasori wanted to turn my flawless body into a puppet. What if they let me have my chakra on purpose so that I could heal myself, thus undoing the damage Hidan had done?

I gritted my teeth in anger and clenched my fists. They didn't want their precious toy to be damaged. They wanted me to use up my chakra by healing my wounds before they'd seal it again. However, what else should I do with it? I was too low on chakra to take on Akatsuki and I could feel the powerful seals around my prison cell. They were warned now. They wouldn't make the same mistake again.

Frustrated, I healed the rest of my wounds until my skin was once again flawless and free from scars. Maybe I should not have healed myself as an act of protest, because I didn't want to be their doll. But I didn't want to have Hidan's marks on me either. They would be a constant reminder of what he did to me, of the pain he put me through, of how he humiliated me. Even now I barely managed to push the memories of him back into the darkest corner of my mind.

Sighing, I stood up to walk around the dark room when my foot suddenly made contact with a hard object. Feeling over it, I felt something soft. Clothes, placed on a chair.

Relieved, I took the clothes to the bed under the window and quickly got dressed. I most likely would lose them again soon but I still preferred to walk around clothed.

I just had zipped up my pants when the door opened. Turning around, I frowned when I wasn't greeted with the sight of one of the Akatsuki, but a normal shinobi. Looking at his headband I saw that he was from Rain. What was a Rain shinobi doing here?

"Pain-sama wants to see you" the man informed me and stepped back to let me through. I hesitated for only a second before I walked out of the room and followed him.

It quickly became clear that we weren't in the Akatsuki hideout anymore. The hideout I had been in only had one story but was widely spread underground. This hideout was high as we climbed up a lot of stairs. Maybe it was a tower?

We stopped in front of a door and the man knocked.

"Enter." My stomach twisted as I recognized the voice to be Pain's. Would he punish me now for trying to escape? Wasn't Hidan's torture enough?

"Kami-sama, the girl has awaken" the rain shinobi said after entering the room. I couldn't see anything but his back. Kami-sama, seriously?

"Bring her in." I shivered at hearing Pein's cold, deep voice and the shinobi stepped aside to let me walk past him which I did. Pein was sitting at a table, a stack of documents placed in front of him. Konan was standing next to him.

"Thank you, you can go now. Konan, will you let us alone please?" The woman nodded and she and the shinobi left the room and closed the door behind them, leaving me alone with Pein.

"Come here" he ordered and I walked to him, biting my bottom lip nervously. I had no idea what he wanted as his expression was unreadable and blank like a mask.

"How are you feeling?" As if he cared.

"Good" I lied. I was nervous about what he was planning to do to me, my body was still sore and inside my mind I fought against the memories of Hidan raping me.

"Are the wounds healed?" So I had guessed right. He only left me my chakra so that I could heal myself. Bastard.

I nodded.

"Are there any scars remaining?" I shook my head at his question. "Undress and show me."

Of course it went into this direction. Why couldn't I have a normal conversation with these guys without anything sexual?

I didn't say it out loud though but stripped in front of Pein until I was naked. I didn't even try to cover my not so private areas even though I had the great urge to do so.

"Turn around." I slowly spun in a circle to give him a full view of my once again flawless skin. As I faced him again, he nodded in satisfaction. "Good, you are a truly good medic." He stood up, and to my surprise he cupped my chin in his hand and made me look up at him before he kissed me gently. I shifted my weight uncomfortably but kissed back hesitantly, my stomach fluttering at the feeling of his hot lips pressed against mine. Would he not punish me? I tried to escape after all! Or was this part of a sick mind game? Would he make me loosen up and relax with his kisses and then strike?

"Come, I want to show you something" he said, breaking the kiss and walking to the door. I wanted to grab my clothes but he stopped me: "You don't need those."

So I followed him, naked and blushing, hoping that we wouldn't cross anybody's path.

He guided me to a bare room but there was an opening that led outside. Pain placed an arm around my shoulder and guided me out the entrance and on something that I noticed was supposed to be a tongue that came out of a statue. We were in a high building and underneath us laid Amegakure. The sky was covered by dark clouds and it was cold so that I had to wrap my arms around me to keep me warm. Pain made me go further, until we were almost at the end of the tongue and then we stopped. Carefully I sneaked a peek over the edge. We were several meters up high and I was sure that if I would fall down, with that little chakra left, I would die. I never had a problem with heights but my heartbeat sped up instinctively and I stepped back into the middle of the tongue.

"I thought you might want to breathe in some fresh air" Pein who stood behind me said and kissed my shoulder. "Are you cold?" He wrapped his arms around me and let his hands slide over my stomach. I shivered at his hot, caressing touches but still got goose bumps.

"A little, yes. Can we go inside, please?" I had nothing against breathing fresh air but I was naked, it was cold and I was afraid that someone might see us.

"No. I just have to make you feel warm." And as he pressed his body against my back, tightened his arms around me and attacked my neck with his mouth, I knew that this was what he had wanted all along. He reached between my legs, played with my clit, grabbed my breasts, and rubbed his body against mine.

"N-No, please! Someone might see us."

"So what?" he replied casually. "Let them stare… Hmm the coldness turns your nipples hard" he added and pulled at the little rosy perks. A soft moan escaped my lips and I leaned into his body to get some of his body heat and let him warm me up with hot touches. Soon I moaned louder as he slipped two fingers inside my pussy.

"You definitely have gotten wider but you still seem to be tight. That's good." I crooked my head back to kiss his jaw. I could feel his erection through his pants; his cloak was open in the front. I felt behind me, felt for his crotch and rubbed his erection through his pants, making him moan into my shoulder.

He then spun me around so that I was facing him now. Pulling his pants down he revealed his hard erection and lifted my right leg up. To not loose balance I gripped his shoulders, staring at him with anticipation and lust in my eyes. Stepping even closer to me he pushed his hard erection into my wet pussy, making me moan loudly. I instinctively squeezed him as he entered.

"The others worked you good" he groaned as he started to pound into me.

I was shivering though I didn't know if it was from the chilly breeze or from pleasure, probably from both. He trailed kisses up and down my neck, squeezed my ass, caressed my thighs. "Are you still cold?"

"No" I moaned loudly as I pressed my heated body into his.

"Do you want me to stop?" he asked, slowing down and almost stopping, teasing me. I whined in protest.

"No I want you to fuck me hard!" I shouted before I remembered where we were and blushed deeply. He only chuckled and picked up his pace, going faster than before. I thrust my hips into his, meeting his poundings.

"Are you enjoying being fucked by me?" He trailed his tongue over my lips. I whimpered and nodded before I opened my mouth to battle his tongue with mine.

We panted heavily as our skins slapped with each thrust. Pain then lifted my leg up a little more to get a better angle and hit directly my G-spot. I screamed in pleasure.

"Right there, fuck me there!" He did so and my mind turned dizzy as he hit that spot repeatedly.

"I'm coming!" I moaned, and my walls tightened around him.

"Cum over my hard cock, Sakura" he growled and hit my spot again. It was too much and I spilled my juice over him.

Pain slowed down and pulled out but his penis was still hard as he didn't come yet. "Get on your knees."

I knew what to do. So I kneeled down and grabbed the lower part of his penis while taking the rest of it in my mouth. I tasted myself on him as he was covered in my juice. It was interesting though a little weird to lick my own scent off him but I did so like the good girl I was and sucked him off, giving him a nice blowjob. I twirled my tongue around his shaft, covered it in my spit, pumping his lower shaft and humming.

Pain moaned loudly and grabbed my hair, pulling me closer to his crotch.

"I want you to take me deep in your mouth and swallow everything." I nodded and slipped my mouth over his member as far as I could as he came and shot his loud into my throat. I took it all and swallowed it after he pulled his limp cock out. Pain wiped away a little cum that had slipped out of my mouth and I licked it off his finger. He smiled down at me, satisfied.

"You can stay out here for a little while" he said and then took the cloak off his shoulders to wrap it around my body. It was comfortably warm and I pulled it tightly around me.

I watched him walk back into the building but stayed seated on the tongue.

I was in a daze-like state as I stared dully into the grey sky, still panting. When the aftereffects of the orgasm faded, realization slowly dawned into my mind. What did just happen? Why? Why did I let him touch me? I should have tried to push him off the tongue! Instead I responded to his touches and…and… Why did I become so willingly?

I knew the answer, and it shocked me. I enjoyed it. I enjoyed fucking Pain. And he was not the only one, I realized. I enjoyed being touched by them. I enjoyed being close to them. I enjoyed being fucked by them. It wasn't love, but it was pure sexual desire. It seems like my body wanted to make up for all the lost time, for the years I didn't show any interest in sex.

I wasn't a virgin anymore, nor by mind nor by body. I wasn't a rape victim, because for it being rape I enjoyed it too much. I willingly had sex with my enemies and kidnappers.

I was a slut.

Tears gathered in my eyes as I realized what I had tried to deny for so long now. I clutched the fabric of the cloak, Pain's cloak, in my hands. It smelled like him, smelled masculine and I wanted to bury my nose in it and inhale that scent deeply.

Disgusted by myself I grabbed the cloak and threw it away, watching as it sailed to the ground. I was trembling, but not from coldness. Why have I even tried to escape? What would I have done if I managed to get back home to the Leaf? I was a disgrace. I couldn't face Tsunade, or Naruto, or Kakashi, or Ino, not after what I've done. I slept with the enemy, moaning like crazy like the whore I was. They would hate me if they knew the truth. Things would never be the same. Maybe they would even lock me away in prison because they thought I joined the side of Akatsuki…

I was a disgrace. A slut. A whore. I didn't deserve a happy life back in Konoha. Tears freely fell from my eyes and mixed with the few rain drops falling from the sky. I looked after them, watched them fall and splash on the street and houses underneath.

And suddenly, a thought hit me. There was only one way to escape this, something that I should have done right in the beginning. I would never make it to Konoha, I now knew that. But I could escape them in another way, could escape their temptations, their touches, the sex… I no longer would be their puppet. Sasori couldn't turn my corpse into a puppet.

With a grim expression, I stood up. The wind had picked up and blew through my hair, my skin was covered by goose bumps but I didn't care. My toes curled around the edge of the tongue as I stared down into the abyss. I took a deep breath of the cold air. I closed my eyes. I took a step forward, into the air, and shifted my body weight forward. The foot that was still placed on the tongue slowly lost balance.

I fell.

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