ASHLEY'S P.O.V
"Hey Ky"
I pull back my hotel door so she can come in.
"Hey Ash"
I watch her as she walks over and takes a seat on the bed.
"Are you alright Ky?"
"Yer i'm actually here to see how you are?"
"How I am?"
"Yer"
I walk over and take a seat on the chair in the corner of the room.
"I'm fine"
"I haven't seen you much lately?"
"Ky you saw me a couple of days ago"
"Ashley don't bullshit me"
"I'm not"
"You've been avoiding the bar"
"No I haven't"
She just rolled her eyes.
"Did something happen with Spencer?"
I don't know how to answer that.
"I'm guessing your silence means something happened?"
I really don't want to talk about this.
"Ashley talk to me"
"It's complicated"
"I've got all afternoon"
She's so annoying.
"Look we've been sleeping together alot these last few weeks and then a couple of weeks ago she freaked out"
"About what?"
"It doesn't matter but we didn't talk for nearly a week and then we ran into eachother last week at Roadhouse"
"You stopped talking?"
"Yer but when she saw me at Roadhouse she tried to apologise"
"And you didn't listen?"
"Kyla seriously do you want me to tell you or not?"
"Sorry I want you to tell me"
I thought she might say that.
"So I got annoyed and just left but then she followed me back to the hotel and told me everything"
"Everything?"
"Yer stuff that she never tells anyone"
"Do I know this stuff?"
"I don't know"
I don't think she does.
"Anyway everything was good again 'til thursday night when I hooked up with someone else"
"Did she get annoyed?"
"No she actually didn't care"
"Isn't that a good thing?"
Not really.
"Holy shit Ashley you want her to care don't you?"
I don't think I want to answer that.
"You like her?"
"Ky I..."
"Ashley i've known you for years and you never wanted more from a girl"
"I never said I wanted more"
"But you do"
There's a long pause before I say anything.
"I do"
She's smiling.
"Are you going to tell Spencer?"
"No fucking way"
That's a ridiculous idea.
"Are you serious?"
"Ky she's not looking for more and if I tell her how I feel she's going to freak out and push me away"
"Ashley you won't know that until you try"
"Well I guess i'll never know"
"So you're just going to pretend that you don't want more?"
"That's exactly what i'm going to do"
It's easier that way.
"Ashley don't take the easy way out"
"Ky can we please just forget I said anything"
"No"
I'm never going to hear the end of this.
"Ash you'll regret it if you don't say anything"
"No I won't"
I probably will but it's easier this way.
"So you're just going to keep avoiding her while you're in New York"
"Well that's the thing"
She's not going to like this bit.
"The record company told me I could finish the album in LA if I wanted to"
"You're leaving?"
"I haven't decided yet but i'm thinking I probably will"
"Fucking hell Ashley"
She looks annoyed.
"Kyla me being in New York was never a permanent thing"
"Okay Ashley just leave then"
I watch her as she hops up off the bed.
"Kyla?"
"No Ashley I'm fucking sick of this shit just do what you want to do"
Why's she getting so annoyed.
"Wait"
I cut her off before she can leave.
"Why are you getting so annoyed?"
"Ashley I'm done being the one who makes the effort all the time"
What's that meant to mean?
"For years i've gone out of my way to make this work"
I really don't understand what's happening.
"If I didn't fly back to LA twice a year we'd never see eachother"
I really need to make more of an effort.
"If I didn't make an effort when we first met we would of gone on living our lives like the other one didn't exist"
"Ky?"
"She's one of my best friends Ashley and not once did you ask me if it was okay"
I feel horrible.
"Now things between you two are weird and that's going to effect my friendship with her"
I didn't think of that.
"You're so fucking selfish Ashley and I know you don't mean to be but i'm sick of it"
"Ky..."
"Ashley if you want to leave just fucking leave"
"Kyla I don't know what you want me to say?"
"I WANT YOU TO FUCKING CARE"
I've never seen her this annoyed before.
"You've been fucking around with Spencer since you got here and not once have you shown an interest in hanging out with me"
"You're always with Bryce"
"Ashley if you had of asked me to do something I would of told Bryce I was busy"
"Ky I'm sorry I didn't mean..."
"You never mean anything you do"
I feel horrible.
"Look Ashley if you want to spend your whole life running away when things get too hard that's your choice, but i'm done tip toeing around you"
Since when does she tip toe around me?
"We've all had fucked up shit happen in our lives Ashley but you're not seventeen anymore and there's only so long that your issues with Christine and your problems with dad can be used as an excuse for the way you act"
That's kind of harsh.
"Good luck with everything Ash"
I'm such an ass.
"Have a safe flight home"
She's out the door before I can stop her.