ASHLEY'S P.O.V
I've been feeling like the biggest asshole all day.
I know I haven't been the greatest sister.
But I hadn't thought about how it was affecting Kyla until today.
She'd do anything for me and I need to start showing her I'd do the same.
"Ky can we talk?"
I stopped by the loft before but noone was there and then I remembered it was Sunday, so I walked down to Roadhouse.
"I'm busy"
Everyone's staring.
"Kyla please?"
"Fine"
When she hops up I look over at Spencer and Zara.
"Hey"
"Hey"
Well that was about as awkward as I thought it was going to be.
"I should probably follow her"
"Yer that's probably best"
When I catch up to her she's out the front.
"Hey"
Clearly it's best I just get to the point.
"Ky I'm so sorry"
"Ashley you don't owe me an apology"
If looks could kill I'd be dead.
"Yer Kyla I do and i'm so sorry that it took you losing your shit for me to realise how horrible i've been"
I feel really bad.
"You were right Ky"
Now she's listening.
"I can't keep blaming everything that's wrong with me on my parents"
"Look Ashley I meant what I said but I shouldn't have said it the way I did"
She feels bad.
"Ky I deserved it so you really don't need to feel bad"
"I don't feel bad"
She starts smiling when I raise my eyebrows.
"Okay maybe I feel a little bit bad"
She's too nice.
"Kyla you're like the only family I care about and when you said all that stuff to me it hit me"
She's never called me out on the way I act before.
"I've been a shit sister to you and I haven't been doing it deliberately but I should have been making more of an effort"
I'm not saying anything she doesn't already know.
"I've just always been alone and growing up noone in my house ever made an effort to see eachother"
I'm still trying to get use to this whole family thing.
"And before you say anything i'm not using that as an excuse I've just never been good at this whole family thing"
She doesn't look quite as angry anymore.
"But Kyla I want the whole family thing with you and I know it doesn't seem like I give a shit but I do"
I like having a sister.
"Ky you're the one person I can't stand having mad at me"
I need to start making more of an effort.
"So i'm sorry for everything and I promise from now on I'll be better"
"Thank you"
I smile when she pulls me in for a hug.
"So does this mean you're not mad at me anymore?"
She's laughing.
"That's the thing Ashley no matter how much I want to be mad at you I can't"
I think that's a good thing,
"We're family and families don't hold grudges"
"Okay Ky that rule can apply for us but it's definately not applying for me and Christine"
My mum's a bitch.
"Yer Christine can be the exception to the rule"
When I pull back she's smiling.
"Kyla I promise i'll start making more of an effort"
"That would be nice"
"I'll even start visiting you in New York"
"Awwww New York's finally growing on you?"
"Not really I still prefer LA"
Los Angeles is so much better.
"Ash does this whole chat mean you've made up your mind?"
"Ky my life's back in LA"
"What about Spencer?"
"She's not going to want what I want"
"You don't know that"
"Yer Ky I do"
Spencer's not looking for a relationship.
"You like her right?"
"Yer"
I'm pretty sure I told her this earlier.
"Then what's there to lose?"
"She'll stop talking to me"
"Who cares you're going back to LA?"
That's a good point.
"I don't like rejection"
"Ashley rejection makes you stronger"
She should be a shrink.
"And you never know Ashley she might surprise you"
I doubt it.
"Do you really think I should tell her?"
"I definately think you should tell her"
That's not what I wanted to hear.
"Ashley you'll regret it if you don't"
"Okay fine i'll tell her"
She's grinning.
"I'll write her a letter"
"No you won't"
"Okay how about you give me her phone number and i'll message her?"
"You don't have her phone number?"
"No I haven't really needed it"
She's always at the same place.
So if I want to find her I just go to her bar.
"You can get her number when you tell her"
"How about I just email her?"
"Ashley?"
"Okay fine i'll talk to her"
"Sooner rather than later"
She's so bossy.
"I'll talk to her tonight"
"Good now let's get back inside"
I really don't think I want to.
I know what Spencer's going to say and I know i'm not going to like it.