SPENCER'S P.O.V
This girl's been all over me all night.
I've never met her before but apparantly she's one of Sal's friends.
"Spencer come dance"
"Zara i'm just going to stay here"
I'm really not in the mood.
I can't stop thinking about Ashley.
It was only two days ago that we went to lunch and agreed to be friends and now she's telling me she wants more.
"Spencer how have we never met before?"
This girl really doesn't have any game.
"I'm not sure"
When she leans across I know I want to move but I don't.
I've been drinking and no matter how hard I try to forget what just happened I can't.
So I kiss her back and when I do it feels wrong.
But I do it anyway and the longer it lasts the more I realise this isn't what I want.
"Don't mind me i'm just grabbing Kyla's bag"
When I pull back i'm really hoping this person just sounds like Ashley.
But when I turn around it's her.
"Ashley?"
She reaches out grabbing Kyla's bag off the table.
"I'm just grabbing this"
Shit.
"Ashley wait?"
When she doesn't stop I quickly hop up and follow her.
"That wasn't what it looked like"
She's not buying it.
"Spencer what are you doing?"
I have no idea.
"I'm trying to explain"
"Why would you need to explain yourself to me?"
"I feel horrible"
"Why Spencer you can't help how you feel?"
She's not going to make this easy.
"Ashley I didn't want that to happen"
"Yer from where I was standing it didn't look like you wanted that to happen either"
She's so sarcastic.
"It was very classy"
She can't be serious.
"Ashley you don't get to judge me"
"I'm not judging you"
Yes she is.
"How have I become the bad guy?"
"Noone made you the bad guy Spencer so if you feel that way that's your problem"
I hate this.
"Really Ashley is this how it's going to be from now on?"
"Look Spencer maybe it's best we just forget these last few weeks"
That's not what I want.
"You have your life and I have mine"
I don't know what to say.
"So why don't you just get back to that..."
She's pointing at the table.
"Do you have to be such a bitch?"
"I'm sorry Spencer how would you like me to act?"
"I want you to hear me out"
"Have you changed your mind?"
She knows I haven't.
"Noooo"
I said that so softly that I doubt she even heard me.
"Then Spencer I've heard everything I need to hear"
I don't get why she's being like this.
"Ashley please?"
When she tries to walk away I quickly press my lips against hers.
"Fuck you Spencer"
I shouldn't have done that.
"Sorry I shouldn't of..."
She looks really annoyed.
"Spencer this unusual friendship we've been having is over"
Why did I do that?
"You of all fucking people should know how hard that was for me to tell you"
I don't think I could feel any worse than I do right now.
"Spencer I've never been in a relationship and i've never wanted to be in one"
I'm such an ass.
"But for some stupid reason I wanted one with you"
She's shaking her head.
"There was this small part of me that thought you might have felt the same way that's why I told you"
I've never seen her this angry before.
"But it's pretty obvious now that you don't and I can handle rejection Spencer but i'm not going to put up with this"
"Ashley i'm so sorry"
"Spencer if you gave a shit about me at all you never would of done that"
I shouldn't have kissed her.
"Not after everything i just told you"
I'm such an idiot
"So let's just forget I walked into you bar that day and let's just forget everything that's happened since"
That's not what I want.
"Because Spencer I can get over you just as quickly as I got into you"
I watch her as she walks away.
"What the fuck was that?"
"Zara she hates me"
If I was her I'd hate me as well.