Sorry it's been so long everyone! I've been busy trying to keep my senior year grades up...harder than I thought it'd be, lol. Anywho, hope y'all enjoy!

EDWARD'S POV:

As she yelled back at me I could feel my heart breaking. Please tell me it isn't so. She can't hate me. I'm her mate! She's my mate! Please don't let me be to late! God, please! As soon as she stops yelling she takes a step back, as if deciding to flee, and tries to catch her breath. This is my last chance. How do I get her to see that I love her? How do I confess that I've always loved her and will always love her?

Before I know what i'm doing I reach for her. Grab her face in my hands and slam my lips to hers. She struggles against my hold. But I can't give up so quickly. She'll see. She'll realize I'm the one for her. Her fist pound on my hard cold chest trying to make me stop, but I can't. She taste so heavenly. After a moment her movements stop. She isn't trying to pull away, but she also isn't kissing me back. "Please Amanda. I'm so sorry. Please." I place my lips back on hers gently hoping she'll respond this time. She's my mate. She has to love me. Please love me. After a moment her body relaxes in my hold and she kisses me back. She kisses me back!

There is a god somewhere! She sighs into the kiss and her hands snake into my hair and knot themselves in it. Now this is heaven. As pull away I kiss her cheeks, her eyes, her nose, her chin, and her forehead before stopping. "I'm sorry it took me so long to say this. Amanda I don't hate you. Not even a little bit. You're my mate. I love you so much it hurts. I can't live without. I'm a mess without you. Couldn't you see that? I became a monster when I was with Bella. I'm so sorry love. Could you ever forgive me?" Her green eyes are wide with wonder, "I'm you're...Mate

I sighed in relief and smile, "Yes. I'm sorry it took me so long to tell you. I just...I didn't want to damn you. But realized last night that If I don't have you. I'm nothing but an empty shell. Please say you forgive me Amanda? Please?!" She smiled making my dead heart leap. "Say it again." My eyebrows pinch together, "I'm sorry it took me so long t-." She interrupts me as she shakes her head, "No. Say the part where you said you love me."

I smiled crookedly, "I love you Amanda Marie Taylor. You are what makes my existence worth living. You make me a better person. I love you so much it hurts." She smiles, "You don't know how long I've waited for you to say those words to me Edward Anthony Mason Cullen. I've dreamed of the day you'd say it so many times in so many different ways." I take a step toward her but she raises her hand to stop me.

"But the thing is Edward...I think you left me waiting to long. Not only that but you destroyed all the trust I had in you. You hurt me Edward. So much." I can feel my heart shattering all over again as she falls to her knees with tears sliding down her face. I reach for her then, not caring if she pushes me away. She is my mate and I must comfort her. "I'm so sorry Amanda. I know I was cruel to you but I thought I was protecting you from...well me. From what I became. I didn't want you to have the same fate as me."

She shook her head and pulled out of my arms, "That's another thing. What gave you the right to decide for me? Who made you in charge of my destiny? If I really am your mate shouldn't I of had a say in what was best for me?" I pulled t my hair in frustration. She's nothing like Bella. But i'm kind of loving this effect of her powerful words on me. I like that she can stand up for herself. It's actually really hot. Stop getting distracted Cullen. They expect you both home soon. "I know it was wrong of me. I just...I'm used to being able to be the one making all the decisions. I mean Bella le-."

She stopped me with a glare. Maybe now wasn't the best time to bring up her name? "That's exactly my point Edward. I'm not Bella. I never have been and I never will be. You can't be in charge of my like a child the way you were with her. I'm a grown up...well almost one that s. But still. My point is, I pick what I think is best for me. Not you."

I nod as she finishes, "I understand. I'm so sorry Amanda. Please say you forgive me. Please say you'll take me as your mate. Please don't leave me." I was on my knees in front of her. Pathetic I know, but...this girl is everything to me. Now hat I finally see that I want to bask in this glory. I want to kiss those beautiful pink juicy kissable lips. I want to hold her warm hand and show all the male population in all dimensions that this beautiful creature before me was mine.

Amanda reached down, took my hand and pulled me up. Not literally seeing as i'm way o strong but I rose like she wanted me to. "Do I forgive you? I do Edward. And I will never leave you or this amazing family I feel a part of now." I smiled widely and leaned forward to kiss her but she put her hand up causing me to kiss her palm. I frowned feeling like a child who had just had their new toy taken away.

"Edward just because I forgive you doesn't mean I trust you. I don't want a relationship like that with you yet. You have to earn my trust again. I can't guarantee it will be easy, but it won't be crazy hard either. Give me time to trust you before I take the step of being your mate. Please Edward. Please." If my could beat it would of stopped and caused me to die. She doesn't want me. At least not as a mate. She doesn't love me. I can feel my world shattering. "Edward. Edward. Please Edward." She has gotten down beside me now and has her hands on both sides of my face.

"I'm not saying I hate you Edward. I do love you. I really do. But i'm not going to just jump into a relationship with you because you decided that you don't care about damning me as you say. I just said I need time. Be my friend for now. Show me I can trust you again. Show me I can trust you with my heart. Once you do. I'm yours. Forever and always. Just be my friend for now. Trust me. This will help us both." I sighed in defeat. I can be friends with her for now. At least i'll try my best not to kiss her every time I lay eyes on her.

"Okay. I'll be your friend for now. But soon you will trust me and you will be completely my mate." She smiled, "That's all i'm asking for. Just give me...us time. I know what i'm saying. Believe in me." I smiled, "I always have. I mean I believed you when you said you just appeared near my meadow out of thin air." She laughs sending my dead heart soaring. "You can read my mind genius. Of course you believed me. Now get up. We have to head to your house don't we?" I nodded covering my sadness as best I could. Mopping around won't make her trust me again. I will fight for her heart again. She will love me...I hope.

I don't want to spend eternity alone anymore. I want forever with her

...That was...Intense wasn't it? I really like this chapter. I rewrote it actually. In the original writing I did for this chapter I had her forgive him and get with him. But I realized something. I wouldn't forgive a guy so quickly if he was as cruel to me as Edward had been to Amanda. So I rewrote the chapter. I hope you like it. I know I enjoyed writing it. I kept thinking in my head, "You tell him girl!" Lol, anyone else thinking that as well? Let me know what y'all thought please. I really enjoy reading what you all have to say with each new update. Thank you all for reading! Let me know what y'all think. Reach ten comments and I will post another chapter tomorrow night as well. I can't promise this will be a regular thing, but we'll see. Hope you liked the chapter. Would y'all like to read the original chapter of this update? If so let me know and i'll put it up. :D