I absolutely loved everyone's reaction to the last chapter! I hope y'all enjoy this chapter as well!
AMANDA'S POV:
I can't believe I'm actually his mate. I'm Edward Cullen's mate. I've always wanted, always dreamed that Edward would wake up one day and say those words to me. My heart soared at his words, but I couldn't let my heart overrule my mind. If I had given in to him so easily he'd think he could get away with anything just like he did with Bella In the books. She had let him treat her like a child because that's how she thought love worked.
No one taught either of them that to be in a relationship you have to be equals. One can't overpower the other. I was on his back at the moment. My head resting near his neck trying to block out the wind. We were headed to his house after our discussion. He agreed to being friends which i'm glad for. I was worried he'd pull an Edward tantrum that wasn't commonly unknown in Twilight. As he sets me down on the porch of his house he turns, smiles at me crookedly and opens the door like a gentleman.
His lips. They may have been as cold as frozen peas but damn did he taste good. I was thinking of our kiss as I entered his house as he passed me I swear I saw him smirk. Damn his mind reading abilities. As I open my mouth to get mad at him my phone vibrates in my back pocket. As I look at the caller ID I panic. Oh shit! I totally forgot about Harry. What am I going to do? Should I break it off with him? I don't want to complicate things with Edward and I.
Maybe...maybe I should break it off with Harry. I'll at least be his friend...But I don't want to break his heart either. I mean we just became an item. Why did Edward have to go and finally realize he loved me just as i'm trying really trying this time to get over him. I just need to break it off with Harry I guess. I don't want to anger Edward and make him feel worthless or that he shouldn't even bother with me.
Edward is watching me with a blank face. He doesn't want me to see that he really dislikes my relationship with Harry. Knowing what I have to do I smile, "I'm gonna take this call." He nods and I answer. "Amanda! I've been so worried. You never messaged me back so I decided to call." I smiled at his worrying. He's like a human Edward. "Don't compare me to him," Edward said in annoyance and quickly walked off. Leaving me to my call. I frowned.
Well his fault. He should know better than to eves drop on me. "I'm sorry. I've been busy trying to see how everyone's been." "That's great. I can tell they love you...Umm Edward didn't try anything did he?" I froze. Should I tell him? Oh tell him what? That the vampire you have been in love with has finally told you that you're his mate? Yeah right! I sighed "Actually Harry I have to tell you something." The other line grew quiet.
I couldn't eve hear him breathing. After a while he replied, "You're leaving me for him aren't you?" "No Harry. I mean yes I want to break up, but i'm not getting with Edward. We agreed to just be friends. Harry I...I know it's wrong of me to ask but...Can we at least be friends? I would still love for you to be in my life. You're amazing and i'm sorry i'm doing this to you. I mean I ju-." "Stop." I shut my mouth and waited patiently for him to speak.
After a moment of silence I heard his broken voice and knew I had messed everything up. "Amanda I...I can't say I get why you're doing this because I don't. I don't get why you're giving this guy another chance when he clearly doesn't deserve it. He was cruel to you Amanda. He even let his freaking girlfriend talk shit to you. Do you really think he cares about you?"
I sighed, "I know you don't understand, but i'm not getting with him right away. Of course I know how cruel he was to me. I'm not going to forgive him that easily Harry. I don't trust him with my heart the way I once did. That's why I need you as a friend Harry. I need you there to pull me back when I begin to fall for his charm to easily. I need to be able to trust him before I accept his love is real. Please Harry. I know i'm messing everything up and i'm sorry for that. I really do like you hell i'm sure if Edward hadn't opened his mouth I might of actually been able to get over my heartbreak and fall head over heels in love with you. But that's the thing Harry. He did open his mouth, and he told me how he felt. He kissed me and that spark was still there. I'm sorry Harry. I'm so sorry."
I fell to my knees as tears slid down my face and my heart broke at the now broken possibility of a future with Harry. But I love Edward to much to stay with Harry and complicate things more. Edward and I need to focus on our friendship. On getting me to trust him again. "Amanda I...I need time okay. Just...Just give me time to...I need to think. I mean I've been in love with you for years and when I finally get a shot some asshole comes and takes you away from me. And now you're here offering me friendship instead of kisses that I was already getting to love. I need time before I can become your friend instead of what my heart wants okay? I'll...I got to go. Bye Amanda."
He hung up and I hung my head in shame. "I'm a terrible person." Arms wrapped around me, pulling me into their chest and I grabbed onto his shirt. "Why was it so hard to let him go Edward? I didn't love him." He kisses my forehead and smiles sadly, "But you were starting to." I cried on Edward for what felt like hours but really were probably minutes before exhaustion took me and I fell asleep in Edward's cold yet to me, warm skin.
So what do y'all think? Any good? Sorry I updated later than expected. I was stuck babysitting. Anywho, how did y'all like the chapter? Should Harry stay as her friend or just disappear? I'd love to know what you think