EDWARD'S POV:
I hated seeing her this way. All day yesterday she cried in my arms. Was it horrible of me to want to kick both mine and Harry's ass. Harry for making my mate fall for him, and mine because i'm the one who put her in this situation. I made her choose. I chose to tell her at the most horrible time for her. I had seen it in her face. I had heard it in her mind. She was falling in love with that human. I had to make my move before it was to late. but now i'm starting to wonder...was I already to late? I carried her to the only bed in the house after she passed out in my arms a few minutes ago. She grabbed my shirt not letting go as I laid her down.
"Don't leave me Edward. Please don't leave me." My dead heart aches to beat at the sound of my name from those lips, and she doesn't want me to leave?! "I'm not going anywhere Amanda. As long as you need me I'm here," I say as I curl up beside her and she shivers, "You said those words to Bella once," she mumbles before falling back to sleep. I shake my head, "Bella never held a flame compared to you my love." I watch her sleep and when the sun begins to rise it slowly brings light to her face. As if the sun had missed her and ached to see her face. The light makes her look like an angel, something unearthly.
She seems to beautiful, to pure to be here on this earth especially near me. I'm a monster and yet this angel lays by me sound asleep. How long will it make me to earn this magnificent creatures trust once more? She stirs and rubs her eyes as she tries to sit up. Once her eyes land on my bed?" I frown, "You asked me to stay last night...Remember?" She shakes her head and sighs, "Well thanks, for staying I mean. Ummmm, i'm gonna go in the shower." With that she scurries off and I fight the urge to laugh when she slides a little when getting to the restroom. I need to get those socks away from her. She always seems to be slipping in them. I get up and head downstairs to make breakfast for Amanda, got to start off small as you climb the latter right?
Alice appears in the kitchen and smirks, "Looks like you're gonna be her servant the rest of your existence." I roll my eyes but smile, "As long as she forgives me and takes me as her mate I will be her slave for as long as she wants me." Alice smiles sadly, "She'll get there. I promise. You just...don't do anything you might regret okay? One wrong move and that's it. I've seen it Edward. You mess up one more time and she's going to end up with Harry. She has two futures right now brother. Don't screw up and scare my could be sister away." If I could cry I would of by now. She has two possible futures. Two! What if I do mess up? I can't live without her, I can't. She's my mate, my sunlight, my angel.
Why did I have to stay with Bella so long for? Why?! Ugh, I hate my seventeen year old vampire mind sometimes. "Mmmm, that smells delicious." Amanda is coming down the stairs in a red spaghetti strap, very short shorts, and black converse with her hair down. I smile, "You're beautiful." She blushes, "that's not what friends tell each other." I frown, I guess she's right. "Want some breakfast?" She nods and takes a seat at the table. "I forgot that you could cook. The books always said you could, but I didn't think it was true." She takes a bite out of the pancake I made, that has strawberries and chocolate chips in it, and moans. I fight the vampire side of me that wants to toss her on the couch and take her, claim her. Instead I shake my head and smile, "I'm not just a pretty face you know. I have other talents."
She laughs, sending electric waves through my system at the sound of it. "I know you do. In the Twilight books you were always showing off." If I could i'd of blushed, "I...sorry." She smiles, "Don't be. I used to love when I'd read the book and land on a page when you were playing the piano for Bella. Her lullaby...It was beautiful Edward. I've always wanted to hear you play." An idea pops into my head and I grin, "Would you like for me to play for you now?" Please say yes, please say yes, please say yes. She sighs sadly, "I wish I could Edward, but I have to go. My Mom is taking me shopping. Girls day she said. No Alice you can't come! Maybe next week you can take me?!" Alice replies back quickly from upstairs, "Thank you Amanda!" "It's okay. Another time maybe," I say with a shrug an begin to put away the left over pancakes for her. "Definitely. See you late Edward." She gives me a quick friendly hug and is running toward the door, "Bye guys!"
The door closes behind her and I deflate like a balloon and slide down to the floor and place my face in my hands. She's never going to take me back. "Edward you need to stop this." I look up and jasper is sitting across from me with a frown. "Stop what?" He rolls his eyes, "Your self-loathing. Get over it. You're a vampire. So what? We all are. And as for your feelings on royally screwing up with Amanda. Stop thinking she's going to forgive you in a heartbeat. She isn't Bella okay?! Goodness man! If you wanted easy you should of stayed with Bella damn it. Learn fro your freaking mistakes. Don't be a winey little teenager. Be a man and win Amanda's love again. Stop being this sad excuse of a vampire. Grow up already Edward. Please." With that Jasper rises and walks away. Leaving me to watch him in utter shock.
So what did y'all think? WAs it okay? What about Jasper's speech? Was it to much? Did you like that he told Edward all that? Let me know please!