SPENCER'S P.O.V
"She's really good"
When Christine gets back from the bar I move over so she can sit down.
"She is"
I don't have a very good track record with mothers.
"Spencer I make you uncomfortable don't I?"
"You don't..."
"You seem nervous"
I'm not nervous.
I just don't know what to say to her.
"So I guess Ashley's told you how horrible I am?"
When she says that I stop staring at Ashley and turn so I'm facing her.
"Christine I care about your daughter a lot and she makes me really happy"
Did she just smile?
"But I think it's best we talk about something else"
That came out a lot bitchier than I meant it to.
"Look I don't mean to be a bitch but whatever's going on between Ashley and you is none of my business..."
"Spencer I've been a really shitty mother"
Having a shitty mother is just another thing Ash and I have in common.
"I cared more about the lifestyle I was living than my own daughter"
When she says that I feel horrible for Ashley.
It's pretty obvious her childhood wasn't very easy either.
"Spencer she's a good kid and I honestly think she's been better off without me"
How can someone be better off without their mother?
"I don't get it Christine why are you making an effort now?"
"I ummmm"
She's had twenty five years to make things right.
"You only live once Spencer"
Something's not right.
"Are you okay?"
"Yer... Spencer everything she says about me is right"
I can tell this isn't easy for her to say.
"I've been a horrible mother and I don't blame Ashley for hating me"
I can see the tears building up in her eyes.
"I was never there for her when she needed me to be and I know making an effort now's probably too little too late, but I can't not try"
The more she talks.
The more upset she seems to get.
"Anyway you're right we should probably talk about something else"
I force a smile.
"She really is talented"
Something's definately going on.
"Christine is this the first time you've seen her play?"
"Yer"
She has an amazing voice and when she's on stage I want her even more.
"So tell me about yourself?"
"There's really not much to tell"
I hate talking about my life.
"How long have you lived in New York for?"
"I moved there when I was eighteen"
"By yourself?"
"No Zara and I both moved there when we got accepted to NYU"
"That's a good school"
"It's okay"
"What did you study?"
"Business and Music"
"You're a musician?"
"No I just like music"
I can play the guitar but that's about it.
"Don't we all"
She's smiling.
"So you've been living there ever since you went to college?"
"Yer when I graduated I bought a bar in Manhatten"
"What kind of bar?"
"It's a live music venue we host one of the biggest open mic nights in the city"
"Wow now I'm really impressed"
If she knew how I payed for it.
She probably wouldn't be so impressed.
"Has Ash played there?"
When she says that I start laughing.
"Actually when I met her she was really cocky..."
She's grinning.
"So when she asked me if she could play I said no"
Now she's laughing.
"That doesn't surprise me Ashley's never really lacked confidence"
"Yer she's pretty persistant as well, she didn't stop asking until I gave in"
I can't take my eyes off her.
I love watching her perform.
"If Ashley wants something bad enough she usually gets it"
"I like that about her"
I'm attracted to her confidence.
"THANK YOU..."
I have the biggest smile on my face when she starts saying goodbye.
"ENJOY YOUR NIGHT"