SPENCER'S P.O.V
"Spencer?"
A lot of people hate hospitals.
I just hate this one because my mother works here.
"Is everything okay?"
I was hoping I wouldn't run into her again.
But I knew sitting here would increase my chances.
"I like you better when you act like I don't exist"
I'm not even going to bother looking up.
"Are you sick?"
I've been counting dots.
I was up to 156 when she interrupted me.
But now I've lost my spot.
"Paula this room is full of people that want you around..."
When I look up she's staring.
"So why don't you quit wasting your time on the one person here that doesn't want you around?"
I quickly hop up and walk outside.
I need air.
"Spencer please?"
"I don't get it..."
The way she's acting doesn't make any sense.
"What do you want from me?"
"A second chance?"
She can't be serious.
"I'm not interested"
"You don't mean that"
When she says that I turn around.
"That's where you're wrong Dr Peters"
I mean everything I've been saying.
"I was seventeen and confused"
I have no interest in giving her a second chance.
"My dad was dying and my own mother turned on me like I meant nothing"
I'll never forgive her for the way she treated me.
"For months you're all I thought about..."
I was alone.
"I waited for you to come and apologise but you never came"
I'm done caring.
"So I don't need or want you in my life anymore and there's absolutely nothing you can say or do that will change my mind"
"We're family..."
"You're joking right?"
She doesn't say anything.
"Do you even know what family is?"
She's only ever cared about herself.
"You cheated on your husband"
Even if I forget everything she did to me.
I can't forget how she treated dad.
"You left him to die like he meant nothing to you"
"I loved your dad..."
"You fucked someone else"
"I..."
"Just leave me alone"
"I can't do that"
"You've never had trouble before"
That shut her up.
"I made a mistake"
She's really starting to piss me off.
"I DIDN'T FUCKING CHOOSE TO BE GAY"
When I say that she looks around to see if anyone can hear us.
"I'm sorry am I embarassing you?'
"No I..."
"For years I struggled with my sexuality"
I wasn't going to come out until I lived away from home.
"But I never told anyone because I was scared of how you'd react"
"I'm sorry if I could go back and have my time again"
"You can't"
"I know Spencer I..."
"This is it for us"
I need to go back inside.
Ashley might be waiting.
"Have a nice life Dr Peters"
I don't wait for her to say anything.
I just walk past her like she's not even there.
"SPENCER?"
I don't know why I stopped but I did.
"I'm Christine's doctor"
Nothing surprises me anymore.
"I've taken on all of Dr Mitchell's patients"
When I turn around she's standing there with her arms crossed over her chest.
"But if you want me to ask someone else to take on Christine's case I will"
I walk back over to where she's standing.
"There's no way I'd ever let my feelings for you get in the way of Christine's health and well being"
She's a good doctor.
"So if this means I have to see you occassionally I'll deal with it"
Ashley's my priority right now.
"But I care about Ashley too much to let our fucked up situation get in the way of her mother's recovery"
When I walk away the only thing on my mind is Ashley.