ASHLEY'S P.O.V
Why did I let Spencer convince me that it was a good idea to leave.
I'm an idiot.
I had the girl of my dreams lying naked in my bed and I left to come stand in this ridiculously small room and sing.
"Ash you have a visitor..."
When he says that I look up.
I never get visitors.
"Hey Ky..."
This is different.
"What are you doing here?"
"W-We need to go..."
When I finally really look at her, something's not right.
"Is it my mum?"
Something's definately not right.
"Is she alright?"
She's not answering me.
"KYLA?"
"It's Spencer..."
When she says that my heart sinks.
"There was an accident..."
"Is she alright?"
Why isn't she answering me?
"Kyla?"
"We don't know..."
"Where is she?"
"She's at the Ronald Regan Medical Centre"
It was only yesterday that we were there for my mum.
"We should go?"
I don't think I can move.
"Ash?"
This can't be happening.
"Ash?"
Why am I still standing here?
"Ash we need to go..."
I quickly grab my things off the table and follow her out of the studio.
"You're not driving..."
I'm not even going to bother arguing with her.
I'm in no state to drive.
"Get in"
The second I get in the car she starts driving.
"What happened?"
"I don't really know Zara just said they were in accident..."
"So you have no idea if she's alright?"
"They don't know..."
This whole situation terrifies me.
The last time I was told that someone I care about was in accident.
My dad died.
"Is Zara alright?"
"She's pretty shaken up but she said she was fine..."
I don't say anything the rest of the way to the hospital.
I hate not knowing.
I just want to know Spencer's going to be alright.
"Zara are you alright?"
"Kyla I'm fine"
Zara really doesn't look so great.
She has a pretty nasty cut above her eye.
"How long's it been?"
Her mum's here.
"I'm not sure honey but the doctor said she'd let us know as soon as she knows anything"
"Ashley I'm so sorry..."
When she says that I look up.
"Zara you have nothing to be sorry for"
Spencer and Zara are incredibly close.
This can't be easy on her.
"The car just came out of nowhere..."
I move so I'm sitting next to her.
"We were waiting to turn and it just came straight for us"
I feel sick.
"I tried to wake her Ash..."
Why is this happening?
I can't lose her.
I've only just found her.
"But she wouldn't move"
When she says that the tears I've been holding in quickly start rolling down my face.
"Ash I tried..."
I reach out slowly rubbing my hand up and down her back.
"It was an accident Zara, this isn't your fault"
This isn't fair.
Yesterday was perfect.
Spencer finally told me how she really felt and I said it back.
I'm in love with her.
I care about her more than I've ever cared about any girl.
But now I'm sitting here and I don't even know if she's still alive.
"Ashley?"
When I look up Paula's standing there.
"Has your mum been readmittted?"
"No she's fine..."
I don't know what else to say.
"Maggie?"
Kyla's staring at me.
"Zara?"
I think Paula just realised we're not here for my mum.
"Is Spencer alright?"
Zara looks annoyed.
"Paula there was an accident..."
"An accident?"
I don't know Paula, I only know what Spencer's told me.
But her face just dropped when she found out Spencer had been in an accident.
She still cares.
She might not let on that she does.
But she does.
"Maggie is she alright?"
"She was taken away in an ambulance and we still haven't heard how she is..."
"Has anyone told you anything?"
"They said they'd come find us as soon as they know..."
I lean back in my seat as she walks over to the lady sitting at Reception.
"Ash?"
I was so distracted by Paula that I didn't realise Kyla had moved.
"Are you alright?"
"Yer..."
"Is there something going on with your mum?"
"She has cancer..."
That came out wrong.
I said it like I didn't care.
I said it like she'd just caught a common cold.
"Ash I'm sorry"
"Kyla I'm fine..."
This has been a really crazy couple of days.
"I'm just going to go grab a water from the vending machine..."
I quickly hop up and walk away before she can answer me.
I don't want to talk about how my mum has cancer and I don't want to talk about how all of this is making me feel.
The girl I'm in love with is lying somewhere in this hospital and I have no idea if she's even going to live.
I just need to be alone.
I just want to know she's going to be alright.