ASHLEY'S P.O.V
I'm deliberately sitting away from everyone else.
I feel out of of place.
This waiting room's full of people that have known Spencer for years and I'm just some idiot that spent weeks pretending I didn't care about her.
That spent weeks pretending I was only interested in the sex.
But it's never just been about the sex for me.
There's always been more.
"Hey..."
Out of all the people in this room.
She's the last person I expected to come over.
"Hi"
We've never officially met.
I was there when she ran into Spencer outside of the restaurant.
I was there when she walked into the cafe with my mum.
But we've never actually been introduced.
"I'm Paula..."
Is she serious?
I know who she is.
"We've never actually been introduced"
"There's a good reason for that..."
All I want right now is for a doctor or a nurse to walk out those doors and tell me Spencer's going to live.
"Ashley I'm not that person anymore"
When she says that I look up.
"I find that hard to believe"
People like her don't change.
"I made a mistake"
"You really did..."
I've seen how much she's hurt Spencer.
So there's nothing she can say or do right now that will change my opinion of her.
"Paula I love your daughter and I've seen how much you've hurt her..."
"I..."
"I don't care"
When I hop up she doesn't move.
"There's nothing you can say or do that will make what you did to her alright?"
"You're right..."
I wasn't expecting that.
"What I did to her is unforgivable, but I never stopped caring Ashley and if she doesn't make it, I'll have to the live the rest of my life knowing that my only daughter died hating me..."
Am I meant to feel sorry for her?
"Paula you've had years to make things right..."
She needs to hear this.
"You had a chance to make things right when her dad died, but you didn't, you made her feel unwelcome at her own fathers funeral..."
I'm not expecting her to answer me.
There's nothing she can say to justify what she did.
"You've made her scared of this city and you made her scared to be the person she is..."
Everyone's staring at us.
"And that really annoys me because I love the person she is..."
How could anyone turn their back on someone as amazing as Spencer?
"I love everything about your daughter Paula and I'll never understand why it's taken something like this for you to realise she's worth it..."
I need to get out of this room.
"Why it's taken something like this for you to realise how amazing your daughter really is?"
When I finally walk away I don't know what to feel.
I need some air.
I need Spencer to be alright.