SPENCER'S P.O.V

"W-What are you doing here?"

She's the last person I expected to wake up to.

"I..."

I feel like I've been sleeping forever.

But I've barely slept.

"I was worried"

I don't want her here.

But I don't have the energy to tell her to leave.

"I thought I'd lost you"

"You lost me six years ago..."

Everytime I try to get comfortable my whole body aches.

"Are you alright?"

I feel faint.

"I..."

I feel I'm on fire.

"Do you feel sick?"

"Can you get the nurse?"

"Spencer I'm a doctor..."

"I..."

I'm going to be sick.

"I'm going to be sick"

She quickly grabs the bucket from next to my bed.

"Here..."

"Argh"

Throwing up with fractured ribs is one of the most painful things I've ever experienced.

"Here..."

When she holds my water out I don't want to take it.

But I don't really have a choice.

This taste in my mouth is unbearable.

"What have you taken?"

"I..."

I just took what the nurse gave me.

"I don't know"

"Your body's reacting to the medication they gave you, that's why you feel sick..."

I really don't want her here.

"You'll need to get your doctor to prescribe you something else"

I didn't ask for her help.

"You need to leave"

"Spencer please?"

My ribs are killing me.

"Let me help you?"

"Hey"

She stops talking when she notices my mum.

"Ash..."

I force a smile when she walks over to where I'm lying.

"Hey"

"Am I interrupting something?"

"No Dr Peters was just leaving"

"I..."

When I look over to where she's standing she looks upset.

"Spencer I'm..."

I can't remember ever seeing her cry.

"Spencer I'm so sorry for everything that I've done to you and I know I have no right being here..."

I don't know what to say.

"But I was worried and when I heard that you'd been in accident I felt sick"

When I look at Ashley she seems just as stunned as I am.

"I thought I'd lost you Spencer, I thought I'd lost my chance to make things right"

I can't believe this is happening.

"So I'm sorry that I abused my power at this hospital to find your room, but I was worried and I had to see that you were alright"

"Wait..."

When she goes to leave I stop her.

"You don't get to fucking cry and act like this has been hard on you"

I'm so sick of her shit.

"You chose to kick me out and you chose to act like I didn't exist"

I'm not going to fall for her crocodile tears.

"I'm still fucking gay and I still don't give a shit if you're sorry"

"Spencer I just want to make things right..."

"Well you can't so stay the fuck away from me..."

What is wrong with her?

"And don't sneak into my room when I'm sleeping"

"I'm..."

I don't want her sneaking into my room.

"I'll go tell the nurse you're not feeling well"

When she finally leaves I look over at Ashkey.

"I'm sorry..."

My ribs are killing me.

"She brings out the worst in me"

"You don't need to apologise Spence"

I want her to kiss me but I still have a foul taste in my mouth.

"Do you..."

It's pretty much impossible for me to get comfortable.

"Do you have a mint?"

"Yer"

I love her smile.

"Here..."

She deliberately brushes her fingers over my lips as she puts the mint in my mouth.

"Thanks"

"Do you feel sick still?"

"No"

I think I threw up everything I had in my stomach.

"How did you sleep last night?"

"Okay"

That's a lie.

I barely slept.

"Well I had a horrible night, I couldn't stop thinking about you"

When she says that I smile.

"I kept thinking about everything that happened in New York and then I started thinking about everything that's been happening these last couple of days"

I was doing the exact same thing.

"I love you so much Spencer"

"I love you to"

When her lips touch mine everything else doesn't matter.

She's all that I want.

She's all that I need.