She hurt all over, she wanted a hot bath, then to stretch out in her bed and sleep. Juice pulled the van into TM's lot, the bikes were parking, she opened the door to get out. Gemma came running across the parking lot, hugging Maddie.

"Baby, are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I just want to go home, take a hot bath, and go to bed."

"I stocked your kitchen today."

"Thanks Gem! Can you give me a ride home?"

"What about Happy?"

"I'm not riding bitch on his bike."

"Okay, baby. Let's go."

Gemma drove her home that afternoon, Maddie didn't say much she was tired after the long drive. She thanked Gemma for the ride, she got out, looking at the front of her house, she was glad to be home. She unlocked the door, expecting to smell must and it to be dusty she was surprised at how clean it was. Then she knew that Gemma wouldn't let her walk into a dirty house, she probably cleaned it as soon as she knew she was coming home.

She was going to have a list of things she needed to get done tomorrow, find a car, go shopping for clothes other then what she had on her back and what she had packed to escape she had very little to wear. She carried her backpack into her bedroom, throwing it on her bed, looking around her room she let out a long sigh. She walked to her closet opening the door to look at her clothes. She should have known Gemma would have taken care of everything. Going into the bathrroom, she ran herself a hot bath, and sank down into the tub.

She closed her eyes, letting the hot water relax her back muscles, she was getting drowsy. She slowly climbed from the bathtub, drying herself off, the door flew open and Happy was standing there glaring at her. "What the fuck Maddie?"

"I could ask you the same thing!"

"Why did you get a ride home with Gemma?"

"Did you really expect me to ride bitch on your bike?"

"I had my truck there, to give you a ride home."

She closed her eyes. "I'm too tired to do this right now." She started to push past him, he grabbed her arm.

"Then when?"

"Do you expect me to forget everything?" She shrugged off his arm, walking into her bedroom. He followed her into the bedroom, pulling her into his arms.

"I love you Maddie. I'm so damn sorry! I want you, and Sophia. Please." He kissed her, she was fighting against him. He wrapped his arms around her, she relaxed and returned his kiss. Her towel dropped away from her body, he stepped back looking at her. "Christ, you're so damn beautiful." His arm went around her waist, she stepped away from him.

"You need to go." She picked up the towel wrapping it around her. "Happy...I need some time. Things have happened I just can't..."

"Maddie, please talk to me.."

"Just go..." She turned her back on him.

He looked at her as he walked out of her room, leaving her house. She pulled on her pjs, crawling into bed, she cried herself to sleep.

XXX

She woke up the next morning with puffy eyes, looking into the mirror she made a face at herself. Splashing cold water on her face, she left the bathroom for the kitchen. She needed to get moving, car shopping, she needed to make a doctor's appointment, and she needed to get moving on the nursery. First and most important breakfast, she walked into her kitchen. She really wanted chocolate donuts, she'd eat something healthy now and then get chocolate donuts when she was out.

She fixed herself scrambled eggs, toast, and she had some fruit with a glass of milk. She was on her way to shower and get ready for the day, when her doorbell rang, she opened her door. She opened her door, a salesmen from the local carlot was on her doorstep.

"Ms. Winston."

"Yes?"

"Mr. Lowman, wanted us to deliver this SUV to you this morning. It's already licensed and ready for you to drive."

"What?"

"Mr. Lowman called last night, and bought it. He said it was to be delivered to you. Have a good day." He handed her the keys before walking off, she looked out in her drive. A blue Ford Escape sat in her drive, she didn't know if she wanted to laugh or cry. She shut the door, locking it, going back into the bathroom to get ready for the day.

XXX

She was sitting in the diner on Main Street, waiting for her cheeseburger, fries and sweet tea, she knew it wasn't the most healthy meal but it was going to be really good. The bell above the door rang, she looked up and saw Chibs walk in, smiling at him she waved. He smiled at her, walking towards her table he sat down with her.

"You here by yourself lass?"

"Yes. I'm going baby shopping after I eat."

"Where's Hap?" The waitress brought her food, sitting it in front of her she smiled. "Maddie?'

'I'm sorry?"

"Where's Hap?"

"You would know before me." She took a bite of her cheeseburger, closing her eyes in bliss. She heard him chuckle, she opened her eyes. "Sorry, I'm really hungry." He singled to the waitress that he was ready to order.

"Why isn't Hap, shopping with you?"

"Umm, probably not."

"What's going on?"

She closed her eyes. "It's complicated.." The waitress brought his food, which was the same thing she was eating. They ate in silence, Maddie needed to talk to someone about what she was feeling but she wasn't sure Chibs was the one she should talk to. She finished her lunch, she sat back in the both, rubbing her stomach.

The waitress brought her ticket, Chibs grabbed it away from her. "I'm buying, don't argue."

She rolled her eyes, smiling at him. "Thank you." She got up to leave, losing her balance she started to fall, Chibs hands shot out to catch her.

"Careful." He brushed her hair away from her face, she was staring into his eyes. His hands cupped her face. "Are you okay?"

"I'm okay! Thank you for lunch and saving me from falling. I have to go." She hurried out the door, towards her SUV. She was driving to Oakland to go shopping. She pulled out of the parking spot, heading out to go shopping. Her phone rang, she pulled it out of her purse.

"Hello."

"Where are you?"

"On my way to Oakland to go shopping."

"Turn around and come back, NOW! There are problems with the Mayans. You need to come to the club, we're on lock down."

"Hap!"

"I'm not playing Maddie, get your ass back here now!"

She turned around, heading back to the club, rolling her eyes, this man was going to get on her last damn nerve, She was half tempted to go about her plans anyway but didn't feel like dealing with Happy. She drove home to pack a bag for herself, dragging a suitcase out of her closet, she started throwing clothes in, she went into the bathroom getting the things she needed together throwing them into her suitcase.

Her phone rang again, she picked it up, glaring at the screen. "Hello."

"Where the fuck are you?" Happy growled at her.

"You know what...none of your damn business!" She ended the call, throwing her phone back in her purse. She pulled her suitcase off the bed, and started to dragging it to the door. She went into the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of water, she started towards the door to leave. The door crashed opened Happy was standing in the doorway, with a furious look on his face.

"I told you to get your ass to the club!" She closed her eyes, exhaling slowly.

"I came home to pack. Asshole!"

He pulled her into his arms kissing her. "I want you!" He growled against her lips. She pulled away from him, walking across the room.

"I can't...I'm sorry!" She grabbed her suitcase, pulling it towards the door. His arms went around her, he turned her around pushing her against the door. His hands went on either side of her, he stared into her eyes.

"Damn it Maddie! Tell me what I have to do to make this up to you? I love you..."

She closed her eyes, letting the tears stream down her face. "There's nothing you can do..." His hands hit the door, she winced.

"Do you still love me?"

She closed her eyes. "Hap, please..."

"Answer me." His phone rang, he cursed, pulling his phone out of his pocket, he answered his phone. "We've got to go."

He took her suitcase, putting it in her vehicle, she climbed inside and drove to the club, with Happy behind her. Of course she still loved him, how could she tell him that Paul had forced her to have sex with him for the past three months. He wouldn't want her anymore, he'd hate even looking at her. She pulled into the parking lot of TM, backing her Ford into a parking space, she put it in park. She leaned forward, laying her head on the steering wheel crying, her door was opened and she was pulled out.

Happy's arms wrap around her. "Please baby...I love you so damn much. Please forgive me, I want you and this baby." His hand was on her stomach.

"Happy, I love you too.." He crushed his lips to hers, pulling her into his arms.

"Let me love you." She closed her eyes, looking away from him.

"I can't..." She walked to the back of the SUV, pulling out her suitcase, she heard him curse.

"Damn it, Maddie! That's way too heavy." He pulled her suitcase into the clubhouse, she followed behind him, with her head down. She walked into the clubhouse, following him to a dorm room. He turned around to face her, caressing her face. "Maddie..."

"I'm tired and not feeling well, I think I'm going to lay down." She walked towards the bed, kicking off her shoes she laid down.

"Is it the baby..." She could hear the panic in his voice, she grabbed his hand.

"She's fine. I just need to rest, I have a headache." He leaned down to kiss her.

"If you need anything, I'll be out in the main room." He pulled the blanket up around her, she closed her eyes.

"Hap?"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you for getting me a new car..."

"I'm going to take care of you and Sophia from now on." He turned off the light, shutting the door.

XXX

Happy stood at the end of the bed, watching her sleep. She was so damn beautiful, pregnancy had amplified it, he wanted nothing more then to crawl into bed and make love to her. She let out a whimper in her sleep, she thrashed about in the bed.

"Please...don't hurt me! Please Paul...stop..."

He balled his hands into fists, he closed his eyes, wishing now that he'd tortured the man a little more. Her pledding got more intense, he walked over to the bed, gently shaking her awake.

"Maddie, wake up." She jerked awake, staring at him with fear in her eyes. He pulled her into his arms, holding her close. "It was just a dream. You're safe, he can't hurt you any more, I promise."

She looked up at him. "Just hold me...please." He kicked off his boots, laying down in the bed, he pulled her down into his arms. She lay there shaking, he kissed the top of her head.

"You're safe, both of you. I'm not going to let anything happen to you. I love you."

"I love you too Happy." He rolled her over to her back, so he could look into her eyes.

"I'm sorry for what I said, when you told me about the baby." She started to stop him, he put a finger to her lips to stop her. "I was so damn scared... Then you went missing. My whole world stopped for three months looking for you, my greatest fear came true. God Maddie...if I hadn't been such a bastard...please say you forgive me. Give me a chance to make it up to you."

"Hap..." She got up from the bed. "I want to be with you..." She heard him get out of bed, his hands were on her turning her around, pulling her to him. His lips were on hers, his hands moving under her t-shirt, gently massaging her breasts. She pulled away from him.

"Maddie...I need you."

"I'm not ready for that yet." She closed her eyes, wanting so bad to tell him everything that happened but afraid of losing him if she did. She opened her eyes to find him in front of her, staring at her intently.

"I'll wait until you are. You're mine, I want to ink you with my crow...I love you Madison." He pulled her into his arms kissing her, picking her up he carried her to the bed, laying her down. He took off his clothes, leaving only his boxers on, crawling into bed with her, he held her in his arms.

XXX

She looked at her phone, it was two am. Happy was sound asleep next to her, she slipped from his arms, slipping a sweatshirt on over her tank top, she crept quietly from the room. She could hear a few voices in the main room, she slipped inside the kitchen making herself a snack, she sat at the counter.

"You're up late lass."

"I got hungry." She smiled at Chibs as he came closer to her. He looked closely at her snack.

"What in God's name are you eating?"

"Peanut butter and pickles, and chocolate milk." He made a face of disgust. "Don't judge me, it's good!"

"I'll take your word for it!" He let out a laugh. "You doing okay?"

She nodded her head, as she finished off her snack, she let out a loud burp, turning red with embarrassment. "Excuse me." She heard him chuckle, he walked over placing his hand on her stomach.

"I guess she's just appreciating the meal." He kissed her cheek and walked out of the kitchen. Happy came running into the kitchen looking panicked, pulling her into his arms.

"You scared the shit out of me!" He growled against her ear.

"Sorry, I got hungry, wanted a snack."

"Next time, wake me up. I'll get it for you." She smiled at him, he leaned in to kiss her. "Peanut butter and pickles?" He made a face.

"Don't judge." She walked out of the kitchen, he followed her.

XXX

She was wandering through a baby store with Tara and Lyla looking for furniture for Sophia's room, Chibs and Bobby were following behind them, looking bored. Both men came unglued if she picked up, or moved something they deemed to heavy, and anything she touched came under that category. By the end of the afternoon, she had everything bought for the nursery, it would be delivered next week.

The group walked outside, the women were talking about going to lunch when a group of motorcycles came riding towards them with guns drawn. Bobby pushed Tara and Lyla to the ground covering them, Chibs got Maddie down his body on top of hers, as shots rang out. Once they stopped Bobby, Tara, and Lyla slowly got up.

"You ladies whole?" Bobby asked. Both women nodded their heads, dusting the dirt off their clothes. Chibs slowly rolled off of Maddie, looking down at her.

"Maddie, are you whole?" He looked closely and saw a small pool of blood forming under her body. "Christ! Tara!" Tara rushed over to Maddie's still body, starting to examine her.

"Call 911, we need an ambulance. Maddie, can you hear me? Open your eyes!"