SPENCER'S P.O.V
What's wrong with me?
How do I keep fucking everything up?
"ASHLEY?"
I don't know why I'm trying to stop her.
She's well and truly gone.
"What's wrong?"
"ME"
When I turn around she's staring at me.
"It was a simple fucking question Zara"
I'm such an idiot.
"And?"
"And I said the wrong fucking thing like I always do"
When I try to walk without my crutches I stumble.
"Aarrgghh"
I can't breathe.
"Fuck"
The edge of the counter jabbed me in the ribs.
"Are you alright?"
I slowly drop so I'm sitting on the ground.
"I can't breathe..."
I lean back so my head's resting on the counter.
"Are you okay?"
"I..."
"Is she alright?"
I can hear Maddy's voice but I can't see her.
"I don't know... Spencer?"
"I'm going to be sick..."
I don't know what she just passed me, but the second I took it, I threw up.
"Should I call someone?"
"Spencer do you need a doctor?"
"N-No"
My whole body's heating up.
"You're sweating..."
When she touches my forehead I don't move.
"You're burning up"
"What's wrong is she alright?"
Am I hearing things?
"Spence..."
When Zara tilts my head, I notice her.
"What can I do?"
Why is she here?
"Zara I feel really faint..."
"Did she fall?"
"Paula what are you doing here?"
"I came by to drop these off..."
She's holding a bag.
"Are you okay?"
"Zara can you?"
When I point at the straps on the sling she starts undoing them.
"You're bleeding"
My whole body aches.
"Spence do you still feel sick?"
"The pain's making her nauseus"
"Well what should we fucking do super doc?"
She's not doing anything.
"Zara I don't need her help"
"Spence you don't look so great and you're bleeding"
I'll be fine.
"You're going to need to see someone"
I awkwardly pull myself up so I'm standing.
"Spencer I'm a doctor I can help..."
"I don't want your fucking help"
"You're bleeding"
When she says that I look down.
"How long's it been since you've taken something?"
I really don't want her help.
But I need the pain to go away and right now she's the only one that can do that.
"Long enough"
When I finally answer her she moves so she's standing in front of me.
"Is there any first aid here?"
"I'll go grab what we have"
I'd completely forgotten that Maddy was here.
"Thanks"
None of this is making any sense.
How does she know where I'm staying?
Why is she here?
"I'm just going to take your shirt off"
"Just do what you need to do and then leave"
"Spencer..."
"How did you find this place?"
"Does it matter?"
"Yes..."
Of course it matters.
"You're fucking crazy"
"Spencer..."
"You snuck into my hospital room and watched me sleep"
"I was worried..."
"L-Leave"
I don't need her help.
"Spencer please let me help you?"
When I try to walk away my whole body aches and I feel dizzy.
"I'll just make sure you're okay and then I'll leave"
There's a long pause before I say anything.
"Okay"
I really don't have much of a choice.
If I don't let her help me.
Zara will make me go and see someone else.
"I need to take your shirt off"
When she grabs hold of my shirt I look over at Zara.
"Sorry"
I can barely move my arm.
So when she takes my shirt off it's incredibly difficult.
"This might hurt a little"
I look down as she slowly pulls the bandages off my ribs.
"Here"
"Thanks"
I hate this.
I need this moment to be over.
"You've broken a couple of stitches"
When I look down she's putting disinfectant on a tissue.
"This is going to sting"
The second she starts dabbing the tissue on my cut I cringe.
"Sorry"
"Is it infected?"
When she looks up her eyes lock on mine.
"No"
We all just stand there in silence, as she puts a new bandage over my cut.
"There you go"
"Zara can you please pass me that?"
When I point at my crutches she hands me one.
"Yer"
"I'm going to go lie down"
I can't deal with her being here.
"Okay"
When I walk away I don't bother acknowledging her.
She needs to leave and I need to lie down.
Before I fall down.