He wrapped his arm around her waist, guiding her into the house, he led her over to the couch, laying her down. She looked up at him smiling, she hurt all over, her body was battered and bruised. She was feeling very frustrated, because no one would tell her what had happened to her. The only explanation she got was that she'd been in an accident, something deep within her told her there was something more to it then that.
Happy covered her with a blanket, Sophia ran out of her bedroom climbing on the couch beside her. "Hi baby!"
"Hi mommy!" She smiled at her daughter, she was glad to be home. She pulled Sophia in her arms, hugging her close. The settled on the couch together and watched cartoons, Happy came back into the livingroom and sat down on the chair, looking at his girls.
Sophia had fallen asleep on Maddie's chest, she looked down at her daughter and smiled. She looked over at Happy. "How far a long was I?"
"What are you talking about?"
She closed her eyes, opening them slowly she looked at him. "I know my body, I miscarried because of whatever happened to me." She wiped the tears away. "I'm sorry I lost our baby."
"Your were six weeks along, it wasn't your fault." He got up, siting next to her on the couch. He cupped her face, wiping away her tears. "You were in a car accident."
She shook her head at him. "I feel like there's something more to it...I can't put my finger on it." She closed her eyes, leaning forward, she laid her head on his chest.
"It's going to be okay Maddie." He kissed her lips gently, laying her back on the couch. "Get some rest. I need to run to the club. I won't be gone long." She watched him leave, she closed her eyes, worried that nothing would ever be the same again.
XXX
Chibs was sitting at the bar drinking, Happy walked in sitting down beside him. "Shouldn't you be home with Maddie, taking care of her?" Chibs asked.
"Because I love you both, I can't pretend to be something I'm not. We have to figure this shit out, without her getting hurt."
"What do you suggest we do?"
"She knows about the miscarriage, she figured it out. She has some idea that she wasn't in a car accident."
"She isn't strong enough to handle the truth, it could break her."
"I can't lie to her Chibs, as much as I want her back, I can't take her if she's not mine."
"She doesn't remember our relationship...our love."
"Come over, you have to remind her, once she sees you, maybe it will jog her memory. Spend time with her..."
"And what if she never remembers?"
"Then at least I know I didn't get her by default."
XXX
She and Sophia were still asleep on the couch when Happy came back from the club. He stood at the end of the couch, looking down at the both of them, smiling. She opened her eyes slowly, looking up at him. "When did you get home?"
"Just a few minutes ago. How are you feeling?"
"Hurting a little, but okay."
"Do you need something for pain?"
"No, I'm fine." He leaned down, picking Sophia up, the little girl woke up, wrapping her arms around his neck. Maddie repositioned herself on the couch, getting comfortable. Sophia got down, running off to play in her room. Happy sat down on the couch, Maddie sat up to lean against him.
He wrapped his arms around her. "I love you." He kissed her gentlely.
"I love you too." She still felt like something was missing, that they were out of sync. Maybe it was just whatever had happened to her, maybe in time it would get better. She had plans on asking Tara and Lyla for some information, Happy wad keeping something from her. Her friends would tell her what was going on, if he wouldn't, then maybe she could fix it.
"What's going on in that head if yours women?
"Just happy to be home!" She smiled at him. He got up from the couch, helping her up.
"Let's find something to eat. Sophia Joy let's find some lunch!" The little girl came running out if her room, jumping into her dad's arms. The three of them walked into the kitchen, to eat lunch together. She lowered herself into the chair wincing in pain.
"Please take half a pain pill. I hate seeing you in pain."
She nodded her head, he grabbed the bottle of pain pills, opening it and breaking one of them in half and handing it to her. She sit it on the table, to take after she ate her lunch. Happy had brought in some take out, he plated the food. She picked at her lunch, not eating much, she looked up, and saw Happy frowning at her.
"You need to eat babe!"
"I'm not very hungry." She took a few more bites of her food, just enough to put food in her stomach so her pain meds wouldn't make her sick. She took her pain meds, standing up, she dumped her pkate, and headed to bed.
She crawled into bed, curling uo into a ball, she cried for the child that she'd lost. She let the tears flow freely, because she had missing memories of yesterday. She remembered waking up, next to the man she loved. It was wierd, she couldn't the see the mans face, it was faceless, she knew she loved him, so it had to be Happy. They had gotten into a fight about something stupid, he left, then she remembered going to work, after that it was all a blank. Her next memory was waking up in tge hospital.
She felt the bed shifting and his arns went around her, pulling her close to him. She dried her rears, and tried to pretend she hadn't been crying. She just laid in his arms, letting him comfort her. She felt his lips graze the side of her face.
She turned to look at him, he wiped the tears from her eyes. Lowering his lips to hers he kissed her, she wrapped her arms around his neck. He pulled back, looking into her eyes. "I love you Maddie!"
"I love you too!" She kissed him again. He stroked the side of her face.
"Rest now, I need you to get healthy and strong." She turned to her side, he pulled her into his arms, her back was resting against his chest. She relaxed in his arms, and fell asleep.
XXX
She stepped out of the shower wincing in pain, looking in the mirror she could she the bruises on her ribs were purple. Happy walked on behind her, turning her around touching her side.
"Christ! Why didn't you let me know how bad you were banged up?"
"It's not that bad. I'm fine." She winced as she sat it. She tried to blow dry her hair but it hurt to move around. Happy carefully lifted her up on the counter and dried her hair, he then brushed her hair, pulling it back. He gentlely pulled her off the counter. "Thank you."
She walked into the bedroom, pulling on an over sized t-shirt, and yoga pants. Sitting on the bed taking a rest, Happy lifted her up in his arms. "Time to eat breakfast."
"I'm not hungry." She wrapped her arms around his neck as he carried her down the hall.
"I made waffles and bacon. Come on baby you need to eat." He carried her into the kitchen, Sophia was already sitting at the table eating. She laughed when she saw her dad carrying her mom into the kitchen.
She sat at the table. "Good morning sweet girl!"
Good morning mommy! Daddy made breakfast!"
"I see that. Is it good?"
"It's yummy!" The little girl smiled and took a bite of waffle. Maddie ate her breakfast, it really was good. She smiled at Happy as he sat down at the table with them. She felt lucky to be with her family, they were her world.
"Let's do something today. I need to get out."
"Babe, you just got out of the hospital yesterday. You had a bad accident...I think we should stay home so you can rest."
"Hap, I'm fine. Let's go to the BBQ at Gemma's. If I start feeling bad, we can leave."
"You promise to tell me if you hurt so I can bring you home!"
"Yes!"
"I still think we should stay home, but we can go for a little while." She smiled at him.
XXX
She carefully slid out of the SUV, while Happy helped their daughter out of her carseat. He came around, putting his hand on the small of her back, guiding her in the door. Gemma and the other ladies were in the kitchen getting the meal together when they walked in.
"Baby, what are you doing here?"
"I wanted to get out!"
"Sit down and rest!"
Tara walked over to her, giving her a disapproving look. "You should be in bed resting!"
"I'm fine. Really. Everyone is too worried about me."
"You've been through a tramatic experience."
"I survived and I'll recover. I'm tougher then what people give me credit for."
She turned when she heard angry voices in the livingroom, her brother, Happy, and Chibs were fighting. She got up to find out what wad wrong with the three of them.
"She shouldn't be here!" Opie was standing over Happy.
"I agree with Ope. What were you thinking. She needs to be in bed."
Maddie walked up to both of them, pissed that they would talk to Happy this way. She glared at both of them. "He was thinking that I'm a grown ass women, that can decide how she feels. I'm feeling fine, and wanted to be with the rest of my damn family."
She walked out leaving them staring after her, she went outside to sit on the back patio to watch Jax grill their dinner. She closed her eyes trying to calm her nerves, the warm sun felt good on her face.
She felt someone tapping on her foot, she opened one eye and saw Jax looking at her. "What's up?"
"Nothing! Just trying to figure out what happened to me. Don't feed me the bull shit car accident story like everyone else."
"Talk to Hap about it."
She glared at him. "Just forget it, eventually I will remember, and then..."
The patio door opened, Happy stepped out, he looked down at Maddie. "Are you okay?"
"I'm fine." He sat down beside her caressing her face.
"No, you're not! What's on your mind?"
"Stop, feeding me the bullshit about being in a car accident and tell me what really happened Hap! I'm tougher then what you think."
"I know you are babe. Can we talk about this at home?"
She rolled her eyes. "Fine." He pulled her up from the chair.
"Come inside, get something to drink, and visit." He put his arm around her waist, pulling her close to him. She went inside making her rounds, saying hi to everyone and getting hugs. Jax finished the grilling, and they sat down to eat. She looked around the table, and once again was grateful to be with her family.
XXX
The drive home was quiet, Sophia had fallen asleep on the short drive home, she had played hard with her friends from the club. Maddie was hurting a little bit, but she didn't want to say anything because she knew Happy would be upset with her. They pulled into the drive, Happy got Sophia out, carrying her into the house, Maddie carefully eased herself out of the vehicle, slowly walking into the house. Wincing in pain with each step she took, she didn't hear or see Happy coming back out until he cursed.
He swept her gently up into his arms, carrying her into the house, she wrapped her arms around his neck, resting her head on his chest. "Why didn't you tell me you were hurting?"
"I didn't want to leave, you and Sophia were having a good time."
"Damn it women!" He carried her to the bedroom, undressing her, he pulled one of his t-shirts out of a drawer and slipped it on, He left the room briefly, bringing back a pain pill and glass of water. After she took the pill, he laid her down in bed, pulling the blankets around her, he leaned down and kissed her forehead. He left the room, locking up the house, he sat on the couch, knowing he needed to tell her the truth. Knowing he could loose her all over again, that she could go back to Chibs once she knew everything.
He loved her so damn much, but if she got her memory back and discovered the truth on her own, then she might hate him. Yet, what if she wasn't able to handle the truth and she fell apart and she was lost to both of them forever.