Walking into the club the next morning, pulling the sunglasses off her face with her free hand she carried the carseat over to the bar sitting it down. The chapel doors open and the club members came out, she was surrounded by family. Opie picked Sophia up, the little girl wrapped her arms around her uncle's neck. She smiled at the other men walking out of the room.

Jax walked up to her, pulling her into his arms. "You look like hell Madison!"

"Gee, thank you Jackson! That's what everyone women wants to hear!" She pulled back glaring at the man she thought of as her brother. She heard him laugh, she slapped at his arms. Looking at the men she exhaled slowly, it had been two weeks since she'd been home, it was time. "Let's go ahead and plan Happy's memorial for the end of the week. It will give the other charters time to get here."

Bobby stepped forward, putting his arm around her shoulders. "I will make the arrangements." He walked away from her. She pulled James out of the carseat, he started to get fussy. She took him back to Hap's old dorm room, to nurse him. She looked around the room, knowing she'd need to clean it out.

There was a knock on the door, she threw a blanket over herself. "Come in." The door slowly opened, Chibs walked in the room. She smiled at him. "Hey."

"You doing okay?" He took in her appearance, he could see the shadows under her eyes. She'd lost a lot of weight in the two weeks since they'd been back. He was worried about her, he could see she was on the verge of collapse.

"I'm fine Chibs. Just tired..." She smiled up at him.

"Love, you need to get some rest. Take care of yourself." She could see the concern in his eyes.

"I'm doing my best." She was alone, she didn't want to bother anyone with asking for help. She was going to take the money the club gave her, and take a trip with the kids after the memorial. They need to slip away.

"I told you that you could call on me for anything love!"

She closed her eyes. "I don't want to be a bother." She heard him exhaled loudly, his hands gripped her face.

"You and the little ones would never be a bother."

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It was taking him longer then what he wanted to get home. The second trucker he'd hitched a ride with had broke down, before they hit the Washington state line. He was stranded in Oregon, trying to find a ride home.

All he could think about was getting back to his family, he was desperate to get there. He had scraped up enough money to buy a prepay. He called the Lee in the Tacoma charter to come get him.

The president was shocked to hear from him, didn't believe it was him. Actually hung up on him the first time he called. Happy had to prove it was him, by describing his tattoos. Lee and the Tacoma charter left to come get him.

Happy was one more step closer to getting home. He tried to call Maddie again, but his call went straight to voicemal. He let out a curse word, he ended the call. He sat back in the booth, and waited for his ride home. He called Jax, the call also went to voicemal, didn't anyone answer their phones anymore?

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She looked at her phone frowning, at the unknown number. She'd been getting calls from the same number for days, she didn't feel like talking to anyone, she just wanted to be left alone. She started out the window of her kitchen, she felt the tears stinging her eyes.

She missed him so much, the memorial service was later this afternoon. She needed to get the kids ready, and herself. She was suppose to meet Jax and Opie for lunch. She walked into the livingroom scooping James out of his swing she carried him to the nursery to get him ready. Once he was dressed, she laided him in the crib. She called Sophia so she could get her dressed, Maddie made her way to her own room slowly getting herself dressed.

Looking in the mirror, she looked at herself dressed in a simple form fitting black dress, she pulled on she black heels. She gathered the kids and started towards the cafe, where she was meeting her brothers. She stopped before she got there, she couldn't do it, say good bye to him. She pulled into the parking lot of the grocery store and got a picnic lunch for Sophia.

She drove out to the rock flats, by the creek. She put James into the baby sling and a tapped it to her front, she grabbed a blanket, the lunch for Sophia, and she got Sophia out of the SUV. They climbed down the hill.

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Jax tried to call her again, feeling his worry, frustration, and anger build. "She wouldn't do anything stupid would she?"

Opie ran his hand through his hair. "I haven't talked to her much.." He'd been wrapped up in his own problems with Lyla, to notice what was going on with Maddie. He had been a terrible big brother yet again, when she had really needed him, he hadn't been there. Now she was missing, with the kids.

"Let's get back to the club and see if Juice can find her!" The two men rode to the club hoping that Maddie had been running late and haf shown up there. That her phone was off, or she hadn't heard it ringing. They backed their bikes in with the others, noticing other bikes there signaling that other charters had already started to arrive.

Hearing and feeling the rumble of motorcycles the two men look up, they watched Tacoma ride in. An extra biker was with them, he got off his bike.

"What you assholes not answer your phones?"

"Christ Hap!" Jax started in disbelief. He embraced his brother in a hug, Opie was next. They went into the clubhouse, shocking everyone inside.

Happy's eyes scanned the room looking for Maddie. "Where's my wife and kids?"

"Shit!" Opie said. He and Jax signaled for Juice to meet them in chapel Happy following them. "She's missing!"

"What the fuck do you mean she's missing?" Happy was in a panic, he'd spent two weeks trying to get back home. He finally gets here and Maddie and the kids are missing.

"She and the kids were suppose to us for lunch, she never showed up. She isn't answering her cell phone." Jax said. "Juice can you find her?"

Juice sat down at his computer, glad he put a GPS tracker on her SUV. The door opened, Chibs walked in hugging his brother. "Glad to see you brother. I went by the house, she wasn't there."

"How's Maddie?" Happy asked.

Chibs looked at him. "Not good. She's lost a lot of weight in two weeks, and she's exhausted. She isn't taking care of herself."

Happy just want to put his arms around her, he looked at Juice waiting for information on the location of his family. He got up from his seat, pacing the room, running his hand over his face. He hadn't seen his family for a month now, he heard Juice say he found them. A sense of relief came over him when he found out she was safe. They left to go get his family, he just needed to hold her in his arms

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She turned her phone off, she was tired of it going off every ten minutes. "Okay baby girl, we need to go." She gathered their things up, and loaded uo the car. Time to face the music, she was going to head to the club. She pulled away onto the highway, heading towards the club.

She saw the motorcycles coming towards her, she knew who they were before they got close to her. She just kept moving towards the club, they'd turn around and follow her. She glanced in her rearview mirror and saw them behind her. She smiled knowing she'd get her ass chewed out for worrying them. She deserved it, she'd take it and things would go on.

She pulled into the lot of TM, getting Sophia out of her carseat, she sat her down on the pavement. "Go find one of your uncles." She smiled down at her daughter. She pulled James' carseat out of her vehicle and started towards the clubhouse.

Opie took the carseat from her. Grabbing her arm, turning her around. "You had us worried shitless sis!" He pulled her into his arms hugging her. She looked over his shoulder seeing Happy walking towards her with Sophia in his arns. She pushed out of Opie's embrace.

"Hap?" She felt the world spin around her, there was a rushing sound in her ears, then everything went black.

AN: Short lunch break chapter typed on my phone. Please review!