Thanks for the lovely reviews. Another layer peels back and reveals more secrets from Lauren's life. Can she put her issues aside to realize the connection she has with Bo is more than she thinks? Only time will tell with this one kiddos! Please remember to leave your lovely thoughts below. I made this chapter a little longer cause I was 'feeling it' so enjoy guys!

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Joy in Dying

Chapter 04:

I rolled over to my side, it seemed it was way early and it wasn't the time for my eyes to be open...yet they were. My mind raced as I held still afraid I might wake Bo. After last night things were more complicated than I thought. I fought my instinct to run away as fast and hard as I could. Just a few hours I had given this woman my word on giving her my patience. I was a woman of my word if nothing else.

I ventured a look at her laying on the couch, her peaceful face was relaxed in slumber and her mouth was slightly agape, her body covered by a light sheet. I smiled, there was something definitely pulling me towards her, that I couldn't deny. The problem was I had heard about Succubi, I had seen what their power did first hand and it was terrifying. Such power was excessive when abused and it frightened me to know this woman next to me harnessed such.

Suddenly my eyes came to focus with glossy caramel ones and I blushed, our eyes seemed to focus on each other's and she mumbled something that vaguely sounded like 'go to sleep' I leaned closer to hear her better and her arm pulled me closer making me tumble into the couch on top of her snuggled into her chest.

"Go to sleep Lauren" she said a bit more coherently, but half asleep already I could tell by her breathing.

I let myself relax in her grip and concentrated on her shallow breathing while my heart hammered in my chest. A million thoughts ran through my head but the feeling of my body against hers was making everything else melt away. Eventually, it seems, I fell asleep again because when my eyes fluttered open it was mid-daylight. I could hear a phone off in the distance.

"Lauren check who that is on the phone for me please" she hollered from the bathroom as I picked up her Iphone laying on the floor next to the couch and looked at the screen a picture of this beautiful blonde stared back at me 'Tamsin', it read.

"It says Tamsin" I hollered back as she stumbled out of the bathroom wearing her perfect smile.

"Good morning" she beamed at me "she can wait."

"Morning Bo" I said and handed her the phone, it had stopped ringing.

"I hope I wasn't a hassle last night, I'm sorry I pulled you on the couch." she chuckled nervously as she haphazardly pulled clothes from drawers and the closet, she looked like a mini storm.

"Not at all, I slept like a log throughout the night" I lied as she pulled her robe off leaving her in underwear and a bra.

"Well, how 'bout you freshen up and we get some breakfast, I'm starving!" she exclaimed with big eyes as she turned around to rummage her closet once more.

Her bare back was towards me and I couldn't tear my eyes off of her. As the dip in her back neared her ass I found a tattoo there looked like ancient writing, my eyes traveled her body as my throat felt dry. My eyes couldn't stop drinking her exquisite form and I couldn't stop my wondering fingers from reaching towards her. Before I made contact with her I snapped out of my reverie, I cleared my throat and she turned around looking quizzically at me a shirt now covering her tattoo while she put some socks on her feet.

"I won't be long." I murmured as I rushed into the bathroom.

I was torn between the desires I so clearly felt and my beliefs. I had to tread lightly now that I knew she was dangerous, but I needed to do that without hurting her. I needed to sit down with Alex and Piper, they always knew how to logically get me out of ruts. That's why I loved them, they were smart capable women who would have my back mentally.

Around an hour later and a cab ride we were in the city again. Bo had bought us, after many complains from my part for her buying, some hot dogs and cokes at the hot dog stand of her choice. I had to admit they were scrumptious and as I took my last bite my phone went off ringing loudly. Bo stared at me with a huge grin, undoubtedly she recognized the song I used for my ringtone. I looked quizzically at the phone and felt guilty instantly.

"Isaac?" I asked startled by his call.

"Where the hell are you Lauren?" he demanded in aggravated frustration.

"I'm having breakfast, why?" I asked puzzled as Bo took my trash as well as hers towards the trash can and gave me some space.

"I have been in front of your house since 8 o'clock this morning, but it seems like you never came home seeing as it is 10:00am and you never left the apartment, I have been stuck waiting for you, I told you I'd come over yesterday" he said getting angrier.

I put my head in my hands frustrated for forgetting his text last night and sighed. I looked over at Bo who was taking a picture of some pigeons with the high performance camera she brought. It made my heart ache with guilt as she took some shots and then it all melted when she glanced towards me and offered a concerned smile. With a wave of my hand I signaled her that I was fine and she proceeded to take pictures of some kids playing in the sidewalk.

"Look...Isaac, I'm sorry I forgot you were coming over." I tried knowing it wouldn't be enough.

"Fuck you Lauren, you had promised me you'd help me get into this firm. I need the job Lewis, not all of us can just screw science and forget Nadia." I flinched knowing he was right "Just get here I want this to be over and done with"

With that I heard the phone call disconnect. I was upset I had not remembered this last night. Isaac had hurt me with his words and I didn't feel like it was remotely fair. I paid my dues over Nadia for a long time, I was even paying for them with Bo. I resented him accusing me of moving on when in reality I was a mere baby steps from another mental breakdown at any second, after last night more than ever. I stood there blankly looking at my phone pondering on everything.

"It ain't gonna bite you… I hope." I heard Bo's humorous voice reach my ears, she was standing right in front of me now, and her eyes looked concerned under her smiling façade.

"You don't know that, what if it's a transformer or something?" I played back.

"Pshht, you wish!" she exclaimed and offered her hand to help me stand which I took. "I didn't know you were a fan of the classics."

We were right in front of one another, so close I could feel her warmth as well. Her lips looked so tempting that I found my eyes venturing to them. I swallowed hard trying to avert my eyes when she caught me looking and offered me a knowing smile. I averted my eyes and landed on her cleavage and then snapped my eyes fast back to her jovial ones. She had to have some idea of how flustered she was making me.

"I hardly call Shia LeBouf a classic, however, yes it's a little older than my time." I admitted with a smile, she had this way of lifting my mood that was refreshing.

"I have to get back to my house, I forgot I had a previous engagement." I explained still feeling the pang of guilt.

"Of course, I don't mean to keep you" she was suddenly self-conscious.

"I loved being kept." I said as she shot me a surprised smile.

"Well, you have the medical excuse, you are fed, and you are smiling, you can go now" she said playfully giving me a wink.

"Whatever Bo, wanna do something later?" I asked surprised by the boldness and eagerness in voice.

"Sure!" she exclaimed, her eyes bright "Text me when you're done, I gotta meet up with Tamsin either way so I'll catch you later" she said as she started walking off in the opposite direction from me backwards goofily smiling at me.

As I sat there trying to piece what Isaac was telling me about his point of view into Fae genetics, rehearsing for the job interview, I couldn't help but let my mind wonder towards Bo. She was Fae...and I was her friend, we had grown close in such a short amount of time. She had been the first Succubi I had ever met that didn't terrify me right away. I actually thought of Bo fondly and not as one of THEM. My thoughts then traveled to this morning, she was going to meet up with this woman that had called her at ten in the morning, was she her girlfriend? Was I jealous? I asked myself as I felt my mood darken and shift towards thoughts of this Tamsin chick.

"...Look Lauren thanks for the help, but I have to go." Isaac mentioned looking at this watch hurriedly. "Thought I'd be out of here by now, but… well don't worry about it now."

"Listen Issac, about what you said about Nadia…" I tried. I was still upset about it.

"No, it's alright Lauren, I couldn't expect you to mourn my sister forever. I was out of line." He glanced at his watch again and nodded at me. "I have to go."

I nodded and with that he stood, bid me goodbyes and left. I sat there and thought about the past. I was upset that Isaac felt the way he did about his sister. I truly felt for her deeply while we were together. Not to mention how devastated I was when she died.

Nadia and I had met during college. It was shortly after Piper and Alex had taken the trip that landed them in jail for sneaking drugs internationally. I had thrown myself into my studies after my friends left. I didn't know their fate yet, only that they had to extend their trip. I was walking around the cafeteria one day when the green eyed dark beauty approached me. Apparently she had been working up the courage to talk to me for a very long time. She broke the ice by pointing out I was reading the same book as her little brother, and considering that I was reading The Quantum Moment by Robert P. Crease, you could consider me interested.

Chats in the lunch commons turned into deep conversations over dinner and ice cream which in turn transformed into caresses and touches and kisses with giggles and laughter. In the whirlwind of college and the pressure I had with my upcoming residency and all, I had fallen for this girl. She was an art major, photography, and used to tease me about how smart I was all the time. Most of my conversations with Isaac would be way over her head but here and there she'd throw the lame science joke to remind us she was still there and we needed to dumb it down.

I tried to shake my thoughts, but as they usually did since our meeting they went to Bo and how I wanted to see her again soon. It wasn't like me to look ahead anymore, it was a habit I had left back when Nadia was alive. I never did for fear of running out of time, which inevitably I did, no matter how hard I tried. I could still feel the ghost of her lips on mine and instantly I was hit with a wall of emotion that choked me. I felt so guilty for how good I felt with Bo, especially now that I knew what she was.

With that I set myself to go to the bar I worked in with my medical papers and get to work. I took a long shower and decided to dress up in the very likely chance Alex decided we were going for drinks after work. I hoped that our shift went by quickly.

After our shit of a shift we went for drinks with a few of the girls from the restaurants around us. I took a sip of my beer, happy that Piper was driving and sat back. It felt good to feel connected to someone again that I was basking in how I felt with Bo Fae or not. Even a simple attraction was so hard in the past few years after Nadia. Alex had made me date a couple of times. Needless to say that was a disaster. It was always the fact that if I seldom found an interesting enough partner, the guilt would consume me. I stood up quietly and excused myself towards the restroom.

When I was washing my hands re-gaining my composure I realized Alex had followed me. She gave me a small nod and I shrugged slightly.

"Are you going to talk to me Lauren?" she asked and I knew she could see right through me.

"What is there to say? Bo's gorgeous, not to mention funny and smart… If I didn't know any better I'd say you set me up on a blind drug deal." I accused with a smile.

"I'm not seeing the problem in that." Alex answered calmly with a look I knew all too well.

I looked at her pointedly and she threw her arms up in defeat.

"Alright, I did it… I mean, she's gorgeous and I know we had that aversion to Fae but maybe that's the spunk your other dates were missing Lauren. I mean the girl looks like she can fuck you senseless which is what you need." Alex half explained half begged and I turned to look at her.

"I don't think I'm ready" I confessed and she let out a sigh.

"Lauren…" she started as she walked towards me and grabbed my hands. "…You need to let her go. She's gone and she isn't coming back. I know it's hard because it was a tough situation to see happening but how will you ever know if you can love again if you don't give yourself a chance at it. A real chance."

"I know she's gone, it's… Bo's Fae… She's a Succubus." It all spilled out like verbal diarrhea.

"Oh flying fucks!" Alex exclaimed in surprise as she gasped at the same time.

"Exactly…" I muttered. She knew what this meant for me.

"I've known OF Bo for a few months now and there's nothing from what I've heard nothing negative… nothing like that. From the human side or the Fae side and we run in tight circles." She assured and I nodded.

"I know you would never put me in harm's way." I admitted and she nodded at me.

"I know what you're doing and that's overthinking everything. Just let Bo, be Bo and if you happen to like her, or fall for her then so be it. Listen to that big beautiful dorky brain God gave you and use your logic for something other than guilt too. You may be surprised with Bo." She was trying to see me happy again and I appreciated her trying.

With that, she hugged me and left me with my thoughts. I soon re-joined the girls at the table and tried to push my reeling mind aside. I drank my beer fast in order to shut up my overactive brain. Suddenly conversation turned to me, putting me on the spotlight.

"So, are you EVER gonna tell us where were you all night?" Piper demanded as Alex gave her an incredulous look.

"Dale mija, they told us you left with a smoking hot beauty last night. Echa pa' ca and spill!" Flaca stated as I chuckled.

"I went to have dinner in exchange of a favour and that's all I'll say. I'm a lady after all." I teased with a chuckle and they taunted me.

"I know you ain't gonna leave us like that!" Jocelyn remarked "Spill"

"That's all you ladies are getting." I warned with smile as Alex gave me an approving look.

"This girl is completely fuckable like the whole deal right there. I tell you, if Piper wasn't with me…" she joked at the end and I gave her an eye roll.

"I think it's great you're starting to hang out and date again" Flaca added.

"Thank you Flaca" I said and mocked the others a bit. "Some class"

"Fuck off" Piper said, shoving me playfully and I smiled.

"Who knows, she might break the 98%" Alex remarked in a low whisper. One that only I caught.

The 98%...

After drowning in liquor we decided to move on to the next few bars. Due to renovations Piper, Alex and I had the next few days off and we wanted to celebrate it partying 'til sunset. They had dragged me to about two bars before we ended up lost. The night air was so chilly but the alcohol running through my veins told me otherwise. Suddenly thoughts of Bo with the happy blonde on her cell phone picture ran through my head and I found myself jealous. Was this a girlfriend? A snack? A Booty call?

I wobbled into the bar held up by Alex. She seemed to know the doorman so despite being hammered he let us inside. I moaned as the Bluegrass band rang in my ears. This was not what I wanted to listen to while I was getting hammered. I shot a look at Alex but she shook her finger 'no' to make sure I wasn't going to bail. I couldn't if I wanted to, my motor skills were far too gone for me to do anything besides sit here downing more shots.

I saw Piper grab Alex by the hips and guide her into the restroom. I knew where that was going immediately and groaned knowing I'd be alone the next hour or so. I loved them dearly but sometimes they just needed to take care of things. It was baffling to me, I had never had such intense sexual desire for someone that I couldn't wait to get to a private place.

I slouched in my seat when this girl sat next to me I looked over and saw she had a halter top, tight jeans and gray boots she looked over to me as if I was meat and she was starving. I could vaguely see a hint of fangs, or so I thought, my mind was too much of a haze at the moment. All of the sudden her soft hand caressed my shoulder and I looked at her repulsed, surely she wasn't trying what I think she was.

"Hi there baby" she said in a seductive tone and to my horror scooted closer, as I looked around desperate for an escape.

"Great" I voiced sarcastic as I downed my shot and tried to stand...TRIED...my leg wobbled and gave in, I was sure my head would crash to the floor as I felt hands wrap around my waist.

I looked up half expecting to meet Bo's eyes for some reason, but all I saw were the eyes of the girl in the halter top, she pressed me against her body tightly enjoying every inch of my skin while holding me up. I couldn't coordinate all that well and what to me was an attempt to break free, in reality looked like I was dancing. My eyes shot around in a panic and as I finally freed myself this girl pulled me back towards her trying to crash her lips to mine.

I expected her lips on mine in seconds...but they never did, instead I heard a loud smack and her hands fell away from me, being replaced by other, more familiar ones. I looked behind me towards the owner of the hands and met Bo's gaze, she was staring indignantly at the halter chick who's lip was bleeding, it seems Bo punched her.

"What's with you Succubus!" the girl exclaimed spitting out in anger.

"Don't try to touch her ever again" she said fiercely her grip tightening over my waist making me feel protected and safe, her words were confident but slurred, she was tipsy or drunk as well.

"Is this your new love toy, because she was all over me, you've got quite a slut!" the other girl spat and I felt Bo's hands leave my torso.

Other hands held my shoulders and as I looked back I saw it was Tamsin holding me concerned, just as I was taking her features I heard a gasp and turned just in time to see dizzily how Bo's fist connected splendidly with the girl's jawline, as the other one dropped to the floor Bo stumbled shaking her hand, definitely drunk.

"Lauren are you ok?" she slurred at me as her concerned hazy caramel eyes met mine and I let out a drunken smile.

"You saved me!" I cheered as I draped my arms around Bo's neck and rejoiced, behind me, Tamsin let out a chuckle as Bo held onto the bar to support us both with a huge grin.

"Is she drunk Bo?" I heard Tamsin ask amusedly to my raven savior.

"I would like to think so" she said as she looked into my face and beamed "Are you drunk Lauren?"

"I am, isn't it grand!?" I exclaimed as she pulled me into a hug and laughed wholeheartedly.

"Let's take her home Tams, tell your girl we're leaving" Bo said and I felt the tension leaving my body as she mentioned Tamsin had someone else.

"I don't wanna go home" I whined into her chest as I relished the warmth, the alcohol making me lose my inhibitions "Alex and Piper are in the bathroom."

"We're not staying here, I just clocked someone, the bouncer will come looking for me. He's new around, I don't know him." she slurred and led me towards the door "We'll just take this party to my place"

"Not on the bike Bo" I protested as she laughed.

"I'll be right back, let me get Alex and Piper." She mentioned and ran back into the club as Tamsin held me by the sidewalk outside.

"Bo, lives about a block from here so no worries." she said putting my arm around her neck and the other around my waist supporting my weight.

Soon we were joined by Bo and what I assumed was Tamsin's girl. Bo grabbed my other arm and draped her around her neck helping Tamsin support my weight as Alex and Piper followed us all discheveled.

"Can't leave you alone for a second Lewis!" Alex exclaimed tauntingly and I gave her a drunken smile while Bo struggled to keep me upright.

"It was a farce to see Tits McGee over here." Piper added and I blushed deeply.

"Well there's a new one, will definitely use that one now!" Tamsin's girl muttered and Bo laughed.

"Come on Cassie, you have like a million nicknames for me now!" Bo laughed and I leaned into her further.

"I'm Tamsin, it's nice to finally meet you Lauren" the blonde said with a wholehearted smile and I goofily smiled back while she steadied me.

We had gotten to Bo's apartment and she was fumbling with the lock. Bo's apartment was nothing short of amazing, it had a library just like her father's except smaller and that's where we moved the party into, an amazing supply of booze was at our disposition and I was ecstatic to continue drinking. It was to my sad surprise that Bo decided I had been cut off. I didn't want to take 'no' for an answer tonight though.

I watched a minute as Alex and Piper got into a full blown conversation with Cassie and Tamsin. They got louder and louder as they downed a shot talking about anything under the sun. I saw Bo turn her sluggish eyes on me and I beckoned her with my finger under half lidded eyes. She stood and gave me a beautiful smile, even under my drunken stupor I could feel my heart flutter. When she kneeled in front of where I was sitting I leaned close to her pulling her even closer by the jacket she was still wearing. We were an inch or two apart, her pouty lips so close I could feel her breath on my own.

"Lauren…" she whispered after swallowing hard and I smiled knowing I was having the desired effect.

"Yes Bo?" I purred in a low tone biting my bottom lip 'innocently'.

My pulse quickened as she stared at my lips licking her own and she took a deep shaky breath as her hands steadied my swaying form.

"What are you doing?" she asked closing her eyes trying to regain her composure.

However I saw this as an opportunity and leaned into her pressing my lips close to her ear

"I want a drink please." My polite phrase coming out in a low moan.

In a second she shot up on the balls of her feet as if I had burned her. She turned on her heels quickly and approached the table where she had set all the liquor on. Without missing a beat she downed two shoot and took a long big sigh before glancing at me through the corner of her eye weary.

"If you want it so badly, then come it." She said from across the room in a firm but playful tone.

Then, just at that very moment, the double meaning of her words didn't escape me. My throat ran dry as my body got covered in goosebumps at the thought and I could feel myself grow hot under her devouring gaze. At that moment I realized I wanted Bo with such a fierceness that I wasn't sure I was ready to acknowledge or accept. For now I was drunk, and I could rely on that and more alcohol to do whatever my heart desired, even if my mind wasn't ready for the consequences. I stared into her eyes as I swayed my hips walking slowly towards her. Her eyes drank me like a wine the whole time, oblivious to the other people in the room with us. As she handed me the drink our fingers brushed and our eyes caught the other's and we both knew this was a storm waiting to happen.