Thank you all for your kind reviews. Things get a little more personal with them on this one as they open up about their past. I'm really pleased with this chapter and urge you guys out there reading to drop a line or two after reading, motivates me a lot. Especially when after a 12hr work shift I ponder whether to write or not lol. Thanks to my wife Succubus-Shinobi for proofreading it and giving me the chocolate and emotional support I needed to finish this chapter.

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Joy in Dying

Chapter 07:

I had been exhausted all week, but now was no time to lay back and I rushed to my office after I settled at home after a long shift at the bar. It had been about a week since Bo had slept over my place. Waking up to her that morning was the cutest thing I had experienced in a while. Her morning face was adorable and her raspy morning voice drove me nuts.

We had gone to a diner with Piper and Alex in the morning. They had that morning-after sex glow going on and I groaned at it as I cradled a small hang over. I should've drank way more water. After a good meal and loads of laughs as the ladies told Bo my embarrassing university stories, we headed our separate ways.

Bo and I had been texting often during our time apart, I always had a smile on my face every time I heard my phone buzz now-a-days. I sat in my office waiting anxiously for it to buzz. I had really wanted to see the woman for the length of our absence, but our schedules conflicted most of the time. Bo had started tackling the bar the family owned. She said to me it was something she had asked her grandfather to mention if he ever needed help and now it seemed he needed it. Kenzie and Dyson would be helping her out much more by the end of the week but preparations for her to take over were grueling.

I pushed my glasses over my head and sighed pressing the bridge of my nose. I was tired of reading files upon files of annotations. I was not guiltless when it came to Bo and I not seeing much of each other. I had been helping Isaac with a research case for the firm he was hired. I had reluctantly agreed to be a consultant since he couldn't make heads or tails of the situation. For now, neither could I.

Truth was, as I stared at the phone waiting, I felt guilt. I had become re-familiarized with the feeling this week thoroughly. There was a reason why I had taken on this new project with Isaac. The more I talked and texted with Bo the more I would realize how happy the dark haired vixen made me, more recently I had been reminded why I wasn't happy before.

I let out a frustrated sigh, I couldn't quite wrap my brain around the fact that I was happy without Nadia. Worse of all, if not ironic, was that I was happy with a Succubus. I didn't dare think I loved Bo, even if my heart raced whenever my mind fiddles with it. It was way too new, way too soon; and yet here I was. I found myself falling with how thoughtful the brunette was, even if it was through text. Without fail I'd get a 'good morning' and a 'good night' text from the woman daily along with a plethora of other random ones.

I shook my head from thoughts of Bo as I looked at my papers in my hand. I remembered why I was reviewing the papers and guilt clouded me again. I concentrated harder and made sure to read carefully. This was a case that Isaac was treating that concerned human and Fae alike. Our once mutual dislike of the kind had gotten into the field, but much like Alex and Piper, Isaac had warmed up to Fae way before I had. Just not Succubi. I didn't blame him and quite frankly couldn't understand how I had fell into being so comfortable with Bo so fast. The only way I could explain it was the personality behind the creature.

After a few more hours of mindless work I knew I needed a break but I wasn't too sure how to go about it, Piper and Alex had left for the weekend. They were visiting old friends and had left the house to myself knowing I needed the space. I longed for Bo's company but knew she was swamped with work right now, not to mention the guilt I knew her company would tenfold. I also wanted to respect her professional space, it was something people often took for granted. I frowned at my grumbling stomach and decided to look around in the kitchen for some grub.

I was opening a packet of fruit roll-ups, the only edible thing left in the house besides booze, when my phone buzzed. I smiled and darted across the table and snatched it off the cold surface, half the roll-up hanging from my mouth. Disappointment marred my features when I realized it was Alex.

Be dressed… or don't be. NOT ON THE COUCH.

-Lex

I couldn't quite understand her cryptic message but before I could ponder more of it I heard the front door open and close. I tensed knowing they shouldn't have been back so early. As I moved into the living room I saw Bo's smiling face, I was horrified as I realized the snack was still in my mouth. With a swift movement I snatched it out of my mouth and I heard Bo's laughter heat rose to my cheeks. She had bags in her hands and she moved away when I tried to help.

"Hey there." She said planting a kiss on my cheek as she passed me by straight into the kitchen.

"Hi." I pepped softly in awe she was right here after I had imagined and longed for her so.

Her hair was in a beautiful ponytail, her tanktop had a slight tear letting her cleavage be appreciated the rest of it had paint spots all over. Her tight black jeans were slightly painted as well and I could tell she had headed over from work.

She deliberately unpacked the Chinese takeout as she threw me a smile. She had set her backpack on the chair and I poked at it seeing it usually full. She met my curious glance and shot me a huge smile.

"Sorry for barging in, the girls told me you'd be alone this weekend and they felt guilty for leaving you alone." She mentioned as she fed me a dumpling.

"Mmm it's so good!" I moaned realizing I hadn't eaten proper food since I had left the bar.

"Hungry I guess?" she ventured with a chuckle and I nodded.

She fixed us two plates as I poured us some wine and we sat on the table just munching away. We made small banter here and there about the food but we mostly ate enjoying one another. I was so gleeful to have her company tonight. The girl's had probably given her pointers because they knew how much today affected me. I was glad for the thought and as soon as I was done with my plate I took mine and Bo's.

"Thanks for that, I was famished." I mentioned as I saw her get up and grab her bag.

"So was I, it was a lot of manual labour today in the shop." She rolled her eyes and I could tell by the way her body sagged she was exhausted.

As she walked away towards the living room I realized as a matter of fact, the more I looked at her the more I realized that she looked drained and pale. I wanted to reach out and stop her but I let her exit the room as I turned to clean our plates. I made a mental note to ask her later if she needed me to check her up. I wasn't a doctor anymore but I was once. I had learned Fae and human physiology as it was required by law now, so that I wasn't practicing didn't mean I wouldn't know if something was wrong. Maybe it was something she didn't want to share with her Father.

My mind stopped running as I felt her arms wrap around my waist. She kissed my shoulder and smiled as I finished the last plate. Something must've been up 'cause she always helped me clean the dishes. I turned in her arms and looked into her tired eyes. My smile mirrored her gentle one and before I knew it I had pulled her closer by the waist.

"I missed you." She confessed as my smile grew wider and I felt my stomach summersault.

"I did too, Bo." I agreed and she squeezed me softly.

"Girls told me you have a hard time with this date, I didn't think you should be alone so I brought some things to distract you." She explained and I bit my lip as I felt her gesture touch my heart.

"Bo you didn't-"

"I don't care if I didn't have to, I wanted to. You don't even have to tell me what happened or whatever, just come with me into the living room bring your wine and relax with me." She cut me off before I could protest.

"Alright, you lead the way then." I said with a smile.

As she was about to pull away from the closeness between us when I pulled her back into our little bubble. Her lips parted to protest but my lips captured her own before she could utter a sound. I deepened the kiss before she could deny me and pulled her closer, the intimacy between us high. I wanted her to feel how I felt when she did these wonderful things for me. Thoughtful, selfish things she did for me.

She pulled apart suddenly and jumped away from me as if burned. There was a smile on her face as she licked her lips but her pants were laboured. I was about to ask but she shook her head as she extended her hand to lead me into the living room. I grabbed it but shot her a curious look.

"Are you good with motor skills?" she asked dead serious as we entered the room.

That's when I noticed she had set up a gaming console in front of the TV. There was one controller and the case for Grand Theft Auto on the side. She had spoken to me about the various instalments they had been making since she was truly a teenager. It was a long time and more games kept coming but she was fond of two particular volumes and I saw she had brought her utmost prized one. The fifth installment was now a collector's item, but she rarely kept it out of her console. I was truly excited she was sharing this with me.

"I'm pretty decent at this console." I pointed out, Alex had owned one once.

"Alright then, there's joints on the table, wine and GTA." Her smile was wide as we settled into the couch.

"There's only one controller."

"We'll take turns, it's what Dyson, Kenzie and I do." She prompted me with a smile.

We started it up and quickly made me a character. She giggled as I put on a lab coat and a gas mask on the CGI figure. Overall it looked like me and we laughed as we smoked along with the character who owned a bong in their house. After exploring and getting used to the controls we took a while finding a car of my liking so we could customize it. When it was all settled we took turns racing the new vehicle.

After a while and more wine and a few joints later I found myself in the middle of a mission while Bo was refilling our wine glasses. I was concentrating hard on the task at hand and Bo laughed at my meticulousness during the whole endeavour. As she sat back down on the couch I cuddled into her side and she draped her arm around me.

"If you hit R1 you can pull up your weapon wheel instead of toggling through it slowly with the d-pad." She explained and I nodded using the information to my advantage.

After a while as engaging as the game was, it had lost it's novelty and I was more interested in the brunette next to me. An idea occurred to me and I smiled at my cleverness as Bo handed me the controller to take my turn at escaping the cops.

"Ok, so let's make a game. For each headshot cop kill I get, you'll answer me a question." I suggested and she groaned.

"Highly unfair!" she exclaimed shoving me playfully before pulling me back towards her with a smile.

"You'll get to ask one question after you've provided an answer." I explained and she nodded.

"Alright then, deal." She agreed and I chuckled as I leaned into her more.

I looked steadily at the screen I got a cop kill but no headshot. Next guy up I shot in the stomach once then I adjusted upwards and nailed him between the eyes.

"Does that count?" Bo immediately asked tensing up a bit.

"Up to you." I suggested and she shrugged.

"Better get it over with" she smiled and I shook my head chuckling.

"Why do all of your siblings have different accents?" I asked sheepishly as she chuckled.

"Well, because of a family conflict, my father wasn't able to meet Dyson and Kenzie until they were well into their early teenage years. It was when he learned that my Mother was pregnant with me that he decided to make a change and look for his other kids. I was about eight when we all met." She explained as I hung to her every word. "We found Kenzie first, she was a blonde back then if you can believe it."

"I imagine you guys hit it off right away." I mused after having seen the sisters interact.

"My father had been talking to me about my siblings my whole life so to me it was a dream come true. He didn't know much, but that they were twins a boy and a girl, the girl was in Russia and the boy somewhere in Scotland." She shook her head with a small smile as she reminisced. "We thought as soon as we found them everything would be perfect, but when their mother died in birth it ensured they spent years in the foster system and that had made Dyson resentful and wary. Kenzie was a thief and a runaway, had escaped her foster family at one point and hadn't gone back."

"It seems things turned out for the better." I mused and she smiled.

"Well a century or so of mischief mellows you out." She mumbled and then with wide eyes stared at me covering her mouth wanting to take the comment back.

"Fuck… let me find a cop." I said as I got the idea for my next question.

"I haven't gotten my question in yet." She protested and I chuckled at how cute she sounded.

"shoot away while I find an officer of the law!" I said jovially and it was her turn to laugh.

"Why aren't you a Doctor anymore?" I tensed at the question but still braced for the answer as I found a cop getting the headshot in one try.

"I had someone close to me die on my table. It just… it drove me mad." I explained as she flinched with regret.

"Was it your ex?" she asked before she could stop herself.

"I'll only answer that 'freebie' if you tell me how old you are." I tried while raising an eyebrow.

"Rude eh!" she exclaimed and I shot her a pout she chuckled and answered. "I am stuck looking and sometimes very much feeling, like a 29 year old… However, in human terms I am a hundred and sixty eight years young."

She seemed self-conscious but my scientific mind was reeling.

"That is SO AMAZING!" I squealed as she laughed.

"Amazing? Don't you mean gross!" she was amused by my gleeful reaction.

"Hey! This is a very sexy 29 year old body, what else could you ask for?" I insisted pointing at her figure as she blushed.

"Thanks" she gave me an expecting look and I knew I had to answer.

"She was… she died in my hands while I tried to save her. Her name was Nadia." I answered.

"Gorgeous name, she must've been beautiful." Bo's voice was laced with so much care I had to fill the space before I broke down. The question had reminded me why I had Bo's company tonight.

"My next question: What did you think the first time we met? Like first words" I quickly fired off while head shooting another cop and driving off earning me another question.

"Can't I pass?" she whined and I shook my head.

"Nope." I giggled as she huffed.

"HaveIJustMetAnAngel…" she mumbled quickly but I caught it as she blushed furiously.

"you're adorable Bo Denis." I kissed her hand before grabbing the controller again driving off with my character. "Now go on, ask away."

"Why did you give me a chance?" her tone was serious enough that I turned sideways to look at her.

Our eyes met, hers were filled with uncertainty, almost shame and I wanted nothing but to gather her in my arms reassuringly. I set the controller aside and held her hands in mine. I caressed her palm with my thumb and gave her a shy smile. I wanted to be honest.

"To be frank, I almost didn't." I confessed as she nodded. "No offence to you, of course, but I… I was very scared. I mean you already know vaguely about Nadia so you know I wasn't Kosher with the Fae… In the end though it was your smile, the easiness of being with you. You being so easy going and happy put me at ease."

"I guess it didn't hurt I took you to meet my folks so rapidly." She chuckled and I nodded.

"I'm so glad and lucky I did give you that chance Bo." I mentioned caressing her face as she leaned into my touch closing her eyes.

"Thank you for trusting me, even if you shouldn't have."

"What do you mean?" I asked as her eyes met mine once more.

"I'm dangerous to you Lauren." Her tone was so conflicted that I couldn't hold back any longer.

"What's wrong" I searched her eyes as she shut down.

"I'm o-"

"No, you're not." I stated and she let out a sigh.

"You look so unhappy, is it me?" I asked panicked. I didn't know what to do if the answer was yes.

"No!" she rapidly exclaimed looking into my eyes. "It's me! I'm a monster and I have to be extremely cautious when I'm around you."

"What are you talking about?" I rapidly mumbled but she shook her head.

"Lauren… when I turned Fae…" she took a long steadying breath. "When I turned Fae my parents weren't home. My Father had this seminar in Europe and my mother had wanted to go with him. They of course invited me but…"

I could see the blatant pain she spoke with. It was intense and hard to witness in such a happy woman. I was torn between comforting her and letting her be. It seemed that my physical contact was only causing her to be even more stressed so I just listened and sat back holding her hand in mine. She had my undivided attention and I wanted her to know that no matter how this story ended I wouldn't see her as a monster.

"But you didn't go." I finished for her and she nodded.

"I had a boyfriend at the time, he was human, but my parents were fairly certain they had taught me well enough that I could be careful." I saw her eyes water and she let out a pained sigh.

"You don't have to tell me" I offered, I didn't want her so torn but I knew it was something she needed, I had been there before.

She shook her head as she shed her tears. I cleared them with my thumb lovingly and listened intently.

"I have to…" she mumbled and I nodded as she calmed down. "I was way more powerful than anybody had ever anticipated. My Mother isn't just a Succubus but she's the daughter of a very powerful man so they trained me accordingly, however it wasn't enough…"

"Did you…?" I couldn't voice it but the way her lip trembled said enough.

"Kyle was the first and last human I was ever with before you…. And I loved him… I also killed him Lauren. I was excellent at my control and still…"

She was crying now and I could feel her flinching from me slightly. I wouldn't allow her to torture herself in such a way. I pulled her close and cradled her close to me as she freely cried into my chest. I let my tears fall along with hers. My pain and hers mingling together.

"I'm still here Bo" I whispered into her hair.

"But just as easily as with Kyle you could not be." She lamented and I pulled her face to meet my gaze.

I looked into her eyes and searched for the right words to say.

"You held back once under alcoholic distress, I trust you." I assured her.

It seemed like a bad time but the reality was that Bo's beauty was mesmerizing even now. I could feel my heart quicken at the way she'd lean into my touch. Even with how exhausted she looked I couldn't help but want her. The memories from that night of having her bare body against mine flashing through my brain as inappropriately as it might've been.

"Lauren…" she sounded cautious almost warning but the smile that adorned her lips made the heaviness of the moment lift.

"How do you know?" I pondered as she pulled away looking into my face.

"It's in my Succubus senses, I can tell when you're aroused. You're making things very difficult for me right now Lau." she groaned.

"Why? Because I'm aroused or because you're hungry?" I confronted softly her look turned into a guilty one and she shook her head.

"I can't feed off of you without hurting you." She pleaded and I shook my head this time.

"It's not safe for you to be hungry like this Bo, what if you had hurt yourself?" I was worried, she was starving herself.

"I'm monogamous, and official or not, I like you too much to be fooling around Lauren." She confessed and I smiled and blushed despite of my concern.

"You can't starve yourself though." I countered. "I can't let you do this. I've read upon your species, that is your life force."

"Lauren please, I cannot allow myself to be this degenerate monster. My family, we've all had our darker moments and it would be so easy to fall into the lure of that again if I don't set boundaries for myself." She explained.

I couldn't help myself and kissed her lips hard. I knew she could feed off sex even if she wasn't sucking Chi off me, it was basic Fae biology. Her moan was deep in my throat as I straddled her. I can feel her begin to protest but I deepened the kiss by massaging my tongue against hers. I wouldn't take no for an answer. Even if it's a little bit she needed to regain her strength. If her twisted morals wouldn't allow her to 'cheat' on me I'd put in the effort on my part. It's not like I didn't want to ravish the woman to begin with.

"Please Bo, trust me… trust yourself. I want you, you need this, please" I moaned pleadingly into her ear.

My heart was in a frenzy and my breathing comes out ragged hand in hand with gasps and moans as her hands run all over my body. I want her, I have never wanted someone with the force that I want her and by the desperation of her movements I can tell she feels the same. I pull her closer to my torso as I threw off my shirt and her lips run down to my collarbone where she bites it slightly making her name fly off my lips for the first time in many tonight. She peels off her shirt and presses her bare chest against mine.

I try to speak, to voice what I want while she pins me mercilessly on this couch and her hand caresses between my thighs making me wetter and wetter by the second but my throat is dry with desire and all that comes out is a prolonged moan. I can see that her mind has flicked into her needs and somewhere she must realize I need her to trust herself if we're going to do this.

Her lips come up and crash themselves against mine her tongue battling against mine as her moans and mine confuse themselves in each other's mouths. She grins like a cheshire cat when she pulls away from me and I just know she's going to try and make this work. A swift movement of her wrist and my underwear joins the pants and shirt on the floor now, her hand caresses my back toying with my bra clasp as her fingers run the length of my slit making me moan deeply and arch into her. My hips buckling towards her hand but she pulls back the mischievous grin back on her lips. Before my bra hits the floor and her lips cover my nipple, my back arches and I give her more of me, willing her to take me completely as she pleases and sees fit.

As she takes my other nipple into her mouth leaving the first one hard and lonesome her fingertips toy with my entrance as I groan hard trying to take her in me. Her hand pushes my hips back, my naked ass hitting the cold leather as her beautiful lips curve into a smile.

"Don't tease me" I groan huskily.

"It's not your choice baby. You wanted me to feed, I need you to want me" she whispered to my ear a shiver running down my body as she takes my earlobe into her mouth sucking and licking it making more moans escape my lips.

"You're so wet baby, do you need some help?" she asks innocently in my ear as she pushed her fingertips in me, only the tips of her fingers enter me as I moan hard.

"Please" I begged helplessly as my hands gripped her back.

Her grin widened as I felt her fingers go into me deeply filling me completely. A scream of her name dislodged itself from my throat as I held on to her shoulders my knees failing as her lips grazing my ear as her fingers pumped in and out of me rapidly.

"Cum for me babe" she whispered in my ear huskily as she pumped in and out of me faster and faster.

If it wasn't for her pinning my body against the couch I would've collapsed. I was so close, and she knew it as I nuzzled my face in the crook of her neck, my body shuddering. My teeth sunk deep into her collarbone as her thumb flicked my clit sending my body over the edge, my walls contracting against her fingers.

"Oh Bo" I screamed as she moaned deeply.

My fingers had found her wetness entering her quickly and picking up a rhythm. I could see her face had some more colour and her eyes had taken a sapphire hue to it that was both beautiful and captivating. I could feel and tell I was in the presence and true power of a Succubus. I threw my head back as I came down from my own pleasure moving faster within her as she clung to me.

I kissed her reverently as I felt her rocking her hips with my movements. She raised her torso and straddled my hand as I caressed her breasts. I couldn't believe this Goddess was starving herself to be faithful to me. I heard her name from her lips as I rubbed her deep spot and immediately I did it again seeking the same result.

"I love it when you scream my name Bo" I moaned.

That seemed to do it as I hit her deeper than before. I felt her walls contract against my fingers, her fingers gripping tight against me. I pushed my body flushed against her and brought her down with me softly. As her ragged breathing calmed I held her strongly and played with her hair. Our tangled sweaty bodies deliciously sore.

Out of nowhere I started laughing she pulled me close and chuckled along with me. She had told me a million times before she could never hear me laugh and not join in.

"What is it?" she mumbled and I felt like sleep was threatening to take us in.

"I broke the one rule Alex had given me." I laughed and before long she laughed harder right along with me.

"Not on the couch." She admitted.

I pulled a blanket over us and kissed her forehead as we settled against each other.

"Thanks Lau… I needed that. To know I could control myself around you." She mumbled before kissing my lips.

"You're stubborn Bo, but I like that about you." I confessed as we pulled apart. "But promise me, no more starving yourself. I know you're not completely satisfied with your hunger, I'm merely human, but give me a few hours of sleep and I'll take you on missy."

She laughed and kissed my once more before settling her head against my chest.

"Promise?" I pressed.

"As long as we do it again." She teased.

"Deal, but you better remember it this time."