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Abi wept, grateful for the human company. "Is it? I mean, I have tried for the last couple of hours to hate him but I can't. It is like it isn't humanly possible to hate him."

Whitney asked, confidently. "Are you trying to hate him because you broke your heart or trying to because you want to hide your true feelings for him?"

Abi sniffed, heartbroken. "A part of me is urging me to hate him because he broke my heart. Ben used me to convince people that he wasn't gay but I cannot bring myself to hate him. Another part of me feels almost sorry for him because he would rather spend his time miserable with me rather than having his father not see him as a real man because of his sexuality."

"That is because you are an good person." Whitney explained as if it was the most obvious thing in the whole world. "You always want to see people in a positive way and want to see the best in people. You overlook their problems and most people should be like you."

"That is what I used to do but now it is like I am completely different person." Abi said, wiping the tears. "Before, I was kind, honorable and sweet but now I am sinister, moody and hormonal. I mean, look what I did to Lucy."

Abi and Whitney stepped inside collapsing into the sofas as Whitney admitted. "No one can blame you, Abi. You were going through a hard time accepting her death and your father's involvement in her death. Everyone remembers Lucy as this considerate, sweet and loving sister, daughter, friend and person but she wasn't completely like that. Lucy could sometimes be a horrible, spiteful and controlling person especially to her friends. She used to cyber bully me making fun of my weight, my body and my hair. Anyone in your position would do the exact same thing, you were starting to have a sense of normality in your life and she destroyed that by having an affair with your dad."

Abi looked away, cursing. "It doesn't explain what dark forces drove me to hurt her."

Whitney let out a nervous laugh before answering." Hate. I guess that you could say that you were thinking of your sister and how she would react. Do you still love him?"

Abi asked, "Who, Ben?"

Whitney shook her head in disbelief. "Jay. I know how close you two were and it can't be easy when you are living with your boyfriend and your ex."

Abi shrugged. "I guess. I don't know if I still love Jay. There is a part of me that will always see him as my childhood sweetheart, my best friend and the love of my life but he also broke my heart. I can never put my heart on the line again for him."

Whitney asked with a raised eyebrow. "Because you still want to be with him, you still don't understand how much you are in love with him or you are scared that he might feel the same way."

Abi let out a nervous laugh. "When did you get so wise?"

Whitney joked, forcing a laugh,"I have been living with the Carters for months."

Abi giggled. "Okay, Whit, enough about me. So tell me what it is like living with the famous Carters?"

Whitney lied. "It's amazing. I mean, I wouldn't change a thing. It is outstanding, brilliant, fantastic..."

Abi raised an eyebrow to her hairline. "Sounds brilliant. Whitney, you have always been an horrible liar. One of your best qualities. Why did you really come here because I don't buy your story about 'comforting me through my heartbreak thing."

Whitney laughed. "I guess that I needed some space away from Lee especially because of tomorrow."

Abi questioned. "What Christmas Day? Who doesn't love Christmas? Presents, mistletoe, stocking, Christmas trees, turkey, family."

Whitney nodded, "When I was little, I used to love Christmas. Running downstairs to find Santa had left me a bunch of presents. But this one will be be worst than the rest. Lee hasn't exactly been himself recently and I'm scared that he get wasted tomorrow."

"Why would Lee get completely wasted on Christmas Day?"

"Because he has got depression." Whitney blurted out accidentally. "Please don't tell anyone that I told you, Abs but he has been out of character recently. Tomorrow is the anniversary of the day that Linda told Mick that she was raped and I'm petrified."

"Whit, honestly, you just have to be there for him completely." Abi sighed. "Don't be like my Mum and Dad. If you have problems in your relationship, confide in him because you will regret if you don't."

Whitney whined. "And what if I don't want to hurt his feelings?"

"You have to do the right thing." Abi replied, placing her hand around her shoulder. "Whit, you need to accept the fact that you might not be capable emotionally to provide what he needs. You should tell Mick and Linda, they would understand."

"They hate me." Whitney whispered. "Mick and Linda hate me."

"Why would they hate you?" Abi asked, beaming. "You have been living with them for some time and I can see that they see you as family."

"I did something really bad." Whitney whispered, resting her head on Abi's shoulder.

"Why would they hate you?" Abi repeated, persistent. "Whitney, why would they hate you? If it is because of Lee's depression then I am sure that they would understand. They would understand that you are having problems with accepting-"

"I kissed Mick." Whitney interrupted. "I kissed Mick."

Abi's eyebrows raised to her hairline. "You kissed Lee's father? What was going through your mind when you made this decision? Was it a mistake? Was it a spur of the moment? Does Lee know? What about Linda?"

Whitney sobbed. "I love him, Abs. I can't help it. I have tried everything humanly possible to stop thinking about him but I can't. It makes me sick in the stomach that each night, he is going to sleep beside her instead of me. Why can't I have him, Abs?"

"Because one, he is married and two, he is the father of your boyfriend." Abi retorted. "Whit, you are 21 years old nearly turning 22 while Mick is 39 years old with four children with another woman. The last thing that I want you to be is like my Mum and Dad. They were always having secret motives to everything and in the end, it destroyed the most important people in their lives- Lauren, Oscar and me."

"Yeah but I don't have any kids."

Abi shook her head, "But what about Linda? She has just went to hell and back. For goodness' sake, she was raped by her brother in law and if anyone should know what that feels like then it is you and she was terrified that she was carrying his baby. And Lee has got to deal with his family problems and his own battling emotions. What about little Ollie? How is he going to cope with living with divorced parents? Do you think that you can be the one who destroyed their family? Whit, you either need to break up with Lee or ignore your feelings because you cannot tell him the truth. It would demolish him."

Whitney stood up. "Abigail Branning, you're an angel. I know that one day you will make the perfect wife and mother. I wish you all the best. I should get back to the Vic. Thank you for being the best friend that you can ever be."