Thank you everyone for following and reviewing the story!
ok, I need to rant a bit about SVU's finale...First of all of course, I am beyond thrilled that Liv adopted Noah! I catch myself smiling randomly during the day at this thought :P :P Nick leaving is sad and he will be missed,but it was good that he left smoothly, and like Cragen and Munch he might come back in the future! And now...about what Liv said about Elliot, that got everyone upset...I must admit, it bothered me a bit too but then I thought about it more clearly. Elliot and Olivia had a great working partnership, but their personal relationship was a mess. And its true, that as a person, Liv wasnt able to grow so much, because of Elliot. Not to mention that Elliot wasnt openly supportive of her having a kid. I believe its because he also had some feelings for her but because he couldnt act on them, he unintentionally sabotaged her personal life. They had a really complicated relationship, which I dont think its able to be explained properly on one or even sixty minutes...So dont get upset over what she said! What matters is what we know ;)
So, on with the story!
She took a ship from what must have been the millionth cup of coffee this day. They were camped at the precinct for three days straight now, working on a kidnapping phones were ringing off the hook all day an on top of it all, Elliot was acting like he was running for asshole of the year. Cragen finally having enough after he almost got into a fist fight with Fin, he ordered him to go and take some rest on the cribs.
After about an hour that Elliot had retrieved on the cribs and things were temporarily more quiet, Olivia decided to go and check on him. While she was climbing up the stairs, she thought that it was a move that definitely was gonna bite her in the ass one way or another but it was like an invisible power dragging her. She sighed. She knew all too well what that power was.
She slowly opened the door and caught sight of him hunched into a bed at the far end of the room. She moved slowly towards him and sat at the end of the bed. He raised his head and when he saw her he sat more forward on the bed, with an expressionless face.
"Did I wake you?" She asked quietly.
He shook her head and rubbed his face.
"Couldn't sleep" he mumbled.
"El, what's going on? I know the case is hard and we are all tired and on the edge but you really overreacted today with Fin." Olivia said in calm voice trying not to provoke him.
"It's Lizzie." He said quietly after some seconds.
"What about Lizzie?"
"The girl who is kidnapped, Sarah, looks so much like her, they have the same age, same appearance, even similar tastes, and it's just…." he took a deep breath and looked over to Olivia "I got into a fight with her the other day and then we caught the case and I didn't have the chance to talk to her since then…" he dropped his head into his hands again.
" El… it's okay, Lizzie is fine, she's safe and I'm sure that once we close the case you will talk to her and everything would be okay again." She said encouragingly.
He suddenly raised his head and moved closer to her. His hand snaked up her thigh caressing it softly, his face coming closer and closer to hers.
"I need you" he breathed into her ear, sending shivers down her spine.
"Now? It's not…"
"Please Liv."
Without further protests he let him drag her down on him, his hand already working his way with the buttons of her shirt. Between hard and demanding kisses, she asked herself if there was a moment when he wasn't the choice.
Not much time later, Olivia watched him from were she was lying half naked on the bed as he was putting his clothes back on. As if he sensed her eyes on him he turned and looked at her.
"Sorry if I was a bit rough.." he said with regret in his voice
"It's fine don't worry" she said smiling a bit, although she knew that the soreness between her legs would last a bit.
"It's fine, it's more than fine, it was probably one of the most hot..."
"So I'm going to go down first, wait five minutes and come too ok?"
"And then reality hits us hard again…"
She smiled.
"Yeah great".
When she heard the door closing behind him, she sighed and stared at the ceiling. Then she slowly rose and start gathering her clothes from the floor.
She hadn't even closed the door of the cribs behind her when Elliot called her from the base of the stairwell.
"We have him. He's on this empty warehouse on 26th."
I looked at him straight in the eyes for a second but he was unreadable.
"Let's go" I said, climbing hurriedly the stairs
"Wait for backup, they'll meet you there" Cragen shouted on our way out.
"Dammit, where's that back-up?"
Olivia looked up and saw a haunted look in Elliot's blue eyes. She closed her own for a moment and she was back on the cribs, Elliot on top of her, moving inside of her, his hot breath on her neck, and his eyes looking down at her with the same haunted look.
"Let's go in, they'll come find us" she heard herself saying.
She started moving towards the door, gun in hand. Elliot hesitated for a second but then followed her.
They entered the empty warehouse quietly. It was almost pitch dark and cold, very cold, Olivia thought shivering a bit. Piles of empty boxes laid everywhere. They walked trying to find any sign of the girl or the perp. Suddenly Olivia heard the sound of footsteps behind her and she turned in time to see their perp spotting them and running away.
"Shit!" Elliot yelled and stormed behind him, Olivia in tow.
"Police, freeze!" Olivia shouted but to no avail. They were running deeper and deeper into the warehouse. The man suddenly stopped and with a smirk threw a big self with boxes over them. Olivia quickly got out of harms way but Elliot stomped over a box and fell with a thump on the floor.
"Go!" He yelled at her, when he saw her stopping dead on her tracks.
"I'm fine Elliot, go!"
Olivia nodded and resumed running towards the direction the perp had gone, trying to erase the image of an erratic Elliot above her on the bus station.
She couldn't see him anywhere but she continued running, when her foot hit on something and she came face to face with the concrete floor. That something was their perp who was now grabbing her hard by her arms, pinning her down with all his force.
"Stop it you bastard! " Olivia yelled trying to free her hands from his grasp.
"Shut up bitch!" the man screamed landing a blow with his foot on her stomach. Olivia groaned loudly. The next thing she knew, his hands were around her neck, suffocating her. She tried to scream but no sound came out. Her face was inches from the perp's who was looking at her with a sadistic smirk on his face.
"Now that's better huh?" He growled.
Black dots started dancing in front of her eyes. She brought her hands above his in an effort to pull them away but his grasp was just too strong. She didn't know how much longer she could last without air.
"Elliot where are you? Elliot please!" She thought with all her might as if she could call him with her thoughts only. And then, just like that, air filled her lungs and she started coughing. It took her a minute to realize that Elliot was standing beside her, the perp on the floor bellow him.
"Fucker" Elliot growled cuffing him tightly.
All of a sudden, people filled the room.
"We got the girl!" Olivia heard someone yelling.
"Liv?" Elliot was now kneeling beside her as she was still trying to catch her breath. "Liv are you ok?" He sounded really worried.
"I… yeah… fine…" She said between coughs.
"Can you stand?"
"Yeah… sure"
She took his hand and unsteadily rose to her feet, only to see her world turning black as she fell unconscious into Elliot's arms.
"Somebody call a bus! Now!" Elliot yelled cradling a limp Olivia in his trembling arms.
"…No broken ribs… stitches… She was lucky…"
Olivia groaned and blinked her eyelids a few times, trying to adjust to the light of the room.
"Liv?"
She opened her eyes completely and looked around her. She spotted Cragen, Munch and Elliot.
"What the…" She mumbled.
"Liv how are you feeling?" She heard Cragen's voice saying with concern.
"Good" she said and coughed "Did we catch the bastard?"
"Yeah"
She looked on the left of her hospital bed and saw that it was Elliot who had answered her. He was sitting in a chair beside the bed with a weird look on his face.
"Oh. When can I leave this damn place?" She asked sitting up in the bed.
Cragen sighed. Munch chuckled. Elliot groaned.
Two hours and several warnings from the doctors and Cragen later, she was back at her place. She dropped her coat and purse at the living room and went straight to the bathroom. After a long steamy bath, she put on a tank top and her pajama pants. She was about to leave her bedroom and make a beeline for the couch when she got a glimpse of herself in the mirror and stopped dead on her tracks.
Angry red marks that were starting to turn purple, were covering her neck. She softly traced them with her hand. Flashes of what happened in the warehouse penetrated her mind. Elliot laying on the floor telling her to leave him, herself lying on the floor, the perp above her, his hands around her neck, darkness, Elliot, darkness…
Her eyes shot open. Cragen made sure to tell them how utterly stupid was to barge in there without back and they both nodded and said it won't happen again and Olivia looked at Elliot but he was very busy examining his shoes at the moment.
Elliot.. He barely spoke two words to her at the hospital, he didn't offer to give her a ride back to her place, he just left when she was signing the release papers.
She laid down on the couch and stared at the white ceiling. Anger started boiling inside of her.
"Fucking hell" she muttered.
She had gone in there for him, she couldn't stand this look in his eyes, she fucking did this for him, she had rough sex in the cribs for him. She was letting herself drown for him, she became the other woman for him and what did she get in return? A quickie in the cribs?
"You brought all this to yourself Olivia" a voice that sound suspiciously like her mother, said inside her head.
She roughly wiped away the tears that had started falling down her eyes.
She stayed in that position for hours, until it got dark outside and inside her apartment because she hadn't bothered to turn on any lights. Suddenly there was a knock at her door. Knowing perfectly well who it was, she took her time to stand up and go there to open.
She opened and surely enough, Elliot was standing there with an almost angry look at his eyes that aggravated her even more. His eyes rested for a second on her neck before coming back at her face. They stared at each other for some seconds before Olivia made way for him to come inside with a sigh.
"What are you doing here Elliot?" she said in a tired voice
" I wanted to see how you're doing" he mumbled staring at his shoes.
"I am fine, great, now go. Be with your family, you haven't seen them in days"
"You don't have to be like that Olivia"
"Like how, Elliot?" She mimicked his use of her full name.
They stood still, staring at each other in silence, in the middle of her living room.
"Go home to your wife Elliot" she said after a bit quietly.
"Dammit Liv why do you have to make everything so difficult?" he said in an annoyed tone. Her eyes grew wide.
"Me? I am the one who is making it difficult?"
"Well, yeah!"
"Well, fucking no!"
More silence.
"What do you want from me El? What do you want me to say, to do?" She said in a slightly trembling voice.
"We shouldn't have gone inside without backup"
"Oh you think so now, do you?"
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" he said narrowing his eyes.
"I couldn't stand it Elliot!" she burst. "I couldn't stand that look in your eyes when you were talking about Lizzie and how this girl reminded you of her, the pain that was there… the…"
"So now you're saying it's my fault?!"
"No it's not, it's mine and…"
"Why is this time different from the others huh? Countless of times before I had gotten like this over a case. What's different this time?"
"Not every other time we fucked in the cribs before going out on the field. Not every other time we fucked period." Came the bitter response. She wanted to sound indifferent but she couldn't, there was too much pent up emotion for that.
"Wow" he moved and sank down at the closest armchair.
"What, you are surprised? Oh please, don't even try to pretend like this is something more than fucking" She huffed, still standing above him.
"You're my partner Liv!" Elliot hissed standing up again.
"Your partner that you fuck against walls and in the cribs, whenever you please!" She spat and for a moment he seemed startled but he recovered quickly.
"You were there too! Don't try and make it seem like I used you or… or something Olivia! You knew what this was from the beginning!"
The noise of the street filled the room as blue eyes met chocolate ones, in a silent battle.
"Maybe I knew" she said her voice almost a whisper now. "But maybe I don't anymore."
"What's that even supposed to mean?" Elliot said in a low, angry tone.
"It means that I need time… to think." She said and move towards the bedroom. "I'm going to bed now. You can stay, you can go, I don't mind. Just… leave me alone for tonight ok?" And like that she left the living room without expecting an answer.
Stay tuned cause there's so much more to come! on the meantime, review! xoxo Kate