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Almost a month went by and almost uneventfully. Olivia never mentioned that night and neither did Elliot. They both acted as if nothing ever happened, not losing a bit of their working rhythm, making small talk about random things but that just was it. They avoided staying only the two of them in one place for two long, and even when they absolutely had to, such as in car rides, they remained totally silent. Even though, there were moments were Olivia would caught Elliot staring at her, as if he was trying to find the courage to say something but when she turned to look at him, he averted his gaze elsewhere.

But behind closed doors, things were very different for Olivia. Even though she hadn't drunk even a drop of alcohol, since that night, she slept less and less every day and nightmares were filling the few hours she managed to sleep. The weird thing was, that she had barely shed a tear. She thought that maybe you are allowed a certain amount of tears per person, and she had spent hers for Elliot already. It was as if, she was slowly coming to terms with a fact that was there from the very beginning of her affair with Elliot and no matter how hard she tried to persuade herself otherwise, it remained the only truth. It wasn't meant to be. And so she had to suck it up and move on.

She and Elliot had just got back from a call, when her cell rang, Casey's name flashing on the screen. Olivia groaned. She had never gotten into details with her about the mysterious man in her life, but when Casey had asked about it a week ago, Olivia just said it was over and that she didn't want to talk about it. Casey had dropped it for the moment and then work got in the way and thankfully for Olivia they hadn't managed to go out until then. But when she saw her name on the screen of her cellphone, she knew that she was probably calling to schedule a night out, and with Casey being well, Casey, she would definitely brought the subject up.

But she was in a room full of people, and especially Elliot, who had most likely seen Casey's name. She sighed and answered.

"Hey Case"

"Dinner tonight, we need to talk, no you need to talk, you need to spill"

"Jeez Casey…" she muttered.

"Liv?" Munch appeared in front of them with a post-it in his hand.

"So are you free?"

"Just wait a second Casey…" She covered the speaker with her hand. "What is it John?"

"You had a call, no two, from Dr Prestley's office about some test results…"

"Oh yeah thanks John" she said absently and took the post it from his extended arm while at the same time she spotted Elliot staring at her quizzically.

"Test results?" he asked with a hint of concern.

"Oh it's just my annual physical…"

"Liv? Are you listening? Dinner? Tonight?"

"Shit, Casey just wait a second…"

"It's a yes or no answer Liv"

"Dammit, yeah ok!" She groaned

"I'll pick you up from your place at 7"

It took Olivia some seconds to understand that she had just agreed to dinner with Casey. She fell back to her chair cursing Elliot and Munch for distracting her while she was talking and her own damn stupidity.

An hour later, she had called Casey again and persuaded her to compromise with take out and movie in her apartment, because she was really really tired, and if she was going to be interrogated by Casey, she preferred it happening at the comfort of her own couch in sweats.

At 7 pm Casey was knocking on her door. When Olivia opened she glared at her for a second before going for a quick hug.

"Why are you playing so hard to get Detective Benson?"

"Shut up, you're here now, so what will it be, pizza, chinese…"

" Chinese sounds fine."

"Ok just let me get the…"

Suddenly the sound of the ringing phone filled the air. Not recognizing the number immediately Olivia picked up with a curious expression.

Casey stood at the doorway of the kitchen and watched as Olivia was going around tidying up some things as she spoke.

"Yeah I know, they told me at work that you called earlier but I completely forgot it was a very busy day… Yeah… wait what?"

Casey raised an eyebrow in curiosity as Olivia suddenly stopped dead on her feet with a towel hanging from her hand.

"Are you sure? No I mean… I had no idea that… Yeah ok thank you."

She hang up but remained staring at the phone with a shocked expression.

"Liv?What's wrong?" Casey asked worriedly stepping closer to her frozen friend. Olivia turned and looked at her with eyes perfectly round from the shock. She opened her mouth, not able to believe the words that she was about to speak.

" I'm pregnant."

"What? How?" Casey asked her eyebrows almost disappearing into her hair and her voice filled with surprise.

How, really? Olivia thought. She hadn't had sex in… And then it clicked. Horrified she recalled how after her last night with Elliot, she had been so all over the place that she had been taking the pill very irregularly. And they hadn't used any other form of protection that night. Or any other, now that she came to think of it, but she was always very careful about taking the pill.

"I… I didn't take the pill after the last time I had sex… a month ago…" She confessed in a trembling voice.

"And now you and the guy are broken up? Oh Liv…."

And suddenly it hit her. It wasn't only the fact that she and Elliot had broken up. It was that she was pregnant with the child of her very married partner, the one that she had a secret affair with, the one that she was still very and hopelessly in love with.

She suddenly felt dizzy and grabbed a chair beside her. Her breathing started coming in small rapid breaths as a wave of nausea attacked her. She closed her eyes and tried to fight it off.

"Liv?"

She felt Casey's hand lightly touching her shoulder.

"Come on, let's get you lied down."

Without any protest, she let Casey lead her into the living room and to the couch where she lied down, still trying to control her breathing. Casey kneeled beside her and kept stroking her arm in an attempt to calm her. After a few minutes, when her nausea had subsided, Olivia opened her eyes and looked at her worried friend.

"God Case, this is all shades of fucked up…" she said, as tears started to fill up her eyes.

"Did you guys split up in bad terms?"

She sighed. How could she explain this to her? She didn't think that Casey would judge her about sleeping with a married man, but this was Elliot they were talking about, and also she wouldn't stand the pity in her friend's eyes if she told her how much in love she was with him.

"Not exactly." She said carefully, after some contemplation. "But things are still complicated between us, I don't know how he will feel about this…"

Casey squeezed her shoulder with a soft smile.

" Well, you're not alone in this you know that right? Whatever his reaction will be, I'm here for you okay?"

Olivia smiled and her heart filled with appreciation for her friend but at the same time with guiltiness for not being able to truly tell her how things went down.

"And for the record, you will be a great mother Olivia, not matter what."

And then it hit her. She hadn't truly embraced the situation till then. She was going to be a mother. She was going to have a child. Because, whatever the circumstances that brought it into this world, this baby was hers and she was keeping it.

Oh yeah! IT happened! Buckle up because there is so much more to come...What do you think Elliot's reaction will be?

xoxoxo Kate