Hey, here's chapter 10! Sorry it took so long but I was having major writers block as to where I'm going with this story. I now have a vague idea but if any of you have any suggestions then I'd be very happy to see what I can do!

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Chapter Ten

"Okay, we got all that", Christian began, "but where are we going?"

Happiness shown in her eyes and excitement laced into her words as she answered. "Alaska", she answered, a smile lighting up her face.

Dimitri POV

I remember when we were in high school, Ivan, Pandora, and I would go camping every summer for a few days until either one of us needed to go to the ER or until we just couldn't stand being around each other any longer. It was about two weeks before we were going to go camping that Ivan died.

Flashback

(Note: conversation is in Russian)

"Come on man," Ivan began "it'll just be for a few days, we'll be fine. We do this every year; just because we graduated doesn't mean that we can't still do everything we used to, and that includes camping." He continued, giving me a pointed look. I sighed.

"Look, I know you want to go camping, and I'll admit, so do I, but we can't. You and Pandora can go, but I can't." I said.

"Wait, why can't you go?" Ivan asked.

"I can go, but not as your friend. I'd be going as your guardian. Things are different now." I replied. Ivan groaned.

"Okay fine, but that doesn't mean we still can't do the same shit we always do." I ran a hand through my hair in frustration.

"Yes, it does. You and Pandora can continue doing what we've always done, and I'll be there with you two, but I'm going to be there to protect my charge, not hang out and get drunk with my friends, I'm sorry, okay?" As much as I did want to just let my guard down and have a good time, I knew I couldn't. They come first.

"You know what, whatever man." Ivan said getting up from his seat. "If you don't want to come then all you have to do is say so."

"It's not that I don't want to come, I do, and I want to hang out and get drunk with you guys and have a hangover all week, I want to get into a fight with Pandora over some stupid shit, I want to listen to you two argue about the most ridiculous things, but I can't. I have to watch over you guys. It's my job and I intend to do it." I said raising my voice a bit.

"Then come, and do all of that stuff. It'll be a lot easier for you to just hang out with us then it would for you to be on guard duty all week." Ivan pointed out.

"That may be true, but I can't. I don't know what part of that you don't understand" I said, becoming more frustrated.

"No, I mean it would be easier to watch over us if you would just do what we usually do than if you were just to stand there and do nothing." Ivan replied. "Just don't have too much to drink and you'll be fine."

"Your right it would be easier. It'd be easier for a strigoi to get a chance to snap all of our necks before any of us even realized it." I snapped.

"We've never had a problem with them before, the only time we ever ran into one was two summers ago, and Pandora just lit his ass on fire and everything was fine after that." I sighed. That was true, how she realized it before either Ivan or I did was beyond me, but she had been able to kill him.

"Ha! I win!" Ivan said grinning, throwing his hands up in victory.

"What? No you didn't, I never said I'd agree to do that."

"You didn't have to, your face said it all." I opened my mouth to deny it but he was already at the front door.

"I have to go, enjoy your week off and I shall see you next Wednesday, bye!" Ivan said before walking out the door. I would have usually stopped him but I knew that the other guardians were already at the door. Not to mention that it was noon human time, so he would be fine.

I leaned back into the chair I was in and sighed. This is going to be a disaster. I thought to myself. Then I headed upstairs to go to bed.

End of flashback

It was three days after that when I found out that Ivan was dead, and I knew it had been my fault. Everyone had told me that it wasn't, that there wasn't anything I could do, but the only person who I believed was Roza. I left two months later, unable to stay in Russia any more. I needed to get away. And that's why Pandora is angry with me. Not because she blamed me for Ivan's death, she had told me repeatedly that it wasn't. She wasn't even mad because of the fact that I went to Montana. She was angry that I had left her alone. She didn't have any other friends, and her family wasn't around, so she had to suffer alone. She has every right to be angry with me. However, it never occurred to me that the consequences would be so severe. I left, and it drove her to bring Ivan back. And it's wearing her down, she's still the same person from all those years ago, but she's starting to fade. Her eyes used to be so bright, and she used to have a bounce in her step. Now though, her eyes show hurt, betrayal, anger, sadness and loneliness. The bounce in her step has gone away, and the worst part is that I don't think she's realized the effects that bringing Ivan back has had on her.

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