First I want to say that this post is for CherriDoll. Sorry this wasn't here in time for your bad day, but I just couldn't figure out how to write this chapter.

Chapter 4

Bellamy

"Raven, just let me explain." Bellamy tried. He backed away slightly when he saw the brunette charge. But before she could get there he was already stumbling back clutching his jaw. He looked up and saw Miller grabbing Octavia's hand and examining it. Without warning the sight of his partner comforting his sister is blocked by a very angry Raven Reyes.

"You don't get to explain Bellamy. You don't get to do anything but march that cowardly ass of yours out of this fucking state and never come back." She growls at him, pulling him up by his collar. Before she can punch him a tiny voice calls out to Raven from inside the apartment.

"That's three dollars in the swear jar Aunt Birdie!" Aurora calls.

"I am not going anywhere Reyes. I want to be with my family." He looks at Octavia, "Look how big you are." He tells her. He straightens his back trying to stand taller. At this Octavia tries her best to attack her estranged brother again. And she would have if it weren't for Miller holding her back.

"Last time I checked Bellamy, we weren't your family. 'Cause I'm pretty sure family doesn't abandon each other. You stick it out. Even through the hard stuff. You don't get to come back here just because everyone's happy and life is finally good Bellamy. You don't get to do that; you can't just skip to the good parts of life. You don't get to be here now that we're all happy." Octavia exclaimed, Miller still holding her back.

"I can't stand it anymore O! I-" he starts only to have her cut him off.

"No! You don't get to call me that anymore! You lost that right when you left." She practically growls at him, but he just continues.

"I can't stand watching you replace mom and me. You replaced me with this asshole." He gestures to Miller who is now trying to hold both Raven and Octavia back. "And you replaced Mom with Clarke," he tells her.

"Yeah, Bellamy, because visiting mom's grave with Clarke, once a month is replacing her. You're such a prick!" She yells at him.

"That's a dollar O!" Aurora calls with a giggle.

"Not now Rory!" Miller calls over his shoulder. They all hear a loud fart noise and an even louder giggle.

"Okie dokie arti-chokie!" she calls back to him.

"Bellamy, I can smell the alcohol from here. You need to leave, and sleep this off." Miller tries to reason with him, but Bellamy just shakes his head.

"So, how'd Clarke rope you into this Miller?" Bellamy asks him. "Is she sleeping with you? 'Cause that's the only reason I can think of. How does it feel now knowing that you've had my leftovers? Huh?"

And just like that, it isn't Raven and Octavia who need to be held back. Before they can even attempt to stop him he pounces on Bellamy. He shoves him against the wall and strikes him in the gut. As he's doubled over Miller leans down to whisper in his ear. "You want to know how "Clarke roped me into this"? She went into labor at home. I was one of the first responders and I delivered her amazing daughter who is sitting just inside without a single clue as to what's happening out here. And Bellamy, because you're drunk I'm not going to kick your fucking ass. But if you ever pull something like this again and I hear about it, you are a dead man. Do you understand? Dead. Now get the fuck out of here."

He let's go of Bellamy, allowing him to just slide to the floor. And Bellamy watches as he ushers Octavia, who is crying in Raven's arms, and Raven back inside. He sits there and wonders when his life had started to completely spiral out of control. He had been fine when he got to Richmond. He had been fine when he first saw Clarke, Octavia, and his daughter. He had been fine this morning when he had seen Octavia walk up the steps to her first day of high-school. But he wasn't fine when he heard one of Octavia's friends talk about how Clarke had adopted her… it was after that that he started spiraling. Instead of going home for a nap after work today he went to the bar and he drank. And drank. And drank.

And when he saw Miller walk into the building he just lost it. And the idea of what's going to happen now terrifies him.

They'll tell Clarke what happened and when that happens he just knows that he'll never get to meet his daughter. He had already damaged things so irreparably before, how was he supposed to fix it now. Bellamy sat there for what felt like hours trying not to cry. What he thought to be hours had only been a couple of minutes, but that didn't make any difference to him. He was still trying not to cry.

As Bellamy walked to his car he tried to come to terms with the fact that he had just screwed his life up even further. And as hard as he tried he realized that he couldn't blame Clarke for what happened. When he left it was easy to blame her and say that she had forced his hand in some sort of twisted way; she had known that he had never wanted kids. His little sister was way more than enough. But now, now that he had just messed everything up and Clarke was nowhere to be seen he was struggling with the fact that she wasn't the one who single-handedly destroyed his life. He was.

He had been so determined to find a way to fix things this past week, but after this he knows that it's going to be highly improbable. He wants to fix this. God, does he want to fix this. He's still going to try, but he's terrified that now, it'll never happen, and he'll never get to meet his daughter. Or find out what kind of woman Octavia is turning into. Knowing now that she's been raised by Clarke he can safely say that she is probably going to be an amazing young woman.

And right now it's killing him knowing that he wasn't there when she was growing into this bright young girl. And it hurts him even more knowing that he might not be there when she gets her first boyfriend, goes to prom, goes to college, gets married, any of it! And it's the thought of him not witnessing all of that that makes him want to try harder. And he will.

He will fix this.

No matter what.

Octavia

"I swear to god if I ever see that man again I'm going to fucking kill him," Raven raged as she paced in the kitchen, across from Miller and Octavia.

"How many is that Harper?" they hear Aurora ask her new best friend.

"I believe that that's lucky number forty-seven, Aurora." They hear her "whisper" back.

"Forty-seven dollars, Aunt Birdie!" Aurora calls into the kitchen. Only to be ignored.

"Raven," Miller starts, "you need to calm down. You're not making anything better by reacting this way in front of the kids."

"I am not a kid." Octavia growls at him, but the two adults continue to ignore all that's around them. "You know what?" She says, "I'm going to go hang out with Harper and Aurora."

"Oh god. What's Clarke going to do when she finds out? She's going to freak!" Raven continues rambling as Octavia exits the kitchen.

She walks into the living room to find both girls sitting on the floor propped up against the couch watching T.V. She walks over and slides down next to Harper who looks at her with concern.

"What happened?" She asks Octavia softly, as though fearing that one word would shatter her.

Octavia tries but she finds that she can't hold any of it back anymore.

"That was my brother Bellamy," she whispers. "He's also Clarke's ex, and Rory's dad. But he left a little over five years ago after he found out that Clarke was pregnant. It was awful. For the longest time we tried to deny what we already knew. But over time reality kicked in; CPS found out that Bellamy had left and they were going to take me away, but Clarke refused to let that happen. She told me that she made a promise, and that we were family so she would never leave me."

"Oh, sweetie." Clarke murmured into her hair as she rocked her back and forth. "I know that it's hard right now. I have now idea what I would do if I lost my mom too, but you know what?" She asks softly.

"What?" Octavia whimpers, causing Clarke to tighten her grip.

"I wouldn't have any family lest. But you? You're lucky. Because you have Bell. You still have family and it may be hard to admit it, but right now that is the most important thing that you can have." Clarke whispers to her.

"I have you too though right?" Octavia asks, pulling back to look Clarke in the eye.

"Sweetie, we don't know if your brother and I will even stay together for that long of a time. He might have a new girlfriend by the end of the week for all we know." Clarke tells her gently.

"But I lone you!" She tells Clarke urgently. "I can't lose you too! Please you have to stay! No matter what! Please!" She pleads.

"Sweetie, I can try but I can't promise anyth-" she tells her.

"Promise!" Octavia pleads again.

"Okay," Clarke laughs, "I promise! No matter what!" She takes Octavia's outstretched pinky in her own and shakes it. Octavia throws her arms around Clarke's neck and whispers a soft "thank you" as she fell asleep, Clarke still rocking her fluently.

"I was seven when she made that promise. She had only been dating Bellamy for a little over a month, and she promised his seven year old sister that she wouldn't leave her no matter what. She's been a constant in my life for over seven years. That's more than half of my life! She kept her word; she's been here through everything. I haven't heard her complain once. She deserves to be so happy, but she hadn't been the same after Bellamy left. It took her a really long time to get over him. Aunt Lexa really helped with that, she showed Clarke that it was okay to love again.

"I am so scared that Bellamy showing up again is going to ruin her. She doesn't deserve that." she whispers in distress, as Harper puts her arm around her.

"I'm so sorry," she tells her quietly, looking over to see if Aurora was paying attention.

"Do you want to know how he left?" Octavia asks, not looking Harper in the eye.

"How?" was that soft reply.

"He told us he was going to go get some milk, and he never came back. For the first two weeks Clarke was so scared that something had happened to him, and then it had just become blatantly obvious. Bellamy had left. It crushed us. Clarke almost got an abortion she was so scared." Octavia tells her continuing to avoid eye contact.

"You know what I think Octavia?" Harper asks her, giving her a little nudge with her shoulder.

"What?" She sniffs back, watching as Harper hands a five dollar bill to Aurora.

"I think that your brother is a fucking dirty rotten piece of shit, that can't recognize a fucking amazing thing when he has it. And the fact that he chose to leave makes him a fucking dumb-ass." She tells her, pulling a really small smile from Octavia

"Why do I get the feeling that you don't actually cuss a lot?" She asks.

"Meh. It was fun to get off of my chest." Harper tells her. "Now, if you'll excuse me, Aurora and I were in the middle of watching Cars."

Hope you like! Please, please, please Review! It means oh so much! And the more you review the faster I will update, because reviews seem to stroke my creativity. Don't worry, if it seems a little distorted now, it will all come together soon. Title Drop was in this chapter! Did you catch it?

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