Part 1:

"Do you have any plans for today?" I asked standing besides him in his room, front door opened. All doors had to always be opened then.

"What do you mean plans?"

"Are you doing anything today, like with your family or something? Lots of homework? Any saving the world plans?..."

"No..." Dante replied, eyes squinting, as if trying to read deep inside my head.

"Good," I replied and from my jean's pocket pulled out two tickets. "Want to go to the movies?"

Dante smiled, reaching out to grab them. "Really? You want to go?"

"Of course I do! You're always busy with school and work, so I thought we could go get distracted for a little."

"Distracted?"

"I don't think I've ever taken you on a date."

"A date," it sounded like a question when the words left his lips. He looked away shyly.

I took a step forward, and pulled him to me by the waist. Ever since that day at the tunnels, I hadn't been able to keep my hands off of him when we were near. Being with him had become utterly dangerous, "What is it?" I whispered close to his ear, hand tightening around him.

I kissed his cheek, though of course, it couldn't be a peck. I kissed him with my mouth open, making sure hot breath traveled to his ear, I knew he liked that. He pulled away, "don't do that. My mom could walk in at any minute."

"And she'll get mad that I'm giving you a kiss on the cheek?"

"You know that wasn't a kiss on the cheek."

I smiled, "So... I get you at six thirty?"

He smiled back, eyes wondering from the tickets in my hands to my eyes, "alright. I'll get ready."

Part 2

"Ari," he spoke, unstrapping his seatbelt, "once we're in there-"

"I know," I sounded annoyed, and I was. I opened the door to the truck harshly and stepped out even harsher. "I won't touch you don't worry. Don't want 'the people' to look at us weird."

"That's not why I do it and you know it."

"If you're so ashamed of being with me then why do we even-"

"Stop! I don't like when you yell at me."

I took a deep breath. Opted for closing the door carefully instead of slamming it shut. He got off neatly from his side, closing the door effortlessly less hard than I did.

We walked towards the entrance, it was Friday night so of course the place was packed with high school students. I wanted to take his hand, hold on to him and kiss his forehead while we waited in line, make sure that everyone knew not to look at him, not to try anything, because he was already taken, but I couldn't, and I realized way too late that I would rather be in one of our bedrooms with the door locked than out there in the open.

But why did we have to hide? Oh... Right... Because he wanted us to.

We skipped the ticket line since we already had ours, and made pass the front entrance into the lobby.

"Butter in the popcorn?" I asked.

"Double dose," he answered smiling. His bright eyes shining under the ceiling lights, and fuck, I wanted to kiss him.

We got in line. I was glad that he got so close to me, to the point where I could almost feel his skin, "What else do they sell?" He asked, tilting his head to the side, looking up at the menu.

"Get whatever you want, it's on me."

"Of course not, I'll pay for my stuff."

"No! I invited, so I'm paying. Those are the rules!"

Behind us a older couple shared glares. Judgmental assholes. I wanted to say something, and I'm sure Dante noticed it too, because he shook his head at me slightly, but soon someone else took our attention.

"Ari!" her voice broke through the theater, making at least a dozen strangers turn in our direction. Gina jogged to us smiling, elbow to elbow with Susie, "if it isn't the hermit in the flesh coming out to linger with the commoners."

"Go away Gina," I shushed at her, Dante only stared. She completely ignored me.

"Hey, you are Dante, right? Remember me? We meet in the pharmacy?"

"Yeah, I remember... Hi," Dante smiled politely, and I didn't like that at all. I didn't like the whole scene.

"Why didn't you invite us out, Ari? What movie are you going to watch?"

"It's none of your business, I already told you to go away."

"Yes, may I help you?" Asked the girl working in the food court, and I turned to Dante.

"Can we get a large popcorn, please," He ordered.

"With or without butter?"

"With."

I took the opportunity to seriously kick Gina out of the way, making signs with my eyes, with my whole face, but she wouldn't budge. Guess she thought I was playing, or maybe she just wanted to to be a life-sucking bitch!

"What do you want to drink, Ari?"

"A coke is fine."

"But you don't like coke."

"But you do."

"Look at you both, truly best friends going out to a movie on a Friday night," She addressed Dante alone next, "it's good that you bring him out, I've tried for so long but he always refuses. He needs to get out more. Shake off all that negativity and gloominess that he's always surrounded with."

"I am not gloomy."

The cashier recited the total and I turned to pay.

"Wow! He's nice enough to take on the bill," Susie teased.

We got our popcorn and drinks and made our way to the theater room, both of these dumb girls still on our tails. I really didn't dislike them that much, but in that moment, they were annoying me to no end, they were messing up everything.

"Well aren't you guys going to go to your movie?" I asked, trying not to sound impatient.

"We are going,"Gina replied. " It's this one, right here."

Son of a bitch. The same one as us.

"Are ya'll coming to this one too? We could sit together."

Her voice bothered me, the whole thing bothered me, and I couldn't pretend anymore, I had to snap or I was going to explode. "I don't want to sit with you, don't you fucking get it!? Go away! Stop being so fucking annoying!"

Dante held his soda with a tighter grip, Susie looked shocked, around the theater people were staring.

"Damn, calm the fuck down. I was just trying to be nice with you, shit. You don't have to be an asshole about it."

Dante looked away, and I knew I was messing up.

My explosive personality scared him, and here I was, yelling at a girl, in the middle of a movie theater. "Look, I'm sorry. You know the way I am," I took a deep breath. "Lets sit in the middle, I don't like the sides." though my original plan had been the back seats. I felt so stupid to think that two guys could go on a date to the movies, that everything would be smiles and giggles and jokes. That Dante would lean his hed on me and I would kiss him, I had even imagined myself playing with him under the darkness, so perverted. What the hell was wrong with me?

I was glad Gina decided to let me slide. One, because it was wrong to yell at her like that, and two, because I knew if she would have left, Dante would have been upset at me too.

Susie went into the row first, Dante and I followed, and Gina slipped in last. We sat in that same order.

We watched the movie, Dante laughed in the funny parts, and I couldn't help but stare. He lite up everything inside of me. No matter how angry, no matter how much I wanted to punch someone in the face, he took all that away. I let myself relax, back leaning against the chair, popcorn constant in my mouth. It wan't so bad after all, Dante was there, and we were together, guess we could always do dirty things in the parking lot-

And oh shit, I really had to stop thinking about those things so often. Everyday, every single minute, all I thought about was having my hands all over him. I wondered if he thought about that stuff at all?

He'd always been more open about those things. He talked about kissing and masturbation as if they were nothing but experiments, a part of life he was exploring, but when it came to me, I always had to push and try hard to get anything from him.

Why?

Without knowing I was tensed all over again, the constant question of why doesn't he want me? In my mind.

He looked at me and smiled, I stoped tensing at last for that moment.

Part 3:

We stayed way after the movie finished, I guess I was waiting for Gina to leave, but she was waiting for us. When the credits finally ended, I got up first, three others following behind me.

"I loved it!" Gina was enthusiastic, clapping her hands together. "Did you like it, Dante?"

He threw the trash in the bin right outside the double doors as we walked out, "Yeah, I did. It was funny."

"You see Ari, you got a nice, decent friend. I don't know why some of it can't rub off on you."

"Yeah, yeah. Well we're heading out so-"

"Wait," Gina cut me off. "Can I talk to you for a minute? Over here it's something important."

"Something like what?"

"Ugh, just come this was, Ari."

I rolled my eyes, "I'll be back Dante, I'm going to go see what this dumb girl wants."

"Oh shut up you know you love me."

"At this point of my life, I really don't know what I feel," I meant it to come out harsh, but I guess it didn't, because she laughed thinking I was joking. Typical.

"Hurry up, come this way!" She pulled me by the arm towards the side of the building, and I gave one last glance at Dante before she dragged me around the corner, he had started talking to Susie.

"Ok, tell me what it is and make it quick because I want to go home."

"Oh shut up, I know you secretly wish for me to molest you against the wall."

I closed my eyes, "please don't make me think of horrible things."

"I'm just kidding, it wasn't for me it was for Susie."

"What?"

"She likes Dante, I wanted to give them time to talk."

"WHAT?!" I yelled so loud she jumped up.

"What is the matter with you? Why are you getting-" She stops herself, "Oh shit."

I looked at her, I wanted to grab her by the throat and smash her against the floor, "What?" I asked, "What are you going to say?"

She stepped back, there was fear in her eyes, in her smell, somehow I could feel it, "Ari."

"What Gina?"

"Is he...? Do you...?"

"What? Am I gay? Yes. Is he my boyfriend? Yes. And do I want to seriously injure you right now? Yes, but I won't do it, because you're a girl."

She looked baffled, "Ari, I'm so sorry. I didn't know."

"Of course you didn't."

I left her behind and walked back to him. He was still talking to Susie, they were both laughing like they had just discovered the funniest thing, and I hated him for that.

"Susie, we have to go," Gina somehow beat me to her, and pulled her away by the hand.

"Oh, ok. Wait, Dante, do you think I could have your-"

"No!" Gina yelled, "No you can't, and we have to go."

Susie looked confused as they walked away, head turning back a couple of times trying to figure out what happened.

"What happened?" Dante asked as well.

"Nothing, lets go home," I walked towards the truck, he followed after.

"What happened, Ari?"

"Nothing!" I just want to go home.

"Tell me the truth."

"Nothing happened, Dante."

We reached the truck and I climbed in, he followed, "then why are you so upset?"

I slammed the door shut, "What were you talking to her about?"

"To who?"

"To Susie."

"Oh... Why?"

"Don't fucking ask me why!"

"Don't yell at me!"

"Then answer the question!"

"We just talked about the movie, that was it. She thought it was really funny."

"That was it? You both looked like you were having the time of your life."

"Ari, stop it, please. You're always getting jealous."

"She was hitting on you!"

"No she wasn't! Not every girl that we meet-"

"Gina told me that Susie liked you, that's why she called me away!"

He didn't reply. I turned the truck on, I had to get out of there.

We made it to the street, and were well on our way to his house when he finally spoke again, "It wasn't my fault. I didn't know, Ari."

I took a deep breath. His words have always been solid food for me, energy, without them I'd fall, "I know, I'm sorry."

"Don't get angry."

"I'm not angry."

"You were angry."

Silence.

It took minutes of silence before I spoke again, "I want to make out with you." He was quiet, looking out the window as we passed by rows of houses. "I want to touch you and have you, and do all sorts of dirty things to you." He remained quiet, as if I hadn't said a thing. It pissed me off. I smashed my hand against the wheel, "Why don't you say something!" I yelled. "Answer me!"

"Take me home."

"Not until you answer!"

"Take me home, Ari."

"Why don't you want to have sex with me?"

"You're driving crazy, pull to the side of the road."

"I am not driving crazy." Most likely I was, I don't remember.

"Pull to the side of the road!"

"Why don't you want me, Dante?"

"Keep your hands on the wheel!"

"I don't give a fuck about the wheel!"

"Pull to the side of the road!"

"Fine!" I pulled to the side, and parked the truck without turning it off. I leaned over and kissed him. He pulled away of course, he was mad.

I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him to me.

"Stop it, Ari!" He raised both hands, pushing me back, but I insisted on forcing.

"Why don' t you want to? Weren't you the one who said that you loved me?"

"We're in the middle of the street."

"So?'

"I dont' want to."

I took both of his hands, held them in place so he couldn't push me away, and crawled my way on top of him, forcing a kiss. The night outside was dark, there was no one in sight, and the lights of the house were I had parked were off. We could do it here, I thought. I could convince him to do it with me.

But the more I tried to kiss him and touch him, the more he refused, and soon it wasn't an invitation, it was a struggle. Me against him, and him against the seat. I don't know when it became so ugly. I would touch and he would push, I would kiss, and he would pull away, and I was using way much more force than what I had intended to originally.

He was yelling for me to stop, but I heard him at a far distance. My mind was set on having him there, no matter how.

I couldn't stop. Somewhere deep inside I knew I should, I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I couldn't. I finally had him cornered against a wall- well, the truck- and I couldn't just get off of him and let him leave so easily.

I was on top of him, the weight of my whole body keeping him down. Both of my arms holding him still, my thighs pressing against him, trying desperately to rub on him, to feel him. His hands never stopped fighting, and neither did his legs, kicking- or trying to kick at me- in the small space.

"Let me," I could hear myself speaking, but it was like a tingle in the ears, nothing was reasonable, nothing felt real. "Please, let me."

"Stop! Get off! Get off of me!" He kicked me so hard it hurt, and I guess the pain brought me back to reality. I stopped, I realized what I was doing and immediately regrated it, but before I could speak his fist landed on my face.

For someone that looks so pretty, he has a good punch.

He opened the door, jumped off into the pavement, and ran down the street.

I let him leave, if I would have followed, who know what would have happened. I stayed there in the truck for who knows how long, wondering just what the hell had happened. As hard as I tried, my mind couldn't put the pieces together.

Part 4:

The next day, I hadn't even finished getting to the kitchen when mom was already on me, "You left Dante walking last night."

"Mom, not now, please."

"What happened to your face?"

"Nothing mom. Let it go."

"Dante has marks in his arms. Ari, what is going on with you?"

"He jumped off the truck, I didn't leave him walking."

"At first I thought being with him would help you, but now-"

"Help me? You think I need help?"

"You're taking it the wrong way and you know it."

"I'm leaving."

"Where are you going? You just woke up and we need to talk." I paused at the door and turned to look at her, as if saying go ahead. "Did something else happen last night?"

I rolled my eyes, walked out of the house and slammed the door shut.

tbc...