That wasn't the last i saw of my old friend Dougie, he came to see me the week after in the same room as before.
I was silent and my hair masked my face as i looked to the ground, i sat down resting my hands on the top of the table my metal shackles scratched the surface making me cringe, i just sat staring down at them, Dougie wanted to get straight to the point so he took no time in asking me the first question that was on his mind
"So what's the truth?" Dougie asked
He gently touched my hand to get my attention, i pulled them away as quick as possible and looked up at him instantly, Dougie gasped at what he saw.
My left eye was closed as it was too painful to open, it was surrounded in a black and blue bruise, i had scabbed up scratches that covered a big percentage of my face and the look on Dougie's face said it all, he was worried about me.
"Don't look so worried, me and some girl had a fight in the lunch room and i wasn't expecting any visitor's today" I said to him letting my hair fall back over my black eye.
"I enjoy your company Dougie, it feels nice to have someone to speak to from outside these walls, but i know the only reason you came here was to hear the true story about Danny's death and once i've told you, you'll never see me again" I said trying to hide the sadness in my voice
"Well...it depends on the outcome of today, but remember you still killed my best friend and your own boyfriend, i still can't come to terms as too why you did it. You meant the world to him Lolly" Dougie replied a little calmer than the previous visit
"If that was true he'd still be alive and i wouldn't be locked up in this dump!" I snapped as Dougie's last sentence made my blood boil with anger
"What do you mean? What happened?" He asked slightly shocked at my outburst I sat back against the chair and took a deep breath looking at Dougie straight in the eyes and watched him stare back at me.
"I found out some news the day you guys came back from tour, I was sat curled up on the sofa watching some horror movie waiting for Danny to return, when my phone rang..."
(Flashback)
" Hey Lolly, it's Becki..." My best friend said as i took my phone with me back to the sofa
"Oh Hiya, If your going to ask me to go out tonight i can't because me and Danny have planned to go out for dinner, I'm so excited! it's been ages since we last..."
I got cut off by Becki shouting my name urgently through the phone,
"Lolly! shhh! Just listen... I don't think your dinner with Danny will be going ahead tonight, i think he's got something else planned"
I sat with the phone against my ear puzzled, it didn't sound like good news.
I just froze on the spot and i felt all the happiness drain out of me, my grip on the phone started to loosen almost dropping it onto the floor but before that happened i was slowly brought back to reality by Becki's voice again
"Lolly are you still there?" Becki asked
"Um..Yeah, so... um..whats Danny got planned then?" I replied with a shakey voice
"O-M-G!" Becki screamed down the phone "I think you better get over here right away Lolly"
I got up and slammed the phone down on the hook and quickly whipped on the closest jacket i could find and grabbed the first pair of shoes that came into view which were my heeled boots, i zipped them up and walked out the door.
When i reached Becki's house i made my way around to the back door as it was always open for me, i hung my jacket on the peg by the door and placed my boots on the shoe rack underneath. I walked through the kitchen to the sitting room seeing Becki knelt on the sofa gazing out the window, she hadn't noticed me arrive
"What is so amazing out the window?" I said frightening her to death
"Good, you're here, follow me" She said and grabbed my hand pulling me upstairs to her bedroom, she stood by the door and pointed to the window, i looked at her nervously and then walked towards the bedroom window, i wasn't quite sure what i was supposed to be looking at, all i could see was the house opposite with the blinds down.
I turned to Becki who prompted me to look again, this time the sillouettes of 2 people came into view, blatantly with their hands all over each other and clothing falling to the floor, it was then i realised what Becki was getting at and i turned to face her again.
"Are you trying to tell me that's my Danny over there, he wouldn't do that to me Becki, it could be anybody" I said to her pointing out the window "Lolly i saw with my own eyes who walked into that house and it was Danny, if you don't believe me take a look for yourself"
(End Of Flashback)
"So i did what Becki asked and i waited with my eyes peeled on that house, the moment when i saw Danny walk out the door and kiss that girl on the doorstep, i completely broke down..."
Tears streamed down my face as talking about the past had made all my emotions return, i picked up my handcuffed hands and wiped the tears away the best i could, i then continued my revelation
"Do you remember... when i went missing for a few days... and you guys went out looking for me?" I asked Dougie sniffling inbetween my sentence, Dougie nodded his head in reply
"I was at Becki's house and i knew she'd be your first port of call, so i hid away in the basement everytime you visited her house. I just wasn't strong enough to face Danny after what i saw"
Dougie just stayed silent as he took in all the information that i was telling him
"I made my decision to reappear when you guys were working in the studio one day, i had my suitcases packed by the front door and i waited for Danny to come back home so i could say goodbye to him"
(Flashback)
"Lolly! your back, where on earth have you been? i've missed you so much" He said running upto me and hugged me tightly
He kissed my lips but i refused to kiss him back and i just stood up in the middle of the room motionless, that's when Danny started to back away.
"What's up sweety? why won't you kiss me?" He asked me and gentley took hold of my hand and stroked the top of it with his thumb
"Please don't call me that and i don't want to kiss you because your not my boyfriend anymore, i only came back to pick up my belongings because i'm moving back to my parents house" I said and yanked my hand away from his grip and walked past him to fetch my suitcase, he beat me too the door and blocked my only way out, i tried asking him politely to step aside but he argued.
"So that's it, your just going to leave me?" He asked and then let out a frightening chuckle
The more he argued with me the more his voice filled with anger and i started to back away as he walked closer to me, the person he'd now become was not the person i had fallen in love with.
Danny had managed to corner me in the sitting room and i had nowhere to go, i felt so helpless.
"I would've stayed if you weren't going behind my back screwing the little whore that lives opposite Becki" I yelled at him and the expression on his face changed instantly, he looked so angry it scared me
(End Of Flashback)
"Before i could say anything else Danny had me pinned up against the wall by my neck, shouting in my face that his new girlfriend was so much better than i was, i struggled to breathe so i grabbed the glass candlestick holder on the fireplace next to me and hit him around the head a couple times until he let go, he then fell to the ground, i thought he was ok until i noticed the puddle of blood on the floor behind his head, i looked down at myself and saw that blood was all over my hands and the candle stick holder, i was only meant to knock him out not kill him"
Dougie leaned over the table a little and tucked the piece of hair that covered my face behind my ear, he looked deeply in my eyes and i could see the look of concentration in his as he tried to figure out if i was lying
"Your telling the truth" He said a little surprised "Why on earth didn't you tell that story to the court? All of the shit we had put you through because we thought you did it deliberatly, you could have got off with self defence Lolly" Dougie said holding my hands gently, i slowly pulled them away and placed them in my lap.
"I don't know, i guess i was so distraught and felt so guilty that i went along with the conclusion everyone else came up with" I replied and looked up at him seeing a look of apology on his face, there was also a touch of lust in his eyes, something which i hadn't seen from him since before Danny and i started dating, i must admit i did have a 'thing' for Dougie previously, but Danny was the man who stole my heart in the end and i knew Dougie wasn't too happy about it
"Dougie, i don't want to sound rude, but i don't appreciate you trying to take advantage of me in my vulnerable state, your my boyfriends best mate, if you had taken a chance before i met Danny then things might have been different" I said truthly to him
"But Danny's gone, you can't still love him after what he did to you" Dougie said shocked by the rejection
"Look Dougie, me and you together can't happen...ever, i'm sorry" I said and asked the guards to take me back to the cell before Dougie said something he would regret It felt like Deja Vu as i turned to look at him before i was escorted out the door.