-Hanna-

Although i was jut going over with the girls I felt the need to look my best, looks having been the only things that made me feel safe after Ali died. Well...looks and Emily. I had vented countless times about my bulemia problems, and insecurity, mostly because of Alison. In turn she made me the first she told that she was gay. That exchange of emotions and secrets built a sense of trust between us that was unlike any other. We instinctively held hands constantly, and always only called each other when we were in need.

My phone lit up with a text from Travis: 'Can't stop thinking of your beautiful face' although that was sweet and all it didn't make butterflys go crazy in my stomache, or make me unable to stop smiling. I sat looking at the message for several minutes, my thumbs doing a little dance not knowing what to say back. I'd see him tomorow night, I should have an excuse by then.

Eventually I closed out of the message and deleted it, telling myself to forget it. I scrolled to my contacts and dialed for Emily, an overwhelming urge to cry coming upon me, I needed her before she was supposed to get me at 6.

-Em-

After my cell dinged signaling a text from Han saying she needed me...now, I finished drying my hair and skipped the stop by my house I was planning on and went straightt to her house. Ms. Marin' car wasn't in the dive yet so I let myself in. I walked in on Hanna bent over the toilet.

"Oh baby no...come here..." I walked to her closet and got a rag, wet it in the sink and began dabbing at the corners of her mouth, he puppy eyes refuing to make eye contact.

She had put on makeup already for the night...she really was insecure, today was a bad day.

"I'm sorry..-"

"Why? Whats wrong?" I cut her off gently. She was very tempermental when she was like this, and I knew all she needed was love, to know how much I loved her...I had to refocus.

"I..I have to be perfect. I can't be..." she looked down at her perfectly figured body as if something, anything about her was in need of changing. I tilted her chin up so she would look me in he eye and in the most loving voice I could I said:

"You ARE perfect Hanna." The electricty we shared in our eyes was undeniable. She shifted her gaze to my lips and i flushed a deep shade of red. I got up and put the rag in the sink looking for her toothbrush, while she llayed on the floor looking guilty.

"Come on sweetheart." i said when i found the toothbruh. She bruhed her teeth and i went into the other room and called Spencer.

"Hey Spence, Hanna has a bug I think so I'm gonna stay and take care of her." I lied as apologetically as I could. No one else needed to know she had another episode. She doesnt need that.

"Yeah thats fine, I think somthing might be going around actually Arias sick too."

"Oh wow yeah, don't wanna get you sick with all of us." I laughed shortly.

"My mom is about to leave actualy, I'll see you monday!" the phone clicked off.

I walked back to check on Hanna and she had moved to her room. Getting sick had taken everything out of her, but I tried to ask her just one queston before she was totally gone asleep.

"Is your mom going to be home Han?" I shook her shoulde gently and she moaned, "Han?"

"Mmmmm no..shes...shes in New York till...Wendsday." Then her eyes rolled back and she was gone. I was glad that we had at least cleaned her up good before.

-Hanna-

I woke up and found my phone immedately. 3:02am. Shit. I dont know why I asked Emily over to see me like that. Thinking about what a mess i was in front of her made me blush deeeply, and use several colorful words towards myself.

I groaned and felt my was down the stairs to the living room to get to the kitchen finding myself quite hungry now that nothing was on my stomache. Before I reached the kitchen though I tripped and literaly fell on my ass over Emly in the floor.

"Shit I'm sorry, Damn it I thought you'd gone home Em!" I said rather harshly, regretting it instntly, she was here for me...after everything.

"I..I'm sorry." she was still half asleep.

"Come here." I said and forgot completely about getting food. I curled up with both of my legs bent on top of hers and my head and torso sprawled all over her chest. I couldnt get close enough. I started crying and ashe didnt ask why. We layed there content with each other.

"Why did you stay?" I asked once i regained control genuinely curious why she'd gone to the trouble.

"I couldnt leave you..." she said in her sexy voice and i heard her heart accelerate drastically. Without thinking I moved my hand up her arm to her shoulder, slowly up her neck, finally to her cheek. I felt heat in her face, but I was too busy gazing at her chest.

My eyes moved ever so slowly up her body until we were looking at each other. Her heart was going crazy and her breathing became stagnant. I leaned in to kiss her, our lips were so close i could feel the heat coming off of her. She turned slowly into me, but then tilted her head down so our foreheads were touching.

"You hungry babe?" she asked lowly.

My heart was beating like crazy and something built up in my throat making it hard to talk, but without looking away from her stunning figure I said :

"Starving." What was I doing... I thought I must have been going crazy.