-emily-

After Spencer woke me up we made our ammends; her apologising fort he kiss and me forgiving. She said shed had a crush on me for a while, but she was done because it wouldnt ever work out. I loved Hanna so i agreed that we just let it go fore everyones sake. We hugged and i left. It was late and i hadnt even called my mom. I started the car and the clock read 11:23. I was in so much trouble when i got home but that was the least of my worries; i was afraid that somewhere in my subconcious i had feeling for Spencer that were going to disrupt my perfect world with Hanna.

Seeing that my livivng room light was still burning when i pulled into my drive, it took all my courage to be able to face my mother. Of course when i woke up i saw she had texted and called and left voicemails but i didnt know what to say over a phone so i decided to wait. I pulled open my front door and she was sitting on the stair waiting for me. Her face was red and she looked like the most angry person on the planet.

"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!? DIDNT CALL ME OR TEXT BACK OR ANYTHING! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN DEAD FOR ALL I KNEW!" She took a second to catch her breath and i jumped in.

"i fell asleep at spencers place...you know i wouldnt do that to you on purpose mom." I looked down. It may have been the tear stains on my face, or the frazzeled look about me but she sighed and remained at a calm voice level.

"Go to bed Emily. Well talk about this in the morning." She clicked off the light and went to bed. I trudged up the stairs completely drained. Nothing more could have happened in one day and i needed sleep. For that matter i needed someone to talk to outside of all this.

I kicked my shoes off and stripped all my clothes off. I grabbed my too-big-t-shirt and laid in bed, taking in every moment of my relaxation. I let my mind wander to the day: my love affair with my beautiful long time crush and best friend, my crazy dream about someone ive never liked before, and how those two worlds are going to crash. The stress was overwhelming and i ended up thinking about how Ali had brought me into the group, and what my life would be like had she not done that.'today would have been alot easier' i thougHt. I quickly pushed that out of mind. Had i not met the girls...id still be the loser girl crushing on someone i never thought id be so lucky to have.

Even though i knew i was in the privacy of my room i felt like someone was watching me. I had this problem since i was a kid, and my mom taught me how to deal with it at night so that i wouldnt run to her: get up, check everywhere someone could hide, show yourself theres no one there. I got up, feeling like a child, and did just that. I bent over...no one under the bed...no one in the closet...

"You still do that...some things never change Emmy." An all too firmiliar voice from the far corner of my room made me jump. The figure emerged and spoke again me staring awe struck. "Miss me?"

I ran to her and wrapped my arms around her refusing to let go, "where have you been Ali?"

-hanna-

I left Spencers when Spencer left. Emily came in and said she had gone and seemed upset, we all hung around for a little while just talking, cuddling for me and Em, but she seemed tense...off. After a while i had to get home and so did Aria, but Emily offered to stay and wait for Spencer to make sure she was ok. I was hesitant to leave her alone but she insisted. Aria went outside and i kissed Emily goodbye and she all but pushed me away.

"I love you..." She whispered.

"I know baby. I love you more." I pecked her lips one more time and drove home silent.

Something was really off, and i know Emily. I know Emily when shes hiding something. I had two options before me as i laid in bed and thought about her: 1. Let her come to me, which was very unlikely by the looks of it. Or 2. Work on Spencer and her until one of them just cracks.

That sounds really bad but i wasnt just going to drop it. I was confident that whatever it was i could handle. Id forgive Emily for almost anything just to be able to keep her. Silently i thought about the weeked, and somehow i knew Emily was thinking the same thing.

The next morning i drove to pick Em up for school, only to find she wasnt even out of bed. Her mom was gone so after i knocked witout any answer i let myself in witt he spare key she kept hidden under the third rock to the left on the porch.

"Em! Come on babe where are you?" I called. I heard a rustling upstairs so i decided to go make sure she was ok after last night. And i was determined to hear what happened.

"Em?" I knocked lightly on the door and found her digging through one of her drawers. "Emily Fields what are you doing? Why arent you dressed?"

"Obviously i overslept Hanna!" She lashed out making my heart literally drop into my stomache. I turned to leave mumbling that id wait downstairs but she grabbed my arm and pulled me into her and she cried. She cried for what seemed like forever and i held her. This was a moment i forgot about being her girlfriend and i was the best friend she had relied on for so many years. I pulled her back and looked right in her bloodshot eyes. "Whats going on? Please talk to me. What happened last night?" She wiped off her eyes as if showing any emotion at all was a mistake. As if last night was her secret she wasn't allowed to share, and all emotions shut down. She put in her happy Emily face and continued as if nothing happened.

"Give me a few minutes to get ready ok?" She kissed me lightly.

"Whatever happened we have to talk about it at some point..."

"Later baby." She called as she went into the bathroom to sower. 'Ill hold you to it.' I mumbled.