Down the Hall (A Hollstein Story)

by moniac87

Laura Hollis goes in for an interview for the job of her dreams. She is sure that life is over until she runs into Carmilla, starting a sequence of events that will change both their lives forever. Love may be waiting down the hall, but you have to be brave enough to open the door. Carmilla/Laura - Laura Hollis/Carmilla Karnstein - Hollstein

5. Chapter 5 (My Favorite Place)

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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"After a quick shower, Carmilla gets dressed and meets me in the kitchen. I made us a few omelets and cut up some fruit. I really hope she likes it because I'm really not sure of what kind of food she likes. With the table set with the best dinnerware that I have, I put all the food in place, just ask she is ready to sit down./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Wow, this is amazing. No one has ever really cooked for me like this."/p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""It's ok, thank you so much. I know it will be delicious. You didn't have to do this, you know."/p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Ok then, sounds good to me," Carmilla says while pulling me down onto her lap. Wrapping my arms around her neck, I kiss her deeply and quickly get up to go eat my breakfast. Not that I would mind staying home and having sex with Carm all day, I just have a lot planned for her. We can do all that later tonight./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"I guide her down these back roads, some of them paved and some of them not. This place is so secluded and I think that's part of why I like it. We finally pull up to the trail entrance that leads to the sinkhole. I am so excited that I can't even wait for her to open the door for me. She's not exactly happy about it, but she's smiling because I'm so excited./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"After a few minutes of walking, we reach the edge of the sink hole. It's so beautiful here, but I'm more interested in Carmilla's reaction. While most people would be staring down into this beautiful sight, I can't help but watch her. As she looks around and takes everything in. I can see her face light up with wonder and awe. I remember what it was like the first time I saw this place and I'm reliving it though her right now./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Come with me," I say as I take her hand and lead her to a set of stairs. There is a set of stairs attached to the edge of the sinkhole, spiraling all the way down to the bottom. This is really what I wanted her to see. Carmilla seems a little uneasy, but I give her a reassuring smile and she follows me. Once we get to the bottom of the stairs, a long way down I might add, I lead her over to my favorite spot. There is a huge boulder right next to where the water fall hits the ground before the water pools down into an underground cavern that is accessible only by a crack in the floor if the sinkhole. If I really think about it, it's probably not safe to spend that much time down here, but it's so beautiful I can't help it. The power of the falling water and the peaceful isolation is enough to make me forget about my problems for just a little while. Any time I'm dealing with a crisis, this seems to be where I need to go to work through it./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"I sit down on the rock and pull Carmilla over to me. She sits down behind be with her legs and arms around me. Just when I thought that this place couldn't get any better, I'm sitting here being held by the woman I love. Wait... I couldn't possible love her yet. I've only known her for a few days and this is impossible. Carmilla squeezes her arms tighter around me and rests her chin on my shoulder, rubbing her cheek against mine. Oh my god, maybe I do love her. I couldn't possibly tell her yet. I'm not sure about it myself and I definitely don't want to scare her away./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"We reluctantly get up and make out long trip back to the car. Between all the stairs and the trail, it takes us an exhausting hour to make it back. We climb in the car and set course for home, I mean my apartment. I guess I fell asleep on the way home because I'm woken by a sweet kiss on the lips when we're in front of my place. Carmilla had taken my seat belt off and had the door open already. She offered to carry me because I'm so tired, but I insist on making my own way inside./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Thank you for coming with me," I say as I grip the side of the tub because what she's doing to me is making me feel some type of way./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""I'll go anywhere with you, Laura." She says this as her hand slides down into the water and in between my legs. This makes my body shake which splashes some water over the side of the tub and onto the floor. She uses her other arm to grip me tighter and she starts moving her fingers even faster. It doesn't take me very long because I have honestly been fighting this orgasm off since this morning and I crash down all around her, water splashing everywhere and Carmilla holding onto me while I moan uncontrollably./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"She leads me back to the bedroom and lays me down so softly, I can feel how much she really cares for me. With one hand on my stomach and the other tangled up in my hair, she kisses me and is humming in happiness. These slow circles she's drawing on my stomach are too much for me to handle and I flip her over. As I begin to kiss her I slide my hand in between her legs to get her ready for what I really want to do to her. Carmilla's hips begin moving with the rhythm of my hand and I can tell it's the perfect time./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"I climb on top of her, picking up her leg and putting her ankle on my shoulder. I press myself against her and the friction is amazing. I grab her leg with my left hand and brace myself with my other and start moving my hips slowly and deliberately. With every touch, we are climbing together toward the perfect climax and I want this to last but I can't stop. This feels so good and I want her to feel the same way. She grips onto me even harder, scratching me a bit and that makes me even hotter. We start jerking our hips harder and harder and then we're there. We both scream out each other's names and I collapse down onto her chest. With our legs wrapped in each others and her arms around me, all we can do is focus on holding onto each other while we catch our breath./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Hey, Carm?"/p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""I think I would like that very much," she says and kisses me back. "But, we both start school in about a week and we have a lot to do before then. I'm going to help you with whatever you want me to, but we did need to actually sleep some time," she says, waking me from my stare./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"I unenthusiastically agree and roll over to plug my phone in to the charger. I notice that LaF texted me a while ago. Whoops./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Hey L, Perry and I really want to get to know your new girl. Lunch tomorrow?"/p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Hey, my friends that you met last night want to have lunch tomorrow. Are you ok with meeting up with them?"/p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"I type out my response to LaF quickly. "Hey, just tell me when and where. Carmilla and I will be there. See you then."/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"I hit send, put my phone on the night stand and roll back into Carmilla's arms. This is most definitely my favorite place in the world. "Thank you for agreeing to lunch tomorrow. It really means a lot to me."/p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"I want to tell her that I love her, it's on the tip of my tongue but I just can't. I'm afraid that she may not feel the same way and I don't want to ruin this. I have never been this happy. I just stretch up to her and kiss her sweetly, wrapping my arms around her and then laying my head on her chest./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.1199998855591px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""You mean a lot to me too, Carm" I say as I shiver under her touch. The gentle strokes of her hand through my hair and the warm embrace of her body around mine makes me feel safe and we drift off to sleep together./p