A/N: Hello. And sorry. Already now. That it's taken me AGES to get this done.. I've kind of had a lot to do with school and my drivers licence and scouting and working with my arm (I have a weird arm. Probably didn't know that, huh?) -But really, I'm so sorry I haven't finished before now, but well.. then you will at least get a little somethin' somethin' later in this chapter, that you might like.. which I might or might not will ruin again. YAY!

Anyways. I have also had kind of a little writersblock at the beginning of this, so if it's a little rusty at first, that's why. I apologise!

Nevertheless. Please tell me what you think? And I might be faster next time. I won't promise anything, but I'll try, okay! I really will, so please don't eat me!

and now! Enjoy it, maybe!

What the heck? Nick tilted his head slightly to the side, and narrowed his eyes. That can't be- Nick knew for a fact that Jeff had a free period and would most likely be spending it in his room, like he always did, but then how?

Though it had been a whole day, since Nick had seen Jeff the last time, the face and eyes of the blonde had been hunting him, as a result of how he'd treated him, the last time the met in the hall.

But the hunting Nick had felt, just haven't reached this state before now, where others in the halls reminded him of the blonde. Not before now, when he'd just turned his head to look after the guy he thought he'd recognized.

That can't be. Nick thought to himself, one more time, shaking his head as he took one more step forward. But then- "Jeff?" Before he even got to think about what he was doing, Nick had turned on his heel, reached out his hand and closed it around the arm of the blonde guy, who'd just walked past him.

"Uhm- No?" A soft voice said, as the blonde guy turned around to face Nick. "I'm-" He began, but was cut off before he got to utter one more word.

"Oh. I thought you were-" Nick began, but cut himself off. "You just look like someone-" Once again Nick cut off himself before he got to finish his sentence. "Like Jeff." He then said and frowned lightly. He didn't want to seem weak, but he was confused, that was for sure.

"That might be because I'm his brother, Austin." The blonde said with a lifted eyebrow, but reached out his hand, for Nick to shake it; that was after all only the most polite thing to do.

"Oh." The brunette said, but didn't take Austin's hand. That wasn't really his style. "I… I better go." He then turned around to leave.

"Okay." Austin said and pulled his hand back to himself again. "Hey, could you tell me where Jeff's room is?" He asked quickly before the brunette was out of hearing range. It might have been a little too long since he'd been there last, and he wasn't sure he remembered exactly where the dorm room was placed.

"Up the stairs, sixth door to the left." Nick said over his shoulder, hurrying away to hide how the meeting with the younger Sterling had hit him in the face with guilt over the way he'd treated the older Sterling, the day before. He wasn't used to guilt. He wasn't used to caring about how his treatment affected other people, and he didn't know how to react. Therefore he hurried away, to flee the feeling.

"Crazy." Austin mumbled to himself with a smile, shaking his head. He turned back around and began his walk again; heading for the stairs.

People are weird. Austin agreed with himself as he'd reached the stairs and began his climb to the top of them. Not even had this been a weird experience for him, but generally a lot of other people was weird as well. So he didn't even need to think much about it, before he'd agreed with himself about it.

Placing a soft knock on the door in front of him, which he'd been told was Jeff's, Austin took the time to fix the bag, hanging over his shoulder.

The blonde's face jerked up, when the door flung open, revealing another blonde, standing on the other side. First expression of the older blonde was happiness, then confusion, but soon turned into mild frustration, followed by a frown and a soft groan.

"What are you doing here, Austin?" Jeff questioned, even though he very well knew what. "I thought I told you to stay home! I can handle this." He then added with a soft sigh, as he stepped to the side to let the younger Sterling inside.

"Handle what?" Austin asked, and stepped inside the dorm. "Can't a dude go visit his brother, just because he feels like it?" He continued; trying to look and sound as innocent as he possibly could.

"Austin. Really?" Jeff asked with a frown, saying that he very well knew this wasn't the reason why he'd come.

"Okay fine." Austin began. "I just knew you couldn't pull yourself together, to give that Nick guy, a piece of his own medicine!" He then gave in. He knew his brother, and he knew he wasn't capable of pulling this off, without his help.

"What's your plan?" Jeff sighed, with a gesture to the bag, which Austin had just now, swung off his shoulder and placed on the floor; indirectly agreeing that his brother was indeed right.

"I've got everything that we're going to need!" Austin said, as his face lit up in a bright smile, making Jeff chuckle lightly over the enthusiasm. "I've thought about it all, man! This can't go wrong!" the younger one of them added, as he bend down to unzip the bag he'd brought with him.

All the while Austin was enthusiastically searching for something in the bag of his; Jeff shook his head and went to sit down on his bed. He'd only just sat down; when something black fell out of the edge of the bag. "Austin?" He asked. "What's that?" Somehow that something made him kind of want to back out, though he didn't.

"What's what?" Austin lifted his head and looked at his brother.

" That." Jeff pointed to the something, hanging out of the bag, which he couldn't really see what was, from the distance.

"Oh. This?" The younger of the blonde's grinned and grabbed, whatever it was and pulled at it, until he released a big rocker looking leather jacket. "It's my new jacket!" His smile grew, and he threw the jacket at his brother, a giggle escaping his mouth when it hit him right in the face.

"What? You want me to dress up in only leather, and seduce him like a slut?" Jeff scoffed, but couldn't help but smile.

"No!" Austin laughed. "Just the jacket!" With that, he pulled a pair of black jeans and a V-neck tee. "You're going to wear this!" He said, as he got up from the floor and walked over, to hand the clothing to his brother.

"But you do want me to seduce him?" Jeff questioned, as he let a hand trail over the leather, now resting in his lap. Was this really a good idea? He couldn't figure it out, but his didn't get much time to think about it before his brother interrupted his thought.

"Try it on!" Austin encouraged. He knew that students were supposed to wear their uniform at the school, but he also knew that this was only on week days, and since it was now Friday, that was not going to ruin his plan.

"Fine." Jeff groaned, but got up and headed for the bathroom on shuffling feet.

"Take your time." Austin said in a light voice before he threw himself on his back, on his brother's bed and smiled.

"I'm going to jump on your stomach, if you're asleep when I get out again!" and with that, and a point of his finger, to the younger Sterling; Jeff closed the door to change.

History. History was boring. Just like every other stupid subject he had at this school. Well, that's at least how Nick thought about it himself. He was sitting in the back of the class; feet on the table, chair standing on only two of its four legs and hands folded behind his head.

As always, he was only listening with half an ear, and his mind was beginning to wander off. How did he even get in this situation? He didn't remember. Somehow it seemed like he blew all his chances out in the dark, whenever they showed up and danced in front of his face, instead of reaching out to grab it. But what did it matter anyway? He did what he wanted to, when he wanted to and where he wanted to.

Nick was used to getting what he wanted. He always got what he wanted. Somehow, it just seemed to have passed Jeff's attention that this was how things were meant to be. That he was meant to give in, and just give Nick what he wanted.

How hard could it be really? It was one word! A simple 'yes', and that would be all he needed, before he could go on to something new! The guy didn't have to do anything but spread his legs and take it; how hard could that be? Unless he's a virgin, of course. Oh my god he's got to be a virgin! What other explanations can there be? –Lots of virgins would love, for me to be their first though.

"Mr. Duval!" Nick's head jerked up, when he was torn out of his thoughts, by the sound of his teacher, calling his name.

"Yes, miss?" Nick said, when he was looking into his teachers face, and he tried to look like he had been listening, all along.

"What did I just say?" The teacher asked, her hands settled on her hips and a displeased look on her face.

"Uh-" Nick voice sounded as he looked into his teachers eyes, and was instantly lost. He had really never realized this before, but looking into his teacher's eyes, looked exactly like if he looked right into Jeff's eyes. Those eyes sent him right back, into the fires. He did want to apologize to Jeff, for what he did; but saying 'Sorry' was just not something he did. And why should he? He'd just tried to stay away, like Jeff had obviously shown, he wanted him to. How could it be his fault that no matter what he did, it was not good enough for Jeff?

"Austin, this is ridiculous." Jeff sighed, when he came out of the bathroom, dressed in his brothers clothe.

"What are you talking about?" Austin questioned, "That's perfect! He cannot say no to that." The younger of them said, as he motioned his index finger, to increase all of Jeff, as what Nick could not say no to.

"Really?" Jeff said and rose an eyebrow, but he didn't get to say more before Austin cut him off again.

"Come on, Jeff." The younger of the Sterling's urged. "Give it a chance!" And that's when they came. The puppy eyes; those Jeff just really couldn't say no to, even if he wanted to.

"Fine." Jeff sighed. "But do I really have to wear it all the time?" he asked, because this really wasn't anywhere near what he would usually wear and feel home in. "Can't I just wear it when I know he's going to be near?"

"No!" His brother exclaimed. "You never know when he'll show up around a corner! He'll see right through you, if you only wear it when you have classes together or whatever." He added, just to point out his view a little further.

"Okay fine." Jeff agreed, though a little reluctantly, and then went to sit down next to his brother, on the bed. "On that note. How's it going with Ashton's school?" He wondered. Ashton was their brother, in between them of age. He'd always been kind of a rebel, and Jeff always worried about him. As the oldest he felt a little bad for leaving home and not being home to help his brother.

"He's-" Austin stared, but then stopped. He knew it was a touchy subject for his brother. "Well he's hanging on." He then said. "He's trying, but I just don't think he believes enough in his abilities in school." He sighed. He knew that Jeff would be worried, but somewhere Jeff knew it already, he just needed to know once in a while, that Ash was at least trying.

"I suppose I could have told myself that." Jeff sighed, but then let go of the subject. "How about the other two?" He asked, referring to their sister in between, and their younger brother.

"Well Jen is-" He stared, but once again stopped, this time to let a small smile spread on his face. "I think she might have gotten a boyfriend, who she hasn't introduced to the family yet." His smile grew a little by the thought. He liked that his sister was happy, obviously.

"Really?"

"Yeah! And James seems to be doing great as well!" He added and let the good things fill the room instead of the problems with their other brother.

"That's really amazing!" Jeff smiled, but before he could ask any more questions, or say any more, his phone buzzed in his pocket. "Oh. Who's texting me, now?" He asked, mostly to himself, as he pulled out the phone to unlock it.

"Who is it?" Austin asked, before Jeff even got to think about saying anything.

"Wes." Jeff said, a little confused but then read the text. "Extra Warbler practice today, in a half hour." He said as he locked the phone to put it back in his pocket.

"I suppose I'll have to leave it all up to you then." Austin said with a little laugh, as he got up on his feet. "Make me proud, okay?" He said, faking the voice of a parent, sending her child out in his first soccer match.

"Hey, bro?" Jeff exclaimed when Austin had picked up his bag.

"Yeah?"

"Thanks." Jeff said with a smile.

"You're welcome." With that, Austin turned to the door and left the room, heading for the entrance to the school, as he called their sister Jenifer, to come and pick him up.

Jeff quickly stuffed his ear buds into his ears, and turned the volume a little up, on his iPod, before leaving his dorm room, to go to the extra practice. That is was a really weird day for having warblers practice, never occurred to him, as he recognized the familiar beat to a Rihanna song began to pound in his ears.

It only took him about two steps to hit the rhythm and walk in pace with the music, like he always did when he was listening to music.

Come here rude boy, boy

Can you get it up?

Jeff had never really thought about the lyrics before now, but for some strange reason, he did now. And now that he did, he realized how insanely inappropriate it actually was.

Take it, take it
baby, baby

Listening to his music, Jeff didn't even realize how people were staring at him, but could he blame them really? They were not used to see him like that. It was like he was lost in the music, kind of feeling it.

Come here rude boy, boy

Is you big enough?

His thoughts were secretly wondering, as he walked towards the choir room. And that's when they suddenly hit him, when he realized that these lyrics reminded him of that one guy. That guy who was really so rude, whenever they spoke. But yet deep down; very, very deep down, Jeff thought he could find something good, that he desired very badly.

It was though, over Jeff's understandings, how he could possibly want someone, who's that rude, especially coming from a family, where he'd been thought from mother's breast, how to act politely around people and how to have manners; which he definitely didn't see in Nick.

Take it, take it

Love me, love me

Love me? Yeah if only he could do that. Well in the nice way. Jeff was really not the person who wished for sex or anything like that. He just wanted to be loved, if he had to be with someone. This was also a reason, as to why he was confused about Nick. Was he capable of that?

Tonight

I'mma let you be the captain

What exactly it was, Jeff wanted, was hard, even for himself to figure out. Yeah he wanted love. But considering who, he'd happened to fall for; it was really hard to believe that it was love. I mean- He's never going to love someone. Is he? He's not the type to. So yes, he did wonder what is was he wanted from Nick.

Tonight

I'mma let you do your thing, yeah

Just then, Jeff realized that he was almost there. Thinking of it, it was maybe a little weird to put music in his ears, for that short walk; but he did, and he enjoyed it.

Tonight

I'mma let you be a rider

Reaching the door, Jeff stopped outside to let the current part of the song finish, before he turned it off.

Giddy up

Giddy up

Giddy up, Babe

That's when he turned off the music and neatly folded the wire to the ear buds around his iPod, and then put it in the pocket of the leather jacket he was still wearing.

Jeff didn't even really know what he expected to find when he would enter the room, but it was certainly not what he found, when he opened the door and took a step inside. He wasn't met by the usual ocean of voices talking in the room, and when he looked around he first thought the room was empty, until he saw someone sitting on top of the counsel's desk.

"Nick?" Jeff asked in confusion and took a step closer. "What are you doing here? Where's the Warblers?" He asked, confused.

"Well." Nick purred, from his place on top of the desk. "Some of them might be home for the weekend? And some of them is wandering around campus." He shrugged as he pushed himself off the desk and onto his feet.

"But Wes-"

"Wes texted you, yeah?" Nick said as he fished Wes' phone out of his pocket and waved it in the air. That's when his eyes fell on Jeff's clothing. He'd really just asked Jeff to come, so he could talk to him, or at least try to. But that clothe was not something he would be able to deal with for long, he felt just by seeing it now.

"Okay. So I'm here?" The blonde said quizzically. "What do you want?" He asked, his voice slightly defensive.

"Wow. Easy there tiger." Nick said with a little smirk on his face. "I just want to chat." He then said. "How about you come over here?" he added and gestured for Jeff to come over.

"Chat? About what?" He asked, though he moved closer to the brunette, slightly naïve as he was.

How it happened, Jeff wasn't actually sure about. He'd ended up in Nick's arms, god knows how, but he did. Jeff's right hand was lying around Nick's neck, and he looked down into the brunette's eyes. He was so close, and he could just kiss him, right now!

What are you saying! You are not gonna kiss ANYONE! Especially not this ass! Jeff's thoughts cut himself off, before he did anything, and he woke up, feeling as if he'd been in a trance; he'd sharply turned to leave, but Nick's hands had tightened around his hips and pulled him back.

Nick looked him in the eye, as if to find any glimpse of emotion in them. He wasn't for long, looking into Jeff's eyes that is, it was only a split second, before he pushed up on his toes, and clashed his lips against Jeff's, falling down on his flat feet again, only stretching his body, to keep connected with Jeff, as their lips started moving smoothly together.

Nick's lips felt strange against his. Not in the like 'this-is-so-wrong' strange, kind of way, like a homophobe might would have thought. More like, he'd expected it to feel different, than it did, to feel them against his own. He'd half expected it to feel like Danny's had felt, half expected it to feel like there was no feelings behind, only cold… nothing! No hate, no love, no anger; nothing! But well, that wasn't exactly the case. He did feel something, but he couldn't put a finger on what it was; he did feel something, but it was nothing like when Danny had forced himself on him.

It felt- Kind of nice, and Jeff allowed himself to get lost in the kiss, for just a few moments, before Nick's hands moved on Jeff's hips, pulling him slightly closer. That's when everything returned to him, and he realized what was happening. His eyes flew open and his hands fell to Nick's chest and pushed, as he tore himself out of Nick's hands.

"What the fuck?" Nick swore, surprised at how suddenly the kiss had ended; much differently from how he'd expected it to.

"I can't." Jeff whispered with his eyes still wide open, as he looked at the brunette in front of him.

"What?" Nick frowned; half because he didn't hear what Jeff had said, half because he couldn't believe that this was actually happening.

"I'm sorry Nick, but I can't." Jeff repeated and took a step back. His mind was a mess and he really didn't know how to find where one though ended and a new one begun.

"What do you mean you can't!?" Nick's voice rose as he spoke, so that at the end of the sentence, he was half yelling, which only made the blonde step even further back.

"I just can't!" Jeff tried again and felt his face beginning to burn. He couldn't tell Nick why. He couldn't tell Nick about Danny; about what happened. He just couldn't. It was too personal, and even just trying to tell Thad, back then, was too much for him, so how could he tell a jerk like Nick, about it? Especially when the jerk is as angry, as Nick was right that moment.

"Of course you can! It's not like you have to do anything else than lie down on the couch and spread your fucking legs!" Nick yelled as his face flustered with anger. Anger, confusion and hurt. The last two hidden behind the overshadowing anger.

"No! You don't understand!" Jeff exclaimed with a horrified look on his face. That sentence might have been just about the last thing he wanted to hear that exact moment.

"THEN TELL ME FOR GOD'S SAKE!" Jeff really didn't think Nick's voice could rise any further now, and had he given it second though, he would be certain that the whole school might've heard it, when Nick's voice literally exploded.

"No!" The blonde said, once again. Standing his ground, though he was slightly scared to do so, at this very moment, after what happened last time he did so, towards an angry dude at this school.

"Why the hell not!?" Nick exclaimed as his voice had fallen to a lower level, yet the anger was still there, at the exact same level as before.

"You don't get it, do you?" Jeff felt his own anger beginning to coil. He never got angry just like that, but when people wouldn't understand, it was just like he couldn't help it, and it just took over and turned him into someone else.

"No, because you won't tell me, for Christ's sake!" Nick argued, as he still had no clue what the hell Jeff was on about.

"Because it's none of your business!" Not even considering, you were his reason. Jeff added in his mind, as his mind was just about to wander back to that horrific moment when Danny had pounded on his bathroom door. His mind didn't get to go that long though, before Nick's voice cut through him again.

"You know what? Fine! I don't care!" Nick growled, and Jeff found out he was wrong. This was the last thing he wanted to hear in this situation.

"You don't care?" Jeff asked, seriously hurt this time. "You don't care!?" Jeff's voice started to rise again. "Then WHY did you drag me into this!? I was fine before you started chasing me; I was fine before you started dragging me into this little game of yours!" at this point, the tears were starting to run down over Jeff's heated cheeks. "If you don't care, then why didn't you just leave me alone, and go fuck around with someone, who actually is into that shit!? What's the point in chasing someone, when you know they are not into one night stands, or whatever it is you think you're doing? Did you really just want to see me hurt!? Was that what you wanted? Because then bravo, you reached your goal!" With those words, Jeff turned on his heel, and stormed out of the room.

"What the hell just happened?" Nick asked himself after he'd been standing alone for a few moments, in the choir room, the door closed after Jeff had stormed out and slammed it after him.

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