A/N: Hey people. Remember me? I once wrote chapters every other month, and apologized about being long on the way, every single time I uploaded something new.
Well this time I have truly been long on the way, and I am VERY sorry. Well I can easily say that, right? But I do mean it. I had my inspiration torn away from me, when something happened in my life, but now that I have my muse back, I'm back and ready to roll! I hope. I am for now after all. I hope you guys will still read my chapters and enjoy like you did before? I love you all, so please love me back and tell me what you think, so I will know if I'm still doing okay, after so long? Thanks! :*
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Jeff were really tired. And he did promise Thad to go to bed. So he probably should just do so. He agreed with himself to do so, after looking out the window a few seconds. He didn't think further about the two silhouettes he'd seen rush over campus, outside the window. One first; the other following suit, just a little while after. He didn't think much about it, because he had enough to think about of his own, as he slipped out of his clothing and down under the covers of his bed.
Tomorrow Thad would come back in the morning. That would be great. He wouldn't have to fear anymore. He didn't have to think when Thad was there. He always seemed to know what to say to make him realize what he wanted and what he should be doing.
Even with the comfort of the knowledge of Thad being back in the morning, Jeff didn't seem to be able to fall asleep. His thoughts were running in circles. Somehow his thoughts seemed to repeatedly caress the memory of a set of lips on his own. Normally Jeff would have felt disgust by the memory. But it wasn't Danny's lips he remembered anymore. The horrific memory of almost being molested and kissed against his will, were pushed aside, in order to let a new one take its place. Not that he wanted to think about Nick's kiss, more than Danny's, because Nick had forced himself on Jeff too. But- Something just felt different in the memory of Nick's kiss, than Danny's.
He'd been thinking a lot about everything. He'd tossed and turned at least a thousand times. At least it felt like it. Before he finally started to drift off. Not that falling asleep made everything easier, because when he finally slept, it was an uneasy and light sleep which yet, he seemed not to be capable of waking up from, if he'd wanted to.
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Everything was dark. So dark nothing could be seen at all. The darkness was so dark it even felt like no sound could cut through it. But then again. Maybe some sounds could break through. It just seemed so surreal and that anything should be able to penetrate the darkness. That was until he suddenly heard a heavy breathing somewhere near. Very near.
"You're so beautiful. You are so damn beautiful, I just can't."
The words sounded like they were rolling on a wave to his ears, and disappearing again on another one. Like they were swimming away, and ebbing out until the heavy breathing covered the last notes of the sentence.
"If only I could just touch your skin. Just touch it. Feel it burn under my fingertips."
Jeff didn't think he'd ever heard anyone talk like that before. Not directed to him anyways. The words were again, kind of swimming on a way and the breathing took over. Jeff couldn't really decide whose voice it was. He couldn't seem to stick a name to the soft and deep voice, sounding in the darkness.
"Your hair is so stunning. I wish I could just wrap my fingers in it and feel the softness in my hand."
Some sort of heat started to spread in Jeff's body. Or well. Maybe it didn't. It felt like he didn't have a body. Like there was just. -Nothing at all, even though there had to be, because how would he exist if there was no body? Well those thoughts were too much right now. Jeff just hoped the voice would be back soon. He kind of missed it -If that made sense.
"I'll tuck it!"
This time Jeff was a little surprised by the voice's choice of words. It wasn't as sweet as the last words. But he liked it. He did. Not that he knew why. Usually he'd be really shameful to like anything with the slightest hint of something sexual. But now? It just liked it. No shame at all.
"I'll touch you in a way that no one has ever done before."
The things the voice was saying slowly changed character. Sentence to sentence they turned slightly more toned with sex. Well not exactly sex. But lightly sexual.
"Touch me."
The heat that Jeff was somehow feeling, but yet not really feeling; seemed to get stronger and more powerful from every word he heard.
"I'm hard for you."
You're. What? It seemed highly unimaginable that this voice would be hard for anyone. Because frankly? It didn't seem like the voice had a body either. It seemed like it was just as bodiless as Jeff felt like he were. Like he was just a mind. No brain. No body. No anything. Just a mind.
"Will you kiss it?"
It? -Oh! That it! Jeff never thought about blowjobs, as something sexy. As something he would like doing. That being asked to do something like that, would make him actually.. Want to. But something inside him made him feel that that was actually something he would do. If he could, I mean. There was no one there. Only a voice, which to whom it belonged, he couldn't figure out.
"Can I take you from behind?"
Why yes you can. Where that thought came from, Jeff didn't know. But he wanted that. He'd like that a lot, he just shamelessly wanted it.
Jeff hadn't noticed that the darkness had gone and lightened up. Not much, tough. The darkness only seemed lighter. Like it wasn't as heavy anymore as it had been. Now it just all vanished and Jeff began to feel his body again. He looked down on himself and saw that he was all there. Lovely.
He looked up again and he was in the choir room with some friends and.. -Nick. Nick were seated right next to Jeff, and when he spoke with their friends, Jeff immediately recognized the voice. The second he realized, chills ran down his spine. He liked it.
His eyes were fixed on Nick. He had a nice face. A pretty face. His neck was nice too. He liked it. He liked the way his neck connected to the shoulders. Nick had very masculine shoulders and muscular arms. Under his shirt, Nick also seemed to have quite a nice torso. He probably had abs too. Sexy abs. His hips were probably made for dancing or-
Jeff couldn't believe if he just saw what he thought he saw. Was that.. or rather; what wasn't that! Jeff looked up to Nicks face, to find him staring back with a smile that made Jeff want to just.. Just.. he didn't even know what he wanted to do, but obviously Nick did. Before Jeff could say or anything, Nick moved forward and pressed his lips against Jeffs.
The second their lips met, it was like the whole world around them, simply disappeared. Their lips began moving together and Jeff felt like he'd never felt anything more amazing than this. He let Nick guide him to lie down on the couch they were seated on; their lips never really leaving each others. It was like they tasted something different. Like something new, they'd never tasted before, something special. Like when you taste some new food which you don't really know if you like or not, but the more you get, the better it is. That was how they felt with each other's lips at that very moment. It only got better.
Way long before Jeff had expected and wanted it to end, everything disappeared and he found himself in a brand new situation. He was naked. That much was clear. He was lying in a bed, naked. Someone was holding him. He only just realized that the heat of the other body behind him belonged to Nick. It was Nick and he was just as naked as Jeff.
A whole new feeling appeared on Jeff's inside. He didn't feel like they were two people. They were one. He felt like their bodies and the heat in between, just simply came together as one. He felt that they were connected in another way that he'd ever felt with anyone.
Nick were spreading small kisses over Jeff's neck, cheek and shoulder. Small peeks that felt like soft drops of rain on his skin. The kisses slowly turned harder and wetter. More heated. Jeff enjoyed it just as much, no matter if they were sweet or a little less sweet.
Jeff felt something start to move between them. Another experience he'd never had before began to unfold. Nick shifted a little on the bed, but Jeff felt himself hold him back. He wanted to feel this. He wanted to feel as Nick grew behind him.
Soon Nick's dick was hard as a rock and uncomfortably trapped between the bodies of the two. Nick moved his hips slightly backwards and moved a hand down between them. He pushed on his cock with two fingers, so it was standing right out from his body.
"Is it okay?" Nick whispered into Jeff's ear and when a light nod was shown, Nick moved his hips forward again, to let his dick rest between Jeffs legs. Nothing more. Just rest.
Much to Jeffs despair he could feel the cock between his legs throbbing lightly, and something sweet started to spread in his body. It was new. He didn't know what it was, or how he was to react to it. But one thing was for sure. He liked it. And it felt sweet!
Yet again the vision blurred and vanished, to turn into something different. Both were still lying down, and both were still naked. But the room was gone, and turned into a tent. They were lying together yet again, and trying to stay warm. Nick's cock still felt hard, but it wasn't between his legs anymore. It was behind him. Between the two of them.
Much to his surprise, Jeff noticed his own cock twitching lightly. It was getting hard. He didn't really know how react to this. He wasn't used to having a hard on, since he was of a very religious family; at least his parents and their way of raising children, was very religious.
He himself wasn't really that religious. He was just raised to have certain norms and beliefs. One of them being the seven sins. Not like he thought he'd go to hell if he performed one of these seven deadly sins. He just believed that performing them were wrong.
That's why Jeff was a little on deep water. He believed that this was wrong, but he also kind of, really, liked it. He liked this new experiences and feelings, which he'd never really experimented with before.
"Jeff?" Nick's worm breath spread against Jeffs ear and send shivers through his body and down to his dick. His shaft was soon standing completely and Jeff thought it was going to explode. He just wanted the release, but he didn't know how or what to do with it.
Jeff nodded lightly to encourage Nick to go on with what he was going to say. He wanted to hear. He wanted to feel that breath on his face again. He wanted to feel the shivers. The twitches. He wanted to feel everything that his overly sensitive state, would allow him to feel.
"Can I stick it inside you?" Nick whispered into Jeffs ear. This time serious shivers spread on Jeffs entire body and somehow he felt like it was also spread to his soul. This was the most crazy thing he'd ever experienced and it was like he couldn't hold it back.
"Yes!" Jeff sighed.
Everything disappeared. It all vanished and Jeff felt like, for a second, he was floating on air. It was a strange feeling; he'd never be able to explain later. He knew he wouldn't because he forgot how it felt, the second a new scenery evolved around him.
Nick was lying flat down on his back and Jeff found himself on top of him. At first he didn't feel it, but when Nick moved, he wasn't even going to question it for a second. Nick was inside him. He was inside Jeff and it didn't feel the slightest wrong. Jeff liked it.
Jeff experimented with moving a little. He pushed himself a little up from the mattress and moved back down again, all the while rolling his hips. It did indeed seem like Nick enjoyed this. He threw his head back on the pillow and his mouth opened in something that looked like pure pleasure, while his eyes were shut tightly.
Seeing Nick like this, felt amazing to Jeff. It was like it was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen, so he did it again. He did it again and when Nick's face were still showing off, just how much he liked it, Jeff simply had to continue. So he did.
Nick's eyes suddenly slew opened. His mouth shut as he gritted his teeth hard against each other, and his hands flew up to Jeffs sides and clenched. He clenched and Jeff felt pure pleasure rush through his veins. He'd never felt anything like it; but the combination of Nicks pleasured face and the way he didn't seem to be able to control his own motions, made Jeff moan loudly.
Jeffs eyes flung open in surprise over the sound of his own loud moan. His eyes were wide open and he stared into the ceiling of his and Thads dorm room. He wasn't exactly sure what'd just happened. He didn't know before he started relaxing a little bit again. Small glimpses of his dreams started flashing in front of his eyes, and with a groan he realized that it hadn't only been in his dream, his cock had been word.
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French lesson. Jeff were sitting at his table next to Thad, who'd come back to campus the same morning. Jeff hadn't told Thad about his dream yet. He hadn't had the time yet so the only thing Thad knew, was that Jeff had woken up really early, and hadn't been able to go back to sleep.
Jeff was staring into nothing, with a stoned expression on his face. His mind was wandering off on its own. He thought back on the dream. He remembered everything very clearly. He also remembered what he'd had to do when he woke up. He very shamefully remembered, and his face started taking a light red color. Hopefully no one would notice.
Something Jeff really couldn't get out of his head was the look on Nick's face, in the end of his dream. The way his head was thrown back and painted all over with lust, want and pleasure. He could still feel the burning sensation on his sides, that he felt when Nicks hands closed around him, in his dream and squeezed. He felt like his hands were burned to his skin and it felt good.
"Bleu, blanc, rouge." Jeff repeated with the rest of the class. He didn't think about it. He didn't even notice that he said anything. He didn't notice that the rest of the class did either. He was far gone in his own thoughts, to notice the class about France. He just thought about one thing.
Nick's body warmth. Jeff felt like Nick was still lying between him, and warming him to the bone. He loved the way it made him feel. Even just the memory of the naked body behind him made him feel full of love, but also heated with a dull lust.
"Jeff!" A voice cut through the line of thoughts in his mind.
"Nick!" Jeff burst out. He didn't even realize what he said. He didn't realize what was going on. He just happened to be cut off, the very moment his thoughts were the most specifically directed around Nick, so he didn't even notice what he said, and if he did, he wouldn't have been able to stop it anyways.
"Uh." Thad said. "We. Uhm. -have to pair up and practice talking?" He continued. Thad looked at Jeff with a curious expression on his face.
"Yes. Yeah. Okay lets practice then." Jeff said and tried not to blush too hard. He felt really embarrassed to have reacted like that. To have been so lost in thoughts, that he didn't even realized what he said. That he couldn't even get his thoughts away from a guy who always treated him like a toy.
"Jeff?" Thad looked at him. "Is there something you haven't told me? Something more than what you told me last night?" Thad had lowered his voice, so the surrounding students wouldn't hear what they were talking about.
"Well. Yeah. But not now Thad." Jeff just brushed it off. "We'll talk about it later, okay?" He said as a finish.
"Jeff?" Thad just asked.
"No." Jeff stood his ground. "Let's just practice France okay? We'll talk about it later!" He finished and made it clear that they were not going to talk more about it now. He wouldn't talk about it now.
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