Chapter 20
After a few minutes of talking about Nikki's new cushions on Nikki's sofa, Nikki decided to bring up her final serious 'secret'. "Oh I should tell you about erm my daughter, Eve." Lorraine opened her mouth in shock but let Nikki carry on, "Go on." Lorraine encouraged rubbing Nikki's fingers as she interlocked their hands. "Well, she's seventeen, she's lovely. A bit outgoing, nothing like me."
"Oh I don't know. You can be pretty confident when you want to be." Lorraine flirted causing both women to laugh. Feeling a bit less worried, Nikki carried on, "So what happened was, I used to be married to her dad, Stewart. I was far too young, had no idea what I was doing, who I wanted to be. When I found out I was pregnant with her I freaked, wanted an abortion. Sound familiar?" Nikki laughed bitterly, "Well we decided I'd have her and I'd give her up for Stewart to look after. I made him tell her I was dead. So she wouldn't wonder why I'd gone. My dad walked out on us when I was four and I didn't want to end up doing that. I already knew when I had her that I was nowhere near ready for it. I never really bonded with her, you know, when she was born." A tear slid out of the corner of her eye and dripped off her chin. Lorraine rubbed it off with the pad of her thumb and gave her a chaste kiss, "You were young, like you said. It wasn't your fault." Lorraine sympathised. Nikki shook her head, "That's no excuse." Nikki said guiltily, truthfully, she'd never forgive herself for walking out on her baby. Lorraine pulled her into a hug, whispering in her ear, "You shouldn't still punish yourself, Nik. It's all in the past. Eve's forgiven you, hasn't she?" Lorraine asked.
"Erm. Y-yeah I think so."
"Well then, it's about time you forgave yourself, yeah. Cos I forgive you and I've known about it, what five minutes?"
"Okay," Nikki nodded, "I forgive myself!" Nikki spoke sarcastically.
"Oh very funny!" Lorraine laughed, completely failing at her mock-serious face. "So how did you find each-other again?" She asked, now serious.
"Well my Mum, her grandma, she told her. And she found me and I had a bit of a shock visit last year. Not long after you left actually." Nikki explained. This caused Lorraine to giggle at how complicated Nikki was when you really got to know her. "Well she'll be visiting again soon. Would you like to meet her?" Nikki asked hesitantly, apprehensive of the fact Lorraine might not think it was a good idea. "Of course," Lorraine smiled causing the brunette to breathe out a sigh of relief, "but there's something I've wanted to do for a long, long time first..." Lorraine seductively whispered, pupils dilated and her lips creeping steadily closer to Nikki's...
Sorry, I may not be able to update for a few days but I hope you've enjoyed this chapter! ;-)