Hi again everyone, thanks for the amazing support with my coming out, it really touched me. Thanks for all the kind comments and PMs, I know I haven't thanked everyone individually, but I got sick and wasn't very much on the computer.
So, there is Chapter 19. It's both sad and funny, because I didn't wanted to go all the way sad. I hope this was good enough for you guys! The next chapter will be the last of this Fanfiction and I plan to write about Lincoln and Octavia's wedding. Of course, the story will still be centered about Clarke and Lexa. If there is any request for the next chapter, you can send me a PM or write a review; I don't know when I will post it, probably not before next week.
Thanks you all :)
Two months later, Lexa, her girlfriend and family members were all standing in the cemetery. She saw that coming, Gustus got really sick and there was nothing she could do to save him from his disease. The ceremony was perfect, without any problems.
Artigas and Quint were really sad. After comforting her girlfriend, Clarke was the first one to talk to the boys and trying to comfort them; it was natural, coming from her, and she had to mourn her father at a young age too. Hopefully, Clarke was there to help Lexa with everything, even though the brunette told her that she could deal with funeral stuff, paperwork and selling her uncle's house. Clarke wouldn't let her deal with that alone, because she could help her bear the pain.
Lexa's younger cousins were taken care by Gustus' sister and her husband – even though they had already two children of the same age. They were living in a small town close to Seattle, so Lexa would be able to see them a lot. Clarke knew her girlfriend would need it.
They finally got back to an empty house and the silence was better than hearing everyone saying how sorry they were for Gustus' loss and how brave Lexa was for staying with him until his final moments. Octavia moved out of the house to stay with Lincoln, because they wanted more intimacy. On the other hand, Raven was probably out, working or staying at Finn's, because she wasn't sure how to react around Lexa. She surely wanted to give her some space.
They sat on Lexa's bed and Clarke snuggled her girlfriend, not saying anything. Lexa had been really strong, only letting out a few tears during the ceremony, but Clarke knew she was only trying to hide under a stoic face.
"I miss him already." She said, hiding her face in Clarke's neck. "Before he passed, he told me to stay strong."
"You are." The blonde kisses her forehead.
"Thank you." She sighed deeply. "I mean, for being here with me today. I needed you."
"I told you I was here for you, no matter what. I have been through grieving too, if there is something I could help with, don't be shy to ask, whatever it is." Clarke insisted.
"I know. As weird as it is, I'm okay with this – I mean, I was prepared for it. Gustus was sick, I made up my mind about not having him around… what's hard to think about is how the kids must be feeling. It saddens me to know they are orphans now, even though they are being taken care well with their aunt."
"If you would like to spend time with them, you can always come here. I'm sure it wouldn't mind Raven."
"Really? You're okay with that?"
"Yes, if it's what you need, it doesn't bother me."
"Thank you, Clarke."
"You should get some rest, today was pretty rough on you and you look exhausted." Clarke kissed Lexa's lips. It was maybe 4 o'clock and the brunette was about to fall asleep into her girlfriend's arms.
"I am." Lexa mumbled, pulling herself closer to the blonde. "Wake me up for dinner, okay?"
"Okay."
Lexa woke up at 5 o'clock the next day. She took her breakfast, along with a well-deserved cup of coffee. She was exhausted, but still went for her morning run to activate her body and, perhaps, think about something else than Gustus' death and his funeral. She could do nothing more than what she had already done, so she needed to think about something else.
She got back to the house an hour later to find Clarke in the kitchen, making toasts and pouring herself a cup of coffee. She saw Lexa and smiled at her; the brunette was in her sports clothes and was all sweaty.
"Morning, sweetheart." Lexa leaned to kiss the blonde on the cheek and smiled. "You should come and run with me sometimes."
"You get up way too early for me, Lexa." She took a bite of her toast.
"The future belongs to those who wake up early." Lexa mocked her. "So, we have another day off before having to get back to work. What would you like to do?"
"I don't know… Octavia and Lincoln's wedding is soon, I thought we could go to the mall to buy them a few things."
"That sounds like a plan. Do you have ideas of what you would like to buy?"
"Of course!" Clarke answered with a smug smirk.
A few hours later, after having a shower and preparing themselves, they arrived to the mall and Clarke dragged Lexa in a particular shop. Lexa liked spending time with Clarke, because it was the best remedy to not think about her uncle's loss.
"Okay, when you said you had ideas, I never thought you meant that." Lexa said, holding a box in her hands and looking at the instructions.
"I'm her maid of honor, so I need to assure to put some spicy in their sexual life."
"I'm pretty sure they don't need that." The brunette insisted.
"Look, all couple must have a healthy sex life and… those will surely help." Clarke waves a box, showing a naked woman on a bed, with straps around her arms. Lexa's jaw dropped and she couldn't help but blush.
"Really, Clarke?"
"What?! All couples own sex toys!" The blonde exclaimed herself.
"Uh uh, not us." Lexa replied.
"Then it's settled, I'm taking some for us too!"
"Wait, no, that's not what I meant –"
"Look at this dildo! It looks like art!" She waved the glass toy in Lexa's face, making her blush a little more. She dragged her to another alley, where there was vibrators everywhere. Clarke took one and turned it on. "Feel this."
She putted it into Lexa's hand and she girl opened her eyes wide open. "It tickles."
Clarke leaned towards Lexa, putting her lips close to her ear. "Think about how good it could feel…" Lexa closed her eyes, while Clarke began whispering softly. "Vibrating that fast, just against your clit..."
Lexa turned off the toy and gave it back to Clarke. "After all the time we've been together, I never thought you would be a dirty talker." She smirked at the blonde. "I kind of like it."
"All I can think of, right now, is using all those toys on you."
"Well, you'll have to contain yourself, Clarke, because we're in public." Lexa kissed her girlfriend on the cheek. "I'm afraid we will exit this sex shop with more toys to us than to Lincoln and Octavia."
"Oh, we will." Clarke looked at her with a smug grin and took a few boxes to put into their basket. She was happy to help Lexa thinking about something else than her uncle's recent death.
They got home with all their bags with the logo of the sex shop. Raven, who was into the living room, jumped to greet her two roommates. "Hello, lovebirds." She saw the bags and smirked. "Oh, I see now why you didn't want me to come now, Clarke."
"We went shopping for Blake's wedding." Lexa explained.
"Yeah, but knowing Clarke, I know that she couldn't get out of there without a thing or two for herself…" She winked at the blonde, who just smiled at her best friend.
"I might have bought a few things for Lexa and me…" Clarke added.
"So, let me see what you took for O." Raven grabbed their bags before the two lovers could say anything. She almost ran to the kitchen and started taking off boxes from the bags, like they were Christmas presents. "Oh, Lexa… I never thought you would be into bondage's stuff."
"What? No, this is for them, not for us." Lexa answered, blushing and looking at Clarke, who burst into laughter.
"Uh… Okay, but care to explain why there is two boxes of straps?" Raven joined Clarke as Lexa got redder.
"Clarke?!" Lexa looked at her girlfriend. "Why did you bought that for us?"
"Sorry, it's kind of a fantasy to –"
"No, nevermind, I don't want to hear about it." She cut her.
"As long as I don't hear you, I'm fine with whatever you buy, Griffin." Raven wiped her tears of laughter off her cheeks. "Brace yourself, Lexa… I bet you will be tortured in the most pleasant way tonight."