Chapter 22 – Inside the Trailer

A/N: Here's another update because I can't wait for you to see this chapter. For some reason, this is my favourite chapter of all so I'd really wanna know how you think about it. Read away!

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Laura and Taylor were in bed, watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.

"I'm starving," complained Taylor. "Can't we go eat something first? Please?"

"Yes, we can. But then that wouldn't be watching the whole franchise of Harry Potter in one sitting anymore. We'd have failed. "

"But we've gone to the bathroom numerous times! How is getting food any different?"

"Because then we'd be going together. That's how it's different. One of us has to stay here."

"Laura, you do know that this is crazy, yes?" Taylor shook her head.

"I know it's crazy. That's why it's fun." Laura laughed. "Just go get us some food. We can eat here."

"Fine." Taylor stood up. "What are we trying to prove anyway?"

"That we can stay in a room for hours straight without making out. Then our relationship isn't going to be just about that anymore."

Taylor laughed. "Baby, who said anything like that? We are people who are in love with each other who also happen to like making out... and making love. There's nothing wrong with that."

"I know. I'm sorry." Laura shook her head, too. "Five hours straight in front of a television makes me think crazy."

Again, Taylor laughed. She could be in one room with Laura for a whole day and not do anything and still would be okay. As she'd told her before, anywhere with Laura was her happy place. That wasn't changing ever.

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It had been ten minutes since Jenji walked out of the room but both Laura and Taylor hadn't said a word yet. Taylor just kept reading her script while Laura fidgeted uncomfortably on her seat. She kept glancing at Taylor's way, but the blonde was too fixated on the paper she was holding. Laura knew they had to start what Jenji told them to do or they're gonna have a time way worse than this. Jenji was nice and all but she hated it when her instructions weren't followed.

"Look..." she started talking, hoping Taylor would finally look at her, but she didn't move at all or even just acknowledged that Laura had spoken. "If we want to get out of here soon, we better follow Jenji's instructions and start talking." Still, Taylor stayed still. "I know you're mad—"

This time, Taylor looked at her, void of any emotion on her face. "Or..." she cut her off, "...we can just stay quiet for a few more minutes, or an hour tops, and then get out of here, tell Jenji we're done talking, get our shit together, do the scene and then that's it." She looked back at her script again.

"You know Jenji, she's gonna know." Laura didn't know if Taylor was indeed too focused on reading her script or she's just found a way to brilliantly act as if she couldn't see or hear Laura at all. "Taylor... I'm sorry..."

Taylor finally looked at her again, but not with a blank face anymore. At that moment, she looked with so much loathing, or that's how it looked to Laura. She was still calm, but Laura could see how much she was trying to keep herself from losing it. "You're the one who pushed me out of your life, Laura. So don't you dare tell me that you're fucking sorry. Because you're not. Not one fucking bit!"

Laura knew that it was her fault but it still hurt her so much to see Taylor look at her this way. She thought that ignoring her was going to be the worst part of all of this. She was clearly wrong. "Please, don't do this." It was taking every part of her to stop herself from crying. Ever since, they broke up, she hadn't shed one tear. But with Taylor in front of her now, with a look of disgust on her face, as if seeing her was the worst that could ever happen to her, she knew it was only a matter of time before she couldn't hold the tears any longer.

"Don't do this?! You're telling ME that?" Taylor had stood, and she was no longer calm. She still kept her voice down as much as she could but her anger was way more evident now. "You're the one who broke up with me! You're the one who started all of this shit. This is all on you!"

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It was six o'clock in the morning. Laura had been trying to wake up Taylor for the nth time but all she did was open her eyes, groan, then close her eyes again.

"Babe, get up. We're going to be late."

"But it's too early," Taylor complained with her eyes half-closed.

"I know. And I'm sorry. But we have a table read today and if you don't get your ass up right now, Jenji is going to kill us. Come on." Laura started kissing Taylor's forehead... then her eyelids... then her nose... and then her cheeks. She then made a trail of little kisses from her cheek to her mouth, before giving her a smack on her lips. "Wake up, sweet thing.'' She continued to kiss her until she was kissing the side of Taylor's neck.

Taylor let out a soft moan as she started feeling a hot sensation build inside her. "Keep doing that."

Laura then stopped, to the dismay of Taylor. "I will if you get up now, you lazy ass," chuckled Laura standing up.

"Hey!" Taylor then opened her eyes. "Come back here!" she pouted.

"Get up and take a shower. I'm gonna go prepare breakfast," Laura said with an evil smile on her face before taking the stairs.

"You can be such a bitch sometimes, you know?" yelled Taylor so Laura can hear her. When she heard Laura's laugh, she shook her head and then smiled. It was always nice waking up to her girlfriend's face.

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For the thousandth time, Laura tried convincing Taylor to just talk to her, even not as friends, just as actors who were instructed to do something for the sake of their show. She had tried all angles but Taylor still wouldn't budge.

"Okay. I know it's the morning and you hate mornings. I'm just going to attribute this attitude to that." She knew that it wasn't. It was way deeper than that but she couldn't admit it to herself knowing that Taylor was right, this was all on her.

"Yeah, I hate mornings plus you're here. Could my day get any worse?" said Taylor in a mocking tone.

Exasperated, Laura groaned. "I am so tired of your shit, Taylor! I'm trying to claw myself back in your life, here. If you don't want me to, then fine! Do whatever the hell you want!"

"Are you serious right now?! You're trying to claw yourself back in my life?! By what?! By convincing me to follow Jenji's instructions?! Are you kidding me?!" She breathed deeply, looked away for about a second then looked back at Laura. "And you were the one who got out of it in the first place! Now you're acting all mad and shit. Wow, Laura. That's some fucked up mind you have there."

"Do you think this is easier on my side because I was the one who broke it off?! It fucking kills me being the one who's doing the hurting! I broke up with you not because I wanted to hurt you but because I thought that this was not gonna work anyways. You said so yourself—"

"When did I ever say that?!" Taylor cut her off.

"Will you let me talk?!"

Taylor shut up then looked away, still fuming with anger, because after all the crying she'd done, that's the only emotion she allowed herself to feel now. She couldn't handle any more than that.

Laura sighed. This time, she was a lot calmer. "I'm sorry. I know you don't believe me but I fucking am! I broke up with you not because I wanted you out of my life. I know it sounds crazy but it's the truth. I did it because I had to stop lying to myself that this was going somewhere."

"What made you so sure that it wasn't?!" Taylor exclaimed, not understanding how Laura was so keen on believing that their relationship was already doomed even if it wasn't.

"Does it still really matter now? It's over, isn't it? But you know what? I thought that we cared enough for each other not to let this thing ruin our friendship. I guess I was wrong."

"I can't fucking believe you just said that." Taylor laughed. But it was hollow. "People who care don't do what you just did, Laura. If you really gave a crap about me, I wouldn't be feeling this fucking gnawing pain in my fucking chest right now! If you really did care for me..." Taylor hadn't gone on with what she was about to say because tears were starting to form in her eyes. And before she could even blink, they had started dropping, one by one.

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Laura and Taylor just had dinner. They were both curled up on Taylor's couch.

"Can you believe how far we've gone from that first moment we met?" asked Taylor, smiling as she reminisced the time when she first Laura."Who would have thought that we'd actually end up together?"

"I know what you feel," Laura smiled, too. "But it turned out just fine, didn't it? I mean, this feels so right to me. Does it feel right to you?"

"It does. More than any relationship I have ever had, actually... combined."

"Really? Wow, that's a lot of pressure on me," Laura joked.

"It's true. Which is probably why it feels a million times more challenging to make this work, you know? Because I don't wanna ever ruin it."

"We both know this isn't going to be easy, babe. Every freaking relationship is never easy. But we're going to make this work. I, on my part, will do anything not to fuck this up. I promise I won't leave you. I'm not giving up on this."

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No matter how Taylor acted, she had still hoped that this wasn't over. That maybe, Laura would come to her senses and realize that it was wrong for them to break up. But after hearing what she just said, she knew that it really was over. And she wasn't prepared for the emotions that had flooded her afterwards.

"You know, I don't know how to live a life without you in it. Every time I wake up in the morning, I lose all the reason to get up knowing I wouldn't be with you. I sleep at night and you're still the last person in my mind. I can't help but think about every detail of you over and over and over again. I torture myself repeating every good time that we've shared because I know that's all I have left of you now."

Taylor looked at Laura and tears were now streaming down her face. "But I have to. That's why I am trying so damn hard to live through every minute of it ever since you broke up with me. Because it fucking hurts so much, Laura." She looked away and wiped her tears. But might as well she didn't because they kept flowing anyway.

"And I feel like my whole body is starting to give up on me. I don't even know how I got here today." This time she was looking down, feeling like someone was choking the life out of her because she couldn't breathe. It hurt so much to do so. "I'm just trying to fight it, you know? Because I feel so fucking pathetic feeling this. Because I can see you, and you seem like you're doing just fine."

Laura was now crying, too. It felt like there was a fist clenched at her heart, squeezing it so hard. She had never felt this pain ever in her life, and it felt as if it was eating her alive. But she couldn't even look at Taylor anymore. It was killing her to see her like this. She wanted to run to her, wrap her arms around her and tell her that she was there and that she wasn't leaving her again... that she was sorry... that it was stupid what she'd done. But that wasn't going to happen anymore. Because Taylor hated her now. And she's hurt her so much she wouldn't give herself another chance to hurt her again.

"You told me you were never leaving me. Have you forgotten? You told me you weren't going to give up. You promised." Taylor wiped her tears away and stood up, looking defeated. And then she breathed deeply. "Okay. Now, we've talked. Is that enough for you now?" When Laura didn't say anything, Taylor started walking towards the trailer's door, seemingly dragging her feet. She opened the door and just before she walked out of the trailer, she looked at Laura one last time. "Don't ever expect me to be your friend again. Because right now, I don't even want to look at you anymore." Then she stepped out.

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