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Her small hands barely going around his wrist as she tugged him along and inside, and as he looked down at their joined hands he wondered how and when did he fall so completely for this woman, one who threw his entire life out of its normal routine, let him question his own resolutions, make him feel egotistical, make him know that he could be better than he is, for only then would he even stand a chance of ever having the all consuming, passionate and lifelong relationship he knew that he wanted with her. These past two weeks of not having her beside him was torment and distressing on his heart; and he could not stir to life his member even when stroked by his willing lovers as he would have liked, so he could forget, even if it was just for a moment; his mind and heart was just not into it.
"Sesshomaru," he heard her say happily and smiling up at him, "would you like something to drink. I have more fruit juice?' And then she waited on him patiently while he decided, and after a few moments he nodded his head in the affirmative and her smile widen even further which made her eyes twinkled beautifully. Taking a seat on the floor by the window in her bedroom because it was her favourite spot and he knew it to be cooler there he waited on her return. "Here you are," she said and handed him the glass with the juice and he took it and placed it at his lips and took a sip, and then she sat beside him with hers and drank. They both had a lot on their minds, each missing the other equally, wanting and yearning to be together.
When both their glasses were empty she took his along with hers and got up, looking down at him she spoke softly, "I am going to bathe, it is rather hot and I need to cool down. I will be back shortly." She felt disconnected to him; he had not spoken a word to her from their initial greetings. 'I wonder if he is alright, mmmph,' she sighed, 'I know he is usually quiet but not so much when we are together,' she thought to herself as she stripped down and sat in the tub. 'What should I do, I know that I want him but those females are in the way, could I love him enough where all that wouldn't matter? It's been two weeks, and I have missed him so badly and yet I am still troubled by his lovers,' and she continued to question herself about their relationship as she bathed; and she knew without a doubt then that she would have to decide now; for why else would he have stayed away so long? and now that he was here, he was too pensive.
And as he was left alone and with his thoughts, he couldn't help but to think on them. 'How can I make her understand that what she wants will take time? There are children involved that I need to consider, this is not just about her, me and the other females. I have made some changes but I fear that it may not be enough for her,' he thought uneasily while standing and gazing through the window and watching the dog chasing some birds off the ground that flew away speedily and up in a tree. Her soft footsteps along the floor cause him to turn around abruptly nearly bumping into her, because he was too caught up in his thoughts that it was only when she was almost beside him that he realized how far away his mind and thoughts were.
She smiled nervously at him and spoke, "I did not have any clean towels in the bathroom and I came to get one, I didn't mean to startle you," and he looked her over carefully then and saw the water droplets along her neck, arms and legs, and wearing a red silk robe with her hair damp and loose; and she was gorgeous, fresh and tempting as he gazed at her and knew that she desired him as much as he desired her; her cheeks were inflamed and stained a bright pink and she chewed on her lips in unease. She felt edgy as he perused her form and undressing her with his golden eyes. The desire there transported to her body and she felt hot; the attraction they shared was intense, but they needed to talk.
She looked away from those eyes that had the ability to hold her captive, binding her mind and body into a spell, one in which she would be incapable of resisting, her knees felt weak and her heart raced, and she rested her back against the window frame hoping that he had not seen how unsteady he had made her. He cupped a hand under her chin and forced her to meet his gaze and told her what was on his mind and in his heart. "I need you, and as much as I try I cannot erase your presence from my mind and heart. I made some changes and I am trusting that you will be pleased. Can't you take this leap of faith for me? For us?" And she closed her eyes tightly willing her tears away, because she loved him and she wanted him, but she was still undecided, and she couldn't bear to see the pleading and hurt in his eyes as he said those words to her.
She heard the plea in his voice and wanted desperately to give in, but could she live with her choices once she gave him what he wanted? "I want this for us as well," she cried, "but I am unsure, and I don't know if I will be able to handle all that comes with being a part of your life," she said trying to make him understand. "You're letting fear overrule reason," he accused. "I probably am," she agreed candidly. "I just don't want to make a grave mistake one that will ruin me. Maybe I could be with you, but I don't understand most of your ways, and the little that I have seen was brutal and I didn't feel welcomed." Jerking her head away from his hand at that point he let her have her way only to clamp down hard on her shoulders with both of his hands and easing her roughly onto the wall and holding her steady.
"I promise you that I will allow no one to hurt you, I will always protect what I love." She looked up at him immediately when he said those words, and she searched his eyes for confirmation, and she found it and looked away, she could hardly bear to look at the beseeching and hurt look in his eyes as he looked at her fixedly waiting on her to decide their fate. "I cannot be with you and them; you say that you have made changes, what changes did you make?" The breath he took was long and then he sighed and responded wearily."I sent all away except the mothers of my pups, which is three in total." She lifted her brows. "So the female who attacked me is still living in your household and yet you still expect me to say yes…How could you?" she asked hurt and upset.
He thought about what she had said briefly and then he responded tonelessly. "Kagome, Seira challenged you and you won. If you were a demoness you would have known that she has no place in my life, you are now my intended." She frowned and gazed at him quizzically not fully understanding what he meant. Sesshomaru laughed. "She is beneath you, and if you take up what is your right to claim, then she can go or stay if she so desires…And I desire you." And in spite of her earlier misgivings she began to feel relieved and then she questioned him further. "But I am not a demoness, how can I take up an offer like that?" He nodded, "fair enough, but once the challenge was issued and carried out and you won, then it matters not what species you are, because I already wanted you."
But as determined as he was, their relationship could not begin unless she agreed, and so he waits on her to make a decision. After holding herself stiff for a moment, Kagome sighed and allowed herself to relax. "Yes," she said softly, barely a whisper, and then she raised her head and held his gaze, and he smiled at her and spoke deep and sure, "you won't regret this my koi," and she smiled back at him, and at his reaction as he moved closer to her and held her chin up and staring down into her eyes. "I want you Kagome," and he kissed her eyes and she melted at the heat in his voice and the unmistakable desire in his eyes. "I need you," and he kissed her lips tenderly nibbling on its softness savoring the moment.
"I want you too," she said sensually, and he couldn't be more pleased, she had finally told him what he had yearned for and his desire for her was uncontrollable as his cock pulsed to life readying his body to join them as one. The need coursing through his veins and into his blood for her was strong and unbearable, and the more he kissed her lips and she moans in pleasure, he knew that he couldn't take it slow with her this time; he was a male with a need to fill, and so many times he was denied the pleasure of slaking his lust, but he won't be denied for much longer, as after all, Kagome was willing and ready, and his need was much too overpowering.
Stepping away from her and his need, he said in a somber tone. "There is no going back from this after today…Do you understand?" and she nodded then answered, "Yes, I know." He allowed his hand to skim the slopes of her breasts above the belt of her robe; she swayed on her feet at the tingling sensation of his claws against her skin. Untying her robe he took it away from her body impatiently and revealing her gorgeous body, one that he could see very clearly in the light of the sun. She was beautiful, with large high breasts and erected red nipples, a narrow waist, and hips that flared nicely above long sexy legs. Her skin was smooth and unblemished, honey toned from the sun.
"You are overdressed," she said playfully and he remedied the situation, and as she watched engrossed as he stripped away his clothes and armor, and when he was bare with his body lean and beautiful, she touched his skin tentatively running her hands up and down his chest and along hips marveling at the hard and satiny feel of his skin, and his penis pulsed and bobbed as she was about to touch it, she flinched and pulled her arm away. "Touch me," he said deep and sexy and she gulped a little nervous, for while they had made love before, she had never touched him in such a way.
But it seemed as if she hesitated a little too long and he couldn't wait, and so he held her hand and wrapped it around his cock moving up and down his shaft in a steady rhythm, letting her go, she continued to stroke him until he was so hard and large with the head of him wet with his desire that she was in disbelief at his size.
"Oh kami!" she whispered, "how can it be so big?" And he heard her and smirked. He couldn't wait for much longer and he lifted her up and into the window to sit and she shrieked from his unexpected action, but stilled as his hot mouth came in contact with her neck and shoulders sucking harshly and biting gently. She moaned in wantonness as his head dipped further and latching on to a nipple and twirling his tongue around it while cupping and massaging the other, and she moaned louder and turned her head from side to side whispering, "Sesshomaru, please!" He recaptured her mouth vigorously pulling on her lips and then his mouth opened wider and his tongue came to conquer hers while his knees pushed hers apart.
Long and dexterous fingers stroked her vagina from the apex, her clitoris, and then to the entrance where he inserted his finger and she winced in discomfort and drew her legs together, "calm down Kagome, it will only hurt for a short time," he told her as she started to become less relaxed and he wanted her pliant, it would be less painful when he deflowered her. And she closed her eyes and with a frown on her face, because she knew it would hurt regardless of her relaxed state or otherwise, the size of him would ensure that it does. He began a trail of kisses again along her neck, breasts and abdomen while his hands massaged her arms and shoulders, and Kagome held onto his head bringing him closer and caressing his scalp and hair.
Warm supple lips reclaim and covered hers as the head of his erection pressed down on her entrance, and she held on to him even tighter feeling the burn as his large penis surge forward inch by inch and then tearing through her maidenhood with one powerful thrust, she screamed in agony from the pain, "Nooo! It hurts," and he covered her cries and screams with his mouth taking onto himself her pain while he stilled his movements. Her long sooty lashes were wet with her tears but her eyes remained close. "Look at me Kagome!" he pleaded as she whimpered and sniffled, and she opened her eyes slowly and he was saddened by her tears, but sex for the first time would be unpleasant in the beginning. "It will feel better soon," he said trying to calm her down, and she nodded in spite of the pain.
Soft tender kisses on her lips and neck, and some with just enough force to make her gasp and he rocked his body against hers, but she remained still, and he began to move in and out of her tight body oh so slowly, then faster and harder until he had a steady rhythm massaging her insides with his ample girth, "ooh, ooh," she moaned as it began to feel good and he grabbed her ass and pulled her closer rotating his hips and thrusting forward.
Clinging to him Kagome pushed back as he withdrew almost to the point of separation before spearing through her again. He felt himself stretching her and filling her. He felt the sweat beading on his forehead, felt the restraint he was putting on himself tightened almost to the breaking point. She was as desirable as she moans and nibbled on her lips, so willing and the fear that he might lose control and hurt her cause him to slow his pace. But Kagome became demanding shifting and gyrating on his cock, urging him to take what she was offering so freely, and he increased the tempo and force of his strokes slamming his body into hers. She felt full with him inside her body as the slow burn of ecstasy built and the pressure rises.
He felt so good inside her, so big and powerful stroking places inside her body that she never knew she had. Wrapping one leg then the other about his hips and grinding on him seductively, he knew that she couldn't control what was happening any more than he could. He felt her muscles tightened around him even further about only a moment before her climax shook her small frame and she cried out and into his chest as he continued to fuck her harder and more demanding, pushing and straining as his own release was seconds away, and when it hit his body shuddered and spasm draining him of every drop of his seeds which he let fall to the floor.
Tired and sore and from the experience she didn't have the energy to move and so she continued to rest on his chest and he lifted her from the window and unto her futon, where he lie down behind her, and after awhile he felt as her breathing became normal again.