I didn't reread this..sorry again for the bad grammar…ope still youll like it

I wake up feeling much better but im still not into the idea of going out of the my eyes I notice the piece of cloth folded in my forehead,I put it aside and try to remember the night is cloudy..Im not even sure if its good thing to was really..How should i put it..Dramatic?Emotional?Nah,Whatever,anyway I clearly remember how pathetic I was in front of Kakashi might even be disgusted in me right now..Im really..

Tears started to swell in my eyes,I grip my pillow tight trying to conceal my me again,when I start I can't stop and everything will pour uncotrollably.I'll blame myself and felt sorry,its a routine and complete normal in my life..

"You awake already?"Beaming face of sensei stands in door from kitchen.

My jaw hangs in the air in shock.
"come!I already made breakfast!" he said so cassualy.
A moment of silence afterwards as everything dawn in me.
"You-You!you stayed here all night?!"I exclaimed.
Sensei smile innocently as response

I still can't believe despite he himself is standing in front of me smirking.
"you seem to be better now,your yelling early in the morning"he tease and I flustered.
He walk towards me with stern look,i just stare at him till he sitted beside place his right hand in my forehead and his lefthand in his.
"you got me worried."He said full of sincerity,still not moving his hands.
"sigh..I cooked some noodles and put some vegetables and egg with not that good but better than nothing"he smirk and stand.
As he was few steps away..
"stop being sorry,it wouldnt change anything,instead you should eat and never forget to breathe,you'll be fine,I'd been there..I'll start preparing,you better fix youreself first"
I was dumbfounded and swell in my chest,I felt complete happiness for the first time in my life.

I went to the bathroom to wash my face,then I notice what im wearing wasnt the one I used is indeed my shirt,but I swear I didnt remember undressing and wearing this.I look at myself in the mirror wearing the crumpled biggest shirt I had that I never wear anymore,I touch it very delicately roaming from my shoulder to chest..I blushed.
"Oh..Damn it..What are you doing?"I whispered to my just trying to help..Nothingmore..Nothingelse.I was embarassed how childish I act even to myself,I cant look at my reflection to face it,as I gaze downward I realize wearing only boxers..My head turn bloody red in rage,I pick up towel and cover my lower body and run to Kakashi sensei.
"You..You-"i stuttered not knowing how to say to the man smiling,preparing our breakfast and also a teacher "How could you undress me!"in manner that it wouldnt be that akward to both of us.
I stand trying hard how to put it in words..I failed and thought Im embarassing myself more..So,I blushingly run away back to bathroom

I change my shirt and wear pants letting him go for now,I am debted to him anyway and importantly its just only me who overthink things..

We eat together the food he wasnt that eating..
"Where are your parents?Guardian maybe?"he ask out of nowhere starting to piss me stare at me patiently waiting for answers,a long silence between us but hes still staring making me uncomfortable.I gave up.
"I have none"I said matter of factly.
"And?"
I pause to decide wether to answer but he seem not to give up and Im all trough with it 'being alone' somehow..So,I sigh in defeat
"they died when I was younger..some relatives took me and passed me to another..Then I decided to be alone instead"
Another moment of silence.
"How about your avoidance in me?"
The question hang in the air with no shock and I totally forgot all about it.

"I-I"i dont know what to still waits for my response.
"Im worried about you avoiding me.I dont understand if I did anything wrong,if I hurt you...I cant help but confront you to know.I wouldnt stop till you answer.."Sensei told.
I look at him and realize how I bothered him greatly.I always forgot that teachers have feelings too,theyre human too,they got hurt and him..I hurt him.
I breathe deeply..
"4 years ago..In the entrance exam..I met you sensei.."
time it was him who was ..Unlike him,seeing him shock didnt make me obviously mean how he forgotten made me I continue
"We met 3 times,I was really on edge back then..And you helped me out.."I smiled at the memory.
"After that,I search for you but I now you came back..but youre a teacher"this time I look at was silent.
"I had always thought your same as level as me so...so I felt really akward acting in front of you..and avoid you"I smiled bitterlysweet.

He looked a little guilt and sad.
"Im sorry,I dont remember"Kakashi sensei it to my face is like a punch in the gut,I have thought about it,but it still hurts.
I tried hard not to frown and look sad in front of him.I even smirk at him..
"well..Its been years ago anyway"I started picking the plates and badly wanted to leave.
"Yeah you're right...We should start a new friendship then."He made me smile too.I nod.
"yeah."

He leave after breakfast,its a good thing that theres no class today so I decided to buy food supplies in afternoon,I only realize Im already running out when sensei cook.
It felt I can breathe more now after what trying to hold my happiness inside coz as I start smiling alone,people creeped out.
I came home and start preparing dinner.I eat and watch is stirring deep in this time...this time is the right time..I can face it now..For good,for my own sake..

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I..I met him 4 years ago..in the entrance exam..we met 3 times...you helped me...then..then I fell in love with you...

I told him the truth,but only the half truth..

Im starting a friendship with him now and its more important than my one sided for the good.

Everything went as usual as any day in his act as fairly to anyone,we dont really talk much aside from school matters but the akwardness between us is now gone.